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2004 15 June :: 4.04 pm
:: Mood: good
Psycho Sacrifice:
Crash, Kill, line up the Dead
Banish the voices from within my head
Smash, Wreck, rolling in Pain
Blood drenching me, drenching me like the rain
Pull, Tear, rip off the Scars
Injected delerium, embraced by the stars
Torn, Worn, spit out in Scorn
Witness in Hell on the night I was born
Broken, Beat, melted in Heat
Grab for the stumps that once were my feet
Hated, Jaded, body Mutilated
I picked up my eyes and saw my pupils dialated
Retching, Heaving, my senses are Leaving
No one cares and I'm not even grieving
Spin, Turn, I'm ready to Burn
The fires of the pit are all that I yearn
Crash, Kill, Line up the Dead
Silence these voices that scream in my head.
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2004 13 June :: 1.57 am
:: Mood: Bored
:: Music: Talking to Monica!
I wanna wish a very Happy Birthday to my one of my best friends Libby, its her 15th Birthday on June 16th! =D Not only is it Libby's its my friend Kyle's too. Happy Birthday to both of you guys! Luv Ya!
You know I see right through you
When you act like you don't know me
You lie, you cheat. You steal, you lose
wouldn't wanna be in your shoes
Always lookin over your shoulder
For the ones you stick
You sick little prick
It looks like your times runnin out
Creepin up your back
So whatchu all about?
I'm too fuckin' good
And fuckin' proud
I'm gonna show you how
Bad it hurts to be a clown
You're the kind of guy with two faces
Just another life that's wasted
Here's a little fact
You do me like that
End up in the back of my trunk in a sack
You'd better keep your hands off
What's mine or anybody else's
When you're selfish
Your wealth is
All you crave from the cradle to the grave
I'm too fuckin' good
And fuckin' proud
I'm gonna show you how
Bad it hurts to be a clown
I got a little bitty question
Just what the fuck are you thinkin?
You think you're all that and then some
Well you're not
I think you're dum ditty dumb
I take it back
Those thoughts are kinda whack
Don't really need that kind of karma on the track
Maybe Freddy Krueger will step into your dream and
Burn you like a demon and leave your ass screamin
To be exact I wanted to react
Mission of attack
Your head was gettin cracked
But you're a human bein
That's lucky to be breathin
And that's that
that's that
I don't trust anybody
Cuz nobody trust me
Never gonna trust anybody
And that's the way its gonna be
I'm too fuckin' good
And fuckin' proud
I'm gonna show you how
Bad it hurts to be a clown
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2004 8 June :: 4.27 pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: VH1
Hey people whats going on! Lets see well I got home from Mandy's place yesterday, I went over there on Friday and spent the weekend there. Friday when I got there me and her just kinda hung out and shit and we went to the AIRPORT and got her Aunt, Amanda and I were quite excited cuze we like going to the airport haha. Then Saturday was her mom's birthday party so all morning me and her busted our asses and helped clean and shit and then Randi came over and we hung out and waited for the people to start showing up...there were a lot of people I think like around 50? Ya so us 3 hung out and shit it was pretty fun, we finally went to bed or at least I did at like 10, I was hella tired. Then Sunday morning we all woke up and Randi went home and me and Amanda did a bunch of errands with her mom but before that we went to Arizona Mills, which was kinda cool cuze I haven't been there in YEARS. Then we took her Aunt back to the airport and had to go pick up someone else. Then me and Amanda and her mom went to go see Harry Potter lol, it was actually a really good movie! Then we went back home and ate a lot and watched movies and went to bed. On Monday, her dad dropped us off at Scottsdale Fashion Square which KICKED ASS cuze I had never been there before, it was a lota fun I like that mall a lot....ya then her dad picked us up and brought me home...so ya it was a very very busy weekend but I had a lota fun, I hardly ever get to see Amanda cuze she moved to Mesa so it was nice to just hang out with her for the weekend. This week is gonna be kinda boring...I'm gonna be working out some more and tanning...kinda boring but oh well it'll be worth it in a few months. Ew I am watching VH1 and its "Rock Bodies" and Usher is on...I HATE USHER...hes a fag. Ok well ya I'm done for now, not much more to say.
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2004 1 June :: 5.53 pm
:: Music: Christina Aguilera *gasp*
Hello everyone I haven;t updated in awhile I dont really know where to start so I'll just start...I hate my parents sometimes (especially my dad)...If I'm a failure they're a failure...heaven forbid I mess up cuze it might make THEM look bad, forget about me its all about them. I could care less what people think anymore of me, they don't know me, and even if I did try to impress them like I use to do they will always find SOMETHING to criticize me about and talk shit about me for, so I decided I will be my own person...unfortunately my parents dont fuckin get that. In their eyes, I'm never good enough my grades aren't high enough I'm not pretty enough I don't act right I'm just a FUCKING FAILURE....sorry needed to vent...anyways...ya Summer is doing lovely, I went to Bekah's yesterday and her mom took us to go see "Raising Helen" which is a really cute chick flick....I wanna go see Shrek lol, it seems to me that everyone else has seen it except me I heard its really funny. I went to work for my grandma and grandpa at their place this morning, i dusted and cleaned their blinds for a few hours and got $25, woot! Me and my grandma were talking a lil bit...shes such a Scarlet O' Hara Southern bitch its funny lol, we were talking about how fucked the world is and how men just wanna get you in bed, it was hillarious, I wasn't talking I was just listening to her ramble. She a genius and a moron at the same time (if that makes sense?) I dunno sometimes shes really smart and makes really good points but sometimes you can tell she has no idea what shes talking about, she'll just sit their smoking and cussing and talking...good times. Tomorrow I am gonna stay in the pool and then Thursday I get to go see some of my doctors...and then Friday I am going to Mandy's place for the weekend =D Some of my friends have been upsetting me...I wont name any but theirs a few...I feel like I'm beinging ignored somewhat...and its pissing me off...Leave a comment if you would like
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2004 27 May :: 8.32 pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: Twiztid - Freek Show
Am I not pretty enough
Am I too outspoken
Do I cry to much
Is my heart too broken…
Somebody get me out of here, I’m tearing at myself. Nobody gives a damn about me or anybody else.
The hurt doesn’t go away, the tears never cease to fall
What doesn’t kill you only makes you want to die
You only wanted the things I couldn’t give you
You broke my heart in half so I can cut myself with the edges
A bloody wrist is worth a thousand words but mine is worth two…LOVE KILLS
I’m so lonely I don’t even want to be with myself anymore
Break my heart and hope to die
Sometimes I wish I wasn’t me
Would it be out of line if I said I miss you
Save your happiness for tomorrow and tonight we’ll drown in your tears
Not all scars show not all wounds heal sometimes you cant always see the pain someone feels
You asked me what was wrong and I smiled and said nothing then I turned around and whispered everything
Pain doesn’t hurt when its all you’ve ever felt
How will you know I am hurting if you cannot see any pain? To wear it on my body tells what words cannot explain.
I’m holding on to a dream that will never come true
I wish I could gather all my tears so I could fucking drown you in them
I hope you choke on every word you spoke when you were screaming at me
I’m going to smile like nothings wrong, talk like everything’s perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me
I’m not crazy I’m just a little unwell
Seems to me that even love can die
Don’t worry I’ll be fine, just let me slit my wrists one last time
I’m a fountain of blood in the shape of a girl
Die young and save yourself
I know what its like to want to die, how it hurts to smile, how you hurt yourself on the outside to try and kill the pain on the inside
Don’t apologize I hope you choke and die
I’m sick and tired of being sick and tried
It kills me to love you the way I do, and look at you and see how much you don’t care
She keeps on asking do you think it hurts to die? It hurts much more to stay alive.
I do it for the drugs
Kill me with the love that you wont give to me
It's raining , washing all the pain away . Streets are flooded with the pain u gave to me. Drenched in the tears that fall from the sky , I remember all the tears I had shed for you that you never would for me.
Although it may be hard to do , you need to forget the one who forgot you.
Life seems to be the hardest question ever, just as soon as you’ve figured out the answer the question changes
You know it is love when all you want is that person to be happy, even if youre not a part of their happiness.
I want someone who can look into my eyes and see through my fake happiness and make me smile for real
Drown my sorrows in alcohol
When I am queen I will exist with perfect scars cut on my wrists
I focus on the pain because it’s the only thing that’s real
I’ve shed my tears and I’m moving on
Breathe in, bleed out
I could fill a thousand pages telling you how I felt and still you would not understand, so now I leave without a sound except my heart shattering as it hits the ground.
Swallowed by the pain as I fall apart
Schools finally over and done with, at least for 2 1/2 months...things are doing alright, I'm not sick anymore but I still have a little bit of a cough. I hope everyone has a good Summer, email me or IM me if you wanna do something.
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2004 19 May :: 5.26 pm
:: Mood: HELLA SICK
I'm very sick. I think I have brochitis (spelling?) I cant breathe very well, my lungs feel like theyre filled with something, my nose is really runny and my throat is sore, I'm constantly coughing, I cant sleep and when I do sleep I wake up after a few hours in a cold sweat. I have a mild temperature. If things don't get better I'll be going to the hospital, each day I've been getting worse, today I stayed home from school but I wont be able to miss anymore becuase I've missed to many days, I have to go to school next week I have finals and I cant miss that. =( I cant wait until school is over I cant stand it anymore.
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2004 17 May :: 7.25 pm
:: Mood: Whatever...
Dude 8 more days until school is over, Score! Friday night me Lex and Momo went and saw Van Helsing, kick ass movie! I loved the lil baby vampires, and how they all exploded...I want one and I'll name it Ernie =D I wish the chick didn't die though, I wanted her and Helsing to fuck that would have been one kick ass sex scene! Things have been interesting lately...with people and stuff. I guess cheerleading try-outs were held and what not so the lil bimbos of the school were walking arund with their cheer shirts...jesus christ. I SHOULD BE A CHEERLEADER! HOW FUCKING HILLARIOUS WOULD THAT BE! Oh my...that would be so funny...just seing me up their with my black makeup and shit being a cheerleader it would be so funny. =) I had a lot to say but I forgot it all, goddamnit...I'll write later.
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2004 14 May :: 6.53 pm
:: Mood: stressed
Friday is here yay...I am waiting for Monica and Alexis to call me back cuze were suppose to be going to Desert Ridge in a few hours. I had a lot to say but I dunno what it was...heres a few really good songs, they kinda express how I am feeling so I guess thats good enough for now, thank you for the comment Steph, we need to hang out sometime soon..
The Fire Still Burns
by Cradle of Filth
You thought it was gone
But the fire goes on
And I thought you knew me
I told you before
'Til I settle the score
That I'll never run free
I have enough pain and anger in my brain
To last many lifetimes
Yet still it goes on, and the more that it shows
I won't have a peace of mind
The fire, the fire still burns
I have a dream
And as strange as it seems
There's no embers glowing
The fire's gone out and theres no need to shout
'Cause no anger's showing
But it's not true, nothing I ever do
Seems to ease my fury
Get out of my way
I'm the hangman today
And the judge and the jury
The fire, the fire still burns
Emotion No. 13
by Suicidal Tendencies
I wish so hard that I could be just like the
...one you want me to
But it doesn't seem to work though I'm trying.
I try so hard to do what's right, to be so good,
...to make you proud, but it never seems to satisfy you.
It's just the person that you want,...it's not the person that
I am.
The conflict inside's horrifying.
I want so much for you to think of me as a person
...that deserves your respect & attention.
I wonder if I'll ever do the things you want...(the way you
want)
When I don't even know what I want yet.
It's not that I'm rebelling against the person you are
It's just that I don't know who I am.
All I know is it hurts, oh how it hurts
Oh God, do you know how I'm hurting?
There's an emotion in me. There's an emotion in me
Emotion No. 13
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not lying.
Emotion No. 13 easy cryin'
Don't ask me how I know, but I'm dying
Emotion No. 13 blows my mind away
Emotion No. 13, it blows me away
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not...
Emotion No. 13, says I'm...
Don't ask me how I know, but I think I'm...
Don't ask me how I know, but I think I'm dying,...dying, dy-
ing, dying
All I know is it hurts, oh how it hurts
Oh God do you know how I'm hurting?
There's an emotion in me, there's an emotion in me
Emotion No. 13
Look into my eyes, you'll see I'm not lying
Emotion No. 13, feels like I'm dying
Institutionalized
by Suicidal Tendencies
[Mike Muir/Mayorga]
So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way
[CHORUS]
They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect from the enemy myself
They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around your back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy
[CHORUS]
They say they're gonna fix my brain
Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead
Love Vs Loneliness
by Suicidal Tendencies
How can you love someone
If you think that you're no one
When you mistreat yourself,
and think it's all you deserve
Cause it's so hard to care
Is this or is it loneliness?
How can you demand respect - when you have no respect?
When you abuse your body, never mind your mind
And you're your own worst victim
There'll be no love just loneliness
Why do you force a smile - when you know all the while
That you're burning inside, but don't want no one to know
The hell that you're in
As love turns to loneliness
How can you sleep at night?
When you know it's not alright
When you wake up in the morning, nothin' has changed
If you do nothin' about it
Love becomes loneliness
Love vs loneliness, love vs loneliness
And when you're down and you think you need something
The temptations so hard to resist
But what you grab sure ain't what you needed
That's not love it's loneliness
And when you're lonely and think you need someone
The plot a painful twist
There ain't no one that can make you feel like someone
Only you can cure loneliness
How can you be confident when you're all wrong with it
When you know what you're doing and you're doing it wrong
It's no misunderstanding
This ain't love this is loneliness
How can you love someone - if you think that you're no one?
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2004 12 May :: 10.14 pm
:: Mood: unemotional
:: Music: Cradle of Filth-Born in a Burial Gown
Dude wtf no one comments anymore...anyways...gettin closer to school being over, I'm countin down the days. Alota ppl were pissing me off today I dunno...I'm fed up with everyones attitude and problems, I have enough of my own at the moment and lil stupid unneed problems some of my friends bring to my attention dont help...a lota ppl were being really mean today too, even though I did jack shit.
-Although it may be hard to do, you need to forget the one who forgot you-
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2004 9 May :: 10.23 am
As I was sufering the web for gothic sites I came across this essay which in my opinion is very good, if you have time to read it I recommend you do...
Goth is an alternative lifestyle or subculture; the main attractions are its music and literature, of which both offer dark eerie lyrics and morals. Goth offers unique Art, Literature and music. Common associations with Goth are dark or extreme makeup designs, Black clothing, Piercings and tattoos as well as Celtic jewellery and bondage items. There is a strong connection with the medieval and Victorian history in which many Goths wear symbols such as the Christian cross or pagan/satanic pentacle.
The term Goth comes from the German tribe “Visigoth” They were named as a “Barbaric” tribe and as “Vandals” This name was then given to the uprising subculture in which its members were also described as “Barbaric”. Goth then arose in its world of ere and mystery. Modern Goth has evolved from the punk scene. Many Goth bands such as Joy Division and UK decay were once punk bands. The term Goth or gothic was beginning to be used around 1982 when Goth became its own sub culture.
Many early Goth bands deprived from punk. Many early Goth bands such as the banshees could be considered punk, with their influenced roots spreading as far back to David Bowie and The underground. The term Goth wasn’t used but many bands were referred to as “gothic” music was as early as 1979. The post-punk scene had many bands one in particular Adam and the Ants who at the time had a very strong resemblance to the early Goth scene. Sex Gang Children and Southern Death Cult WERE positive punk, they were the leaders of the positive punk scene and used the term Goth for their fans and members of an emerging subculture.
The first and early Goth bands were not as you would expect, they were very punky and lively and sometimes referred to as “positive punk”. The first sign of Goth bands were Bauhaus, The Banshees and Uk decay. The manager of Joy Division once referred to them as “gothic” compared to the modern day mainstream bands, however Ian Curtis had committed suicide in 1980, and the Goth scene didn’t start to arise until 1981/1982 by this time Ian Curtis was dead. The Bauhaus had an impact on the early Goth fashion; Siouxsie and the banshees had a great influence to many up coming Goth bands and for many female singers. However it was UK Decay who used the term “gothic” to describe the early movement. New Romantic was misunderstood and considered part of the Goth subculture. New Romantic WAS not part of the early Goth subculture, new romantic was a club-manufactured scene where Goth was more of an Underground scene. A popular new romantic band at that time were The Cure, The cure were working around the new romantic scene with their dark lyrics and music which fitted both the new romantic and Goth scene, It was their image which fitted and so became members of the Goth scene.
There are MANY different types of Goth in the world; all individuals but often fall into a main Goth “sub categories”
There are many Goths no matter what “Sub category” they fall under all have things in common. Many Goths are into Literature side of things reading books by authors such as Anne Rice and Neil Gaiman, Just remember this does not occur for all Goths it is one of my own personal observations and questioning of Goths that has led me to that conclusion.
The Romantic Goth is the first type of Goth I will “analyse”. Romantic Goths are pretty self-explanatory, their attitude is based upon Love and lifestyle around the Victorian period, and their dress sense may involve lace and frills.
The Fetish Goth is also a modern-day common Goth. The fetish Goths are as you may of guessed into the “Spanking and Sex” scene, They may take part in activities involving bondage whips and chains, although not all do it may just be for a modern dress sense revolving around PVC, Fishnets and leather.
The Vampire type Goth may or may not fall into the Goth category, I decided to add it as I stumbled across the phrases many times and being an alternative subculture it seems appropriate. The vampire scene links in with the Goth scene through the dress and romantic sense, the image of a vampire has changed of many years and today appears to be eternal, dark, sexy and romantic. This may or may not tie in with “the romantic Goth”. A vampire Goth may dress similar to a romantic Goth with lace and frills or “jet set” with a pair of dark shades. There is a line drawn with vampire Goths, Many are interested in the myth and lifestyle, They may dress up in a top hat and opera cape but there are other people who believe in the myth and go a step to far, such as Matthew Hardman who killed 90 year old neighbour Mabel Leyshon in what is thought to be a bid by Matthew Hardman to become a vampire, Another Vampire related killing is that committed by the couple Manuela and Daniel Ruda, They hacked a fried to death in what is believe to be a Vampire/Satanist related murder in which they wanted to prove themselves to Satan
The Pagan Goth has a great interest in the Celtic roots. Pagans may have many different beliefs and different gods, so im led to believe, Pagans may have a lot of Celtic jewellery and often wear symbols of an inverted pentacle. The modern day Goth shall be covered later on in the essay.
“It's about as impossible to define gothic fashion, as it is to define gothic itself” The gothic fashion or look has many different styles, many again individual. Depending on everyone’s individuality and style their Goth dress sense maybe a plain black shirt and jeans or something more extreme such as bondage gear and extreme hairstyles. Today’s “modern” Goth look may consist of dark clothing, usually Dr martins or new rock boots and a trench coat. Some Goths prefer to wear makeup to further their dress sense; it’s all up to ones individuality. From an observation of some photos I have it is clear there are several common Goth dress styles. The modern one has been covered black boots, black jeans; black t-shirt and a trench coat. The next common style is the Victorian style; the Victorian style is very unique and often consists of a long black material coat and usually a frilly sort of shirt, other items maybe of velvet or satin nature and common colours such as purple maybe worn. There are lots of accessories worn by Goths; most jewellery may be silver, Crucifixes may also be worn as may an inverted crucifix, this may not intentionally be blasphemous but more of a fashion statement. Rings maybe of a Celtic nature and contain engravings of pentacles or crucifixes, More extreme rings, known as “claws” may cover the whole finger or even two! Makeup is also commonly used as an accessory, Many Goths appear to be pale, some natural but many use white foundation to try and gain a natural looking pale look (Although for many they fail and look like they’re melting). Eyeliner and eye shadow may also be used as might black lipstick, Some Goths may have patterns around their eye which look pretty, other common features are inverted crosses drawn on the face usually form the corner of the eye or centre of the forehead.
Goth music is not just any one style of music; it consists of an eerie atmosphere with a sense of doom, mystery love and tragedy. The main Goth bands are that of joy division, Bauhaus, Siouxsie and the Banshees Sisters of Mercy and The Cure. Although it’s been stated joy Division were around before the Goth scene emerged many Goths still listen to them. The sisters of Mercy who have not been covered were not important in the early Goth scene; they later came into the Goth scene due to their individuality and difference from the early Goth bands. Many of the mentioned bands were not highly influential and considered Goth at the time due to their appearance and difference between the then modern day bands. It is the Bauhaus however who are one band that are considered Goth due to their music, looks, lyrics and art. The Bauhaus also were part of the early Goth scene. Had major influence on up coming Goth bands and Goth fashion. There are also Goths who like the more classical music such as Vivaldi and Pax Hominibus. There are many other different styles, which Goths listen to such as Industrial (Skinny Puppy), Dark Wave (Diary of dreams), Death rock (Christian Death) and Synth pop (Switchblade Symphony). There are Goths who also listen to new romantic (Depeche Mode, Duran Duran), although its ties with Goth have been covered. Black metal like New romantic had close ties with Goth, Bands such as Cradle Of filth have the Goth/vampire image but appear rejected by many Goths into the scene.
Religion ties in with Goth one way or another, a common misjudgement is the association with Goth and Satan, and Satan is not always and hardly ever is connected to Goth. The following passage is taken from a religion website: Many Goths reflect popular culture and are probably nominal or devout Christians. Atheism, Agnosticism, the New Age, Gnosticism, Shamanism, Wicca, other Neopagan traditions, and other minority faith groups are represented more frequently than in the general population. Goths often wear Christian crosses or Christian crucifixes, which many regard as a pre-Christian religious symbol. Others wear New Age/ancient Egyptian Ankh symbols. Some do this as expression of their religious beliefs, some for satire, and others because they like their appearance. Religion is frequently discussed on the Goth newsgroups. Many songs, band names and album titles have Christian themes. 6 The public incorrectly commonly associates Goths with Marilyn Manson. 10 "Manson publicly presents himself as a follower of the Church of Satan... He was ordained a priest in the Church of Satan by the [late] founder, Anton LaVey. Many fans refer to him as the Rev. Marilyn Manson." 9 (Actually, Manson is not a follower of that Church; he was simply appointed as a Reverend within the Church by its founder, Anton LaVey.) From this satanic connection, the perception has grown that Goths are frequently linked to Satanism. There are a few Satanists who are also Goths, but they are rare.
Modern-day Goths are very unique. What I write about the modern day Goth does not apply for all Goths, again it’s just a matter of opinion. It would be wrong in saying that modern day Goths are “social outcasts” of any sort, Wrong because today’s Goth culture is strong but not as popular as the 1980s. Wherever you go especially in my local area every other person you see has made his/her attempt to be apart of the rock scene, this may be by wearing a “korn” t-shirt or a pair of baggy jeans, entirely up to the individual. Yet the Goth scene is a little different, there are people who have made an effort to try and have their own “Goth dress sense” but unlike listening to numetal their understanding of the Goth subculture and its roots are ignored. Where I hang out there are, well at my last point of acknowledgement a group of people who have a Goth dress sense, by some people they are classed as Goths. Why? To me today’s meaning and value of Goth has “deteriated” to say the least where the word Goth is just threw at anyone wearing black. If there’s one message I would like to get across to people is you cant label anyone a Goth, 1, before you know them and 2, because they wear black. Being Goth is not about painting your face white and rubbing lipstick all over your eyes, then going out to scare people. Goth is a subculture, which has survived over the last 20 or so years, but survived into what? A lot of people may not agree with me on this and will argue this point (id gladly like to hear your point) but todays so called Goths aren’t Goths at all, the term Goth is widely overused and threw at people, such as those “Goths” with no interest in the Goth history, no respect yet any knowledge of the early Goth bands. I apologise for all those who fall into this category and disagree with me, you argue to your blue in the face, but I and I know of many others who will agree with me that calling yourself a Goth today is not about listening to Slipknot, Marilyn Manson or Cradle Of Filth, Its not about painting your face white and scaring your mom and dad, its not about rebellion Goth IS A SUBCULTURE, for me to be a part of this subculture you need to understand this subculture, its history and its true original morals and meanings. To get back to those who are a part of this subculture the modern Goth is very much misunderstood, there are very few people in my local area who actually understand the true meaning of Goth and think cradle of filth are an original Goth band! In my own opinion a modern day may wear a trench coat and paint his/her face white, all that aside having a great understanding and knowledge in the Goth history is what makes a Goth a Goth.
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