:: 2003 10 December :: 10.32 pm
:: Mood: sick
:: Music: I am watching The Little Drummer Boy! He kicks BIG booty =D

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:: 2003 8 December :: 1.13 pm
:: Mood: stressed
:: Music: Holiday Shit

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:: 2003 7 December :: 7.29 pm
:: Mood: distressed
:: Music: Kittie

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:: 2003 6 December :: 10.20 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Coal Chamber

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:: 2003 27 November :: 9.01 pm
:: Mood: full

Just got back from Thanksgiving dinner...dear lord....I am not gonna eat for a week. To celebrate Thanksgiving heres the Thanksgiving song by Adam Sandler! YAY! =D

"The Thanksgiving Song"

"They wanna hear the thanksgiving song! All right.."
"This is uhh, This is the Thanksgiving Song"
"I hope you enjoy it."

[Starts playing]
Love to eat turkey
Love to eat turkey

[Shout from Crowd:] "I love you Adam!"
[Adam Sandler:] "Ohhh, I love you!"
Love to eat turkey
'Cause it's good
Love to eat turkey
Like a good boy should
'Cause it's turkey to eat
So good

[Adam Sandler:] "That clappin's messing my head up man. I appreciate it.
But I was trying to think of the next line and all I hear is clapping.
Here we go... Thanks anyways"

Turkey for me
Turkey for you
Let's eat the turkey
In my big brown shoe
Love to eat the turkey
At the table
I once saw a movie
With Betty Grable
Eat that turkey
All night long
Fifty million Elvis fans
Can't be wrong
Turkey lurkey doo and
Turkey lurkey dap
I eat that turkey
Then I take a nap

Thanksgiving is a special night
Jimmy Walker used to say Dynomite
That's right
Turkey with gravy and cranberry
Can't believe the Mets traded Darryl Strawberry
Turkey for you and
Turkey for me
Can't believe Tyson
Gave that girl V.D.

White meat, dark meat
You just can't lose
I fell off my moped
And I got a bruise
Turkey in the oven
And the buns in the toaster
I'll never take down
My Cheryl Tiegs poster
Wrap the turkey up
In aluminum foil
My brother likes to masturbate
With baby oil
Turkey and sweet potato pie
Sammy Davis Jr.
Only had one eye

Turkey for the girls and
Turkey for the boys
My favorite kind of pants
Are corduroys
Gobble gobble goo and
Gobble gobble gickel
I wish turkey
Only cost a nickel
Oh I love turkey on Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving everybody!

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:: 2003 26 November :: 5.16 pm
:: Mood: pissed off

I fuckin hate ppl. People are so damn stupid, they insult you and say shit even if they dont fucking know u! NOT ONLY DO THEY INSULT U W/O KNOWING U, THE INSULTS R STUPID THAT AREN'T TRUE. NO WHERE CLOSE TO IT! If people are gonna fucking insult me use the correct terms! Another thing...why do people tell me there fucking opinions even if I dont ask for it...ya ya ppl can speak their mind but theres a boundary! IF I DIDN'T ASK FOR AN OPINION DONT GIVE IT TO ME! Lets take this chick who commented on my poems, that are in MY journal, that I like....they wrote...
Ugh... Goth poetry...
Sorry, but that's (in my opinion) the most monotonus kind of poetry there is.
Again... ugh...
Well ya know whut...ITS MY JOURNAL AND THINGS THAT I LIKE GO IN MY JOURNAL AND IF U DONT FUCKING LIKE IT STOP FUCKING READING MY JOURNAL, I DIDN'T ASK FOR UR SMART ASS OPINION, IF U DONT LIKE IT X OUT OF MY JOURNAL AND FUCK OFF!!! STOP LOOKING AT IT IF U DONT LIKE IT! GGGGGRRRRR! If you couldn't tell....people piss me off and I just wanted to vent that...people are stupid...I feel that the human race is going to die of stupidity...but thats MY OPINION. Thank you all for listening. =)

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:: 2003 24 November :: 8.52 pm
:: Mood: relaxed
:: Music: Sarah McLachlan-Fallen

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:: 2003 23 November :: 7.47 pm
:: Mood: happy

I went and saw my puppy today! Shes 4 days old, shes so pretty. Shes a red and sesame Shiba Inu female (like a mini akita), and her name is Sadira which means star in Arabic. It pisses me off cuze I wont be able to take her home will early Janurary cuze she needs to get her shots and shit.


Here are some poems I found on Darkness.com that I really like...

Black Happy Skies

My happy little world

This twisted prism fuck

The black happy sky

Polluted for my lungs to suck

The evil smiling faces

The ones that love and hate

Arms outstreched with daggers

The comfort comes too late

The happy blood flows

The dagger did the trick

Now why do the arms further stretch

Just as the happy poison becomes too thick

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Blood-Stained Perfection

Once upon a time

Before life fell apart

Before people's words

Could slash through your heart

Things could be perfect

As they shouldve been

Things could be perfect

As they will again



The weight of the world

Presses down heavily

Others are happy...

Why cant we be?

It could be perfect

If they werent here

It could be perfect

In absence of fear



Words sharper than razors

Can pierce our skin

Causing rage to burn

And fester within

Life would be perfect

Untainted by hate

Life would be perfect

If left up to fate



Rise above the world

On once-broken wings

Clash of swords upon bones

Beautiful rings

It will be perfect

Conquer together

It will be perfect

We'll live forever

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:: 2003 20 November :: 9.09 pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Dido~White Flag

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:: 2003 15 November :: 10.59 am
:: Mood: awake

I am bored so I am gonna do one of these things...


1. Name~ Ashley
2. Birthday~ July 14th
3. Sign~ Cancer
4. Age~ 14
5. Sex~ female
6. Location~ Hell
7. School~ Pinnacle
8. Glasses/Contacts~ nope
9. Braces~ yes
10. Fat/Skinny~ i dunno?
11. Tall/Short~ very short!
12. Do you like Ketchup~ sure why not
13. Do you like Mustard~ hhmm
14. Do you like Mayonnaise~ uh...
15. Do you like Pickles~ sure (LEESHA DOES!)
16. Do you like boys or girls~ boys
17. Do you like pickle relish~ good question
18. Do you like chicken~ yes i do!
19. Do you like spinach~ ew
20. Do you have any siblings~ unfortunately
21. What are their names~ Emily
22. How old are they~ 10...I think
23. Do you have any pets~ yup
24. What are their names~ Bandit, Panzer, Persila, Plumeria, Angel, and soon to be Sadira
25. What kind of pets are they~ Bandit=Welsh Corgi
Panzer=Boxer
Persila=parakeet
Plumeria=cocketiel
Sadira=Shiba Inu
26. Do you like school~ lol
27. If you could choose anyone to rule the world who would you choose~ Me and Alexis
28. Do you like pokemon~ no i want to burn that bastard
29. Do you talk to voices in your head~ nah
30. Do they tell you to do stuff~ erm...
31. Do you listen~ of course i do!
32. Have you ever had a wet dream about someone~ lmao ;)
33. How often do you talk on the phone~ when I have to/when someone calls
34. How often do you surf the web~ i dunno how to surf i explore the web
35. How often do you hang out wit friends~ not as often as I'd like
36. Do you have a b/f or g/f~ yes
37. Do you love them~ we haven;t beent ogether long enough to love each other
38. Have you ever loved anyone~ yeah
39. Have you ever made out wit someone~ yes indeed
40. Are you loopy~ :lifts up eyebrow"
41. Have you ever broken any bones~ nope
42. If so, which ones~ ...
43. How often do you shower~ everyday
44. Which group do you hang out wit at school~ diff ones but my main one is with all my good and best friends we r the crazy pychos of the school =)
45. Do you get good grades~ yeah
46. Do you always get in trouble~ every minute i am getting screamed at for something
47. Do you get along wit your parents~ dad not very much mom ya
48. Are you goin to go to college~ yes
49. Who is your best girl friends~ I have a few best girl friends they know who they r but my bestest friend in thw world is alexis
50. Who is you best guy friends~ hhmm i dunno
51. Who do you talk to most on the phone~ i only talk to sam ont he phone
52. Who do you talk to most on the net~ lots of ppl
53. Do you like email or snail mail better~ email but sometimes i have to mail with a stamp
54. Do you like gold or silver jewlery~ silver!!!
55. Have you ever prank called a 1-800 number before~ ya
56. Have you ever tried to impess your crush and ended up embarrassing yourself~ i embarrass myself everyday infront of lots of ppl
57. What are you most afraid of~ spiders
58. Are you weird~ =D
59. How long does it take you to get ready for school~ depends
60. Do you have a crush~ uh my bf?
61. What are their names~ sam
62. Do they like you~ mhm
63. Do you sleep wit one pillow or two~ i sleep with 9
64. Do you like coffee~ ya
65. If not how come~ i do damn it
66. What is the longest you have went out wit someone~ dont remeber
67. Do you regret it~ no
69. Where is the most fun place to go~ uh i dunno? lets say Desert Ridge
70. Where do you want to meet your husband/wife~ dont care
71. Where do you want to go heaven or hell~ well i am already in hell so how about heaven
72. Where do you want to get married~Oregon

What..
73. Do you like to do~play with fire be with friends music
75. Friend is always there~ lost of ppl
76. Relative sends you the most money for Christmas~ my rich ones
77. Do you like about your church or school click~ say wha?
78. Do you want to be when you grow up~ i dunno i wanna be rich
79. Do you want your wifes name to be~ sorry, I'll BE the wife
80. Is your favorite sport~ equestrian events
81. Is your favorite piece of clothing~ hhmm dunno


Have you, in the last 24 hours????
82. Cried~ no
83. Gotten in major trouble~ no
84. Cut your hair~ no
85. Ate a meal~ yeah
86. Hugged someone~ mhm
87. Kissed someone~ mhm
88. Made a new friend~ no
89. Lost something~ no

Have you ever????
90. Been so drunk you passed out~ no
91. Gone out in public in your pajamas~ yeah
92. Had an imaginary friend~ no
93. Cried during a chick flick~ ya lol
94. Owned a New Kids on the Block CD~ no
95. Gottin in a car accident~ yes
96. Liked someone so much you cried~ yeah
97. Cussed when your parents were around~mhm
98. Told you sister/brother he/she was a bitch~ all the fucking time
99. Sung in front of the mirror~ no
100. Made faces in the mirror~ yes thast fun
101. Spent more than one hour on your hair~ yeah
102. Sleep walked/talked in your sleep~ yup
103. Watched a scary movie and couldnt sleep all nite~ when I was younger i watched independence day and it scared me for life...damn aliens
104. Gone caroling~ lmao
105. What is the funniest movie you ever saw~ dunno
106. What is the stupidest movie~ uh duno
107. Which movie could you watch over and over~ finding nemo
108. What was the last movie you saw~ finding nemo
109. Who do you go to the movies with~ my ppl
110. What movie made you cry the most~ i dunno
111. Did you like the Titanic~ i did in third grade


If you were stranded on an island????
112. Who would you take~ ALEXIS FOR SURE (me and her have already discusscued this) and some others
113. Who would you take if you only had two people to take~ ?
114. What three things would you bring~ my cell ohone lip gloss and gucci purse!!! j/k haha i would bring booze and ciggies and music
115. What island would you want to be stranded on~ me and lexi have an island u fools!
116. What animal would you kill for food~ A COW, but lexi and hillary would kill pigeons and make pigeon popers
117. Would you write on the sand "help"~ hell i write that on everything
118. Would you panic or relax~ relax, would be happy to be on a lil island with ppl i actually like away from the misery of the world


Would you ever????
119. Jump out of a plane~ probly
120. Kiss your best guy friend(of if your a guy, your best girl friend)~ no
121. Go bungee jumping~ maybe
122. Stay in your room for a whole day~ always do
123. Go in the snow without clothes~ it dont snow in phoenix but if it did i probly would
124. Skinny dip~ sure
125. Drink salt water~ eeeewwww
127. Take a job even if it meant youd be away from your guy (or girl)~ i dont kow
128. Smile at your worst enemy~ yes it was a pretty twisted smile that dumb bitch
129. Play 8,000 bowling games in one nite~ bowling?lol
130. Go to Reno to get married~ nah i dont liek reno
131. Gamble~ =D fuck ya man!
132. Have a make out party~ no if i wanted to i wouldn;t make it a damn party stupid morons
133. Throw a party witout you parents~ hhmmm
134. Go to a foreign country~ yes i am going to kenya and tanzania
135. Fly a plane~ no

Who?????
136. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything you own to~ alexis, she would know who gets whut
137. If you had to live in Borneo for the rest of your life and you could take one person~ don't make me choose, it won't happen
138. On this earth who would you take~ huh?
139. WHos is the one person that you could stand spending a straight 24 hours wit and not get the slightest bit annoyed with~ Lex
140. If you woke up one morning and your leg was missing you would be the first person you would call~ hhmm i dunno i would be busy looking for my fuckin leg
141. Lets say your dad came in your room one day and told you that he had to get married next week but you pick the person but you have to stay wit them for the rest of your life no getting out of it who would you pick~ whut kind of dumbass question is that...u ppl make me sick...
142. What if you woke up tomorrow and you were someone else completely different who would you be~ i dont know?! who the hell made this thing, if i weren;t bored....

What???
143. What would be the first thing you would do if you woke up one morning and you were the opposite sex~ nasty thought...not gonnn say
144. If all of a sudden you had the ability to do one thing better than everyone else, have one amazing talent,what would it be~ i would be the best poll dancer in the world!
145. If you could choose one thing about yourself, what would you change (personality and looks)~ nose...blasted thing
146. Was it your dream career~ dunno
147. What is the one thing you just have to do before you die~ have sex...really long and good sex
148. If you could be a member of any band that ever exsisted, what band would that be~ dunno
149. What is the thing you care about most in life~ friends


Which one???
150. Winter or summer~ summer i ahte coldness, i wish it could only be cold for the month or december and then the rest of the year be 90
151. Beach or mountains~ beach
152. Pop or punk~ punk
153. Rock or rap~ rock
154. New york or LA~ LA
155. Milk chocolate or dark chocolate~ both!
156. Dogs or cats~ dogs
157. Britney or Christina~ neither
158. Leno or Letterman~ neither
159. Mtv or Vh1~ either
160. Country or classical~ dunno
161. Day or nite~ night
162. Lake or ocean~ ocean
163. Waffles or pancakes~ panakes!
164. Soccer or football~ FOOTBALL
165. Baseball or swimming~ either
166. Chocolate or vanilla~ chocolate
167. Sugar or spice~ both
168. Grisham or canyon vista~ ...huh...
169. Eminem please stand up eminem please shut up~ wha

Random???
170. If you could be in any movie as the lead role what movie would it be~ none i hate acting i liek wqtching ppl act and eat popcorn =)
171. If you could design your perfect mate what would he/she look like and be like~ to long
172. If you won the lottery wat would you do with your, lets say, 18 million dollars~ i would buy myself a house in kenya oregon and here (phoenix) i would buy CDs and some horses and cars and give some to ppl who i think deserve it
173. What is the single most embarrassing thing that has ever happened to you~ I can't recall....don't think I'd want to, either


Have you ever???
174. Fallen in front of someone you thought to be quite good looking~ lol yes
175. Run into a wall~ hhmm no i dont think i ever have as amazing as that sounds
176. Sleep walked~ yes
177. Gone skinny dipping~ mhm
178. Kissed someone of the same sex~ no
179. Snuck out of the house at nite~ ya
180. Gottin in a car wreck where you are the driver~ no
181. Laughed so hard that what you were drinking spewed out of your nose~ no thank god
182. Started laughing really hard so you just spit out what you had in your mouth cause you couldnt swallow~ lol ya
183. Swallow a bug~ no?
184. Have you ever actually kept a new years resolution~ yes i lost weight!
185. If so wat was it~...i lost weight

Would you ever???
187. Eat bugs purposely~ for money
188. Commit a crime~ depends
189. Change your religion~ dunno
190. Jump over a waterfall~ might be fun
191. Change clothes in front of an open window~ done
192. Dress up as the opposite sex for an important event~ nah
193. Go out at nite dressed in something like a black trench coat~ no i would get beat up by jimmy lol
194. Sing a harmonized duet in front of 500 strangers~ fuck no
195. Tell someone that you liked them if they were much older than you~ ya


Have you ever???
196. Lied to your parents about something really important~ yes
197. Had your life threatened~ probly
198. Stumbled across FBI secrets online~ no...wtf
199. Stayed up until the morning light talkin online~ yes
200. Made people give you really weird glances~ yeah, all the time, it's fun
201. If yes, how~ being myself =)
202. Read a shakespeare play~ yes i love shakespeare
203. Talked in your sleep~ yeah, so I'm told
204. What did you say~ it was emily she did it, o lmao and when i was at my friends house she kept telling me to move over and i kept cussing lmao wendy
205. Sung at a karaoke bar~ not yet


Love/Like????
206. Who do you have a crush on~ my bf
207. Who do u like~ my bf
208. Have you ever kissed them~ ya lol
209. Do you wanna kiss them~ =)
210. What is the farthest you have gone with a guy/girl~ ........
211. Blank spot~ whuts the purpose of that? o well i am done wow this is long ...

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