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2006 24 March :: 12.19 pm
stayed home sick today, i think i have a sinus infection, and now getting a cold is making it worse.... ahh well im tough i'll be ight.
i have decided that my job at KFC is going to be the death of me. Our managers have suddenly taken what i like to call bitch pills and now they are all yelling at everyone n shit,,,,, AHH
going to a concert tonight mit my bestest friend nikki! its the grand rapids chamber choir, our pit dir. is in it so i have to go.
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2006 20 March :: 4.00 pm
the play went ok. i guess but the pit fricken rocked!!!!!!!!!!
tj and i are all good finally, after some arguments and such its wonderful again.
school is suddenly becoming overwhelming. im starting to get behind in everything AHHHHHHHH
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2006 26 February :: 8.00 pm
:: Mood: angry
so its been roughly forever since i have been here!
just filed my taxes, and boy was that a task, and the thing is i managed to argue with mother the entire time, but nothing bad happened! woot woot.
people have been pissing me off lately and well to not name any names, you all need to back away from eachother to see what you really want ( BIll you know whom i speak of) God its like you are connected at the fucking hip, and because of it, you forget about me. which is ok cause i have other friends n shit, but god it hurts, and yoiu know what its like to hurt so quit being such a fucking duche.
on with the mom shit. me and her just can't get along and i dont know why, its like she doesnt want to do anything with me, or help me with shit n e more. she told me i needed to get off of her car insurance today cause i told her i wouldn't ask for her to help me with things anymore, that i could find someone else so i wouldn't bother her anymore! god! evil Bitch!!!!!!
n e ways concert on THursday :) peace
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2006 25 January :: 3.32 pm
so me and nikki are going out shopping to the naughty store yayayayayay and i get to go see the t man too. well the new semester is going good. i really like my current issues class. its fun. so far i am at the top of my eccon class and its freakin awesome. so my brother has my ex-bf over and i really hate him!!
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2005 27 December :: 11.28 am
ARG
i hate liars.... my dad promised me he wouldnt drink anymore, well i guess the case of beer in the trunk of his car is just there for looks. the thing is its not that he drinks its what the shit does to him. because of it he and mom got into an argument on xmas eve, so like he always does he left, and i didn't see him unitl this morning, and then when i confronted him about he, he told me i shouldnt talk to him like that, and i told him he had no right to ruin my xmas, and what really bugs me is i spent all kinds of money on this cordless drill set, and now he wont even take it,
so if n e one wants one let me know cause i have one!
other then that christmas was ok, all thanks to my wonderful man! Tj makes everything better no matter how bad i feel... god i love him. i have to get him from work today, im afraid i will get lost oh well!
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2005 24 December :: 12.06 am
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: EDDY
GOD I HATE CHRISTMAS IT BRINGS OUT THE WORST IN ME
me and Tj had our first argument today and i just want to break down and cry even though its over something stupid. i tried to tell him to be nice to the kid, and why its so important to be a positive role model for him, but the male complex has taken over hy wonderful bf.
we did go shopping today which was fun cept he bougt me stuff and i hate it when he does that n we talked about the ring and i told him i was upset that he spent that much on it, that he should have been taking care of himself instead and then i got the look which means..." i dont care im gonna spend the money anyways regardless of what you think."
has anyone else noticed that guys are 100% different around their friends? like when he's with joel n them he's not MY TJ anymore he turns into this amazingly dumb jerk taht i cant stand.
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2005 22 December :: 10.47 pm
so my wonderful bf is here with me, (jgjjthjhtyui) as you can tell, but i stil love him no matter how angry he makes me
oh welltg, igues im stuck with him for life now and i love himHahahahaha
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2005 21 December :: 11.40 pm
OK SINCES ITS NEWS TO EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!
YES ME ND TJ ARE ENGAGED!!11
but we are not going to be doing anything until after i am out of college so dont think we're jumping into things cause we aint. and if you want to talk to me bout it tell me what u think!!!!!
ne ways i hate work, kfc can kiss my ass
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2005 21 December :: 1.43 pm
:: Music: Gorillaz
Mom
mom is sick again with the flu and i bet you 100 dollars that i will be the one taking care of her.... oh well i guess its my job. TJ is spending the night tomorrow and then we're going shopping. why> dont know i just know he wants to get up early so we can go to lunch and still be back in time for me to go to work. he has somehting up his sleeve, cant put my foot on it but i know he does.....
oh well i still love him and thats all that matters...
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2005 19 December :: 9.26 am
:: Mood: devious
:: Music: Black Eyed Pees (eww i know its in my head)
Bite me
So i finally got my comp in my room to work and now can get on here when ever i want which is totally kick ass, yayayayayay ( jumps around and dances,)
so far break has been ok, i have to work all day on xmas eve and it really sucks major balls but hey its money in my pocket. srry jess that i couldnt go to ur party, but i had to deal with what i like to call the devil ( tj's mom). that whole experinence was horrible. she yelled the entire time, not yelling cause she was mad she just talks that loud, errr but she did get me some cool things but then she mentioned handing them down to my children which really messed me up cause i dont want kids right now and i think since me and tj are engaged its important to have one right away! ewwww.
anyways besides that im doing good cept this infection thing thats why i was sick oh well i will be ok!
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2005 15 December :: 7.57 pm
:: Mood: busy
The snow keeps coming down, and keeps me ina bad mood. Today is my babies birthday, he's finally 19 and its great. i hope he went and got his tatoo, he's so hot god i love him.....srry bill for "girlying him up" as you say i have.
THIS IS ALL I HAVE TO SAY::::: GET OVER WHAT EVER THE HELL IT IS YOU ARE FIGHTING ABOUT BECAUSE YOU ARE ALL ACTING LIKE A BUNCH OF LITTLE CHILDREN AND IT IS REALLY MAKING ME MAD. I DONT WANT TO HEAR ABOUT IT ANYMORE.
now thats out i feel ok. James ( from band) is totally talking about people behind their backs again and i want to tell him off but i dont want to cause more problems. he just contridicts everything he says, and the fact is i know he hates me. he just doesnt have the balls to tell me. i have trie heart and soul to get to know him and beocme friends but all he does is push me away with his attitude towards me and sam. and im sorry if anyone else hates me thats just your fucking problem and i dont care!!!!!!!!!
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2005 28 November :: 11.14 am
:: Mood: cheerful
THATS RIGHT I GOT A RING....HAH
The day after thanksgiving me and tj went out to dinner to the olive garden, but beofre he had to take me to the dam in Rockford for some reason,,, all i have to say is that i cried, and cried ( tears of joy) and it had to do with a heartshaped diamond ring too.!!!!!!! yay im sooooooooooo happy i cant exsplain it. its beyond words the feelings i have for him and i cant wait until we are done with college so we can start our own life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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2005 25 September :: 6.40 pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: MUDVAYNE
GET THE HELL OUT!
well it has been a good long time since i have been in here. i have lots to say too....
band is going ok except for some immature section leaders and this odd crush on a certain band memeber.... no names reported.... but the thing is its only physical,,, i actually think this guy is a jerk but he has a really nice body! agh i hate this whole girl thing....
red flannel is next week and i am over joyed! me and tj are closer then ever right now i couldnt be happier with everything. i cant wait until one day i can get out of the hell whole i call my house and we can be together forever!
at the moment im ver stressed out because there is a lot of confrentation at my house and no one is standing up to the fact that they are the parents. My mom says i take advantage of everyone. and that i need to help more. well where was her help when i needed her? where was she when i was running razors across my skin and gushing blood or the time i downed all those pills wondering if i would wake up?????? she was too worried about her dear little boy to give a fuck. they payed at least 10 grand on that boys shrinks and doctors, but have they given me shit? no. i work my ass off to get what i have and no one sees that. between school and work im outat least 65 hours a week. i dont know bout most of u, but its hard. and im not saying i want pity. i just want UNDERSTANDING.
she thinks she like god but in reality she is nothing to me then a burden.
and too all of you who add to this stress, FUCK OFF CAUSE I DONT NEED ANYMORE OF IT!!!!!!!!
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2005 28 August :: 12.45 pm
k so everyone probably knows of the accident that happend with james and tj and this biker dude. i hope eveything goes ok with that i mean my best friend holly would be in ruins w/o him. anyways.
monday must have beent he worste day of my life. first the thing with tj then i find out my dad has cancer ( they caught it early and so all they haev to go and do is cut the little bitch out) then i find out mom knows my secret.... ya know this accident with tj made me realize how much i really care about him. on the way home from holly and james's i got this feeling that something was wrong, and then i wanted to cry because i would die if anyhting happened to him. but thank god he's ok....
no other news except school starts soon yay.... i have wednesday off this week so if n e one wants to go do something give me a ring! love ya!
oh, band on friday was fantastic! DYLAN... U R THE BEST CONDUCTER EVER!
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2005 21 August :: 6.43 pm
ok so its been roughly 3 months since i have been in here. no real news except that the t man is finally getting his licence which is a very good thing and im starting to wonder the hell im going to do with the rest of my life........
went our with holly and ramiro last friday. it was fab except the giant bruise i got while i was there. oh well i'll deal. holly is now living with him, and jay, and david, and the thing is i think she is doing alot better there then if she were at home... god i love her.
me and tj made it a full year, and there is no one more excited then me. Nicole Moore emailed me, and she's engaged! yay. i love her too. i miss her alot but we're gonna hang out soon i hope so its all good.
i hope this school year is differnt then the past. i want this year to be the best ever. its my last and i dont want it to end ( thats all because of band and all my freshman instrumentalist) our first performace is on friday and the cool thing is i dont have to wear a uniform this season. we actually talked robuck into letting me and the guys wear latin salsa style outfits woohoo!!!
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