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2005 4 January :: 8.58 pm
Everyone is leaving... but sometimes its ok
well its official tj is moving somewhere undetermined. i just hope its not to a totally different place. its hard being as far away from him as it is and im just down here in rockford...ahh. oh well i'll learn to cope its not that hard. im a little worried about sining in front of class tomorrow... due to the simple fact that i cant sing. though i have professed that i can. I WAS LIEING. and im sorry for that. its bad i know. not only that but today at practice michelle was having a little trouble with gettin all the cords right but i have faith in her so why am i worrying? i opened my book of little things i have written and some of them i wonder where they come from... they are friggin awesome. if u wanna read them holla at me... also some of the stuff sucks butt. oh well its not like its published yet i can always make changes right
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2005 3 January :: 9.28 pm
:: Music: Jet
I LOVE YOU GUYS TOO!
thanks for making me feel good.... i have a wonderful bunch of friends.. on the other hand there are people ( not mentioning any names) that i wish would stop pretending and show the real them... the are going behind their friends back and hurting them. it makes me cry on the inside ( i dont cry on the outside :))
on another note how do you open up to a boyfriend... you know let him in on all the corny stuff you write in your journal? ii dont know how to tell tj how i feel...errr im confused oh well i always am so im used to it
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2005 2 January :: 10.16 pm
erin needs some money bad
so the bill for my pink guitar came n well it says i owe them all the money now but the sale lady said i had till march why do people have to be so stupid... i will call them tomorrow and bitch like i always do... one realy quick question... AM I REALLY AS BITCHY AS EVERYONE SAYS I AM?????
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2005 2 January :: 12.33 am
:: Music: scars-papa roach
"the scars remind us that the past is real"
ok so i just fell in love with this song its awesome... too bad i don't have the cd...yet...that is... but yeah my new years went good cept my wonderful boy toy spillin his beer all over me so i had to go home smelling of alcohal but its ok i got to my room b4 she could see me so its ok...the one thing is i didnt get all i wanted too ( if you get what im saying) hehe. so i want my boyfriend...ALOT... its supposed to be that way... i think i have gotten over that one thing that was holding me back ( mentioned in previous entrees) and i can now do watever the hell i want. besides that... i hope everyones new year went well.. my new years resolution-to eat healthier and not be so angry all the time... this is going to be extremely hard due to the face i have a really bad temper those of you who know me understand what i am saying... franz ferdinand just came on yay i love these guys... TAKE ME OUT!! the only thing bout new years that sucked was i couldnt drink one damn thing.. i had to "drive" home... erica ( tj's sis) her bf downed like half the bottle of jack and bout died it was funny... i laughed but its all good right
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2004 30 December :: 5.03 pm
:: Music: Lump
me doggie in the car
me n my mom went and cleaned the last of the old house so the appraiser could go in there. my neighbor's son is going to buy it... i think i breathed in a lilttle too much bleach my head is a lil woozie. no more cleaning products for me. i guess the movie thin gis off cause tj wants to go just us which is ok, no of yall wanted to go anyways. i feel the love. since we moved we have to get rid of all my pets, but i dont wanna. esspecially my doggie, who at the moment is chillin in the backseat of my moms car... i've had her since i was five n i love her. i'll miss the old smelly thing. i think mom is just going to put her down cause she's so old n blind...poor sammy... oh well such is life. today is laundry day...yay... i get to stay up to the noise of that damned machine ( i live in the basement right next to the laundry area) but who needs sleep right?mmmmmmmmm i can smell dinner, bbq chicken... yay. just what i need more chicken! im so sick of chicken its not funny. i dont even wanna smell it but moms is better then kfc so it's all good... well im out-Erin
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2004 28 December :: 11.21 pm
:: Music: evenesence-last breath
bye bye to my best friend
I AM SO ENCREDIBLY MANGLED IN A MIX OF EMOTION I CANT EXPLAIN IT... chubbs, my cat, my favorite cat, has passed away. and i know i will probably be the only one to truly miss her. the thing that pisses me off is ( she was at my aunts house in lansing) none of the vets here could tell she was sick. my aunts vet said she had been sick for a long time and in alot of pain for a while.... well why in the hell didnt the loser vets here realize that? i had her checked on regularly.... im just so fucking angry. if i would have know about it i could have done something about it earlier and maybes she wouldnt be dead right know....GOD WHY ARE PEOPLE SO FUCKING STUPID!?!?
on other news im going over to tj's after work on friday to spend news years together.... you know how it is. im rather excited about it. we'll finally have time to ourselves... something we havnt had in well ever...
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2004 27 December :: 10.35 pm
:: Music: somethin new
tired as all getout
well that dude is officially gone which is ok because tj was really pissed at him. me and nikki were supposed to go to the movies but i got left at home because she decided to take chad. but she says she'll take me to the mall. my ticket is going to cost me 105 dollars but thats ok. my insurance is going to be majorly up and i hate it. its really hot in this room. and im normally really cold... me and joey are trying to get some people to go to the movies sometime.... if u want in let me know asap... call me or somethin. i thnk we're gonna see blade trinity... or sometin else thats just what i wanna see i saw half of it but that was the night i got in the accident so i missed the lase half.
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2004 24 December :: 9.51 pm
:: Music: 12 stones
and so it is x mas
ok so i had to work tonight and i hate to work...but ya know at least i get paid... so its all cool. tjs over n is causein trouble like always.. but waht do u expect from a boy? i gues i'll just have to deal. but its ok i still love him. bill is finally being nice instead of being an asshole and that dude who commented last time is really pissed at me which is ok. another word to the wise dont help me with anything im independent and i dont need you... yall know what i mean-Erin
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2004 24 December :: 12.59 pm
ok so im kinda talking to this one dude who wont leave me n bill alone... saying his life sux n what not... well srry for not being emo enough to care
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2004 23 December :: 11.57 pm
As the world turns
ok so i think i have a stalker... and well Tj isn't too happy, though i havn't said n e thin yet i just know he'll be. a word to the wise...IF UR A MALE AND DO NOT WANT TO DIE DONT COME NEAR ME.... ESSPECIALLY U JAMES....LOL so tj is a lil jealous it's better then him not carring at all so i am happy. he is coming over tomorrow for x-mas eve... im kinda excited cause he has never seen " rocky horror picture show" so mom is renting it so he can ... i love that movie... its hilarious. i have to call michelle tomorrow to see when i can practice w'her next.... hopefully soon. but yeah other then that i have not a whole lot to talk.. its all good- love yall-erin
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2004 23 December :: 12.48 pm
Why do i put up with this shit?
ok my brother deleted all my messanger stuff, errrrrrr he makes me angry so now i have to download it all over agian and well since i only have dial up it will take forever... oh and well he seems to think being on the internet ALL day is the equivelant to a real life. god i hate him so much but i leave it alone because everytime i say something i get hit,,, and well im not a sissy but it friggin hurts. but yeah i have to work tonite.... i dont wanna but what can ya do? but i need to be gettin in the shower i kinda stink-Erin
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2004 22 December :: 5.57 pm
ok i got into yet another accident but it;s ok i forgive myself, i got a ticket this time though so it sucks and i can't drive for two weeks, thats my punishment.... but i guess it's ok since its only x-mas break.
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2004 22 December :: 12.53 pm
ok so erin finally got internet hook up at the new house!!!!!!1 yay i guess except now my bro will be on here all day and until i get my comp. working i have to wait till like one in the morn to get on here.
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2004 15 December :: 9.44 am
:: Mood: content
:: Music: some hippy song
Today is the day
ok so it's finally tjs b-day and i am totally excited. he's 18!!!!!!!! im supposed to take him out on saturday... which is good because i will be the only person home...empty house.... hmmmm i wonder what could happen---well we'll have to see.;) anyway out of the dirty stuff
he's getting some kind of tatoo on his arm on sat... i dunno what to think about it... but he's always hot so it works. i purchased a pink guitar on monday- now all i have to do is learn to play it
me and michelle are gonna jam tonight at her house- nikki was supposed to come to but she has to work so no threesome tonight. which in all reality is ok. im so jumbled right now. i feel sick but i am excited that its tjs b-day so yeah i just need to chill.....-Erin
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2004 10 December :: 10.18 am
:: Mood: crazy
:: Music: blah blah
where have all my friends gone?
to me it seems that everything that was important to me or those who where close to me are all now gone. i feel that they have all moved on and i am stuck here in the past. like the one event i never wanted to hold me down is chaining me to the floor...( this is a long long story and if you really care to ask go for it). i never wanted to remember it but because of the whole thing with nikki it's all i think about and the thing is Tj doesnt know anything about it and well i want to tell him but everytime i try i freeze up and nothing comes out. it's like i cant talk to anyone about it and i know i need to to forget it but i can't. maybe im just destin to never really live the life i planned to. maybe im supposed to live alone in may own little world. and in all actuallity its ok because i have learned to survive like that and its ok. but i feel that i was put on the world to make a huge difference and i cant do that with this stuck in the back of my head. maybe i just need to talk to Holly but everytime i talk to her about private stuff it's not so private anymore... i guess i shall talk to no one and deal with it by myself....
on other news im not failing history anymore... i have a B- and i am very happy... it's because my presintation... Bill and Dylans was kick butt!!! woohoo... tj is going to do something stupid soon i feel it, i just hope it's nothing too stupid he doesnt need any more trouble.
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