I'm Crzy
My name is Erin. My birthday is Thursday. I will be 17. And I feel old. I thought I saw a gray hair yesterday when when I was staring at myself in front of the mirror on my wall. That's about it. Good bye.

I love you all.

stuff
ok we're going to try the whole friendship thing which is ok with me. i just wish that the dude im crushing would show weather or not he likes me... and of course curtis ( my husband) Keeps presureing me to ask and i just dont wanna be let down. i just want some answers. why do we have to go throgh pain when in the end we all end up in the same place? oh my poem got nominated to win $10,000.00 so im excited woohoo. yeah im proud of myself and you all should be too Love Erin

school
well im on the varsity team forever now Yay... well the internet is now taken away from me cause a lil boy seems to like porn a lil too much (brothers suck) soccer tonite... big rapids wish me luck... erin

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yes that is a picture of kill hannah on my journal... they rock! n e ways the concert it tomorrow n im excited. me n bill are going together. yay. i have a giant bruise from soccer n a couple of broken blood vessles in my leg that awesome. another one of my cats died. everything is dieing lately. im gettin worried bout me n cj. lately he's been really mean like pushing me up against walls n hit my head n what not... if n e one can give advice that would be good... thanks a bunch! I LOVE BAND!. ok i took dylans test i was the only one to get 100 woohoo to all you losers... hehe- Bobble Head

blah
yes that is a picture of kill hannah on my journal... they rock! n e ways the concert it tomorrow n im excited. me n bill are going together. yay. i have a giant bruise from soccer n a couple of broken blood vessles in my leg that awesome. another one of my cats died. everything is dieing lately. im gettin worried bout me n cj. lately he's been really mean like pushing me up against walls n hit my head n what not... if n e one can give advice that would be good... thanks a bunch! I LOVE BAND!. ok i took dylans test i was the only one to get 100 woohoo to all you losers... hehe

Why does my life have to suck???
my team sucks major ass.... for real the work together bout as good as me n elyse.... so yeah we just dont. we lost 2-0. no one can score errrrrrrrr im mad i got a new cd player today its kewl i like it. my cat had kittens so im happy two were dead though it was kewl though because they had no legs... woohoo deformed animals! disectiond time! lol rite. im so bored. havent touched a blade in a week go me. i think. i miss holly so much. i wish she would come to school. oh well i still love her. ight well im outtie love yall Erin

it all bites the big one
well today has been gay... i over ate majorly... i finally got to talk to cj... never got to type my story oh well spring break was ok i finally went n seen secret window it was ok i loved the ending! well i got to see my baby cousin shes ok not like my other one. mom is throwing a fit i dont know why pms or somethin oh well! Erin

indiana
well im at my unclen aunts house and well i love my new cousin. she's totally awesome. the weather here is hot well like 50-60 so ha to all of you up in Mi....lol Bill i miss ya already ok that was a lie hhee oh well i have to go Erin

like i give a rip!
well today has been interesting we got a new car today its kewl i guess. the lady never called about my app. piss the hell outta me oh well life goes on. i still have to type up my story havn't even started on that opps its due like next week. oh well i'll do it soon. god i miss cj so much he's at a plas house so i cant talk to him errrrrrr the soccer today was interesting i sicked major booty but hey we all do sometime... my mom is totally losing it i cant stand her or my lil bro only because the piss me off on purpose. Andy wont talk to me like im sacry or something. i think he just dont want me to tell him like it is. men cant live wit um.... Erin

spring break sucks
well so far i hate it cept the whol bill movie thin that was fun.... i have soccer tomorrow n it looks like my moms car needs a new engine she blew a rod... my car is bout done too but its all good cause my unlce it sellin me his truck so thats awesome someone i know has had an emergency because the cops called my house but i cant get hold of them so im freakin out its prolly cj but i dunno damn why does he have to piss me off? its a guy thing i guess well im outtie love ya Erin

Blood = good
well i cut myself today like 20 times.... my freakin pshchiotrist dude. he's all like (to my mom) well are felling depressed like u could hurt yourself... of course im in the other room n can hear what they are sayin... i just bust our laughin... hes so fucking blind about everything i find it amusing... stupid people are funny. i went to the mall n the dude at hot topic the cashier guy omg he was freakin hot and like 25 but its all good rite... i got followed by these people... that was fun... then me n nikki went in to abercrombie n fitch just so see what would go down n the chick that was working there looked at me funny so i walked up to her n said "what you have a problem... yeah thats rite we did walk into this overpriced store wit absolutely no intention to buy anything. actually the only reason we came in was for that look u just gave us thanks" and then we left n i waved back at her later. that was freakin funny as hell. spencers is great i almost bought the orgamsm key chain but i didn't too temting to go for other thins lol yeah thats rite im dirty... oh i married mitch couple days ago... curtis im srry i still love you... ok well this is long enough be lookin for a new poem soon!!! ok here's and old one:
Drowning I your puddle of destruction
Crying out with no one to give explanation
Not breathing deep inside
Remembering the night I cried
Tearing and mangling my broken frame
Reaching out with nothing but shame
Burning me in and out
Scorching me all through out
Why must I die for you
why must I cry for you
nothing but suffering
nothing but my offering
reaching and grabbing from your abyss
still I feel your severing kiss
the darkness taking me entire
Nothing but hate and nothing but fire
falling into the pit of depression
hitting bottom in full concussion
dying in oblivion
seeing the last of the sun
why must I die for you
why must I cry for you
nothing but suffering
nothing but my offering.


the end