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2008 2 November :: 1.45am
this is how i roll. Oberon, our summer ale. An American wheat ale with the color and scent of a summer afternoon. i dont need to dress up. Im Jay motherfucking Zulla. happy halloween peeps. i hope everyone had as fun a time as i did.
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2008 1 November :: 7.13pm
Halloween kinda sucked cause i had to be to work at 7am this morning... ahh well i do need a new job though i only have 23 hours this week and i am a fucking manager,
th is still a pain the the ass but we love him anyway, buttheads eye is getting better ( he has an ulcer in it and it almost ruptured last week)
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2008 1 November :: 10.21am
i am having a horrible horrible day...week...
i/we have never done this before. we've always been so on top of things and yeah we've been short before but never honestly with nothing. this is going to wreck things for us. this stuff is permanent.
god how do you tell a friend that you need something because it's fricken ruining shit.
this sucks and i keep getting sick every single day from the stress and i am not liking it.
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2008 31 October :: 1.17am
FYI: my turds are tapered.
also, i bowled a 163, 149, and 169 tonight.
my average is 147
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2008 30 October :: 4.18pm
You have confirmed your interview schedule on 11/6/2008 at 4:00 PM. Please report to the HR office at Sears Auto Center. For more information, please call 6162857721.
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2008 29 October :: 1.26am
:: Mood: contemplative
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i feel like i've lost a lot of my pizzazz. (or maybe you spell it pissass. depending on how many laxatives i took that day.) you know? i feel like i used to have more vitality, more everything. not that i was a driven, self-motivated type of person. not that i was spastic or rambunctious. i just feel like i had an undercurrent of motion that just isn't there anymore.
nowadays i let the simplest things prevent me from getting anything done, and i really don't feel the need to try and innovate, or make new things happen. i'm content to attempt, and fail, to merely recreate those which have come before. nothing outstanding. nothing superb. i just settle for okay.
but that really doesn't seem right. i don't want just an okay life. i don't want just okay friends. okay coworkers. okay family. that's not how it works for me. i feel like everything about my life up to this point has been outrageous. and now it's just mellowing out. i guess it's my job to keep it outrageous. but i have a lot of fucking jobs right now, which i guess is what's bogging me down. so, adding the job of unbogging myself to the pile doesn't really work. it'll just exacerbate the problem.
so, i just need to get a few things out of the way, one at a time, so that i have a bit more freedom to have some of that guilt-free, sporadic, funtime. where my energy is put to its most effectively pragmatic use. because clearly i don't get shit done when it comes to actual work. but give me something fun to do, and i'll forget to eat, sleep, and go to the bathroom, i'm so diligent.
and faking myself out to think that the "work" stuff is actually "fun" stuff doesn't cut it. believe me, i've tried. although, i have discovered that some of the "fun" stuff is actually "work". but since it falls under "fun" in my classifications, i can still do that, at least.
i guess we'll make it happen eventually. and until then, i'll just have to tough it out. but i want to be fun and exciting again. none of this boring, grumpy, old man nonsense. that suits me at times. but i don't think this should be one of those times.
i'll get there, and i'll enjoy it. but i'm not there yet. and there's no sense in rushing it.
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2008 27 October :: 11.37am
the sun came out today.
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2008 27 October :: 5.46am
All my eggs are now in one basket.
Chapter 2: the beginning.
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2008 26 October :: 11.12pm
so i still have that kitten, but i have a home for, she is coming to get it this week... and this cat i think is part fish!! the last few days i have been taking baths to relax, well anyway when i get out and start to drain the tub she just jumps right in and plays with all the bubbles its cute... then i have to dry her off.
Ponderosa Corp. just filed Bankruptcy and i dunno what that means for me but i am looking for a new job. posted my app online and browsing things here in town.
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2008 26 October :: 9.54pm
Its hard to forgive what happened.
Its also hard to lose a friend that close.
what to do?
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2008 26 October :: 3.52pm
:: Music: blink 182 - always
for once, i'm enjoying the rain
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2008 26 October :: 1.19pm
it really sucks losing sombody i was that close with, Its not worth my pain for that though.
also, with all the depressing entry's lately, i bring you ken, the lawn jockey
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2008 25 October :: 4.11am
:: Mood: numb
"regret nothing, Live every day as if it we're your last"
Since red flannel I've learned alot about myself, alot more than I care to know.
I know now that I try and change myself to fit in with someone else.
I know what its like to say "I love you" and truly mean it
I have cried, I don't do that ever.
I have driven to points where I feel nothing at all, then I cut myself just to see if pain even exists, it doesn't.
I have compleatly handed my heart to someone
who had no idea what to do with it, and later crushed it.
I knew what I was getting into, she warned me, told me not to do it.
I've also learned to listen.
I've learned lies hurt more than the truth.
In the past month, I've felt the best I ever have in life, I feel the worst I ever have right now.
This girl has driven me to do things I've never considered ever before, I wish I could put into words the way I'm feeling now.
flexeril can't even take these feelings away.
When the time comes, just remember.
"Regret nothing and live every day as if its your last."
Erin Marie Crisp,
Again, I've never been as sorry as I am now about how much i hurt you.
again I'm sorry.
Justin McW,
You we're right, my knife is definatally not sharp enough.
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2008 24 October :: 1.01am
:: Mood: contemplative
IM SO SICK OF THIS ELECTION AND IT HASNT EVEN HAPPENED YET
there are just so many things in my head. I have decided to be rational about this election, and just vote for nadar. Cause either way its not good and no matter who i vote for someone will disagree.... no one hates nadar right?
I look at it this way...If John gets elected, Good bye ecconomy hello rich getting richer and me gettin poorer and my healthcare can just lfy right out of the window and lets not forget that the man is like 70 and is soon to die so we get what Sara Palin. i dont think so. ... if Barack gets elected hello no more guns and tons of illegals still living off of my money. And lets be honest with ourselves, if he does get elected this country will slowly and SURELY become divided. ( and yes its sad). You all know it because there are still all those bigots out there who because he's black will think on way or another about him and i understand its wrong but i also understand that thinking of that nature still exists and we have to step up to reality and see that its not the time for it. as a country we are not ready for it, we're not mature enough. and thats horribly sad to say and i am some what embarassed that it still goes on but there is only so much i can do about it.
like i said we are F*ed either way and i dont see much improvment in out future....Canada Anyone??? lol
asside from all of that i have an eval coming up and i am not looking forward to it at all. i know i am going to get an ass chewing and i am almost to that point where i dont care...tsh can we just go back to like 7th grade it was all much simpler then
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2008 22 October :: 11.28pm
Sons of Anarchy
so far on SoA i've recognized 2 songs
clutch - can't stop progress
Dropkick murphys - johnny i hardly knew ya
jax is a badass, plain and simple, throwing a guy through a glass door last week, then this week shooting him in the head.
also gemma's friend had a good one liner "six years of taking two in the ass while a teenager cums on
my face!"
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