Im-Sorry
[ godessalthena ]
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2012 3 March :: 2.40am
I'm sorry I couldn't be everything I was meant to be.
I'm sorry I am myself.
I'm so sorry I fuck everything up.
with a smile on my face
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loserxdork
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2009 28 January :: 1.25am
Just thought I would stop by every now and then to say whats up, and let everyone know that I am alive. I am alive, doing semi-well. Still working the crappy Telemarketing job that I hate, and I just recently got another job. That one is a babysitting job that starts in March, hopefully my boss will let me keep my job now as well. I'm still with Joe (it was 3 years in August) and that's about it. I'm living with my mother, her "friend" and her daughter which is complete suckage but I deal. I spend a lot of time with Joe, I speak to my dad....occasionally. He still doesn't call me, ever but whatever I deal. I guess I've just learned that is the way he is and I can't get mad, well, I can but I can't take it out on him because nothing will ever change. Well, that is really it!
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loserxdork
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2008 26 November :: 12.42am
:: Mood: nostalgic
Whoaa.
I can't believe I always forget about my Woohu. It's sad. This was my first journal site, and I love it. I just wish others here were still active. No one that I used to talk to is really on here and it makes me sad. If anyone is interested you can find me a few different ways.
FACEBOOK: Search for me (Marissa Fein) just tell me who you are, and that you're from WOOHU.
MySpace: http://profile.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewprofile&friendid=609403 - There is my link, send me a message and let me know who you are and that you are from WOOHU :)
AIM: Defectivexbeauty
YAHOO: lovesalosinggame
Livejournal (that I barely use): riss___
Melodramatic.com: dorktothemax
So, that aside things are going ok. So much has been going on in my life it would take me ages to update everyone. If you'd like to talk, just find me and I would be glad to indulge in some intelligent conversation, witty banter, or just shooting the shit :)
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loserxdork
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2008 13 June :: 10.22pm
:: Mood: high
Doo doo doo doo :)
Sooo crazy. Why am I so overwhelmed? Things haven't felt this way for a longgg time. It's ok though, I'll do it because I'm good like that. I just want a job already. PLEASEEEE give me a job, seriousssssly.
Blahhh I want life to slow the fuck down A TAD!
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loserxdork
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2008 12 June :: 8.22pm
Stressed.
Ahhh so much shit to do - SO LITTLE TIME :(
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loserxdork
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2008 26 May :: 1.01pm
Freddy.
My moms new dog....
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loserxdork
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2008 21 May :: 12.47pm
I am officially jobless. I gave my job to Joe because I thought that these people were hiring me and then they decided to "go with family". I have the worst luck EVER. Well, I have two one day a week babysitting jobs but that is CLEARLY not going to be enough to hold me over considering I have to pay bills, even though Joe is going to give me money for that. I need to start looking for a job.
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loserxdork
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2008 10 May :: 12.17pm
I guess in a way I've learned to accept that sometimes, bad things happen. My life could be worse, and I know that. I think I've increasingly been learning, and becoming a better person. I'm a good person and that is what gets me through the day. Yeah, I have my bad points but there are definitely more positives than negatives. Haha, Marissa seeing the glass as half full, not half empty - that would surprise people, that's for damn sure. My mom want to give the dog away because she has nipping problems and whatnot, I'm upset about that. I really like the dog, and if I could take her I would in a heartbeat. I don't have my own place though so that is pretty much not an option. I wish I just had a big lump sum of cash to pay off my bills, because then I could start a little re-newed debt free life, that would be nice. I can dream.
Things are OK, like I said before, things could be worse. Things are alright with Joe, and my job, and next week I'm going to be making a little cash by work 4 days at my job ($250) and then I'm babysitting for Tracey on wednesday from 4-11 or so, and thats at least $10/hour, probably more, plus she'll compensate me for travel fees. Then on friday I'll get $50 from Jill. This will definitely help towards paying off the Nextel (don't ask, longgggg story).
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loserxdork
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2008 28 April :: 8.56am
Whoa, I haven't been on here in like almost a year!
Holy crap, it's been forever and woohu was my first
love. Well, I'm back now. I can't guarantee you how
often I'll be on here but I will try my hardest. Now,
I'm going to read my entries and see how retarded
my life was over the past I think 4 or 5 years.
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im-sorry
[ aerii ]
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2008 11 March :: 6.11am
You should be sorry that you're a chimo
and that your new girlfriend is a stuck up bitch.
Good luck with that bud.
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loserxdork
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2007 10 July :: 1.34pm
Things are ok. I'm really frusturated with everything going on but I shouldn't really be complaining. Got a new job, sooo sad to leave my old one but it's ok. Probably starting my new job the end of this month because they have to wait for the background check, and fingerprints and everything so I have time to move to my grandfathers. Hopefully starting school in August, well, the end of August so that'll be really good. A year after I start working at this job I can probably go into partnership with her when she opens up a daycare and that would be amazing, yeah. Not really much else is going on. Things with Joe & I are going well. He got a job, he hates it but whatever, he'll live.
Just wanted to update so that everyone knew I was alive and whatnot. I'm at the library, then I'm making a copy of my social security card.'
Bye.
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2007 8 May :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: blah
I never update here anymore, cause no one ever reads this. I feel that honestly when I update I'm updating for myself because people BARELY comment or read. I'm a pretty busy person but basically I try and get on once a week to comment on all the recent entries. I don't know, I kinda just feel that updating this is pointless.
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Im-Sorry
[ xsilentxsuicidex ]
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2007 2 April :: 12.21am
i'm sorry.
that i can't fall out of love.
and i'm sorry,
for believing every fucking lie you feed me.
i'm sorry the way you're treating me,
isn't helping me get over you.
i'm sorry that we're not together,
and i'm sorry that i let you take advantage of me.
i'm sorry about it all.
i'm sorry about my weaknesses.
i'm sorry you suddenly decided to be anti-society.
i'm sorry you "hated the title all along."
i'm sorry. for making the both of us miserable.
i'm sorry that i'm sorry,
when i know that this is both of us.
but one of us has to be.
and you obviously are not.
so i'm sorry.
but this time,
being forgiven won't fix anything.
with a smile on my face
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Im-Sorry
[ godessalthena ]
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2007 28 February :: 11.19pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
my life repeats itself.
it always feels like this is the end...
even though i know better.
i'm sorry. i really do love you.
and i wish i could take those things back.
but i can't.
i'm sorry i'm not a good daughter.
and i'm sorry i'm not beautiful....
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Im-Sorry
[ xsilentxsuicidex ]
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2006 22 December :: 8.56am
i'm sorry that you're not yourself anymore.
i'm sorry that you let drugs get in the way.
i'm sorry that i couldn't help this.
...i'm sorry that i wasn't enough.
that everything i did, was not enough.
you are not the same boy that i fell in love with,
and there was nothing i could do to stop you from changing.
i am not sorry.
but you should be.
with a smile on my face
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