im-sorry
[ SinfulDarkness ]
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2004 29 June :: 7.43am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Kittie
with a smile on my face
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im-sorry
[ SinfulDarkness ]
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2004 29 June :: 7.43am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Kittie
with a smile on my face
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werealljaded
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2004 27 June :: 1.45pm
:: Music: Nerf Herder- nerd punk, funny ass band, check them out.
so i am sitting here and thinking about feelings and shit. no, i'm not in an emo mood...but just trying to sset myself straight. a while ago, matt told me that he thinks he loves me. not that crazy kinda "in love" but the kind that just happens with time and after really getting to know someone. almost like a best friend kind of love, althoguh he said it's more then a best friend type of feeling. i couldn't say it back bc i honestly wasn't sure what he meant to me. but i think i feel the same. because he is one of the few people that i care FOR. there are two types of caring, you either care about someone of you care for someone. caring about someone is just the friend kind of "i hope you get better when your sick kind of feeling", but to actually care FOR someone, i think is more intimate. like wanting to always be there, or when something happens, that's the first person you want to call and tell... or missing them when they're not around and thinking about them kinda a lot.
i'm not sure if i'm in love... i don't think so, i mean i might be. it's just that i know him so well, and we fit together so well, and i know all his quirks and still like him a lot. i just know that i am so worried about likeing him more then he likes me, there's not much more worse then that. but i do know that he is the first guy i could honestly say that i care for and maybe even love. i've never wanted a guy to stick around this long nor have i ever worried about loosing someone so much. fuck, i think i do love him. i think that scares me more then loosing him.
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Im-sorry
[ brokend0lls ]
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2004 26 June :: 8.09pm
:: Music: [i hate everything about you: three days grace]
Name three random colors:
1. Black
2. White
3. Pink
Your name is: Alisha
You love: Steve
You want: ramen noodles.. -yummie-
You wish: i hadn't broken my memory card formy digi cam =(
You have: a lip ring.
You need: a hug.
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werealljaded
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2004 26 June :: 3.53pm
i just woke up...yeah, that's right, at 3:50 in the afternoon....man, i live the rock star lifestyle! lol. i feel like a bum, but oh well, that's what days off are for. matt left his phone in my car, and because i'm a girl....i had to go through it, i mean DUH. nothing too bad, a few things from a few weeks ago that i could have gone without seeing.
last night, i went to a show with him, but when we got there we found out it was 21+, and it was all the way in miami so it wasn't like i could just drop him off and then come back. so i waited....and waited..and waited. yeah, i waited for over 3 hours. wasted a shit load of gas that is about 22.00 per gallon, and listened to about 100 cd's. but matt did keep comming out to keep me company, he basically only went in for like 1.5 bands. he felt bad, and says we're going to do something tonight to make up for it. i wonder what his plans are
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[ 0x-FwAh-Em-ChAn-x0 ]
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2004 23 June :: 2.39pm
:: Mood: Stuff
:: Music: Bumblebbe -- Bambee
Fillet-outter
Name three random colors:
1. Green
2. Purple
3.Black
Your name is: Emily
You love: Dr. Pepper
You want: Dr. Pepper
You wish: money grew on trees
You have: long fingernails
You need: Dr. Pepper
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werealljaded
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2004 22 June :: 5.12pm
i want something that you can never give me... your heart
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werealljaded
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2004 21 June :: 4.28pm
i come home from work lunch break and there is no water in my house and the power is shut off in my room. i find out that my brother almost had a fire in his room bc of all the power he uses, so he had to switch off the power to that side of the house, and my mom is testing to water meter to see if there is a leak, so no water either....who likes comming home to this, honestly. i WAS in a good mood..and i dunno, even though i guess it's not a big deal, i'm fucking argg now. i just feel like screaming fuck a million times. and my dad being a complete dick as usual doesnt help..see what happens when i run out of money and have to come home on lunch breaks.. it sucks..eat me
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2004 21 June :: 1.30am
:: Music: taking back sunday
"i know you enough to know you never loved me" what an amazing fucking lyric
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werealljaded
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2004 19 June :: 5.07pm
:: Music: elevator music
i am in the IMAC store in the adventura mall......haha, it's pretty sad in this day and age, you go to the mall, and you're still goig on the internet... i know, i know.. i'm just soo flippin cool. i want one of these lab tops... it's so fast, i mean there is no loading time at all..click and then BOOM, you're there.
okay, enough about that. i went to visit matt at lunch today, i'm such a loser- i drove 40 minutes to spend 30 eating with him. now i am hangning out with Jon and the mall..... hmm.. i saw laz from myspace working in a store, i said i, and that was about it bc i am timid and shy, i know hard to believe, but i am when it comes to meeting new guys.....whatever
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2004 19 June :: 1.52am
:: Music: my own drunken thoughts
What she wouldn't give for another chance - but he's to lovely
and we're to ugly.
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2004 18 June :: 4.04pm
:: Music: Juliana Theory
I'm at Jake- A.K.A. Idaho's house...he moved into a condo righ tinbetween the intercoastal and the beach...and he's on the 14th floor, so it has the sweetest view ever. i want a cool little chill crib like this.
Idaho is one of my best friends, he was suppossed to be gone until august, but he came home two months early....i'm so glad he did, he's my bitch buddy. i tell him the grossest girl stuff and he just laughs at me. it's great.....
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Im-sorry
[ illusionofgaia ]
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2004 18 June :: 12.46am
:: Mood: d(^^)
:: Music: The Mars Volta
New stuff...
I wrote in my journal. I did some free writing again. This time its really hard to get. It has a whole different meaning to it then what it says. Lets just say its about emotions and not actual mythology. also please forgive me if i am wrong about some of the mythology stuff. well yeh thats about it. fucking emotional hardcore. tata - aaron paul
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2004 17 June :: 5.40pm
i am back to being anti-emo....haha, i will keep telling myself that and wait to see if maybe it is possible to brain wash myself... i doubt it. it's just that if things don't work out, it means that i wasted four months. i was told that all this stuff is used as learning experiences...the only thing i have learned is NOT to wait for a guy, and never think anyone is a sweetheart, bc everyone sucks, we were born that way. i think we all have good intentions about most things, but we all have that little black spot in our hearts that likes to prevail every once in a while. i am sick of getting that little black dot. it sucks, oo well.
i hate my job... i know, bitch bitch bitch, all i ever do is bitch. but i wouldn't be writing in here if i didn't need o vent. serisouly. putting ym moans into words is the only way to get rid of my stress.... you should see my desk at work, good thing i can lock it. all my papers with little scribbles of how fucked up i am feeling at that moment. it jsut sucks, bc writting may make me feel better for about an hour, but it's still all pent up inside of me. and i keep everything pent up, and then once in a while.i just burst. yesturday i bursted. BIG TIME. like REALLY big time. and i came off as a big idiot....YAY for me!
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2004 17 June :: 1.48pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: n-o-n-e
everybody come back
W E L C O M E B A C K
H A M O N
ok here we are june 17th 2004 its summer and today is the day i get everybody to come back to woohu, i just read my past 20 entries and read what i was feeling then for my guy friends alex, ricky pat, joe and past ex's like anna, nicole and jessica and i really need to keep this journal running cuz now i feel bad for neglecting it. so here we go:
i passed junior year, i am officially a senior
no more french bitch
i am currently driving my sisters toyota corolla until i buy my new car, i'm gunna try and get another MP5 or an A4.
summers been pretty great so far, i got in trouble a few times with joe. but were getting through.
i am currently working two jobs, at coldstone and chucke cheese, i'll be working both until i can get a job at WEST BOCA Community hospital where i'll be getting paid 11 an hour.
Powerline played thier first show at thomas's birthday party it was great me and pat are discussing the next show.
brittany tiff sept and mom are doing alright.
Ricky is dating this girl Maria they have been together for quite some time.
Alex is still with Emily, she is at camp highlander right now so alex has alot more freetime to hang out with his best friend.
i have to fart (AHH)
i the mitz of getting al excited of wiriting back in here i for got half of the stuff i was going to write in here, soo you can be sure you'll se me write in here again.
-Payce
-H-Bomb
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