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2004 6 May :: 12.55am
:: Music: Motion City Soundtrack -F'in amazing
Veggie Tales saved my night
So, i was on my way to pick up Nathan today to head on out to the Story of the Year and motion city soundtrack show, when i heard the Buzz radio station saying that story of the year is in the studio giving away their guest passes and to call in and answer some questions to see if you could get in. well, i called...and it wasnt busy... and i talked them. the first question was to name two members of hoobastank (however you spell it), and i said that i don't listen to them.. then one of the guys screamed out..do you like veggie tales. what a rando friggin question. it's a christian cartoon and it's AMAZING, but no one has ever really heard of it, so i thought it was cool that of all questions, that was mine. Phil, was the only guy in the band who knew the show, i could hear the rest in the backround saying, "what's veggie tales?". haha, i bet nobody else would have known what he was talking about. So Phil, thanks for asking such a dumb ass question that i bet you didn't think i would know the answer to.
so i sold my ticket, then when i got there, they told me that each quest could bring one person, so i grabbed someone and told them i'd get them in for 10 bones, and it worked. SWEET.
i have enver won anything, so it was cool. and i heard myself on the radio liek an hour later...and my phone rang right after from ashley saying she just heard me..it was awesome. lol.....
nathan might be getting a condo in Dray in august, i mgiht move in. he's a cool kid, known him for like four years... should be sweet.
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2004 4 May :: 3.13pm
maybe he's not the person i thought he was... i hate that. in life, no one is EVER who you think they are. you get someone all figured out and then WHAM, the total opposite.
i need a new distraction.....
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2004 3 May :: 7.58pm
:: Music: if you don't like being hurt, then please don't stay- matchbox 20
i guess i like being hurt....
today has just been one of those days. and i'm not even pmsing! i am stressing out over everything, school, work, money, online classes, everything.... lets see WHY i am stressing.
SCHOOL: i need to raise my GPA in 7 days, impossible
WORK: i can only work 2 days this week so my boss hates me
MONEY: ohh man, i need 120 in addition to the 60 i already paid for the prom limo, money for my hiar and nails, for partying afterwards, my car insurance was due last week, i'm out of gas money, i need 30 for senior week tickets, 40 for a text book i lost, EVERYTHING...fucking A.
i have to finsih my online class by tomarrow night, argggg
andi keep doing little things to hurt myself and dropping and breaking things, anything else bad want to happen today...bring it on!
my dad is on a trip. huge trip, biggest one in a while. mexico sound good to anyone?
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2004 3 May :: 5.58pm
The Only One by M. Etheridge
Please baby can't you see
My mind's a burnin' hell
I got razors a rippin' and tearin' and strippin'
My heart apart as well
Tonight you told me
That you ache for something new
And some other woman is lookin' like something
That might be good for you
Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone
Go on believe her when she tells you
nothing's wrong
But I'm the only one
Who'll walk across the fire for you
I'm the only one
Who'll drown in my desire for you
It's only fear that makes you run
The demons that you're hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I'm the only one
Please baby can't you see
I'm trying to explain
I've been here before and I'm locking the door
And I'm not going back again
Her eyes and arms and skin won't make
it go away
You'll wake up tomorrow and wrestle the sorrow
That holds you down today
Go on and hold her till the screaming is gone
Go on believe her when she tells you
nothing's wrong
But I'm the only one
Who'll walk across the fire for you
I'm the only one
Who'll drown in my desire for you
It's only fear that makes you run
The demons that you're hiding from
When all your promises are gone
I'm the only one
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2004 2 May :: 5.16pm
my rents were out of town this weekend. good times! it was nice sleeping with him in a comfy bed, not a couch or a twin sized. i don't know how things are with him, i am clueless. we like each other, but i am still trying to hold my ground and be "anti-emo". i just know not to get my hopes up. i
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2004 29 April :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: Moody
:: Music: "Going Under" -- Evanescence
Give me three random colors
1. Blue
2. White
3. Black
Your name is: Jessica Xing Tin
You love: my friends
You want: happiness
You wish: I could be happy <.<
You have: no talent o.O
You need: silence @@
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2004 28 April :: 10.39pm
i wonder where HE is right now. I wonder if HE looks back at HIS life and even remember me, or if HE is too fucked up.
i know i shouldn't care. HE shouldn't be creeping into my head, HE doesn't matter. But, HE does. it sucks.
Every once in a while, one of those songs come on, and HE pops into my head. In 17 years, i have had one two minute phone conversation with HIM. and HE was drunk.
sometimes i think about looking HIM up, but i am so afraid that HE won't know who the fuck i am, or i will be disappointed by the person HE has become, even though HE was never that great.
it's just that... for a few years, things were so bad at home, that i would be afraid to even walk through those doors, i was always bummed and emo and gay. And for two years, the only thing that made it all bearable, was the thought of moving out as soon as high school is over, and going and meeting the FATHER who was meant to be mine.
things have cooled down at home now, i like it here, don't want to move out right away. but i would still like to find him. but i'm scared. anyone want to coem with me?? lol
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2004 28 April :: 1.41pm
it takes all the strength i have to look at you and lie to myself by telling myself that i don't want to be with you.
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2004 27 April :: 9.43pm
what is the world coming too??
I am in line at the bank, and these two kids that i guess havn't seen each other for a while were in line behind me. I'd say about 19-20. boy number one asks number 2 "so how are you man?" and number two says "i'm great, just bought a new thunderbird and a great apartment on the beach"....boy number two was acting all cocky and high class.
this got me thinking. why is it that we live in a world today that how are you isn't a question about your family or yourself per say, but about your bank account? who gives a fuck about your new car, are you happy or healthy, that's what i mean when i ask how someone is. fuck america
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2004 26 April :: 1.24pm
have you ever had one of those days where you just NEEDED attention. i am in one of those moods. in the last 30 minutes, my mood went from great to the floor. fuck everything, in this little game of life, you never win, yo unever pass go, and always get sent to jail.
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2004 25 April :: 4.43pm
honestly, i love kids. some of my 27 cousins are over my house right now- all under the age of 5. two five year olds, one three and one two..... victoria is five and i havn't seen her in over a year, and guess who she was asking for as soon as she came to our house?? ME <3. i love that, i am like their favorite cousin and cling to me so much, but i love it. seeing a cute kid warms my heart up so much.
i used to work in a day care center, for about three years. working with children is the only thing i am good at. that is why i want to be a social worker when i am older. i want to help little defensless children. the world is a fucked up place and i hate how kids so young are involvied with it. so, i am goign to be broke forever, and i will prbably be depressed too, b/c i know you can't save every child so social workers get bummed about that. but even if i only help one person, it makes me being here worth while.
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2004 25 April :: 3.43pm
"you suck"
oo man. grad night was friday. disney was awesome, hardly any lines- and lots of cute people from all over. but the bus ride sucked, so i couldn't fall asleep on the way home, and then i had moi z fest, so i basiclaly didnt slleep for two days. good stuff
last night was weird. i went to the show, and then to kerry's house. it was fun, everyone was drinking and smoking and eating burgers, ribs, and hot dogs (seriously, i am so high class, i could eat that meal for the rest of my life). and he was being nice, and it was nice. but every time he would say something nice, i would just remember how he isn't always like that, and that he can/ has hurt me. and my guard stays up. i like it better this way, at least i know i am not all emo over him anymore. i hated feeling like that towards him. i was too open to get stabbed. but last night was fun, tickle wars and such- and i know i do still like him, but it's just a little like- it's not the kind where he is capable of hurting me anymore. it's just all fun
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2004 23 April :: 4.40pm
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