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2004 12 February :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: led zepplin
|Last|
movie you bought = save the last dance
song you listened to = maps...ignition- rkelly, haha
song that was stuck in your head = this love- maroon5
cd you listened to = les miserables..lol
person you've called = OD
tv show you've watched = friends
person you were thinking of = richie
|Do|
you have a crush on someone = yup<3
you wish you could live somewhere else= anywhere but erock
you think about suicide = i have
you believe in online dating = no but long distance relationships
others find you attractive = some
you want more piercings = eh kinda
you like cleaning = I HATE IT
you like roller coasters = nah
you write in cursive or print = a combination
|For|Or|Against|
long distance relaships= for
using someone= against
suicide = against
teenage smoking = as ciara would say - whatever bakes your cookies
driving drunk = against
soap operas = against
|Have|You|
ever cried over a someone of the opposite sex = yeah...
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah
ever been arrested = almost
|What|
shampoo do you use = herbal essances
shoes do you wear = silver and white etnies
|Number|
of times I have had my heart broken = three times
of hearts I have broken = a couple? maybe none..
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = about 10
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = 3 or 4
of scars on my body = like 1
of things in my past that I regret= almost about everything i've done
|Do|You|Think|You're|
funny - sometimes
hot - eh
friendly - ocassionally
amusing - sure why not?
loveable - to some people
caring - very
sweet - yes
dorky - haha YEAH
|Favorite|
5 letter word: bitch
Cartoon: rocket power
Cereal: life-cinnamon
Chewing gum: winterfresh
Color(s):black red
Day of week: saturday
Least fav day: monday
Special skills/talents: idk
Summer/Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: both!
|Person|Who|Last|
Called you: frankie
IMed you: amy
Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: amy
Made you cry: my mom
Yelled at you: mommy
Said they love you: richie
Hugged you: eddie
Kissed you: idk
|Have|You|Ever|
Said "I love you" and meant it: yeahh
Gone out in public in your pajamas: haha yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: no, at least one person ALWAYS knew
Cried during a movie: yeah
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: nope
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: not at all
Been on stage: yeahhh
Been to New York: yeah, i live here dumbasses
Been to California: yes
Hawaii: nope
Canada: yeahhhhh
Europe: nopessss
Wished you were the opposite sex: occasionally
|Random|
Apples or bananas: bananas
Blue or red: red
Walmart or target: Target
Spring or Fall: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this: put it in my woohu
High school or college: im in high school...
Are you bored: yes, very
Last noise you heard: me typing
Last smell you sniffed: lemon sherbet
Last time you went out of state/province: veterans day weekend (salem mass)
|Friendship|Love|
Do you believe in love at first sight: not really
Do you want children one day & if so, how many: i want like 2 or 3
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust,honesty
What does love mean to you: uhhh
Do you love somebody?: yes, i do.
|Other|Info|
Criminal record: nahh
Do you speak any other languages: nopes
Last book you read: some book in school
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: my computer
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: a ton of things
Worst feeling in the world: having someone close to you pass away <3
Who are you in love with: FUCK YOU
Who do you miss: od and richie
|Me|
Nickname(s): riss,rissa,rissy,mariss,marizzle,rizzle,riss-ma
Initials: MF
How old do you look: umm depending on who your asking
How old do you act: my age
Glasses/Contacts: nope
Do you have any pets: a cat
You get embarrassed: yeahh
What makes you happy: my friends,diet peach snapple
What upsets you: i dont know...
|Finish|The Sentence|
I Love to - go to concerts
I Miss - richie and OD
I Wish - he was here<3
I Hope - one day i will find someone to love me
I'm Annoyed by - my sisters
I Am - ugly
I Want to Be - with him<3
I Would Never - make someone cry on purpose
I'd Rather - be having fun
I Am Tired of - being so cliche
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2004 12 February :: 5.41pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: maroon5
valentines day comes with...
depression, when you dont have a boyfriend or someone to spend the day with :-/
well, whats new? depression?, thats nothing new thats just something that i have to deal with but whatever. today is thursday and i have one more day to go before vacation..
school was ok today we had a party for joan (my principal) for her birthday. at lunch denise asked me to go outside and asked if i wanted a cigarette, i accepted. i went outside and smoked with denise,laura,ciara, kendall,danielle and cj. it was aright i guess?
kendall asked me if i smoked weed and i said no and then he asked me if i did e and i said i used to and then he told me he could get me a pill for 5 and im like 'haha its not worth it i could get it cheaper' and hes like 'you can?' and im like, 'yeah, my ex boyfriend sells and he can give me for free' haha school is fun as hell. i had 2 periods off because my teacher was out so all we did was watch part of a movie and listen to music. i love school, i can see myself getting out of highschool with REALLY good grades and im excited that maybe i can get into a better college than i thought i could.
iheartrichieandod<3
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2004 12 February :: 3.23pm
:: Mood: dorky
:: Music: suga suga how you get so flllyyy<33
A little bit of me just wanted to be beautiful.
Let's see, haven't updated in woohu, in a while. I kinda miss woohu, I should start balancing it btwn livejournal, we'll see.
Oh i just have to say, CHRISTINA DRUCKER gets the award for best woohu-er cause she's the only one who updates enough! <33
So nothing new in my life, I like my job, at first i did, than i hated it for like 2 weeks, but i like it now, a lot. I like the pay<3 and I like the ppl I work with, La and Steph<33.
I like a boy, but I'm not gonna worry about it like i normally do, ya know? And Saturday, I'm just gonna keep myself VERY busy, so this way I don't think about what's going on around me. THe only thing that sucks is that I'm working Saturday night, at a restaurant which means, couple after couple will be walking in :-(.
But maybe after, Lauren? Stripper anyone? lmfao, jk ;]
I'm off to straighten my hair for work.
<3mandyy
x to the o.
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2004 11 February :: 10.35pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: watching the idiot box instead...BOY MEETS WORLD
instant message with brookieface
HopeGetsYouDown: we all take our shit differently
HopeGetsYouDown: my way is to act like it doesn't bother me
DaNcEr 4 LiFe 37: ya i know.. i didnt cry and i didnt flip on him.. as of right now im sure hes oblivious.. i didnt make it obvious..
HopeGetsYouDown: yeah
HopeGetsYouDown: but if you feel it, then tell him
DaNcEr 4 LiFe 37: your a chick steph and ur freakin 17 years old.. u CAN get emotional somtimes.. its OK to cry and its OK to get upset over stupid things.
HopeGetsYouDown: i wish it were that easy for me
HopeGetsYouDown: i just dont know how to turn myself on
DaNcEr 4 LiFe 37: but it is..its really not healthy to keep everything so hidden and bottled up
DaNcEr 4 LiFe 37: ill turn u on baby ;-)
HopeGetsYouDown: it's just the healthiest thing i know how to do you know
DaNcEr 4 LiFe 37: i just dont understand it
HopeGetsYouDown: me either
DaNcEr 4 LiFe 37: ACT UR AGEEEEE BEE 17!!!
DaNcEr 4 LiFe 37: like u do act 17
DaNcEr 4 LiFe 37: but wen it comes to opening up and being emotional u dont
HopeGetsYouDown: welcome to my life lol
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2004 11 February :: 6.16am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: story of the year
well, school yesterday was nothing special. i went to school and went through the day like always then i took the bus back to east rockaway high school and then from there walked to the train with my mom. thennn we took the train to island park and went to pick up the lincoln (which was in an accident and had to be repaired) and we found out it was about 4400 in damage...wow. well, after that we went to pick up some papers that my mom had to fill out,drove to the diner,then my mom drove back to my aunts to pick my sisters up and then we took them back to my dads house. my mom and my dad left the house for like an hour and a half and i had to babysit for them. ugh.
well, after that my mom and i went to CVS to pick up my pictures that i had left there.
one question:
does it make sense that one hour photo is cheaper than overnight? and if so- why would people want overnight printing? ...
im really confused about that but yeah whatever it doesn't really matter, blahhhh
iheartrichie<3
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2004 10 February :: 9.24pm
:: Mood: bummed
:: Music: the used....thanks brooke
singles awareness day is comming up...
"you'll die alone and unloved"........it was a line peter pan said to hook in the final battle scene. (what a good movie). well that kind of got to me.
for the longest time that was my biggest fear in life, thinking i didn't deserve to be loved,(thanks dad) so i didn't think it would ever happen to me,.....
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2004 10 February :: 6.58pm
This community just felt kind of lonely, so I have a question for all of you.
What is your most vivid memory of pie?
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2004 10 February :: 12.11am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
school today was...
fine.
ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.
bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled
when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.
iheartrichie<3
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2004 9 February :: 11.50pm
I hate being sick, this sucks so much :-(
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2004 8 February :: 9.06pm
:: Mood: insecure
:: Music: mtv nothign but rock videos
i wonder where you are now?
father of mine
tell me where have you been
you know i just closed my eyes
my whole world disappeared
father of mine
take me back to the day
when i was still your golden boy
back before you went away
i remember blue skies
walking the block
i loved it when you held me high
i loved to hear you talk
you would take me to the movie
you would take me to the beach
you would take me to a place inside
that is so hard to reach
father of mine
tell me where did you go
you had the world inside your hand
but you did not seem to know
father of mine
tell me what do you see
when you look back at your wasted life
and you don't see me
i was ten years old
doing all that i could
it wasn't easy for me
to be a scared white boy
in a black neighborhood
sometimes you would send me a birthday card
with a five dollar bill
i never understood you then
and i guess i never will
daddy gave me a name
my dad he gave me a name
then he walked away
daddy gave me a name
then he walked away
my dad he gave me a name
father of mine
tell me where have you been
i just closed my eyes
and the world disappeared
father of mine
tell me how do you sleep
with the children you abandoned
and the wife i saw you beat
i will never be safe
i will never be sane
i will always be weird inside
i will always be lame
now i'm a grown man
with a child of my own
and i swear that i'm not going to let her know
all the pain i have known
then he walked away
daddy gave me a name
then he walked away
my dad he gave me a name
then he walked away
daddy gave me a name
then he walked away
my dad he gave me a name
then he walked away
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2004 8 February :: 4.48pm
Opinion's needed.
OKay, so in my room right now my bed is a twin soft waterbed meaning its a mattress with a zipper and then a waterbed inside. IT's cool, it's fun, i love it. ((same bed i've had basically my whole life)). My mom just bought herself a new bed, and she wants to give me her old one which is a queen waterbed. I think it might be better cause it's bigger/longer. But, I dunno how I feel about getting rid of my bed. What do ya'll think I should do?
<3mandyy
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2004 5 February :: 10.53pm
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: backstreet boys<3
Maybe things aren't as bad as I make them be, maybe I should start looking past things.
Jackie said to me today, that maybe I'm over analyzing a situation. It made me realize, all I do is over-analyze. I think that's my problem. I think I just need to sit back, relax, and just go with the flow. Maybe that's my problem? I dont know, but I dont think listening to these "love songs" and all this other sad stuff around me can help my situation. I'm going to make a goal for myself, I'm gonna try hard too. I'm going to try and change, but for the better. I'm going to try and sit back and just let things take place, stop getting attached, and attempt to be a little more outgoing. I'm going to try and quit old, bad habits, and maybe I can take in some new good ones. So thank you for everyone who has caused my sadness, and thank you to those who have done nothing but help. I think I just needed a wake up call, and I think today I might have gotten one. Will see where this goes.
<3mandyy
x to the o.
p.s. Ryan, I didn't lie, I promise. I was installing this SAT prep thing, and once it was done my mom came in wanting to look at it. I'll tell you, I promise, I wasn't lying. =)
p.s.s. Jackie, thank you, for all my bullshit, Imma make it up to you, how about that parking lot driving on Saturday<333
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2004 5 February :: 10.27am
can you tell i was bored like whoa??
i<3richieandod
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2004 5 February :: 6.26am
:: Mood: sick as hell
:: Music: anal cunt
holy shit i feel sick :-/
omgggg i feel fucking sick as hell and i cant go to school otherwise i will SERIOUSLY die. omg i will kill myself i feel so sick. shit, i hope they don't kick me out for 30 days while im on this education probation :-/ ahh fuck it they wont, all the teachers are like in love with me - haha. :)
sooo yesterday was not a bad day.
busride to bocessat by myself because nikki wasn't on the bus.
busride to pacesat next to matt and listened to the 'fuck me,make love to me' song by uhh ludacris? haha its soo funny!!!
1st period-BBAdid some excel shit, and just chilled around on the computers ...
2nd period-SSdid some worksheet with ciara and the other new girl and then did another 3 worksheets on my own
3rd period-healthwowww fun ass class, haha theres about 17 kids in this class and its like a regular class and mr. reiss is the teacher and so far its a fun class considering i've already finished taking high school health..HMMMMMMMM.
4th period-englishworked on questions after reading a 3 page version of julius caesar yesterday in class, i sat next to eric and he's really really nice.
5th period-mathwent to mrs. neumans and worked on assignment 3 of which i did wrong, SHIT.
6th period-lunchate a bagel with paul and then nikki,kerry,and eric came in and ate. i always just sit around with connie or sit in the 'health,intro to occ,art room' because thats our 'cafeteria' lol. i don't want to go outside because i know i will smoke a cigarette and i really dont want to but oh well if it happens it happens..right?
7th periodearth science, my teacher, scott, is really nice and we worked on a lab
8th period-intro to occmy teacher (jonny b) is nice but old and annoying. we worked on some sheet and i met denise who is from glen cove and is supposedly really good friends with colin- oh gd...
9th period-economicsi talked to denise alittle more and she's really nice the we did some worksheet and then mr. reiss came in and we talked about how denise was from amsterdam and she smoked a lot of pot there..haha funny ass shit.
busride to bocessat with matt again and jamie wanted to fight im not sure who?
busride to erockhe got on the bus and my heart like fuckin melted<3
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2004 3 February :: 11.14pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: dj sammy
borderline
Which Personality Disorder Do You Have?
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the sad part is..this kinda describes me :-/
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