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[ 0x-FwAh-Em-ChAn-x0 ]
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2004 29 September :: 2.09pm
:: Mood: Iffy
:: Music: Bicyle -- Queen
Stress
Give me three random colors
1. White
2. Blue
3. Red
Your name is: Akuma-chan
You love: Mon, the lovely hippie Bonsai plant
You want: to quit toying with his heart.
You wish: that I wasn't such a whore ><
You have: a rather clean room, a project, some more homework, and a few comics to trace over in pen and scan
You need: time to stop, so I may complete tasks as I feel needed..
with a smile on my face
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Im-Sorry
[ godessalthena ]
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2004 25 September :: 10.24pm
:: Mood: apathetic
I'm sorry that I can't be a human.
I'm sorry I can't make you happy.
I'm sorry I'm selfish.
I'm sorry I'm stupid.
I'm sorry I exist.
2 kissed me to die |
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werealljaded
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2004 3 September :: 12.40pm
so, this is the first time since the 1950's that Florida has been hit twice by a hurricane in the same season. This hurricane is predicted to cause the most expensive clean-up in american history, says the red cross. This is fucking scary. these things never bother me, we get hurricane warning and threats and whatever every year. but the news is hinting very strongly that this is the worst hurricane in a WHILE. GREATTTT. my roof is going to fly off, my yard is a corner lot with a sewer drain so the whole blocks water ends up in my yard... my house is the first to flood because that drain overflows in just everyday rainfall, what about this?? eeek
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werealljaded
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2004 31 August :: 3.45pm
i started work today at fridays... i used to work there and left in january, i'm glad that i'm back. i forgot how much i love that job. it just sucks because my favorite manager (the one who hired me) left today for a different store, it sucks ass. i hope the new guy is cool. i'm excited to be back to working with julia, she kicks ass.
i got my tatoo on friday, it's so gross and scabby now.. eek. like i don't even want to show anyone because of how it looks.
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skittlicious
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2004 30 August :: 6.47am
I still like him, I still want him around. I miss his 2am phone calls, I miss the beach at ngiht with him, I miss him hanging out w/ me and my friends. And I can't stadn the fact that he won't talk to me, fuck you, immature bitch.
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werealljaded
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2004 29 August :: 6.53pm
i just wish he realized that i can't pretend to be happy all the time and i can't always bite my tongue. every once in a while i want to say how i feel, even if he doesn't like it.
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werealljaded
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2004 24 August :: 5.22pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: yellowcard
i wonder where i am going. you know, the long track. i feel like i am walking through a marathon and i'm not going to catch up to everyone else. all my friends are enrolled at one college or another, and classes started this week. i have been hanging out with lauren a little bit at the FAU campus down the street from my house, and i'm so jealous. it all seems so exciting. high school is over, it's supposed to be my time to step up and try to make it in the big world. i'm just being a bum.
i don't even know what i want to do- i have so many wants. i want to be a high school teacher. i want to be a social worker and save the world one kid at a time. then, my risky side dares to dream of being a model/ actress. i want to be known. it would be awesome for people to turn on the tv and hear my name. and if i was rich, then i could help other people better. when i get to thinking like that, i just want to slap myself. i am from humble roots and could never make it big- i know this, but it's still kinda nice to want.
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Im-Sorry
[ Silvos ]
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2004 21 August :: 2.34am
Damn
I'm bleeding.
Red blood, I think.
I am sorry.
2 kissed me to die |
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skittlicious
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2004 18 August :: 9.03pm
its official, i was not meant to be happy.
ASDHFJSDK
2 kissed me to die |
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werealljaded
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2004 14 August :: 3.10pm
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: as i lay dying
it's a pretty good day. i slept in a little bit, drove 45 minutes to spend 30 minutes with matt on his lunch break just to turn around and drive another 45 minutes home. i do it at least once a week, but it is worth it. i love that bitch. now i am hanging out at my house until 4ish when i am going to the dolphin game. although they don't have many good players and are probably going to loose. oh well, it's the first sold out pre-season game in 17 years....70, 000 people watching a bunch of third string players, people are dumb... go home and BBQ, it's cheaper. i got free tickets so i'm taking the little brother.
my parents are going out of town next saturday for a week... PARTAYYY. i can't wait.
i went to a strip club for the first time on wednesday night. platinum showgirls.. yum, i went with matt and jon and joe and kerry. it was cool, me and 4 guys hitting the strip club. i thought it was cool that i could go with my boyfriend to a place liek that. i didn't freak or get jealosu or anything. he can't touch the girls and the whole thing just made him wnat ME more because his hormones were runing wild. lol. i got a lap dance from Natalia....all the guys thought she was the hottest. to be honest, i didn't want matt getting a dance from her, too hot. but he got alexis, she was a hottie too. we both have the same taste in chicks. not that i am a lesbian or anything, i mean OBVIOUSLY i like boys, i would just much rather see a girl dancing around naked then a guy. girls just have such nicer bodies then men. it was awesome, but kinda a waste of money, 20 bucks for a 3 minute dance, man they have the best job in the world. hehe. umm minus the getting naked and trying to act hot in front of a bunch of old dirty drunk men. i could never do that, matt's the only guy that's ever even see me totally naked, i couldn't imagine showing a hundred guys a night. eek, not my thing.
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werealljaded
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2004 11 August :: 1.08am
matt is lying in my bed... i probably should be with him, but i can't sleep. she sent him a freinds thing on myspace.. she deleted him a while back and now wants to be friends again. i am a little worried, i know it's dumb, but i am. i'm with him now.. he's got me. but that also means that she'll always be his "what if". i'm not sure what is better, being with him, or the one he'd always wonder what it would have been
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Im-Sorry
[ Jaganshi ]
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2004 3 August :: 4.39pm
What would we be doing if we were alone in my room right now?
Post this in your journal to see what people want to do with you
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skittlicious
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2004 2 August :: 7.46pm
I miss freshman year so much. I was thinking about it today, and I got sad. I miss my friends from then...the six of us. I miss it so much. fuck growing up.
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werealljaded
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2004 2 August :: 5.17pm
last night was the cutest thing ever... i walk out of wrk, and guess who is parked next to me?? matt drove all the way from home to my work (45 min) to give me an i love you card. awww i wanted to ball, it was the nicest/ cutest thing anyone has ever done for me. it meant so much. i can't get over how great it feels having someone there for you, someone who gets you, someone who loves you..it's an amazing feeling. i <3 him
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werealljaded
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2004 27 July :: 1.54pm
:: Mood: discontent
i NEED a new effin car! i'm on my way home today and about a mile from my house, i notice a LOT of smoke coming from my lovely peice of shit. i get about 3 blocks from my house when i decided i had to pull over. but, to my surprise, my radiator back-up was full. so... guess who needs a new water pump?? yeah, guess who needs a whole new car. it's so depressing, i work 40 hours a week, making pretty damn good money, and i can't even afford a nicer car. of well. in two months i'm 18, and maybe i can get a new car. this suckssssss.. i am really bummed out. why can't anything ever fucking work for me. every day i find something else wrong that i need to fix, i can't spend money on it, i won't be able to sell it for that much as it is. arggggg
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