yesterday morning to afternoon i was tanning and swimming with my doggies haha. than i helped my mom prepare for her company and than i just got all ready so that i dont look like a loser around them and embarass my mom so i changed out of my PJ's and did my hair anyway last night i again went to the bridge, they were having a concert and i wasnt going to go and stephanie wanted me to go so she came back to get me lol than i went and i got there at like 930 alot of people i didnt know would be there was there like tim-tim, carlos and candice, sara and steph K. it was really fun bc me n sara were singing to tim-tim's guitar than he left and we sang with no music and candice did too. than like other people came and were like formally introducing us and singing with us and people were looking at us wierd lol and some other kids were clapping it was great haha than i went home with carlos and candice and it was pretty fun! i sang alot yay! lol ummm kk well im watching balto nd me n jake are finally actually talking so i guess its good that i got another friend!! yay okk byee

today was soo great.. except sad bc of the seniors leaving... aww it is sad seeing themn all cry. anyways look at how funny this is

-Bryan- mom, can i go early to take a drink from the fountain im parched
-Mrs OB- no you can wait.. drink from the sink
-Bryan- ok {drinks from the sink}
-Mrs OB- ewww...
-Bryan- that tasted sciency..ok now i need to drink clean water can i leave
-Mrs OB- no
Bryan- this is a life or death situation mom
{the bell rings and bryan RUNS out the door down the hall, drinks than screams YES!}

yepp lol well tonight was fun... i went to the bridge and it was really fun. i went with sara and her friend steph. yepp well idk what to write about so ill stop ok bye haha

lol today was such a bad day but it was funny we had senior awards and justin baker got picked on alot so did justine... that was mean what they did to her lol ... ok it started when i was delivering a note in 4th period and i tripped over the teachers tape recorder and fell on my face it was kinda embarrassing but it was funny. than later in the period cynthia gave me a ping pong game and i was ponging the ball againts the racket and joy broke it and threw the ball across the courtyard so i screamed and ran after it while people are staring at me lilke im drunk. ok after that i spilt ice tea ALL OVER ME and i was soaked. i laughed so hard bc some got on britt too lol. ok and than switching some guy ran into me with a cup of water and again i got water on me. ok i laughed again.. than i went to the table for my other break period and i got a cup of water and wow the cup had a hole in it lol so it was squirting all over me and donnie was laughing at me what a loser lol. and the other thing is my locker wouldnt open and i just made it to 8th period during the bell ringing. lol on the way home i was telling richard my mom and dad and jordan what was going on and jordan and my dad were pretending to sleep so i hit them with my ping pong thing that broke 8 times and got stapled and tied and whatever else i did lol HOLY CRAP THE CAT IN THE HAT IS ON THE COMMERCIAL I HATE THAT THING IT SHOULD DIE!!! IT IS SCARY!!!!!! sorry disregard that. ok than richard tried to be cool and do what they were doing so i hit him harder bc i still hate him and i hope he dies a slow painful horrible death (naaa thats pretty mean i take that back) i just hope he moves to china or something. ok continuing than i did homework and layed down the whole day it was pretty calm

alot happened.. friday ashley and britt came home with me and we did or world history video bc we had a 1/2 day. than erica and her cousins... dalton and erin came over and so did lauren for like 10 seconds after, i went to the bridge with brittaney, kelly and later on carlos came too. but me and kelly ran out in the rain.. nothing big or special really happened but it was fun. saturday me and brittaney went to the movies and saw mean girls. im scared of school buses!! than we went to belltower her mom met us there and i sat on the counter in the bathroom and my whoooole butt got wet! it was really funny. ok than i went home got all redid or whatever and went to ericas house and went skateboarding with her and they found a shopping cart and me and erica were pushing erin in it trying to make logan and dalton fall off their bikes. we went to ericas ate like pigs.. stood out in the rain again and went back to my house and stayed there and hung out. she went home about 1130 and my parents got home at 12 i was on the phone with sara all night. today i woke up and cleaned my room. erica called me and asked me if i wanted to go outside so i did and erin and erica found a tree house so we stayed there and explored the other little forest things than we went under the bridge looking for dalton nd logan bc logan had my board. so than we found them i got my board and than i came home my mom made me go say sorry to russel for some wierd reason and i did. me n my mom than went shopping i didnt get anything except ice cream at mc donalds.. yeah the most scariest thing happened i was talking to the girl at the counder we headr a lound smash thing and the manager looked out the window and sazzed than ran outside with this other girl. ok so i was than informed some guy ran into a pole with his car... yeah ok. when it was time for me n my mom to leave there was 2 ambulences a fire truck and a cop car and they took the guy out he was freaking bleeding everywhere and i freaked out and i was like "mom your a nurse go over there!!" (i was at that point halfway crying bc i hate to see blood and i felt so horrible) so we left.. and went to albertsons and i helped her grocery shop.. i came home took a nap and now im online writing a journal thing. ok well ill talk you you all later bye bye

today was pretty fun and scary at the same time.. in first period deena joy brianne and brittany read the note and according to deena she wants to "kick her in the face" everyone else there did too.. mrs ob read it too and said she dosnt blame us lol. but sara wasnt at school so that gave me time to cool down.. and at the end of the day i saw her sitting down and brittany wanted to flick her off but i told her to let it go bc it will instgate and make matters worse and more pressure on me. haha everyday i go online and im scared im going to tell kelly why later tonight when she calls me. lets see.. i went to religion review until 320 with nikki and britt and brent tudored us it was really fun lol idk if we will individually pass the test but i know us 3 together we can at least make a B lol life is all gravy.. me kelly britt ashley and maybe deena and erica and more ppl that i dont feel like naming are all going to the bridge friday im happy bc they are really awesome are doing the video for world history and it will be fun than the plan is later on in the night we are going to go to the park at like 11 and take the camera and make a blair witch thing lol idk ok im prob going to write later bc im going to laurens bye bye

filling u in

-Sat-
wedding it was fun.. i guess there was some cute waiters there lol

sun
we went to the diner with the fluffy french toast again and left to go home

today-
school was pretty quick sara wrote me a note and said when jake asks her out she is going to say yes and he likes her (she said) and she dosnt care if we arent friends anymore... i really dont care bc i dont need a friend that lies backsabbes me and that i cant trust with anything. idk what she would do that to me.. she knows how much i like him and she is here promising me she wouldnt do it again she wouldnt talk to him she thinks hesan ass she hates him... THE GIRL FUCKING LIED TO ME again!! fuck you sara you really have no idea how much i want to like hurt you but i wont bc unlike you i have self control i have morals dignity and i care about others unlike you and like steph has told you YEA YOU ARE A SELF CENTERED BITCH just becasue you go out make out with him kiss him on my bday lie to me and everyone else about it. so u know YOU LOST ME AS A FRIEND FOREVER OBVIOUSLY YOU DONT CARE AND IM SORRY BUT WHEN U2 BREAK UP YOU WONT HAVE ME and trust me you made a big mistake. and so you know i showed alot of people the note you wrote me and lets say everyone that read it is like "im going to smack her" so why not put it here?

saras note (spelling grammer and everything)

Dear Lisa,
well, since you were in new york this weekend, i will tell you... i went to the bridge friday night originally going to learn how to play guitar... but things chancged when tim tim didnt show up till like and hr after i was there. i didnt know any1 except jake, alex and tim there... so i talked to them. i guess i forgot about playing guitar when tim and josh were trying to ollie over a trash-cans it was funny, they kept falling. w/e... ya i just talked to everyone i new.. and was bored for awhile. so i went over to see tim+alex+jake skateboard over 2 step-staircase.. ya then time + alex left us alone to talk... but that's not what happened.. we ended up making out but tims dad pulled up in a car+ we stopped+ walked back to the bridge... then later close to before he was leaving i sat in the back of stephs car + i ended up laying next to him... he kissed me on the lips. thats all we did besides seriously talk. thats what happened. yes i like him. tim tim said he liked me... so yes i would go out with him when he askes me out. yes i'm willing to take the risk of being hurt. im sorry if i hurt you i understand if you dont want to be my friend thats whine w/e i dont care i feel you have the right to know. i dont want the classes to feel wierd. i have realized what i did wrong. it is really bad me and jake discussed things he helped me realize everythin and we determined that it is too late to change andything i have done. i screwed myself
sincerely,
sara

yeah you SLUT you did screw yourself. dont talk to me anymore

i want to thank...
brittany cynthia brianne kelly steph erica nikki ashley joy and other people that i cant say 0:-) for helping me alot especially saying "that bitch is going down ima smack her"

sorry about the language and rage but i go here to vent and its how i really feel.. its better than killing someone isnt it?

ok im in NY im going to fill you in on everything starting on thursday ok

-thursday-
i went to school and it went by pretty quick.. than when i left i got attacked and hugged by people lol i felt sooo special :0) than i went in the car bc my uncle was bringing us to the airport and i was kinda in a wierd way in a bad mood bc i did not want to go to NY at all... so i was kinda cranky we were going through the thing where you go through the machine and you put your things on the machines and my mom ACCEDENTLY left her purse on so the guy yelled at her and gave her attitude.. well, that pissed ME off so i yelled at him for giving my mom attitude and i slammed my bag on the thing and stompped through the door thing. and the guy was like you almost beeped i yelled at him too but my dad pushed me and told me to shut up so i did lol and i saw a kid that looked like Steven WITH BRACES lol i was like wow!! haha sorry i had to add that. well than that night after the plane (the whole way me n my dad were punching eachother) we got to JFK and we took an air train to the car place at first i didnt hold on and i went flying backwards on it lol than i held on sooo tight. we got tto my aunts house in long island and went out to eat. i was tired and i went to bed

-friday-
in the morning i got ready than we went to a diner to eat and i was watching the news.. THE FRENCH TOAST WAS SO FLUFFY!! ok than my dad drove like a madman to brooklyn and i was like flying and flipping all over the car! we gpt tp amy and cristinas hosue and cristina was in school so at 2 we went and got her and i held on when amy drove she was a madwoman! geez lol so we got to the school and they were trying to get me to go out and wait by the front of the school! WHAT AM I STUPID?? no i didnt she came and we went to kings plaza (which is a mall) and i met cristinas friends, kelly and michelle and mike i think it was (i forgot) than amy drove us to gerritson beach (somewhere else in brooklyn) me n cristina walked around the block 2 times IT WAS VERY COLD and we talked. than we went to ANOTHER PART of brooklyn where my dad drove "like a NYC cop" like i swear it was insane!! and it was my moms business and no one was home my mom made me knock on every door so i knocked on every door! the thing was 4 stories high! i got lost lol than locked out of the other guy who was theres apartment and this may sound dumb but i screamed into the eleveator and i was going crazy bc my mom was in the basement and that was in the guys house whos door was locked. grr i got so mad!! than we went back to my aunts and ate dinner... someone called me and told me that SARA backstabbed me AGAIN by this time making out and being all over the same kid.. so she lied, backstabbed me, and expects no one to tell me. so she picked a guy over me bc im not taking her back this time. so sara if your reading this i still think you are a slut and i dont want to have anything to do with you ever again n this time i mean it. you brought this on yourself. or as you will say.. FUCK YOU, YOU HOE I DONT WANT YOU BACK!!

ok today was soooo great!! i went to school like at 710 and nikki looks at me and goes you arent suppost to be here yet lol she was going to wrap my locker.. so i left and went around the corner while nikki ashley and someone else tried to wrap it erica came and looked at what they were doing came out laughing and said they dont know what their doing so i ended up having to wrap it! thanks nikki!! the wrapping paper is so pretty.. so is the bow!! I LOVE U NIKKI lol now my locker is pwetty lol than i came home and got yelled at alot bc i dont want to go to NY this weekend but i am being forced to.. siiiigh oh well... idk what exactly ima do but i want to stay here anyway ok bye lol

today is my bday but it dosnt really seem like it... like in the morning i played my video game after finding out my dad deleted it i had to start all over. grr and at about 1 kelly n steph came over, we didnt do anything exciting except talk and skateboard. my parents left... they went out with their friends on the boat at 130. when kelly and steph left and told me theyd come to my sisters when i got there just call so i said ok i was home alone they left at like 245 bc i jen was picking me up to babysit.. so i waited from 3-5 kelly n steph came back bc i havent called or left.. i was practically crying so steph brought me to jens house i rang the doorbell no one answered so we went back and by that time i had to go home bc it was 530 ish n everyone had to go so again i was home alone.. i mean i got calls alot of people said happy bday but like i was upset bc i was alone and i really wanted to be with my family but i couldnt. so i played my game again. they came back about 5 and i ate dinner with them and really now its 914 my bday is almost over and.. they still havent really been with me.. just with their friends. so i went online and stuff today... do you know how neglected i feel right now? jen forgot me, liz (my moms friend) forgot about my bday (i was like todays my bday and shes like "oh yeah i forgot") so i am writing this freaking crying my eyes out. they are now out on the patio talking and idk this was the worst bday ever.. im on the phone with nikki and wow whatever bye

tomorrows my bday...
ill never get the bestest thing ever
my parents chased me all over the house.. I HID IN THE SHOWER AND THE DOGS FOUND ME lol than i ran into the comp. room and locked the door but my dad had the key and my parents came in and sang to me dancings and i got annoyed im here screaming shut up over and over lol my bdays in about another 15 mins.. now my mom is telling me what happened the day she had me... wow im just like uhh... ok now she is off crying lol i find this funny.. not to be mean but wow ok im going to go play video games

first part of my day was good, i hung out with my friends at my house and burned my first CD it was the band "the used" later i got to the mall and my phone rang so i picked it up.. it was a person, one of my friends who will not be named.. she told me that jake said that everything he did.. when he said he liked me when he kissed me and everything else, was all fake and it was part of a dare. at that point i was crying in the middle of the mall than i went to the park with steph, lisa, meana,simone, sara, therese and ulla and it was bothering me so much i had steph take me home and she went back to the park. i went into my house crying to my mommy than we went to lindas, fed her cat and im allergic to lindas cat... but ok than i went home and made lilo and stich shaped macoroni and cheese, wrapped a blanket around me and thought about how dumb i am for letting him play me and why i didnt listen to anyone. grr so steph came over and i asked her to take me to Mcdonalds and get a happy meal so i did.. my hair was falling out my eyes were red and my face was all blotchy and tearstained omg i looked like a freaking wreck and they forgot my toy!!! so i was mad.. i saw my old friend sarah from middle school.. (i know alot of sara's!) so i talked to her, while i ate my happy meal and i told her about everything and she was giving me advice bc she said it happened to her twice. while she was talking to me, we looked out the window judging how hot guys that passed by the window were lol. than me n steph went hunting for a cd and it was kinda funny bc she was SO hyper guess who ended up driving from the passenger side (me) wow she was just WOW lets say if you thought i was bad.... nikki is reading the list of things that make me mad out loud lol so im listening to her when im upset i always call nikki bc she makes me happy and laugh thanks lol love yas! but yeah.. it may take me a while to get over all this but i can.. in time ok well im gonig to bed bc


NOTHING HURTS WHEN I GO TO SLEEP

unless you dream about it.. but you'll probably forget it in the morning

things
things that i think are dumb or i dislike

1. PLAYERS!! when guys are players it just sucks bc its mean and just something no one deserves, weather the 2 are gong out or not

2. Mr Hanson

3. Having to shave my legs

4. people who never say anything nice to others

5. people who say they like something only because someone they like does.

6. seeing someone laughing at mentally retarded victims

7. gold teeth

8. erasable pens (they dont erase)

9. people who drink and think they're cool talking about it.

10. same above with sex

11. people who put down another person for race or color

12. peppers and onions (a little bit of onion is okay but peppers are just boring in flavor and have an awful stench)

13. getting yelled at for not going to school because i'm sick.

14. the sun glaring in my eyes when i'm in a car no matter what you do

15. twangy country music

16. guys being perverted, it can be cute for a little bit than it just gets annoying

17. people who ask ''how far have you been?" or who assume that because you've been in a relationship for a long time, you've went really far

18. salmon

19. hypochondriacs

20. girls who wear low cut shirts and get mad at boys for looking, or are all giddy and act like this is a spirit match

21. when people make fun of any of my friends

22. rapists

23. watching sports on tv (hockey is an exception) (A BIG ONE)

24. christmas shopping in crowded stores

25. slow drivers

26. potholes

27. tailgaters

28. people who steal other people's phrases and think they're cool because they say them

29. girls wearing a lot of makeup. you don't need to.

30. girls who look good in capris, I LOOK BAD, and it's not fair

31. my feet

32. homework

33. when people sing christmas music in the middle of june

34. bras

35. pet hair

36. squeaky hinges

37. creeky floors

38. teachers who pick favorites and hit on them. (unless it's me)-not

39.slavery

40. animal cruelty

41. glitter appearing on my body when i didnt put it there.

42. people who swear every other word

43. the sound my alarm clock makes

44. telemarketers

45. sound of hairdryer/ vacuum when i'm trying to listen to music or watch tv

46. people checking me out that are not of my own age

47. checking the answering machine only to hear like 5 people hang up

48. when my dad has to know whos on the phone.. or friends doing the same its none of your business

49. wind when my hair is down

50. when mr hanson tries to yell and scare us

51. when mr hanson dances in front of the class or sings and tries to be funny

52. bugs

53. swallowing pills

54. the partridge family

55. when it's just my dad and me home together

56. pointy/ shiny shoes

57. being in 2nd hour knowing i have mr hansons class next

58. the voice of Gloria on all in the family

59. when mr hanson says hi to me in the halls

60. when mr hanson looses my papers and even though i turned them in, he gives me a 0

61. having to cut the fat off my meat

62. screaming singers or girls screaming when there friends are right in front of them.

63. when mr hanson never gives me a 100 even when everythings right

64. the words "whatever" and "nevermind" used in any mood other than happiness and joking around.

65. when people say "ill do it in a minute" and it neer happens

66. when people act stupid to get attention

67. when things say 100% real fruit juice than you look at the label and it says 50% real fruit juice

68. when friends backstab you

69. when nathan throws the bannana skin at us

70. when i have an itch i cant scratch

71. when your friends tell you one thing and act a certain way around you until they are with you with eiter guys or other friends and act different or pretend your not there

72. people who lie- i will catch you

73. when i catch someone in a lie and they lie to get out of it and contradict everything they say or lie more when i know its a lie-give it up!!

74. when people mispronounce the word "often"

75. when girls get all dressed up to go to the movies or mall and it looks like there going out to a funeral or wedding something formal like that.

76. girls that cant even walk to the mailbox with out makeup on

77. hypocrites

78. when adults buy happy meals just for the toy to either play with themselves or give to kids or grandkids

79. when the people at mc donalds dont give you your toy with your happy meal

80. when guys play around with you and tell you that they like you, kiss you and leads you on all for a dare

81. ashleys obsession with ugly guys (kenny chesney)

82. how my friends are always right about everything and im wrong but i never listen to them anyway.

83. when friends say "ill never do that" and do it anyway even if it hurts you so bad than say they will never hurt you.. and they hurt you so bad so you say go ahead you already hurt me enough

ok well lets just say today didnt help my trust with people... one of my friends really badly backstabbed me. lets just say, she kissed the guy i like after telling me shed never hurt me and she goes off... does it ON MY BDAY NO LESS and lies about it.. she said she wouldnt have told me if i didnt figure it out.. ok she should have told me and it hurts me alot that she couldnt trust me.. and since she lied to me idk if i can trust her anymore. but whatever i dont really care anymore i went ot dance and other than that stayed home and slept bc i was really tired ok im going to bed night

p.s sorry lauren, you got me addicted to this song lol (the one playing on my journal)