different moods.


ok i'm gonna put lyrics in this to be like henri..cuz i feel like it.

hello there,
the angels from my nightmares
the shadow
in the backround of the morgue (?)
the unsuspecting victim
of darkness in the valley
we can live like jack and sally
if we want
where you can always find me
and we'll have halloween on christmas
and in the night we'll wish
this never ends
don't waster your time on me
you're already the voice inside my head
(i miss you miss you)
where are you
and i'm so sorry
i cannot sleep i cannot dream tonight
i need somebody as always
this sick strange feeling
comes creeping on so haunting
everytime
and as i started
i counted webs from all
the spiders
catching things
and eating their insides
loke indecision to call you
and hear your voice of treason
will you come home
and stop this pain tonight?
don't waste your time one me
you're already the voice
inside my head
(i miss you miss you)



anyways

i wont tell you all about the week i had with being grounded and all..cause that would bore you to death. but i will put in a few highlights. as in i got totally in trouble with the skiping thing. detention is stupid and all you do is sit and laugh if someone is there.
and i say school of rock last night with the sexy kevin clark and there was even like a little extra bonus stuff and he was hot like you would not believe.

but i get the internet back. which is happy

but somethin not so happy

see. i was up till the crack o' dawn last night or this morning you chose which one you prefer. and well i was in one of those..conteplative moods. i was thinking how nice it would be to just close your eyes and die. let me put it simply

nothing to live for..and heres why

4 reasons i'm fighting

FRIENDS-yes they rock, but sometimes..well you just get plain pissed at them. they sometimes never have the right thing to say. and i know no ones perfect and its unfair for me to say that makes me mad..but it's true. its not their fault anyways.

CRUSHES-to put it simply. zero chance of them ever liking me back. ever. there was this one guy who i thought mighta liked me back..but still...no. so yea over done with that topic

MUSIC-i love it. absolutely and whole-heartedly. but still whenver i see like great performances by these people. i realise i madly want to play guitar like them. soooo bad. but its just not gonna happen. i know it. i'd like to say it was my parents. and it might be but i don't know if thats an excuse or not. but the fact is that i hate them being proud of me. i want them to know i do stuff for me and not them i guess is waht i'm gedtting at. whenever they are all happy with me it pisses me the fuck off. and i really don't know why.

and the there's

HOPE-as in i think maybe somethings gonna happen thats good. i know life's not all bad. but it just seems to hard to see if its all bad. and if it is. damn that would suck.


and i know this sounds crazy...but i seriously wanna see alex again. just recently he kinda popped back into my head and it was like woah...

yeah he made me feel good about myself.

but whatever this was MAD long. i think you've probably fallen asleep reading it.

peace

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