Devil Incarnate

:: 2005 15 September :: 3.46pm

so i was really sad yesterday right?

but it's okay becase:

I got some direction on my lame-o english paper
i got something really really special in the mail
there's a secret on the third floor that i am privy to
my boyfriend is really hot and he's moving into a house and i get to see him on sunday
sam is coming on friday
OUTspoken tonight
Rainbow reception on Friday
Irish Fest on Saturday
i saw a bunch of cards that reminded me of my friend ken the robot and i remembered that i love her
matt heath found me
i watched the daily show while eating tangerine jelly bellies
i did aerobics today and didn't die or cry
stephanie wilde left me a note (i'll call you soon!!!)
my parents are going to split my insurance with me
i drank milk today and didn't have any donuts
i love jake huizenga

4 bullhorns | Sound off

:: 2005 14 September :: 4.23pm

i can't write this paper. could it be any more boring?

seriously. i can't.

and i had any more to think about i will combust.

2 bullhorns | Sound off

:: 2005 13 September :: 4.19pm
:: Music: blink182-

catching things and eating their insides. . .

crying from happiness?

me?

question mark!

:: 2005 9 September :: 11.46pm
:: Music: rocket summer, mcs

i'm so pissed right now. i had a bad turned good night and i'm still pissed.

i don't know how to deal. i feel guilty for being here. i feel guitly for not wanting to go to the lobster party. but i'm mad. i could have my car if he weren't being a d-bag. and then we wouldn't have to worry about how i'm getting home. and everything would be cool.

i'm going to kill something

:: 2005 9 September :: 7.55pm
:: Music: brandston-mercy medical

little girl so beautiful, with life so new and meaningful

I don't know what's wrong with me.

fffffffffuuuuuucccccccccckkkkkkkkkk

:: 2005 9 September :: 4.02pm

mychemicalromance
I need my car. That's not even a joke

:: 2005 2 September :: 8.38pm

it's not that i hate my mom. . .

am i bad? am i too needy and selfish? maybe i'm just the smelly kid.

reason number 112 why my mom doesnt make sense:
i ask if i can return pop cans so i can make some money for my parking ticket. she says she'll give it to me as a graduation present even though she's already given me two. one being 300 hundred dollars.

i ask for shampoo and toothpaste and stuff like that. she bitches about it to me to my friends to anyone who will listen.

i don't want food from the store. i get called a bitch.

yeah i'm moody, i exagerate, i whine. so does she.

i don't want to go home. i don't want anything from her. i just want to cry until i explode.

:: 2005 1 September :: 10.39pm

car pass-$300 a year
insurance-100+ a month
gas-3.19

i can't have a car.

so that means. . .i might not be able to have the tutoring job i want and am super qualifed for

and i won't make 8.25 an hour

i can't go shopping or see kalamazoo on my own.

i can't see jake.

I CANT SEE JAKE

i will die.

15 bullhorns | Sound off

:: 2005 28 August :: 7.29pm

hey quit freaking me out.

5 bullhorns | Sound off

:: 2005 26 August :: 10.56pm

THIS IS MY PHONE NUMBER!!!!!!

269-276-2519!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

CALL ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:: 2005 26 August :: 6.30pm
:: Music: my chemical romance

i'm at college and i'm a badass

4 bullhorns | Sound off

:: 2005 20 August :: 9.22pm

maybe i need to grow up. or maybe my mom needs to calm down. maybe realize that i'm leaving in TWO DAYS and i'm not going to take the compost out.

i don't care.

i'm packing. i'm relaxing. i'm doin' a little illin' with my peeps.

maybe i am a bitch though. she's probably right about that.

I LOVE JESSICA WILDE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:: 2005 19 August :: 9.57pm

i'm so cranky, i think i might kill something.

i'm leaving in four days. i can't stand it.

:: 2005 12 August :: 5.37pm
:: Music: i would be listening to the darkness, but windows media playa is on crack

seriously. . .
...ummm. . .I'm cool.