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2004 1 July :: 4.30pm
17.
stomach hurts.
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2004 30 June :: 7.57pm
someone come over to my squat hut.
it's really fun!
we can play in the gently lapping swamp or we can gouge our eyes out with something creative!
799-0733!!!!
free foot massages!
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2004 30 June :: 2.27pm
Eight teen? missing.
frick.
I hate the new house. But we do get Bravo and Comedy Central.
Mom wants me to aid in the dismantling of our house. I want to. . .not.
someone needs to come to their senses and it's not me.
every feeling is normal and feelings don't last and there is no overreaction.
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2004 28 June :: 12.08am
The number one reason why I loovvee Jessie Wilde:
She respects my eyebrows while at the same time knows why I hate them
This week:
Monday-Emily
Tuesday-Gym, Kevin
Wednesday-Jess B
Thursday-Gym possibly Jess W
Friday-Phil? (working)
(twenty)
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2004 27 June :: 10.11pm
I guess I'm just this skinny white girl from a town that no one has heard of and looks like she's twelve.
But people like to hit on me.
ha ha hahhhahahhahahahahaaa
NO MORE ASSHATS!!!
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2004 27 June :: 1.52pm
Hooher! My mood is being enhanced!! Wowie!!!
Someday my daughter will be really sad and I'll tell her that I was really sad once too, but I turned out alright.
Then I will realize that I am talking to the lamp with a burned out bulb.
Je ne se quois. Having a purpose makes me feel alright. And when I'm not alone it all seems funny and normal and easy to talk about.
It sucks that there are so many constant reminders. Almost everywhere I go I get the slight upset stomach.
someone make me forget.
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2004 27 June :: 12.09am
:: Music: m5
Tonight might be the last night that I sleep in my room. I'm going to miss my house.
It was the last place...ug. maybe this was all a big mistake. it'll be alright.
I'd torch the hammock if I wouldn't be murdered by my mother though. It was a happy place and I don't have a use for it now.
Good/Funny things
1. I threw myself a dance party and had a good time
2. I drew a picture of a pirate at work
3. I got an almost five dollar tip
4. I've got a stain on my shirt that makes it look like I've been lactating
5. My hair looked really good today
6. I'm not babysitting Monday
7. I'm going to see my dad
8. I found a place to get my senior pictures taken
9. Jessie is coming home tomorrow
10. Three weeks until sad camp
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2004 26 June :: 1.19am
That's alright, I'd rather not do this. True to every sense, it's wrong.
Something smells like chicken feed, it's cold, and there are twenty-two more days of fun.
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2004 25 June :: 6.17pm
No, actually I'm not okay.
I feel defective. If I'm such a hot commodity why would anyone feel compelled to leave?
Even the knowledge that he'll be prematurely bald doesn't make me miss him less.
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2004 25 June :: 10.14am
23 days today.
I still don't feel so great, but I've come pretty far. Esp. since it's been a cool week.
and i would also like to mention that Jessie the Wilde is the person who I am in lurrvvee with.
The Sarah says:
do you like how nothing i'm saying is not makcings sneses?
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2004 24 June :: 12.19am
So now it's twenty-four and i'm being very not like myself. so much for a mourning period.
as long as it's just one of those things where that's as far as it goes then i'm pretty cool with it.
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2004 22 June :: 10.54pm
so nearly twenty-five days.
new schedual:
monday-babysat, dozed, cried, went out for pie with mom, barb, amy, hutch. did not eat the crust. talked to a lot of people online.
tuesday- babysat, dozed, attemped to curl someone else's hair which was a failure, drove around a lot. realized that i am not so pathetic that i need to volunteer at the library, but i am a big enough loser that the librarians have me recomend books to other people because i am a prolific reader. ate a taco then went to matt's hoose. cried a little, but did not have any toast.
wednesday-i'm going to meet brenda, go to the gym, go to the doctor, go to walgreens, then have nature date with kevin.
THURDSday- mitch claimed this day. causual snuggling ensues. then off to work. also it's payday.
friday-still open. will probably go to the gym. unless someone else wants me. i'll start the bidding at free.
saturday-ellie date. then work work working
sunday-dad's hoose. i'll probably spend the night cause i don't have to babykill the babies on monday/tuesday for TWO FREAKING BEAUTIFUL WEEKS. The money is probably not worth the boredom.
and i have to find time to:
clean my car
practice estelle
buy hose/nozzle
bring money to robin (probably tomorrow)
wear contacts
take calcium tablets
buy new shampoo
clean room
organize a beach party
here's this for being realistic:
obviously he had to leave me because he is spider man and had to choose between being with me and, thus putting me in danger, or loving me from afar while keeping me safe from the green goblin. he's choosen the latter. I WANT THE FORMER.
boys are easy to trick anyway.
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2004 22 June :: 1.35pm
at least i'm not posting lyrics. One of those three doors down songs is a good one though. but i am listening to b93.
TWENTY-SIXXXXXXXXX!
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2004 21 June :: 6.24pm
Missing you fiercely. Still. Times 27. Come back now.
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2004 20 June :: 9.50pm
So I bought new clothes again. They make me feel better. And I had a really good time with Sam and Rob.
but i still feel scared being home and stuff.
and i'd go back.
and 28 days.
BUT WAIT!
Grandpa was being really funny. He said, "Sarah doesn't like horses, she likes boys."
and I enjoyed that
this week:
m-babysitting. . . MUST FIND A POOL!
t-babysitting and the zoo with sam
w-clean car, practice clarinet, go to doctor. . . hang out with ______? (someone fill in the blank)
t- hang out with ______? then work? i think. maybe i'll go to the gym
f- see thursday
s- see thursday
s- see thurdsay
m-start all over again.
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