Devil Incarnate

:: 2003 30 December :: 9.44pm

what's your poison?

12 bullhorns | Sound off

:: 2003 30 December :: 8.34pm

it was like being ripped away all over again.

:: 2003 30 December :: 4.08pm
:: Music: coldplay-in my place

i don't know. i'd give it an okay with a side of brooding boys.

it would have been funner if we were in the right place. they aren't part of our normal lives. an invasion of that doesn't feel right.

:: 2003 26 December :: 4.55pm
:: Mood: livid
:: Music: lifehouse-simon

the more you will something to happen the more it doesn't.

:: 2003 25 December :: 1.19pm

the only present that matters is coming tomorrow.

:: 2003 25 December :: 10.56am

if you're not going to put effort into it, you might as well just not waste your money.

asdasdasdasdasdasdasdasd

3 bullhorns | Sound off

:: 2003 24 December :: 10.32pm

i also hate the whole gift giving thing. i'm crappy at it, i hate shopping, i have limited funds. it would be more enjoyable if it was a holiday where we put decorations out for no reason and bought trees. but no presents. it would just be cute.

this is the only time of year i wish dad still lived with us, so he could help out.

my mom has one present. i'm such a jerk. and she's leaving us tomorrow. but if she stayed she'd just be grouchy all day.

:: 2003 24 December :: 10.24pm

so far, worst christmas ever.

i feel so disapointed, so cheated.

it's a time for families to annoy each other and be all stressed about dumb stuff, like forks or exagerated misunderstandings.

christmas makes me deeply unhappy.

everyone ruins christmas for everyone else.

2 bullhorns | Sound off

:: 2003 23 December :: 10.56pm
:: Music: cardigans-lovefools

oh it's so very good. do you think the attachment stage has set in yet?

no, nevermind i don't think that would make me feel giddy.

:: 2003 23 December :: 7.53pm

i saw that lady again. funniest thing to happen all day

big boy wasn't so bad. even though i am dying and i don't have any sucky candy for my throat.

:: 2003 23 December :: 2.07pm
:: Music: billy joel-two thousand years

i think i need to find my spice world cd. asap.

i want to go to the gym but have decided against it since i don't feel good and i've done enough driving today.

and i think i'm going to stop going to Synagogue with Dad and start going to church again. I don't really like it. maybe that will end some turmoil.

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the mayans were wrong. or maybe it was the aztecs.

:: 2003 21 December :: 11.18am

yum

:: 2003 19 December :: 11.11pm
:: Music: switchfoot

oh goody goody gum drops. i am not abandoned.

and today didn't suck. sure, it wasn't party central, but i found that i wasn't annoyed with anyone really.

i was even reluctant to leave because everyone was in such a good mood.

and i have my bop it pen.

:: 2003 18 December :: 10.41pm

it's all over for the ideal. that's the only reason we stay.

if it doesn't happen, i don't know. i guess i'll throw up.

i hate the phone.

:: 2003 18 December :: 10.19pm
:: Mood: very sad

being grown up isn't half as fun as growing up
ahhh

still. i my weekend will be ruined AGAIN. fff.
it makes me wonder if sabatage is in the mix.

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the nhs party was so much fun.

and what do you get for the girl who needs nothing?

a bop-it pen.

friday should be enjoyable.