The Lovely World of Mine

:: 2005 25 May :: 2.16pm

i finially have a day off of work, but of course i managed to forget some things last night so i got up this morning and headed up to work so i could finish doing some last minute things, but it was good being able to talk to penny and everything just joke around with tony, penny and lisa... sometimes its good doing that..
Josh and i have been trying to figure out what were going to do when are lease is up, we decided that we wouldnt wait till the last minute to figure it out, so we have been looking at a couple of different apartment but the ones we like the ones dont have a big enough living room to put are couch... and i cant give that up yet.... not yet kane you gotta wait till i get tired of it first... lol
well im goin to harper creek softball game with my dad tonight or well late afternoon gotta hang out with my dad every once in awhile, so it should be fun im goin to make him take me an d my mom out to dinner though so it will be a good family event anyways. well i gotta clean up around the house so that would be it the news for now...../

28 comments | around the block

:: 2005 25 May :: 7.10am

well, exams will start in a matter of minutes. and i have a great deal of doubtfulness that i will fail this. :\ alright bye.

45 comments | around the block

:: 2005 24 May :: 9.27am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: from first to last--emily.

:\
FROM FIRST TO LAST.

"Emily"

smiles and her laughter
its the only thing that ive been waiting for a time
regardless of our distance and our hope...grows greater
trapped by pretty eyes and letters for all time
...the only thing that ive been waiting for

i hope its something worth the waiting
cause its the only time that I ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause there's no one in the world like Emily

shes simple yet confusing
her sparkling eyes make me weak and my words they tremble
days seem like years in this month of December
the winter coldens me for i have yet to sleep
and never will i give up trying because you're everything to me

i hope its something worth the waiting
its the only time that i ever feel real
thunder storms could never stop me
cause theres no one in the world like Emily
there's no one in the world like Emily

p.s. wouldnt that be cool if someone wrote that for me...or even felt such ways about me..? hmm... that would be the most greatest feeling a girl could ever get.

47 comments | around the block

:: 2005 23 May :: 8.22am
:: Mood: okay
:: Music: country shit in saads.

poop.
well..i have a new love interest. his name is jeremy azinger ! i love that kid so much. hes awesome. :) my friend sir patrick ryan swazy george likes me..but i dont like him like that. he said he was kinda sad when i told him how i felt. but hes still really awesome. :) ill post pictures when i actually get on my computer. lol. ive been on it like once all week. brittanys keeping me busy :) we have to study for exams tonight and tomorrow and wednesday night. this is crazy. why do we have exams the last 4 days of school? 1. you cant concentrate. 2. we shouldve had exams last week so we could have fun this week. 3. we need to get together with friends..and have yearbook signing. i know a few people that are moving. which totally sucks. amanda, : \ im gunna miss her verrry much. but me and her will hang out over summer :)) well im gunna go do something..no idea what..but something lol. catch you later.

♥

cant make this right
you see on my face
that im not gonna be alright
not tonight
you can read all my letters
but that wont mean things are fine
not this time
cause you gave away
all the secrets of you and i

:: 2005 21 May :: 1.04pm

i think i am bored and i have nothing to do, right now im waiting for kane to call me, but she is getting her hair done so im just waiting, i want to see if she will help highlight my hair today before i go to work, i think i can do it by myself but then again i dont feel like it either, josh is at work, i havent seen to much of him the last couple days because i had to work all morning shifts the last couple of days and then he had to work this morning and i have to go to work once he gets out. so it kinda sucks oh well though, well im goin to go watch tv so i will talk to ya later

1 comment | around the block

:: 2005 20 May :: 8.20am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: nothing..at all.

poop.
bloodhound gang--three point one four
♥

my last girlfriend didnt like me thought she might be
most likely a dyke she just didnt excite me
lefty? yeah but that was alright
she was hotter than the sun but she just wasnt that bright
my mistake she was more flaky than a leper colony
i think a wooden clothespin would have been much better company
ass like a donkey acting funky gave her i now shes a flunky
so my love for her died quicker than a batch of sea monkeys
early bird gets the worm spread your legs or spread the word
so what if im not the smartest peanut in the turd
im white which goes with everything but i can come in any color
&im looking for the kind of girl that reminds me of my mother
but its hard to find a girl with a viper tattooed on her tushy
&how many girls do you know that can play the harmonica with their pussies
like em� easy&hot&sweet like a rice krispie treat
gee you know what i really want in a girl? me

i need to find a new vagina
any kind of new vagina
its hard to rhyme a word like vagina
calvin klein? kind of north carolina

women are like dog doo hear me through dont interrupt
its just the older that they are the easier they get to pickup
id fill the generation gap clean the cobwebs from her rafters
old hens would rather put out than be put out to the pasture
no age just aint a gauge i like my girls like my cheese
preferably for me fat free american singles only
i want my next chick anorexic the winner is the thinner
wont have to take her skinny ass out to a fancy dinner
like sizzler she got a beef well chew the fat
if i forget to put the seat up i can put up with her crap
let her lash out&crack the whip but not in bed i dont play rough
no i cant be tied down with a girl that wants me tied up
just independent like nofx smart like janeane garafolo
shed use big words to make fun of me so that i would never know
bestow upon me all her wisdom of the dewey decimal system gee
you know what i really want in a girl? me

i need to find a new vagina
any kind of new vagina
its hard to rhyme a word like vagina
kevin klein? kind of south carolina

vagina vagina vagina vagina
vagina vagina vagina vagina

4 comments | around the block

:: 2005 19 May :: 8.41am
:: Mood: chipper
:: Music: country shit.

i♥brittany marie.
well.. brittany slept over last night :) again. we had a grand ol time. we watched "White Noise" it kinda sucked. but oh well. my moma dukes is picking us up from school;taking us to britts;taking care of her mom;shade is getting us food;and then shades gunna take us to my house;brittany shall sleep over again. ive been having an awesome time while brittany has been over :) well.. i cant wait till after school. :) its gunna be effing awesome. :) anyway, jon texted me from his moms cell this morning in class. and we talked for a few. then he said he couldnt talk,and to write him a note and that he loves me. and i wrote him a note. saw him after 1st;gave it to him;i started walking away.. and i guess he wanted a hug and i didnt even notice. so when i went back to give him a hug hes like "whatver" and gave my 2 friends a hug. i was like fuck you then ya poop. i didnt say that but i wanted to. wow, i like him alot. i dont want to put hes like permenantly attached to my heart. its crazy. he could take my heart out of my chest throw it on the ground..watch it break;and i'd still love him. but when he takes my heart he gives it back in one piece. most of the time.he has no idea how much i like him. well..i dont know if he knows. but then again i like robin. : \ me&him are buds :) hes like "emily will you be my bud?" and im like "heck yess" this was yesterday on the phone :) it was cool.he makes me happy. :) golly. i hate this.poop. ok well, im gunna go now.
later.

2 comments | around the block

:: 2005 18 May :: 8.21am
:: Music: brittany.

poop.
hey guys. well.. ive been slammed with work in my computer class. Grah. they "hose" you as Hill would say.. at the end of the year. its sucks rank ass. well this weekend i hung out with brittany. we went to alicias party. Then brittany slept over on sunday. we went to school. nothing interesting happened monday..that i can think of right now. yesterday went to work. called robin. talked to him for a bit. then went to the doctors. for my 3--month check--up. i need my glasses i dontk now when my moms gunna get off her lazy ass and take me. anyway, after that i went to work. me&ben had to stay till freaking 9. then we had to go to walmart where i was gunna meet jon. but i didnt look for him. lol. me and ben got gas. then headed home. we blarred some sweet music. everyones tellign me and him to go out. and shit. and we're like "we're like family" what the crap. its none of anyones business about me &him. his ex--gf's like.. thats how we started as she laughed. hahahahaha. thats like so totally funny. hahahahaha. fucking blonde headed noisy ass noog. she needs to seriously shut it. anyway, so far today is going alright. me and alison almost got into a huge fight. thank god alicia started talking. i got new medicine yesterday. i took it this morning. i feel the same..
Side Effects: May Grow Penis.
hahahahaha. funny stuff. i really like *him* what a poop. jeez. grah. i dont know what else to say. im out.
later.

2 comments | around the block

:: 2005 18 May :: 1.24am

Another fun night at the bar, one lady got drunk and caused a scene i felt bad for herjust becasue these guys kept buyin her drinks and she said no and they made her feel bad so she was like i guess just one more, and thats how that all got place and then the guys blamed it all on her that she cant handle her drinking problem.....booo MEN WHO JUST WANT A PIECE....

:: 2005 16 May :: 10.38pm

Someday, someone will walk into your life and make you realize why it never worked with anyone else...

:: 2005 15 May :: 9.24pm

its been awhile but i finially got my computer back and working, thanks to my brother :) and now ihave the new windows and everything so thats a major plus, i just have to get aim back so thats what i am going to be trying to do..........

Kane i dont have to work tomorrow night so give me a calllllll, kail tooo

:: 2005 13 May :: 8.47am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: country poop.

that little ratty ass bitch.
yesterday was a crazy day.. i havent smoked in a long ass time. and yesterday ashleys like come on lets go, so im like sure why not. so we did and she showed me how to do this thing.. idk. it was weird. all i know is i kept doing it over and over and over again. and i couldnt walk. it was like i was drunk and high at the same time. i was laughing..and i was dizzy. and then all of a sudden i sat down on the ground in the middle of the hallway. just sat there for like 20 min. feeling like i was gunna throw up and heavy breathing. i was sweating so bad and it felt like there was 3497457 knives stabbing me. i was supposed to be in class. so finally i got up..still feeling like shit. taking deep breaths and ashley was holding hands with me.. i was too out of it to care. Shes like a sis so it dosent matter. but i had her spray me. and i went into class. i felt really weird. like i was gunna throw up. had the smell lingering on my clothes. my teacher kept glaring at me.. i fell asleep in class..in which i barely ever do. anyway, after 4th per. i saw ashley and we have 5th per. together so we went to smoke again.. but i didnt cuhz i still wasnt feeling good. this girl stopped and stared at us. and then ashley was done so we went back to class. as we were walking back, we hear "ladies" and we're turn around and this ladys like "i was just informed that you 2 were smoking" and we just stared at her and listened to what she was saying. shes like "why even bother at the end of the year? since it is the end i'll let you off, but dont do it again" and we're like "ok, thank you" and ashleys like.. if she wouldve done something i wouldve told her that you didnt do anything. we got back into class like 15 min. late. and ashley did all the talking. im horrible at talking to teachers cuhz i get an attitude. so she talked to her. and then i went on the rest of the day feeling like shit. guys, dont smoke. thats my story. the end.

i swear
if i could take your pain and frame it and hang it on my wall
maybe you would never have to hurt at all
im painting pictures in red and blue
a portrait bruised just like you
and now youre walking away

4 comments | around the block

:: 2005 12 May :: 8.51am
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: something corporate.

wow.. ive been really happy lately. i love it. im falling for jon all over again... i dont know if its right.. but its how i feel. i cant help it.

tonight we fly away so high
tonight we fly away
you know the moon is full and
i cant live without you