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2006 13 September :: 8.24am
:: Music: Hinder - Lips of an Angel
Lonely Child
Her name was Auroura
She was only five
This is what happened
When she was alive
Her dad was a drunk
Her mom was an addict
Her parents kept her
Locked in an attic
Her only friend
was a little toy bear
It was old and worn out
And had patches of hair
She always talked to it
When no one's around
She lays there and hugs it
Not a peep of sound
Until her parents
unlock the door
Some more and more pain
She'll have to endore
A bruise on her leg
A scar on her face
Why would she be
In such a horrible place?
But she grabs her bear
And softly crys
She loves her parents
But they want her to die
She sits in the corner
Quiet but thinking,
" God, why? Why is
My life always sinking? "
Such a bad life
For a sad little kid
She'd get beaten and beaten
For anything she did
Then one night
Her mom came home high
The poor child was hit and slapped
As hours went by
Then her mom suddenly
Grabbed for a blade
It was sharp and pointy
One that she made
She thrusted the blade
Right in her chest,
" You deserve to die
You worthless pest! "
The mom walked out
Leaving the girl slowly dying
She grabbed her bear
And again started crying
Police showed up
At the small little house
They quickly barged in
Everything was as quiet as a mouse
One officer slowly
Opened a door
To find the sad little girl
Lying on the floor
It must have been bad
To go through so much harm
But at least she died
With her best friend in her arms
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2006 28 July :: 1.09pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: sheif's deparment knocking on the door
God - Damn - It
If i would kill my mother, what would really happen? would it be that bad? 3 square meals a day? a place over my head to sleep, getting pounded in the ass is prolly the only downfall and maybe the bathroom rape every other day. But as long as I had a place to sleep I think i would be happy. Granted that i would never get to see mt girl anymore would suck ass also. Sometimes I wish she would just act her age, my mother that is, a 56 year old woman depending on her son for eveything is bullshit. she should be taking care of me still, i don't know what the fuck im doing, shit. So I got on vacation this week to relax even though I should have stayed home because I knew nothing would get down while I was gone, all she did was fucking sleep. So I came home early, yesterday to be exact and to my suprize, yea nothing was done. So now I have to find a new place to live and pack everything up in 2 days before we get kicked out. Awesome, go me, Kunta rocks. yea fuck you, less typing more packing,
out ~
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2006 31 May :: 12.35am
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: Natasha - Unwritten !
How You Know Your In Love
I Know I havent updated in over 4 months, Im a bad person, please hate me. But with a soon enough wedding coming up, I have been asked a lot of questions.
How Do you know shes the right one?
How Do you know your even in love?
Do You Know what Love is?
Etc etc etc.. nonsense from all my friends and family.
Well after tonights event my friends, I can assure you all that I am 100% in love with Melissa S. Younkin.
How you might ask ? Well my friends its easy...Almost
How does one explain a feeling that cannot be explained? Like when you brush her hair out from her eye and she smiles at you. How do you express that emotion between the two of you thats there, but yet you cant see, feel, or taste it? I know its there, but I was taut not to believe anything that I couldnt see with my own two eyes. Its like when you just sit there and stare at her when she sleeps and when she makes that little noise as she exhales that wants to be a snore but its not quite manly enough to be a snore and you just giggle inside. Or how about when your drive 2 hours to see her late at night down at her school but you only make it half way there to be run off the road by a 18-wheeler and get your car totaled.. but for her to barely even know you yet to drive an hour to come pick your sorry ass up even though she doesnt know how to get there, but yet she comes anyway because she has that feeling in her gut that he might be the one for her. Or how about when she has a bad day at work and calls you crying her eyes out but yet you had a bad day and you dont want to hear her moan, but you still listen to her because you know that deep down inside that dark hole there is a heart that wants to come out and care. Even though youre the biggest asshole in the world, she still somehow loves you for who you are and accepts it. How about when you go out in public and you get real excited because shes way to hot for you because youre an ugly sum bitch and you just love to walk down the street and think to yourself.. Yea shes with me you bitch. But what really topped it off was tonight, her sitting in my car and crying her eyes out, telling me basically that Im a bad boyfriend, (you know, not out right saying it but giving the clues) and that we dont go anywhere or talk about anything. But her crying so hard and so passionate that you started to cry yourself,(and I mean serious, when is the last time you saw me cry you fuckers, yea thats right, never) but held it in only to shed a few tears here and there, but then to tell her to stop crying, that you never do it because youre a man, and men dont cry, but yet were there crying right by her side. Then as you tell her that you love her more then anything the crying soon stops and shes still right by your side, even though youre an asshole. So thats how you know when youre in love my friends. When you can cry together in a passionate way, even if she doesnt know you were crying, you still shared an emotional moment... remember.. Love is an emotion.. You cant see, feel, or taste it...
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2006 12 January :: 10.50pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: none good enough
Father
One day. . . When you were 8 years old, your dad handed
you an
ice cream. You thanked him by dripping it
all over
your lap.
When you were 9 years old, he paid for
piano
lessons. You thanked him by never even
bothering
to practice.
When you were 10 years old he drove
you all
day,
from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday
party
after another. You thanked him by
jumping out of
the car and never looking back.
When you were 11 years old, he took you
and
your friends to the movies. You thanked
him by
asking to sit in a different row.
When you were 12 years old, he warned
you not
to watch certain TV shows. You thanked
him by
waiting until he left the house.
When you were 13, he suggested a
haircut that
was becoming. You thanked him by telling
him he
had no taste.
When you were 14, he paid for a month
away at
summer camp. You thanked him by
forgetting to
write a single letter.
When you were 15, he came home from
work,
looking for a hug. You thanked him by
having your
bedroom door locked.
When you were 16, he taught you how to
drive
his
car. You thanked him by taking it every
chance you
could.
When you were 17, he was expecting an
important call. You thanked him by being
on the
phone all night.
When you were 18, he cried at your high
school
graduation. You thanked him by staying
out
partying until dawn.
When you were 19, he paid for your
college
tuition, drove you to campus carried your
bags.
You thanked him by saying good-bye
outside the
dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in
front of
your friends.
When you were 25, he helped to pay for
your
wedding, and he cried and told you how
deeply
he loved you. You thanked him by
moving halfway
across the country.
When you were 50, he fell ill and
needed you to
take care of him. You thanked him by
reading about
the burden parents become to their
children.
And then, one day, he quietly died. And
everything you never did came crashing
down like thunder on your heart.
Take the Time to go or call your father and tell him that you do love him no matter how you show it, and be thankful you have him, some of us aren't lucky enough for that.
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2006 10 January :: 12.21am
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Juelz Santana
New Year
yet again another new year is upon us, yes your sayin but john its already jan. 12th. well fuck you I been super busy. Christmas was alright I guess, I worked of course as I do every holiday. Didn't really do anything speacial. on christmas eve I went to the friends family to celebrate, introduced them all to my girl who is actually related to them anyway. New Years eve was boring , yet again I worked but my friend came in early so I got to leave at 11 instead of midnight. Rushed over to the girls to watch the ball drop with her. Yay our 1st ball dropping event together .. My new years resolution was to quit chewing snuff, well that lasted a whole 9 days, although I do have to admit I have cut back alot. Instead of chewing 1 can a day, I chew like once or twice a day now. Nothing exciting else to report. Tryin to find a new place to live. Can't find a new house I like though so bleh .. I hate moving .. Im getting rid of alot of this shit .. I don't need all this junk. Nothing else except that I miss my baby dearly. She needs to find a college closer to home god damn it.
Kunta signing off
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2005 24 December :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: Staind
Xmas Time
well its xmas time and everyone is in a good modd except me of course. I hate the frickin holidays so much its insane. everything is going pretty well in life right now at least, i have the best girlfriend in the world, my job is alright, and im lookin for a new place to live. Im at my uncles right now doing the xmas eve thingie and he told me a nice little poem / story / advice that i would like to share.
"Hope for the moment. There arwe tinmes in life when it is hard to beilve in the future, when we are temporarily just not brave enough.
When this happens, cultivate "le petit bonheur(the little happiness) until courage returns.
We look forward to the beauty of the next moment, the next hour, the promise of a good meal, asleep, a book, a movie, the likelihood that tonight the start will shince and tommorow the sun will shine.
Sink roots into the present until the strength grows to think about tommorow"
my uncle is a smart man! if you understand what he was sayin then you get where im comming from.
ope everyone has a Merry Christmas
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2005 3 December :: 9.29pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: zz top !
Zaney !
i never do this but this caught my eye, this is something my friend Caitlin Crews wrote. its good enough to be posted on my journal so hats off to her
- Concrete Funk -
Their bodies pounded funk
into the concrete.
The two lovers poured into the streets
with movement of rhythm and sound
developing in the hot breeze.
Steel beats when all the colors
of brown and yellow defeat.
Dreams carved into bricks
with their names.
Feeling the sabotage of the body,
mixed with the melody
of the two lovers hearts
beating in one direction.
Melancholy lips and swaying hips
discovering the
music together.
Hop of the hip of the soul
along the pavement,
bringing a wave
lifting her ears above the
rhyme of his heart.
Never breaking their mothers back.
Dancing on the cracks
in the groove
along the sidewalks.
Close together
never stepping apart,
their eyes never blinking away
the lines of the hidden concrete funk.
in other news, nothing really exciting .. work work work... my baby comes home in like 5 days for xmas break .. yay
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2005 27 November :: 11.45pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: Staind- Right Here
T-Day Break
Well lets see here, my thanskginving was somewhat ok because I got to spend time with my baby, but on the other hand I almost fucking died on the turnpike. Some car hit the back of a state trooper car and the car was like 1 inch in front of my face. I just froze, my whole life flahsed in front of my eyes. but oh well, fuck that shit .. I miss my baby. I wish i was with her allllllllll the time. it was a good week, I got to spend alot of time with, but shes back at school for like 2 weeks then comes home for a month n some days for x-mas ! im so excited! I guess I gotta get my christmas shopping done sometime, I frickin hate spending money ! i gotta buy a new car tommorow so thats going to be interesting ... sigh its frickin midnight, im going to bed
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2005 17 November :: 4.36am
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: Hollywood Undead
Days Go By...
Im in the mood for an update and since ive been at work for 15 hours, 1 hour to go , ive decided to type a little. Last Thrusday I ventured out to see the mrs. and low and behold I get in a accident. Some 18wheeler mutha fucka ran me right into a god damn ditch. I got knocked unconscience, broke a finger and bruised a rib or 2. no big deal, one way or another I was going to see my hunny even If I have to crawl there on my hands on knees. So I call her and explained what happened and before I could finish she was like, "where are you, im comming to get you." Now keep in mind we only been together for 3 weeks at this point. This is one hell of a girlfriend folks !!! So i spent 4 days with her down at school and I couldn't have been happier , minus the whol fact that I have to buy a new car because the contour has finally been laid to rest.
Nothing really else new going on, work, work and more work is bout it. Melissa comes home friday the 18th for thanksgiving break. Im mucho excited about that of course, Even though I will be working on thanksgiving, fuck it, I still get to spend time with her ! then she goes back to school for a week to finish the semester then comes home for a month !! I swear to god Im not gonna leave her side ;) but don't tell her that heh.
On a lighter note I might be moving yet again because the $850 rent is insane along with my other bills I just can't afford $1500 in bills a month, so I might try to find a smaller place for now by myself and have my mother move in with her brother and my aunt. Besides theres more jobs out that way for her then here so its better. The only problem is Im not giving up my dog and its hard to find a place that takes animals so bleh! I need to just find a 1 bedroom shit hole that cots like $150-200 a month so I can save up and buy my house this summer or maybe even next winter I dunno, but sometime in the very near future.
Alright im sick of typing and I know your sick of reading me ramble so fuck off and always, till next time kid-o's !
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2005 6 November :: 11.17pm
:: Mood: In total Love
:: Music: Hollywood Undead
Melissa for the Win
Im so in love with Melissa. There is nothing else to be said. My heart belongs to her and I want to be with her for a very very very very long time. She makes me so happy ! she is everything Ive ever wanted from a girl and so much more. I have the perfect relationship right now. If only she knew how much she ment to me. She is simply the best and no one can take her place ever. I hope I can be with her forever, and buy her that dog, or maybe a house, or maybe something special. I wish she was with me right now so I could hold her and never let her go. I want to be with her forever and ever. I now say that I have have experienced true love and love at 1st sight, because she had me from hello ....
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2005 1 November :: 11.05am
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: enter random love song
<3 My Babygirl <3
so like ok, I have a girlfriend now, and I know your all like, kunta omg wtf did you do. Well, to say the least, im happy, so happy that words can't describ it. Ive met the girl of my dreams and I couldn't be any happier then I already am. We go well together, we finish each other's sentences, we just look so adorable together! she can make me smile by just looking at me, and to get a smile out of me is very rare. her eyes are amazing, I could just sit there for hours and just stare at her, she might think im goofy but she knows she is too! shes not some prissy bitch either, shes just like me, she doesn't take any shit and she doesn't fucking care what other people think. I love everything about this girl and I hope to be with her a very very very very long time. I have to thank my long lost elementary friend for even giving me the chance to meet this wonderful person. Thank You Bre, I don't think we could be any happier.
Miss you melisa, you are the best
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2005 23 October :: 4.51am
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Weezer - We are all on drugs
Sigh !
OK, Kunta has broken a promise he made to himself a long time ago, someone decided to bring down his wall of hate and open him up again. Feelings are everywhere and I can't control them =( part of me wants to feel like this again and part of me doesn't because I don't want to get hurt or hurt myself again, Im sick of all the pain. But those eyes just got me hooked and I can't help it, Im so confused, Im torn between 2, and I don't want anyone to be mad. sigh what to do...
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2005 17 October :: 2.18pm
:: Mood: bitchy
:: Music: Seether
Incomming Bitch Fest !
ok, all I have to say is WTF. I was looking through some news forums this morning and found this one that was labled UNICEF teaches children about bombins and terrorism. So I opened it up and to my surprize the video showed kids with out legs and limbs etc. Everything was fine blah blah until about 40 seconds into the video the smurf theme song comes on and you can hear them singing, (keep in mind its in towl head tongue) soon enough bombs come flying down from the air and blow the hell out of everything and it depicts the smurfs bloodly and crying etc. It was fall by the most fucked up thing I have seen in a long time. They are actually showing children this video to teach them about bombings? are they fucking insane ? Smurfs ! happy people ! getting blown up ... yea thats great UNICEF, you guys rock !
won't post the article but if you want to see if IM me
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2005 13 October :: 8.40pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: HIM - The Face of God
hmmm
ok so I've gotten myself into this new thing myspace.com non-sense.
everyone seemed to be doing it and I indeed was bored enough to jump on the bandwagen. So I've been doing a search throughout there achives and I tell ya, I never knew there were so many beautiful girls in my area. Its simply amazing, I'd actually like to get to know some of them better.
nothing much going on in kunta's life, work is about it, still being a lonely guy. Nothing exciting at work either, Im due for a good call here soon, maybe a 8 car pile up or something. Well its almost 9 o clock and I gotta get up at 3am so Im off to watch some tv and fall into some dreams.
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2005 2 October :: 4.35pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: LifeHouse~
Wedding Fun !
well this past weekend I ventured out to Canton Ohio for a wedding. My friend Dana that I grew up with who I haven't seen in 10 years was getting married and it wasn't to me :( even though she promised me when we were 10 that we would. lies !!! .. anyway the wedding was really cute and she looked awesome. The guy she married seemed pretty cool so as long as shes happy thats all that matters. The reception was sweet, After about 7 or 8 white russians, my drink of choice, I got down and bad with myself on the dance floor. It really was alot of fun, met alot of new people and a whole new family. After the reception we all went to the Hampton Inn for the After Party and my mother went to her friends house so they could catch up on shit. I didn't plan on having a room there or anything and was just gonna crash on someones floor. So after about 8 or 9 or 10 beers, I really lost count at this point, I was ready to pass out so I went down to the desk and asked my boy who I just met Joul if he wanted a beer, he was workin a 16 hour shift so he said hell yea and we drank some brew. I asked him to hook me up with a room and he said no problem man, ill work something out. So about 4 in the morning me and this other dude who didn't have a room decided to pass out in our free room ;) way to save $130 bucks kunta w00 w00. over all it was a blast and I had a great time, it was relaxing to get a break from work and just enjoy myself. Only part that sucked was everyone there was already with someone and its a damn shame cuz most of them were beautiful. Damn, I really need to get a girlfriend, its time to make time ! god damn work
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