*you think i'd leave your side baby? you know me better than that. you think i'd leave you down when you're down on your knees?... i wouldnt do that. i'll tell you you're right when you want. if only you could see into me. when you're cold, i'll be there to hold you tight to me. when you're on the outside and you can't get in, i will show you you're so much better than you know. when you're lost and you're alone and you can't get back again, i will find you. darling, i'll bring you home. and if you want to cry, i am here to dry your eyes. when you're cold, i'll be there to hold you tight to me. when you're alone i'll be there by your side baby.*

sorry i never posted those pix of my new clothes. oh well. i just thought i would post those lyrics. and my family is home, so i better stop crying. i'll post later...

if only i had one wish, i'd want a million trillion lifetimes that i could spend with you. fall in love with you again and again.
thanks liz!!! getting those sad ataris songs into my heart... i miss luan. yesterday i slept over danielles. we had good togetherness time. yesterday [b4 danielles] i went to town center with mi madre... we did damage! i cant remember everything i got. but every store is on there "summer clearance" sales. i LOVE it. the only thing i want that i havent got [yes i know i'm really really really spoiled] is the green hollister capris. holy shit i want them SO bad i can't explain. they're $35 .... you know my mom would never go for that. they only had one of my size today. i wanted them so bad. i still do. i think tomorrow i will make a catalogue of my new clothes and post pics in woohu cuz i'll be bored tomorrow.

danielle.... i love you. sigh. are people sad? i feel like a lot of my friends are sad. or maybe only the most important ones are. idk. i miss my boyfriend so much. i've never missed someone like this. this song.... sniff. i want him back... *tear* he'll come back when i'm gone. =*( anyways i dont feel like writing in this anymore today. byes. xoxo.

"you's a lying, cheatin, son of a..."
r.kelly: baby... who dat is?
nivea: dont worry bout who dat is, it aint you!
r.kelly: you got somebody else ova dere?
nivea: don't worry bout it, keys. if you was ova here takin care of bizniz, you wouldnt have to ax me no questions like dat
r.kelly: aw girl please...
nivea: aw girl please MY ASS. who dat is ova dere?
r.kelly: are you mockin me now?
nivea: boy, aint nobody gotta mock you
r.kelly: yeh you mockin me, you got your lil record deal and shit, you think you aaaall dat
nivea: ugh, bye keys
r.kelly: nivea?... hello?

i love this song! lol. funny stuff. i cant get enough of it. anyways i tried for like an hour to fix my scanner and it wouldnt work at all. i uninstalled, reinstalled, and even tried to install the OTHER scanner we used to have. nothing worked. one worked on the other comp but the pix came out to look BAD. anyways, here's some pictures i already have on my comp... if you're bored.... take a look...



me + luan at lunch... one of the many pics of us out there lol



here's an azn hiphop singer... i thought she looked cool... she's supposed to star in some movie soon about an asian girl trying to fit into the hip hop scene... *shrug*



greta, me, janyll... gosh we are such dorks. we be representin.



this is me on the cruise after 8th grade... i was obsessed with these boys [matt and corey]! lol. but i never got to know them. i got to dance with corey though ["whats your fantasy"...] i'll never forget.



this was nu ground. they were an r&b group that i absolutely LOVED. hence the NG in FallenNGAngel. from left to right it is steve, drew, kc, and kelvin. i was in love with drew. and yes i did get to know all of them. i wonder if they remember me.



me being bored.



this is my current desktop. its where i got my woohu layout theme from.



i just had to put this up for my baby, luan. cuz he likes stacie orrico.

i fell for you!
i'm bored. has anyone seen the new all american rejects video? for "the last song"? ... it's great. but i hope mtv doesn't ruin it. as long as they don't make my song "paper heart" into a single, i'll stay happy. i'm bored. i woke up and watched ever after. i feel physically bad, but not in enough pain to be sad. i just have cramps and a bad throat. *shrug*... oh yeah! i have to scan those pictures...

this was andrew's class' grad song ['02]

it's the casper song... yeah. *cough cough* i have a bad sore throat and it won't go away. i've had it for like 3 days now. its preventing me from singing. and that's bad. today was my first lazy summer day. i woke up, talked to luan, tried to do exercise [but stopped cuz i was like wheezing], ate lunch, watched tv, tried to get a tan, showered, and read my book. it seems like today has been short. and it feels like a friday. *yawn cough* ... throughout this whole day i thought of a bunch of things to write in this journal but now that i am, i have forgotten all. i want to change my layout. it's starting to bore me. i've been doing a lot of those surveys and i realized that i don't have many friends. lol. oh well. and i don't have a lot of peoples email addresses... *yawn*... maybe i need a nap. and i need another cough drop. i'm starting to get addicted to those. i feel like summer is passing by faster than it should, but it's only been 2 weeks. i mean, another 2 weeks and imma gonna go to da us virgin islands... and then a few weeks after that... bahamas and then school. wow. i miss everyone. i feel like i've lost you all! like everyone's fallen off the face of the earth or something. i miss you all with the fire of a thousand suns. and i realize that i REALLY wanna become closer to all of you. my mom says i can have a sweet sixteen bday party, but i dont know what i want it to be like. and i don't have many friends to invite. lol. do YOU wanna come? anybody wanna make friends with me? hehe. this is pathetic. watch out for the next post, imma probly put up a buncha pictures.

lotsa luv <3333333333

p.s. has anyone been watching mtv's real world and road rules? they both have christina's on there... do they remind you of me?.... hmmm.

is your heart filled with pain?
some of these quizzes, i've taken before, but i'm bored. some of these results are scary.


-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.


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You Have the Power to Turn Things to Stone!


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You are too innocent and sweet for your own good.


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Goddess of the Moon. Beauty, yet a sadness lurks
about you at times. But hey, pain is beauty,
right?


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The Withered Lover


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*all i hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop*
so i locked danielle out of the computer. am i a bad friend? i don't think so. luan said he hopes he comes back home before july 4th. i started crying. and i'm trying not to cry right now. i'm kinda scared, letting danielle loose throughout my house. but oh well. if luan comes back july 4th... i'll be gone. i'll be in da US virgin islands. there's nothing more for me to express my feelings. so let's read some lyrics [like always], shall we?

*all i hear is raindrops falling on the rooftop. tell why did you have to go? cause this pain i feel it won't go away and today i'm officially missing you*

*are you lonesome tonight? do you miss me tonight? is your heart filled with pain, shall i come back again?
tell me dear, are you lonesome tonight?*

*feels like a fire that burns in my heart every single moment that we spend apart. i need you around for every day to start. i wanna spend time till it ends. i wanna fall in you again.*

two most important people in my life
luan went to canada. this celine dion song is our song. and i heard another one of our songs on the radio. aaaaaaaaah. a whole week is a looong time. and danielley is sick. pobrecita.... imma go to her house later tonight to help her feel better. this past week has been so busy, and i still havent gotten to see all my good friends. anyways, is riviera really having a teen night tomorrow night? i'm not sure if i'll be in the dancing mood anyways.

lyrics for danielle: *just take my hand and hold it tight. i will protect you from all around you. i will be here, dont you cry. my arms will hold you and keep you safe and warm. this bond between us cant be broken. you'll be in my heart from this day on now and forevermore. why cant they understand the way we do? they just dont trust what they cant explain. i know we're different but deep inside us, we're not that different at all.*

lyrics for luan: *take me back into the arms i love. don't go... you'd know you'd break my heart. i'll be waiting for you here inside my heart, i'm the one who wants to love you more. you will see i can give you everything you need. let me be the one to love you more. hold me so you can't let go.*



kiss on the lips - you're sweet and simple but
quite daring. you move for the kill confidently
knowing the other person wants the same thing.


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Cornell
If only the least impressive Ivy didn't also have
to be the hardest. You know those Harvard kids
are laughing at you as they sip gin and tonics
in their finals club and pull off easy A's.
There are always the gorges though. And hopping
Ithaca. Well, yeah, you have the gorges.


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we know that they won't win.

my mood is so f*ing bad right now. and it's hard to explain why. so i won't. i just feel like staying up the whole night online or on the phone just to talk with somebody. to not be alone. i feel alone and unloved right now. and i know people might comment saying "i love you" and i already know that. but it can't change my mood right now. i can't stand when i'm like this. i annoy the hell out of myself when i cry over little things. and i'm very annoyed right now. sometimes it's just so hard to smile. my eyes hurt. i think since no one is here to talk me to sleep, i'll just watch tv. it's the next best thing for to a friend. because it won't turn off unless i want it too. and i can always turn it back on if i'm lonely. it helps me get away from the bad things. if only somebody was here to do that for me. and no you can't, even though you think you can. sometimes only time can heal me.

happy birthday danielle [for tomorrow].

i'm driving by your house though i know you're not home
am i enjoying summer? hell yeah! school is out and i'm loving it. all i do now is spend time with the people i love most and i dont have to see people who annoy the hell out of me. but i do miss those people i got used to seeing everyday. ashley c, greta, janyll, heather... i miss walkin and talkin with all of them. and i miss having class with everybody. i hope next yr i get put with the people i love.

this whole week has been like so cool. it's like nonstop fun man and i LOVE it. last weekend was the SHIT with danielle and mi familia, because we're all so damn funny and weird. haha. you have to be there, but trust me. my parents even helped me and danielle stalk chad at the movies. haha. good times. and then exams were easy as pie and then.... it was time to leave. sad as it was, i was happy. i got my taco bell and i've been spending every day with danielle for at least 6 hours or so. we love each other so much... no one knows how we are when we're alone. we wanna tape it one day.

last night i slept over nicole's house, it was like good ol times ya know? i basically listened to all her problems and we had fun. she spent a lot of the time talking on the phone though. i didnt care. then we started to watch "the rules of attraction" and we fell asleep somewhere around the beginning. that was a stupid ass movie anyways. it had like gross sex stuff every 5 seconds. yeah. we woke up at 9 [only got 5 hours of sleep here!!] and watched moulin rouge and beauty and the beast. those movies rock. and then i went home and now i'm here. i'm about to go to town center with danielle to see luan and altan. summer is great so far. is everyone else enjoying doing nothing as much as i am?

<333333333

do you wanna get freaky?!

Your the boy cut. You love to get out and be yourself. Getting down
and dirty is a very familiar thing to you. You live an active live style
and you simply love it, you go where life takes you.

Which underwear are you?

Stalk bunnywunny_~!

won't you let me catch your fall?
life is good. not great, but good. this is a first! ya wanna know why? because classes are over with!! i just had my last odd day, thank GOD. it's really weird coming home and not having homework. but dont get me wrong, it's a good feeling. i just spent my memorial day weekend in houston, tx. people think that texas means country people, but contrary to popular belief, it's not like that at all. i don't think i've ever met someone in houston with a texan accent. i've never seen so many vietnamese people around in public places! it's certainly different. all we did was eat shop eat shop and eat some more. and shop. i didnt get anything except my coach purse. yes, it's black and boring but it's classic and i love it anyways. today in history we watched a movie and reviewed for the exam. in math and bio we sat around and played cards and listened to music. and spanish was some new stuff, but easy and relaxing still. aaaaah, if only everyday in school was like this. we also took a bunch of pictures. idk how many pictures of me and luan will be in circulation, but i'm sure you'll see one. the one i have though isnt too cute cuz i didnt really touch him.... mommy might see it. ari's pics are so cute! i got one of her hiding from me. and i got this great pic of greta on the bus staring out the window when it's raining. i hope her face turned out alright. it'd be a great picture. who likes my boyfriends hair?! *raises hand* ... peace out.

i'm dying to explain my heart to you
wow. it's been just about forever since i've written in here. my life has been quite... interesting lately... is that right to say? i have no idea. anyways i haven't dropped into any deep depression or anything, but hey, there's always tomorrow! lol. but SCHOOL IS OUT! and i'm sooooooooo fucking glad! no school tomorrow. YAY! the stress was really starting to get to me. it always does. i became really tired this week, cuz the stuff i had to do. but now i'm better cuz today was relaxing, if you can believe it. but school is getting to be a little sad cuz its almost over and everyone is signing yrbks. but i'll be happy when its over.

i have no friends anymore... i know it's SO like me to overexaggerate about things, but when i actually start to think about it... just in school, i have like 6 friends. is that bad? i'm pretty close to all of them, but still... =/. i guess i'm just not the friendliest person, ya know? too much stuff on my mind already, i dont need to make new friends. i forgot how easy it is to write in a woohu journal. i was beginning to think of it as a task or a chore instead of a purging of my thoughts. last night i had a good dream. i had a good dream the night before that too. the one i had tuesday night, i was on my cruise with danielle =). and in last night's dream, i slept with luan at his house. lol- i didnt SLEEP with him. i just slept next to him in his bed. get those dirrrrty minds out of the gutter! anyways. tonight i think i'm going clubbin @ riviera again with ashley c and danielle and maybe valerie. i hope i have fun. i've written too much already, i'm gonna stop.

*it's my, my trademark move*... to break down and cry
aaaaaaaaaaaaah! what the hell is wrong with me?! i've been so fucking stressed and emotional lately and i just can't stand myself. i'm better though cuz people are trying to make me feel more relaxed and happy, especially mi hermanita! school, and family, and friends, and guitar, and trying to be perfect at everything, and trying to make everyone happy except me... everything is just making me go CRAZY. and i never get a good nights sleep anymore. i havent had one since like over 2 weeks ago and that's adding to all the tiredness and the stress. i always wake up like 10 times in the night and i have about 10 dreams because of it and it's tiring. and so sleep results in tiredness! i dont wake up feeling refreshed or ready for the day to start, i feel tired. i always feel tired now. i always wish that i could just go to sleep and never wake up. i just cant take it all. the weekend is helping since i dont have to drag my ass to school, but i think it'd be best for me if summer vacation started. then maybe i'll be back to my normal, non-emotional self. being emotional isn't bad, but it sucks! i always feel like every little thing is a huge problem and unless i get everything fixed and everyone happy, i wont be happy. and i know thats not true. i need to make myself happy before everyone else, but i don't know how to do that anymore, so maybe i try to make others happy to make up for it. and i'm not doing too much of a good job at that lately either. anyways... i'm done ranting. sigh.

im gonna leave soon

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