sigh, i wish i could stay in this moment of relaxation

... but i know that that's not possible! too bad. i feel realllllly calm right now. today was a pdd, so i got a few hours to take a break from school. it definitely helps. nothing really happened today, but i'm content.

in history, we have this awful substitute. she treats us like we're the worst kids in the world... please, yeah... riiiiiight. art was so short! i didnt get to do nothing to my plaster sculpture, but i made an appointment with the ibo to fix this art thing. i don't have pre-ib art, cuz they screwed up or something and they put me in reg art. i was clueless for the beginning of the year, and someone filled me in and i talked to my brother about it. art is gonna be my sixth area, there's no question, i dont want ANYthing else. so i have to ask if i can somehow get to pre-ib art 2 next yr without taking pre-ib art 1. god, this is soo screwed up.

sometimes i feel like someone is gonna steal my guy from me, like literally. and i think possibly one of my friends will do it, even tho she knows i like him. granted, she doesnt know HOW much i like him, but still she told me not to worry, but when i see her walking around with him, i just get down. oh well. i guess i cant do anything about it, he can hang out with any girl he wants, as long as i'm the one he's coming home to [figuratively speaking]

Xtina.Gabino.Unknown Stripper

sigh... if only life could be easy.
this justin timberlake song is really sweet. i feel this way. if only someone felt like this for me.

friday was okay. nothing special.

yesterday, saturday, i ate indian food for lunch and then after, we went to the morikami. it was nice, a bit rainy, but still nice. my brother, my dad, and i went into the museum and the gardens. all i could think about, walking around the rock gardens, the waterfalls, and the different scenes, is how perfect this place is if you had that special someone. it's really quiet and you could really get lost in the peacefulness and the serenity. i was missing you-know-who so much, and wishing that i could be here with him and stay the whole day. then we went to boynton mall, NO SALES. aaaah. then we ate at sushi. we came home, and watched lord of the rings. yes, orlando bloom is a hottie. even in long blonde hair lol.

today, is blaaaah so far. we'll probly go to wellington mall after lunch, hello forever xxi and caramel frappuccino, that'll cheer me up a bit. i feel lonely. i need somebody to make me feel loved, and only one person can help me. but i guess they're a little bit preoccupied.

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yes! a damn good day! finally!
today... was great. yes. if you saw me at the middle or end of the day, i was so damn happy it's not even funny.

let me say, once again, AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!

history was relaxing cuz she let us just work on our assignments.
math was good too, cuz it was all just reviewing and new stuff, no quiz, no test to worry about for another week!
in bio, i had my test. i'm not sure if i aced it or not. it was all free response, so i guess it's just one of those things.
we'll cross the fingers now! progress reports next week. cross the toes!

but. everything that happened out of class was amazing too. it was just... sigh. great. if you don't know wat i'm talking about... boy you must not talk to me much.
YES! gabino scored... maaaaaaajor points.

aren't you proud of me?

this new christina aguilera cd is pretty good. not to mention the j.timberlake and john mayer cd, too. some of my fave songs from "stripped" are infatuation, lovin me 4 me, beautiful, the voice within, i'm ok, and keep on singin my song. all her new lyrics are really good.
i love all the songs on justin's album. they've got suuuuch great beats.
and i haven't listened to all of room for squares, but i looove john mayer's lyrics and his voice.
get those albums, like, NOW!

boredomness...

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See which Greek Goddess you are.

my weekend
my weekend was soooooooo long, but sooooooo good. hehe. friday me and val went to the st.lukes fair! it was madddd fun! we rode rides, but spent a lot of the nite on the dance floor with these two professional dancers that were rented for the parish center. it was so cool! they are awesome dancers! val, kim, and i were gettin our groove on! hehe.

on saturday, mi familia cleaned the house in preparation for my aunt to visit us. we went to go pick her up, then we went to city place [fun, yes] and then we ate at a-1 thai and then we went to go see 8 mile! it was a cool day. i have to see 8 mile again with nicole.

sunday we went to palm beach gardens for a few hours of shoppin and then my mom dropped me off at vanessa's house. we had too much fun! haha. we went to chili's were we met the lead singer from dashboard confessional! aaaaaah! it was so damn funny. i got his autograph. then we went to the boca muvico to go see the ring. the movie was sooooooooooo freaky. where's a boyfriend when you need one?! haha. vanessa e. it was damn funny. that group was so annyoing and vanessa was all like "you never shut the fuck up when we tell you to so why the fuck are you telling us to". she's great. then we went home, some ppl's left and we played truthordare/poker and watched moulin rouge til we went to sleepers.

monday, my mom picked me up bright and early and we went straight to town center! haha. mucho shopping for us. we stayed there til like 4 and then my mom dropped me off at home to do my hw while she went to wellington mall. haha. yes, you see where i get it from? i'm so spoiled.

guess what! i got tickets to the jingle ball [being held in miami by Y-100]! I get to see avril, mariah, ja rule, jay-z, kylie minogue, nick carter, angie martinez, craig david, etc.

today was like a blah day. i'm feaking about bio. yes, about the possibility of getting a b. i have to ace thursday's evolution free response test. wish me luck! aaaaaaah.

What's your inner band instrument?


haha. i'm not in band, but i guess i'd be a flute. i'll write latersss about my good long weekend.

buncha song lyrics for mi amor [lol] ...
no one else comes close to you
no one makes me feel the way you do
you're so special to me
and you'll always be eternally
everytime i hold you near,
you always say the words i love to hear
boy with just a touch,
you can do so much
no one else comes close
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i may never get to hold you so tight
i may never get to kiss you goodnight
i may never get to look deep in your eyes
or so it seems
i always will be wishing u were mine
i think about what could be all the time
all the happiness i could find
... a girl can dream ...
___________________

if i open up my heart to you
i just need to know you feel it too
will you be the one to make my dreams come true?
if i open up my heart to you...
___________________

and when the stars are falling
i'll keep calling
i will still love you
and when your dreams are fading
i'll be waiting
i will still love you
___________________

i wanna be with you
if only for a night
to be the one who's in your arms
to hold you tight
i wanna be with you
there's nothing more to say
there's nothing else i want more
than to feel this way


those are just some of my lyrics for that special person.

can we say "loneliness"?
this weekend is bad. nothing going on, no work, no play. just spare time to think about you-know-who. yes. my friends make me feel so much better about it though. i'm glad yall are here for me, i love yas!

danielle makes me feel a lot better. she always agrees on how he should be with me and how we'd make a great couple/

vanessa always empowers me, hehe. she lets me know that if he don't want me, then that's HIS problem.

greta always is the shoulder for me to cry on. and she stalks him with me hehe.

lil vi is soo cute. she's very mature for a lil ten yr old. in her own words, she goes "ur too good for him. if he doesn't know how good you are, then he's a bitch." LOL! i love her! and she says "of course you love me, i'm ur lil sister"... hehe.

Still lonely though.

Xtina.Gabino

omg this week has been damn good!
... and why is that you ask? well this week is just ultimately awesome! halloween, OBVIOUSLY. i'm wearin my spino outfit [spino pride!] to go trick-or-treatin! never too old for free candy duuuude! and though i had like three or four tests this week, i just can't believe how happy i am right now. i'm enjoying it SO much cuz i know to make up for this ecstatic feeling, i must have a shitty week... but that's done already! hehe. i think i did bad on my bio test [evolution] but it's over and done now. and tomorrow is my math test, which i'll probly get a B [GASP!] on, but nothing can shake my happy feelings! hee hee it's funny... i love teasing danielle about britt ... lol.

there's one more reason why my week has been good, but that's for friends to know only. talk to me. :)

HAPPY HALLOWEEN

p.s. why do people think i'm avril lavigne?!?! or michael jackson?! lol

aaliyah lyrics

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baby you don't know what you do to me
between me and you, i feel a chemistry
won't let no one come and take your place
cuz the love you give can't be replaced
see no one else love me like you do
that's why i wanna spend my life with you
i wanna please you in any way i can
i wanna share my world, don't you understand?

turn me inside out and make my heart speak
don't want nobody else, you are all I need
personality in everything you do
makes me love everything bout you
your smile, your style, so fly
i can't deny
i got a crush on you
and that's true indeed
_________________________________

i want to satisfy you
maybe i try too damn hard
to show you i love you
what made u go and run this game on me?
when i stayed by your side,
what made you go and leave?

i'm tired of my heart being broken
i'm tired of these tears rollin down my face
i'm tired of this love being taken for granted
_________________________________

ehhhhhhh.
today was a boring day. i spent the first three periods doing the drama thing. the kids loved it, they were sooo cute! the highlight of my day was in the girl's dressing room when gina and crystal were freaking out over the cockroach. it was soo funny, we kept pissing it off and it was like fuckin chasin us! lol, i will always remember that moment.

i didn't get to tell my guy about how i feel about him. it's so hard to catch him, let alone have a real conversation with him. i feel like he's avoiding me or something. i dunno why he doesn't want me. i would be the best girlfriend to him... i'd never screw him over like those other bitches. i'm a good person, ya know? yo soy muy generoso, inteligente, y romantico. why can't he see any of that? if only he knew...

if i open up my heart to you...
yesterday was an ok day... just kinda lonely... i went to this audition thingy for this talent company deal? i dunno how to xplain it, but i dont think they want me. oh well, that's their loss.

last night i went to the movies to go see brown sugar [it was sooooo cute, so sweet] and i was with my momma waiting to go in...

i saw these two kids my age, a guy and a girl on a date. the guy had his arm around her, keeping her warm and they were smiling and laughing and they were so cute and then he kissed her on the forehead, and i was just thinking "how come i cant have that? whats wrong with me" . i just want somebody to hold me... i don't have my guy, i've never had a guy that i wanted, there's never been a guy that i liked, that liked me back. and then of course leaving the movie at 11:30 all i could think about was all the couples at the homecoming dance! i bet they had a fun time...

i think that today or tomorrow i'm just gonna flat out tell my guy how i feel about him. if he doesnt mind, then great. but if it makes him avoid me or something like that, then in vanessa's words, he's an ass. he doesn't know how much i like him! hardly anyone does. i dunno WHY i like him sooo much, but i do. i do. and i can't help it. i just can't give the feeling up.

dude it takes a lot to write about my days in woohu.
here are a.j.'s words:
"i dont see what is the point of having a "journal" if i cant put what i want to put in it. there are things that everyone can know, theres things only a few can know, and things no one should know, and now the journal has been reduced to only the things everyone can know. i deplore that. a journal is supposed to be a place of personal expression, but the expression suffers when it is limited to things such as that. other people have stopped writing in their journals, and i believe i know why. this relates to how i think it was better when i only knew three people on woohu, and i only ever talked to one of them. as much as i love my woohu journal, i think this is the end of the everyday postings of my personal life. too much has gotten out, and other things have remained inside, which should be the other way around."

i know wat ur sayin buddy. sorry ur leavin.

anyways. today was the homecoming parade. i decorated but i decided not to go for untold reasons. i actually felt tired and wanted to start my weekend so. the homecoming game is tomorrow. i think i'm going with christina c but she's gotta ask her parents. and of course, i hafta go with my dad too. :) and homecoming dance is saturday. val's not goin, i'm not going, so we're gonna go to the movies with travis probly... who knows?

on monday and tuesday, i'm taking the whole days off of school for a drama club production. i never feel very useful, but hey. i hate having to make up my classes, but i guess i just hafta deal, ya know? actually gina forged one of the signatures on my L-form to excuse me outta drivers ed so shhhh. yeah, that was bad. i don't usually lie. it seems silly, but yes it is a big thing for me to cut a class.

i dunno how i'm feelin lately. sometimes i'm tired, sometimes i'm pissed, sometimes i'm just blah. but not usually happy anymore so. i'm confused about this guy i like so. sigh. someone come and brighten up my day, please? i just wanna go to sleep and live in the dream world where i may actually love somebody who loves me back... sniff. sniff.