:: 2003 29 June :: 12.55 am
:: Mood: tired

just got home!
ok so tired so i am going to make this to the point! I just got back from babysitting so this wont be the best journal thing. see look i cant even think. well.... oh man kids can make you sleepy. anyway i miss you all and love you! that was the point i was getting at ok so that is over goodbye and goodnight!

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:: 2003 26 June :: 12.25 pm
:: Mood: artistic

A Change for The Better
Ok so here i am writing again. Please tell me what you think! love you all!

A Change for The better
by:Jessica Richardson


You want to make the world a better place
And so does every body else
They all want to make a change that every one will remember.
That will be put down in history forever.
So for your whole life you worry.
Worry about the what ifs.
What if I don’t make a difference?
What if my life does not amount to anything?
What if?
What if?
What if?
That is all we can ever think about.
The what ifs can take over our minds and brains.
Like some sort of disease just wanting to be spread
To one person to the next to the next.
This is a never ending thing that will happen.
The what ifs will never go away.
And there will always be worries in our lives.
But one thing we can do
Is not let it run our lives.
Take control.
And tell your selves that you already make a difference.
Because you all do make a difference.
In some ones lives somewhere.
To your friends who all depend on you.
Who look to you for support.
To when you where first born,
and your parents held you in their arms for the first time
you made a difference in their lives for ever.
No matter how much you think you will never make a difference.
So where some how you did.
It may not go down in the history books.
You may not be remembered after centuries pass.
But one thing I will tell you.
You all make a difference in my life.
I can count on you and you mean the world to me.
If we where not here for each other.
No one would be able live correctly
We help each other so much
With out even giving it a second thought.
So maybe you wont go down in history
With Martin Luther King and George Washington.
But you will be my friend for ever.
And forever you will have made a difference in my life.

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:: 2003 25 June :: 11.43 am
:: Mood: amused

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:: 2003 22 June :: 7.49 pm
:: Mood: meh

nothing in perticular
So how is the world doing? Me i am pretty good. I got to go out and rollar blade a lot this weekend and swim so i guess that is good. Yeah but anyway. Life has been going pretty good i guess. The worse thing that has happened to me was landing wrong when i was trying to do a front flip in my pool. So other then that everything is ok. I hope you all are doing great. and enjoying your summer while it lasts. Because before you know it school is going to come back and catch us all by suprise and kick us right in the ass. So trust me and enjoy it while it lasts. I am so incredibly tired from being outside all weekend and not getting like any sleep it is 7 33 and i am ready to go to sleep right now. But yeah like i think that would happen. i may be stupid but i am not that stupid i would never go to sleep that early if it killed me. Just somthing about me i guess.

My moto go to sleep at all hours in the morning and wake up in the afternoon! :) Only problem with that is i have to babysit so i end up going to bed at like 2, 3 maybe and wake up at 6 or 6 30 and trust me it sucks. But you get use to it after a while. Meh this journal is getting long i better kind of well stop it. i will talk to you all later. :)

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:: 2003 20 June :: 11.21 pm

I wish you could be happy
I wish that you had peace
you mean the world to me
but yet you hurt
and I cant seem
to figure out why this could be
I love you with my life
I would do anything for you
I would give up anything
to get one last glance at you
so anyway what I'm getting at
the point of this whole thing
is to tell you I'm ok
no matter what you end up doing
I will be going in the same way
no matter how hard it is for you in the end
I will be with you threw the thick and the threw thin
threw little and big
threw easy and tough
I will be with you
even when it is rough
this I tell you
is my honest and deepest thoughts
because I promise you
you will always be in my heart

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:: 2003 19 June :: 11.38 am
:: Mood: artistic

Ok i was pretty board today just sitting in my basement like i usually do and somthing happened and i started to write and this is waht came up. Dont laugh at me though but i want to know your honest opinions as my friends well here it is....


people can talk big
but most people don’t walk it
sometimes they want to
but they don’t get the chance.
when people say they are going to do something
they should do it
not wait around for someone else too
take charge
finish what you started
and no matter what happens
never give up
never let go
If u keep on trying
and never give up
you will succeed
at what ever you want to accomplish
as long as you have the will power
and the strength
which is in every one of our hearts
then we where put her for a reason
and that reason is
to help other people find their true selves.
no matter how difficult it may be
we will succeed
because that is what we are put here to do
Failing is just an untrue statement
you can never fail unless you want to
if you truly don’t want to fail
then you wont give in to any temptation
that may cause you to mess up
So deep down in your heart there is always a choice
A choice between right and wrong
and this choice is the choice you have to make.

Well there it is. Dont ask me why i wrote it because i really dont know. I just did.
Well go ahead and post tell me what you think!

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:: 2003 18 June :: 9.03 pm

Does anybody know a possible way of getting away with out a chance of anybody finding you again?

*looks around suspicially*

Well i have not found a way yet.
Hope i do soon though.

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:: 2003 17 June :: 9.18 pm
:: Mood: angry

DEATH!!!!!!
Ok future warning to anybody who does not want to be apart of what i will be feeling. Tomorrow if you dont want to be around someone who is sad or mad or depressed then you might not want to talk to me. Just warning to you all!

Tomorrow it will be 1 year from when my grandmother died! Now see i am a sensible person well for the most part any how. And i know when the time comes for anybody then it comes and what is done is done right. But i have not had the chance to be sad one time after or during her death. i was not aloud to be sad for the fact that i had to be strong for my mom and my grandfather and all the people who need comfort but the one time i started to cry i got yelled at by my dad. He told me i had to leave the funeral and not come back for the second service i still dont ever forgive him for that. But yeah...

I hate doctors it is there fault she is dead. She had Cancer for 2 years and they never found it! I mean 2 years! They found it when it ended up spreading to the brain. And then there is not hope then is there. Some times my mom is so sad and takes it out on me. how her mom is dead and stuff like that. sometimes i wish i could have been the one with the cancer instead of her then my mom could be happy again. But yeah

And now my brother he is always in the hands of doctors and they could end up killing him to anyday. Doctors are like over paid hit men. That is what i think anyway. But if my brother ends up dead i will be so sad for the fact that my brother cant die. He is my resposiblity and... sorry anyway not trying to be all sad here but i hate doctors i think they are just people who get paid for giving people bad news and killing people. That is what a doctor is.

Ok yeah so here i am taking it out on this journal thing i am sorry. Ill end the entery now.. i think you get the pic why people might not want to talk to me i dont want to put my troubles or worries on you. I dont have time to worry about me i have to worry about everybody else. Mostly my mom i know she will be sad tomorrow so i have to be stronge for my family. I got to make sure i dont cry. Crying is weak and that is somthing i cant do. So any of you have any problems i can help with. Keep me busy.

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:: 2003 16 June :: 10.19 pm
:: Mood: blank

nothing
Thinking i guess can be good or bad right. I mean there are times where you can just sit in your room and not want to think about anything but you cant seem to help it. Well thinking bites big time. That is what i have come to the conclusion anyway. Thinking sucks ass big time in my perspective. Why cant you go threw your life not giving a shit about anybody. Screw the world any anybody who comes in your path. Tell everybody to go to hell and dont care about the consiquences that will follow. But i cant do that! DAMN IT!!!! why... why do i try so hard to want to hate somthing but i cant.

I try not to think about what will happen to the other people. Why should i care about them. But i do. I do care about them. Meh. Oh well they win again i guess! They world wins again. I care so much that they come first the world comes first. That is how it is and how it will always be. But meh i will live always do i guess nothing can stop me. Well nothing yet!

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:: 2003 16 June :: 1.41 pm
:: Mood: hot

MONDAY
Hey All!

How are you me i am ok just downloading some stuff for my vidio game and yeah. Well anyway if anybody wants to come over and go swimming today it would be fine with me! I am going to go in a little while fun stuff! Yeah so anyway just wanted to put the offer out there if anybody wants to take or not that is there choice. Love you all byebye

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:: 2003 14 June :: 11.03 pm
:: Mood: depressed

ok so here it is a Saturday night watching movies with my parents!!!!!!! AAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH help me somebody help!!! I miss everyone because well no one is home... and i am home on a Saturday night help please help... i want to talk to someone well i guess i better go byebye :( *crys and wishes someone was here or better yet i had somthing to do*

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:: 2003 11 June :: 10.41 pm
:: Mood: amused

Good day
Ok right now i am extremly amused and it has been what about over 2 hours i have been playing with this tunning fork. Dont know why but it is just so well interesting to me although i have a huge bruise on my knee from hitting the thing on my knee but oh well still fun....

Anyway today i had a great day i was able to see all my friends + Nick!! Yey! Which i will love Jackie for ever for going to go pick him up.
Jackie(Thanks so much by the way i owe you big time)
Anyway i had fun hanging out and all plus i made a really stupid table thing well it is really stupid for the fact that i made it in about ten min with no good tools. Well i guess i will talk to you all later.

Love you all forever!
jessie

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:: 2003 10 June :: 9.23 pm
:: Mood: cheerful

pretty good...
Hey all who cares~
How you doing? Me i am ok. Actually my day was pretty good. Lets see first it was kind of boring but it turned out pretty good. Let see here Steven Matt, and Alex came over and we played wiffle ball on my front yard. Then Alex and Matt went home and i hung out with Steven at my house for about an hour or two and we just sat and talked about well some really stupid stuff. It was so fun talkin to him though i dont think i have laughed that hard in a long time. Then after that i went to his house and he got me pie and we played Halo!!! FUN STUFF! Although i lost 2 out of the 4 times we played. It was great fun we played like 25 deaths for each game. Then after that we went up stairs and he cooked me dinner... YUMMY! It was so good i felt so special someone cooked me dinner. Well anyway i had a pretty good day i will talk to you all later. LOVE YOU ALL!!!

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:: 2003 10 June :: 1.18 pm

Hey yo whats up all! Me nothing absolutly nothing. bored out of my mind and it is like only the second day of Summer vacation. Crazy well anyway how you all doing. Hopefully good. Well this wont be a long journal post or anything but if any of you get bored too give me a call i will be here.

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:: 2003 9 June :: 11.26 am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Bring me to life

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