:: 2004 16 January :: 9.31 pm

alright all this will be a very short i mean short update i just wanted to say hello to all of u and to say that i missed u very much. And basicly that is it well. love u all Chow

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:: 2004 3 January :: 11.14 am
:: Mood: calm

the other night..
well, if anyone has noticed that i have been out of it lately. i think i am better now. the other night after i left stephens house i just walked down the roads in the cold rain for a long time. I left his house around 9 and got home somewhere around 10 30 ish. I just walked in the rain crying for a hour and a half. and i really think i needed to do that. and the good thing was it was in the dark so even the cars that passed by me couldnt tell that i was crying. I just couldnt stop myself and i knew i didnt want to go home because if my parents did catch me crying they wouldnt understand. no suprise there. they dont understand anything about me.

so yeah anyway i want u all to enjoy your LAST weekend of break~ Love ya! Jess

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:: 2003 29 December :: 7.45 pm
:: Mood: depressed

sick or sad i just dont know
This is kind of weird i mean, i dont know if i am mad, or sad, or sick. or all of the above. I just dont know. I know i am not happy, that is about all i know. I kind of have an idea of what is making me feel like this. but i dont knwo how to come about it. But i guess i should figure it out pretty soon. because i dont like this feeling. It is not a good one. Well i guess i better jet. There is not much more for me to say.
Later

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:: 2003 28 December :: 1.53 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: numb

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:: 2003 20 December :: 6.37 pm
:: Music: silence.

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:: 2003 14 December :: 7.48 pm
:: Mood: sick

i hope i dont have the flu.... all i know is i feel like crap. if i could i would go to sleep and not wake up for a week. *cough cough* i hate being sick

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:: 2003 12 December :: 8.15 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: No knows what its like..

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:: 2003 30 November :: 2.30 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

I HATE THE WORD CONFUSSED!!!!!!!! ARG.. alright sorry. i just feel like a complete dumbass right now. i was really stupid and i opened my mouth about something. and now its just like. SHIT WHAT THE FUCK WAS I THINKING! i dont even know. i just thought i could say something. but i guess its ok in the end. cause everyone else is happy and that is what matters everyone else. But then why do i feel like i am just standing in an open field just waiting to get shot. *sigh* i think the worst thing of all is being in the dark. it sucks ass. but you know i am use to it. but with some people think that oh yeah well i can trust you with anything and yeah.. i guess that is some what wrong and... sorry for buggin all you wiht my problems. but i am just kind of feeling extremely stupid right now. and i mean more then normal. lol sorry need to laugh at myself here. umm.. well i dont know what else to say just had to write this down.
luv you all!
jess

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:: 2003 30 November :: 10.05 am
:: Mood: amused

is this me or what!!!

you are the cute but psycho happy bunny. You
adorable, but a little out there. It's alright,
you might not have it all, but there are worse


which happy bunny are you?
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:: 2003 29 November :: 6.40 am
:: Mood: sick

things suck!
I woke up this morning around 6 am and i couldnt breath. i quikly ran to the bathroom and started coughing. then i puked alot. i cant seem to fall back asleep. so you can tell its now 633 but, i am all shaky and feel like i am going to get sick. i am having difficulties breating and it feels like htere is somehitn on my heart. i just want it to go away. i have never in my life had that happen to me. i go to sleep just fine. and then i wake up not breathing. :(

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:: 2003 22 November :: 10.50 pm
:: Mood: hide me under a rock

time to just go away forever
Its been a while since i have done this... *tears running down my face* cry i mean..

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:: 2003 17 November :: 9.17 pm
:: Mood: frustrated

There is a part of me that actually wants to move... and that part seems to be growing...

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:: 2003 13 November :: 1.39 pm
:: Mood: sick

I'm extremly sick right now. So much that my parents actually let me stay home, i have a temp of 103 and im pucking up a storm. And guess waht my little brother had a hafe day today and guess who is home babysitting him. Yep me. you think he would be nice to me b/c i am sick but now that just makes him want to bug me more and more. And i want to kill the little kid, but i dont have the energy to. I guess i better go before he kills the house. *cough cough* I would have been more relaxed at school. :(

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:: 2003 11 November :: 7.11 pm
:: Mood: worried

i know this is going to hurt him. And i cant do a thing b/c i am sworn to silence. But when i talk to him on the phone i just want to warn him. But i cant, its not my place. *yawns* i think i am going to go back to sleep now.

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:: 2003 9 November :: 9.14 pm
:: Mood: amused

Hey all! just figured i would update. Went to Ben's house today that was a blast. And yeah watch a movie or 2 and thats bout it. So guess i better jet now.

love you all

love you Chris

jess

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