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2007 17 September :: 12.30am
:: Mood: I'm internally screaming and ripping at my flesh
:: Music: Stabbing Westward - What Do I Have To Do?
I'm losing it.
I'm really losing it.
I'm stumbling closer and closer to my breaking point.
I think I'm going to fall.
And I can hear the laughter of lunacy escaping my lips.
While my ears are about to burst from the screams ricochetting inside my head.
My whole body is in agony.
I can't take this.
I think I'm going to vomit.
<3
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2007 16 September :: 11.53am
:: Mood: hurt
:: Music: A Perfect Circle - The Noose
I don't feel..
I don't feel like I'm a part of anything anymore.
I don't feel like I have a meaning or purpose anymore.
I don't feel like any of this does..
So what do you do with the meaningless..?
[Get rid of it]
<3
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2007 12 September :: 2.34pm
:: Mood: hopeless
:: Music: Deftones - Passenger
I can't.
I just can't do anything right anymore.
I'm ruining everything.
Why can't I just shut my fucking mouth and go through the motions?
Why?
T.T
<3
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2007 1 September :: 11.01pm
:: Mood: Like that little star getting sucked into oblivion
:: Music: Evanescence - Give Unto Me
It's not that I don't have anyone I can talk to
I have everyone to talk to
But I don't have any I feel like I can talk to
Not about this.
I don't have anyone
And I have everyone in the world.
Anyone I want
Just not the one I want
The one I need
<3
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2007 10 July :: 1.34pm
Things are ok. I'm really frusturated with everything going on but I shouldn't really be complaining. Got a new job, sooo sad to leave my old one but it's ok. Probably starting my new job the end of this month because they have to wait for the background check, and fingerprints and everything so I have time to move to my grandfathers. Hopefully starting school in August, well, the end of August so that'll be really good. A year after I start working at this job I can probably go into partnership with her when she opens up a daycare and that would be amazing, yeah. Not really much else is going on. Things with Joe & I are going well. He got a job, he hates it but whatever, he'll live.
Just wanted to update so that everyone knew I was alive and whatnot. I'm at the library, then I'm making a copy of my social security card.'
Bye.
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2007 10 May :: 9.16am
So yeah.
Life's amazing right now.
Not really.
I don't know.
But I want this rift between Emily and I to go away.
I don't know if she knows it's there, but it's there
I mean, I don't want to take away from her friendship with Naomi.
I just don't like feeling so distant from her.
And my mom needs to grow up.
Kthxbai
<3
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2007 9 May :: 8.01pm
:: Mood: bored
New myspace.
clicky here to add me!
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2007 8 May :: 8.12pm
:: Mood: blah
I never update here anymore, cause no one ever reads this. I feel that honestly when I update I'm updating for myself because people BARELY comment or read. I'm a pretty busy person but basically I try and get on once a week to comment on all the recent entries. I don't know, I kinda just feel that updating this is pointless.
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2007 27 April :: 4.06pm
:: Mood: crazy?
Am I Crazy?
My mom's friend
is thinking about
selling her house
I think I want it.
Am i crazy
to want it?
Its 8 acers
with an orchard
and a barn
and a chicken coop
with chickens
it is surrounded by trees
and you have to drive down a lane to it
I like it alot
It has wooden floors
and three bedrooms
and two full baths
it is my dream home.
I could see myself living there
am I crazy?
cause everyone else thinks I am
it would probablly cost
like 250,000 dollars
but I dont care
I know I could work it off
I know it will all work out.
Am I crazy?
Am I?
I guess I am
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2007 25 April :: 6.00pm
:: Mood: =/
:: Music: Raver's Fantasy - Tune Up!
So it's my birthday tomorrow.
And there's a possibility that I might not see my Muffin.
Surprise surprise.
=/
I don't really feel like having a birthday anymore...
It's just...
I just can't shake the feeling that nothing is going to go the way I want it.
That it's just going to be shitty.
Like last time.
<3
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2007 8 April :: 12.13pm
:: Mood: Happy/Well-fed
:: Music: VNV Nation - Beloved
Hey you!
Happy Easter!
:D
I'm gonna go get Malic an Easter basket now.
Love you guuuuise!!!
<3
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2007 6 April :: 3.42pm
:: Mood: Yeah, okay
:: Music: VNV Nation - Dark Angel
The Queen of Bitch Moves and Keith's obsession
LotusLE98 (2:32:51 PM): Weee
deathbyjisatsu (2:33:39 PM): Hiiiiiiiiiiii
LotusLE98 (2:33:45 PM): Hiiiii
LotusLE98 (2:36:49 PM): Hm, how many vnv songs do you have
deathbyjisatsu (2:37:01 PM): 34
deathbyjisatsu (2:37:08 PM): I don't think it's all of them though
LotusLE98 (2:37:10 PM): yea
LotusLE98 (2:37:15 PM): Let me weed out my duplicaters
deathbyjisatsu (2:37:17 PM): VNV's site says they have 35
LotusLE98 (2:37:20 PM): They have more
LotusLE98 (2:37:25 PM): Remixes, anyways
deathbyjisatsu (2:37:29 PM): Yeah
LotusLE98 (2:43:26 PM): Aweoms
LotusLE98 (2:43:28 PM): w
LotusLE98 (2:43:31 PM): Awesome*
LotusLE98 (2:43:31 PM): XD
LotusLE98 (2:43:35 PM): I'm getting a new computer
LotusLE98 (2:43:36 PM): For free
LotusLE98 (2:43:40 PM): Well, it's not *new*
LotusLE98 (2:43:41 PM): New to me
LotusLE98 (2:44:15 PM): So I'll now have an extra to run for specific things only
deathbyjisatsu (2:45:00 PM): ....?
LotusLE98 (2:45:35 PM): lol
deathbyjisatsu (3:31:32 PM): Keith
LotusLE98 (3:31:35 PM): yo
deathbyjisatsu (3:31:46 PM):
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srpgoaliegurl (3:30:32 PM): but i didnt do anything
srpgoaliegurl (3:30:40 PM): we hung out thats all
srpgoaliegurl (3:31:15 PM): he was the one that was rubbing my leg and grabbing me and hugging me
srpgoaliegurl (3:31:19 PM): i didnt do anything
srpgoaliegurl (3:31:23 PM): i have brittany
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LotusLE98 (3:31:53 PM): Bull shit
LotusLE98 (3:32:00 PM): I didn't touch or grab or hug her
deathbyjisatsu (3:32:13 PM): I know
deathbyjisatsu (3:32:16 PM): She's trying to save face
LotusLE98 (3:32:25 PM): In the mall when I was sitting on the ground, with her and sarah, I grabbed the bottom of her jeans and tugged, that's it
LotusLE98 (3:32:30 PM): and that was just figiting
LotusLE98 (3:32:33 PM): Not sexual in the least bit
deathbyjisatsu (3:34:37 PM):
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deathbyjisatsu (3:32:53 PM): I don't believe that.
deathbyjisatsu (3:33:48 PM): So I'm going to end this conversation right now before I put you in tears
deathbyjisatsu (3:33:54 PM): Bye
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LotusLE98 (3:35:26 PM): LotusLE98 (3:34:43 PM): Not she's telling Jade that I was the one "flirting"
LotusLE98 (3:34:45 PM): now*
naomicote@mac.com (3:35:00 PM): yeah she sent it to me, too
LotusLE98 (3:34:57 PM): ..
LotusLE98 (3:34:57 PM): LAWL
naomicote@mac.com (3:35:06 PM): she's trying to save face.
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LotusLE98 (3:35:33 PM): Haha, you both said Save face
LotusLE98 (3:36:23 PM): <3 Jade
deathbyjisatsu (3:36:49 PM):?
LotusLE98 (3:36:50 PM): <3
LotusLE98 (3:36:51 PM): xD
deathbyjisatsu (3:36:57 PM):?
LotusLE98 (3:36:59 PM): just
LotusLE98 (3:37:00 PM): <3
deathbyjisatsu (3:37:53 PM):
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srpgoaliegurl (3:37:14 PM): but i didnt do anything...
srpgoaliegurl (3:37:29 PM): but whatever if u want to b mad about something i didnt do whatever
srpgoaliegurl (3:37:31 PM): bye jade
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LotusLE98 (3:38:02 PM): ~.~
deathbyjisatsu (3:38:15 PM):I know!
LotusLE98 (3:38:18 PM): lol
deathbyjisatsu (3:38:20 PM):Like, wtf?
deathbyjisatsu (3:38:28 PM):Fuck her.
deathbyjisatsu (3:38:48 PM):Is she still online or did she block me/
LotusLE98 (3:39:15 PM): No idea
LotusLE98 (3:39:16 PM): I blocked her
LotusLE98 (3:39:19 PM): Yesturday
deathbyjisatsu (3:39:53 PM):Whatever, fuck her
deathbyjisatsu (3:40:01 PM):If she wants to play liar with me
deathbyjisatsu (3:40:03 PM):Fuck her
LotusLE98 (3:40:09 PM): Yea
LotusLE98 (3:41:00 PM): Hm
LotusLE98 (3:41:02 PM): I think this calls
LotusLE98 (3:41:04 PM): For..
LotusLE98 (3:41:06 PM): SABRINA
deathbyjisatsu (3:41:16 PM):xD Wtf?
LotusLE98 (3:41:19 PM): Dude
LotusLE98 (3:41:22 PM): You don't understand
LotusLE98 (3:41:26 PM): I love Sabrina the teenage witch
LotusLE98 (3:41:27 PM): xD
deathbyjisatsu (3:41:31 PM):xDDD
LotusLE98 (3:41:39 PM): No, it's like.. beyond love
LotusLE98 (3:41:40 PM): xD
LotusLE98 (3:41:46 PM): I record every episode
LotusLE98 (3:42:03 PM): There are 2 on weekdays (4 and 4:30pm), 0 on saturday, 4 on sunday
LotusLE98 (3:42:05 PM): lol
<3
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2007 22 March :: 8.59pm
:: Music: Guardian Angel -- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm strong I have figured out
How this world turns cold and it breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
It's okay. It's okay. It's okay.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one
I will never let you fall (let you fall)
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all (through it all)
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
Cuz you're my, you're my, my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away and
Please tell me you'll stay, stay
Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be okay
Though my skies are turning gray
I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven
[to fade]
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2007 17 March :: 5.24pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Tool - Rosetta Stoned
This week has been the worst ever
I just want to scream my guts out, rip all the remaining hair out of my scalp and dive through a fucking window.
Jesus fucking Christ..
Just shoot me in the face already
Get it fucking over with
<3
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