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musicalbabe

:: 2004 3 November :: 4.18pm
:: Mood: anxious

A Girl of Many Lives...
So often am I reminded that I am negatively affected by my nonexistant free time. I didn't do my homework last night because I randomly had a headache, felt dizzy, and proceded to fall asleep on the couch. (This is the second time I've fallen asleep unintentionally while trying to do my homework.) It's a little crazy to think that while most people have 3 classes on Wednesday and (2, 4, and 6) and 3 on Thursday (1, 3, and 5), I have 5 on both Wednesday and Thursday. (0 split between Marching Band and G21, 2, 4, 6) and then (Concert Choir, 1, 3, G21, 5, 7). It's not like I come home and have free time after school, though, either. I have marching band twice a week, one voice lesson a week, horseback riding once a week, church/youth group (of which I'm VP)/church choir on Sundays. (And this is after quitting PYT shows, Girl Scouts, school soccer and volleyball, and CYSA soccer.) I have 0-7, and will have 0-7 next semester.

The thing is, I like my life like this. I wouldn't have it any other way. When marching band season ends (tear!) I'll add oboe and piano lessons to my schedule and take P.E. zero period.

In an ideal world, there'd be 48 hours in every day, and sleep wouldn't be necessary. But, since this is not true, and it majorly SUCKS that I can't devote the time necessary to excell in all of my activities, I've decided that there are a number of different lives I could take on. Each would leave me fulfilled in one area of study.

1. The Academic Life
My mom once told me that a daughter of a friend from work had just been accepted to Stanford. Apparently this daughter spent hours upon hours studying each of her classes every night, never went out on weekends, and was a brilliant scholar. In this life I would excell academically, take 8 ACADEMIC classes a day, (and use my electives for interesting classes such as Art Appreciation and Psychology and Global Connections and whatnot). I wouldn't really have a social life, and my extracurriculars would be minimal. The one or two performing arts classes I would take would be very intellectually oriented. I'd study like a mofo and consiquentually get a 4.0 (or whatever I'd get with the max number of AP classes) and do super well on SATs and SATIIs and AP tests because all I'd ever do is study for them. Hopefully I'd get into a crazy good college and spend my time alone in my dorm studying...as I always did.

2.The Performing Arts/Music Life
In this life I'd shift the focus from academics to music and performing arts. I'd take voice lessons from 2 or 3 different voice teachers (probably one classical/operatic teacher and one broadway style teacher) and take a Music Theory class at Foothill or somewhere on my own time. I'd take oboe and clarinet lessons, and buy a decent clarinet and oboe, and I'd practice at least an hour every day. I'd join something like CYS and spend my time there. I'd make the band/choir rooms my second homes. I'd also devote a lot of time to musical theatre and acting and I'd audition for Broken Box as well as become a regular at PYT. Every moment of free time would be dedicated to an instrument or performance of some time. I'd apply to conservatories and hopefully be accepted to some college with a crazy good music program and become a Music Major, ultimately ending up as an Instrumental Music director at a high school, a professional musician myself, a musical director for a children's theatre, a conductor, or something of that sort.

3. My Life at the Barn
This is where I dedicate my life to horses. I'd own my own horse (or two!) and spend hours after school at the barn every day. I'd probably be a working student at my barn and maybe help teach small lessons. I'd spend an incredible amount of time working with my horse every day and compete at shows almost every weekend. I'd become very close to my barn friends and hang out with them outside of riding. I'd travel a lot for shows and practice cross country. I'd also fork over tons of cash for lessons from a number of trainers and to participate in numerous clinics. I'd be very fit, know a ton about horse care/riding, and be a huge contribution to whatever barn I rode at/for. I'd go to a college with an amazing equestrian team, and board my horse at the college that I attended. I'd probably end up owning my own barn, teaching lessons, training horses, guiding trail rides, or something of that nature.

4. The Life of LAHS Clubs/Organizations
This is where I go club crazy. I'd be an active part of Mock Trial, Speech and Debate, Gay-Straight Alliance, Ruach Club, Christian Club, the "Save the Children" Club, Community Performing Group, Improv Club, Key Club, Safe Rides, Model UN, Class Council, Slam Poetry, and the book club. Every lunch would be spent at one of these clubs and I'd probably be an officer of one or more of them. I'd spend my free time at meetings for S & D, Mock Trial, or MUN, and I'd spend the rest of it brainstorming ideas for fundraisers or attending fundraisers. I'd put a lot of time and effort into the intellectual clubs like Speech and Debate, Mock Trial, and MUN. I'd be a very active member of GSA and Key Club. I'd enjoy the variety of the clubs and the diversity of people in each of them. I'd get into college for community service hours and a diversity of extracurriculars, but probably get into an average-ranked college. I'd have learned a lot about different things, though, and contribute to charitable organizations.

5. The Spiritual/Church Life
For this I'd join many committees for the church, be the President of the youth group. I'd actively help organize church services and spend a lot of time at Bible Study classes. I'd put a lot of effort into singing with the church choir and probably join Starfire. I'd fight for changes that I'd like to make in the church services and make my voice heard. I'd probably reinstate the whole acolyte thing and organize the youth to read the Opening Prayer every sunday. I'd also try to make a Youth Sunday (similar to the laity sunday) where the youth get to plan and run the church services. I'd make our youth group more active and make sure that we do more things for the community.

6. The Social Life
This is where my academics kind of go down the drain but I have a TON of fun! I'd spend like every waking moment with friends and go out every weekend. I'd spend a lot of time shopping and put a lot of effort into my appearance. I'd pribably ask a ton of guys out just for the social expreience of getting to know a lot of different people. I'd invite people over a lot and use the telephone more than a normal person would. I'd hardly ever spend time alone. I'd also be an incredibly caring friend and do a lot to make sure that the people I loved were happy. I'd do special things for people's birthdays and celebrate with them any little achievement. I'd also make sure to help any of my friends who were unhappy and do little things to cheer them up.




If only there was some way to combine ALL of that into once person! If I could do it all, you'd bet I'd do it. I'd also try out for Dance Team (which I might do just for the fun of it anyway) and do a few sports (swimming, gymnastics, soccer, maybe field hockey) for fun. I wish I could!!

Well, that was fun. Now I have to go study for an Algebra II test (I've gotta get all of the extra credit possible or my grade will go down becuase it's still like 102.something%) and 2 French essays. Ugh. OH, and a Chem quiz on Friday. And I have to catch up on MEHAP and finish All Quiet on the Western Front. Fun stuff! Later!

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jus4fun06

:: 2004 3 November :: 9.03am
:: Music: coheed and cambria

the world is at ease...
maybe for a little. i am content enough. i still hide the scars from him. he knows of them but has never seen them. i am tired of iding them. i think i may stop. it is simply beautiful in the mornings. the clouds are out and simmer in the golden rays. quite entrancing. sometimes i wish i was as pretty. i noticed more and more that people are starting to leave me. is it really my fault? i try to be a pleasant enough person. i dont talk about people behind their backs. sure, i get a lil hyper sometiems and i talk a little too much, but does that really annoy them? it confuses my mind and im not quite sure how to deal with it. i have tried fixing myself but i cant seem to change. maybe i am not trying hard enough. im not quite sure. life is so confusing.

How do i change the entries so they go to the left or right???

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xxinterrupted

:: 2004 2 November :: 11.19pm

All I have to say is..

GO BUSH! Kick Kerrys ass!!!

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xxinterrupted

:: 2004 2 November :: 9.09am

Check out my blirtatiousness!

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squishylover

:: 2004 2 November :: 6.28am
:: Mood: Alive?
:: Music: Billy Idol

Election Day!
Wow today is election day, I wanna know who's gonna win. Just think (I think this is pretty cool) that when our generation gets older this shits gonna be in text books. I dunno I find that an interesting thought. I wonder what it would be like to be the first woman president. I know it would be both a good and bad thing. So many would hate you for being a woman in office, but many would admire you for taking on the job. Well I guess we will have to wait till later to find out who wins. I hope it's Kerry....I do. I don't really care for him but in my opinion it's a better choice then Bush. Ok school time.

-Chasmin-

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squishylover

:: 2004 1 November :: 10.46pm

Halloween pic
Read more..

-Chasmin-

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jus4fun06

:: 2004 1 November :: 2.25pm

they see it.

i cant hide



help me

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squishylover

:: 2004 31 October :: 4.36pm
:: Mood: Crappola
:: Music: Selena

Happy Halloween?
Yah so Happy Halloween everyone. I worked for the first part, all dressed up and all that good stuff. If I get a digi pic I will post it on here. I think I'm going ot Jons party thing tonight, so good stuff. Lucy the other hostess was a cop everyone was hitting on her. I did something stupid on friday and now I regret doing it. I gave Ryan a note telling him how I felt about everything, and I think that was a really bad idea...I just have a bad feeling. I hate this feeling...I hate stuff. Ryan is able to go out and do stuff, make friends and be spontaneous, I'm happy for him. I should do that....enh too much energy. I wonder when or if Lorelei is picking me up. I want to be happy, why is it hard for me to be happy? AHHHHHHHH! I need to stop thinking about this.

-Chasmin-

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xxinterrupted

:: 2004 31 October :: 7.40am
:: Mood: cranky

just some random facts
i'm tired, cranky, ect.

yesterday we [me and gab] went to the parade in bentlyville.

it was nice.

it was her first parade, she got her first piece of candy. some guy handed it to me.

jim was supposed to come, but couldn't get a ride.
both of his cars are broken.
*shakes head*, *sighs*

people are sluts.

i've been pissed off since friday. *cough* mom *cough*

it was my weekend off with the girls, and i didn't do shit except stay home.

kelly and i made cookies last night.

i was thinking that maybe i change things with my life/ect. so often because i'm insecure.

am i insecure? that's the question of the decade.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2004 31 October :: 12.50am
:: Mood: annoyed

I love you.

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musicalbabe

:: 2004 29 October :: 9.04pm

OBOE!!!
It's really quite dissapointing to think about the millions of people who haven't experienced the joy of playing an instrument. Ah well, sucks for them!

Since I joined Symphonic Band at the quarter, I've been playing a semi-crappy (okay, REALLY crappy) student model that I loaned from a friend. (I shouldn't be complaining, because if it weren't for her I wouldn't have had anything to play for the past 2 weeks.) But anyway, I also bought a reed from West Valley at the last second to tide me over.

Bad. Baaaad.

I was freaking out that my embouchure had been completely lost and that I was an oboe FAILURE, until just now.

MY MOM RENTED ME A BEAUTIFUL, BEAUTIFUL RENOIR-FOX INTERMEDIATE OBOE, AND I LOVE IT! The sound is AMAZING. She also bought me 3 reeds and a tuner. YAY FOR ALBION BLACK REEDS!! OHHH I LOVE THEM!!

Quite a change from the brand-less, crappy West Valley thing I was trying to play on.

Next time Mr. Ferrucci gestures me to play the oboe solo, (as I'm the only oboe in Symphonic band...:-P) he'd better watch out--I'LL ACTUALLY PLAY IT WELL!

Happy happy! And I think I did okay on the chem test! WHOO!!

I'd better get some hw done before Fresh Choice with the sax's/trumpets. I doubt there'll be more than like 8 ppl there. Kinda sad, but why do intersectional bonding THIS weekend? Everyone's busy up the wazoo!

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xxinterrupted

:: 2004 29 October :: 5.12pm

ATTENTION!
Tw1st3dxDr3ams (5:12:23 PM): i thought a month would be from Oct 1st to Nov 1st.

yes becky.. you are right. i don't know wtf i was thinking. thank you for setting me straight!

gabrielle isn't a month old yet.

haha.. i'm stupid.

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jus4fun06

:: 2004 29 October :: 10.58am
:: Mood: guyish

just lose it~
for halloween you are allowed to come dressed up for school. i came dressed up as my buddy chaz. hottness! including his boxers(!!) i borrowed his titans hat. it doenst really match though. meh. i thought about slightly cutting my hair, but idecided against it and i have about 20 bobby pins holding my ends in front of my forehead. when i walked in to school. i saw kellie so i walked over to her and she kept walking. i had to run into her. she then looked at my face and saw that it was me. so many people i called out to them or walked over to them and they told me they didnt reconized me. so many tell me they actually thought i was a guy or that i looked good like a guy. hmm. i think i may have to do this more often. its quite amusing on my part. the challenge is remembering to talk in a deeper voice. i walked into this class and sat on grants lap (cause all the guys thinks it so weird to be hugged by someone who is wearing baggy clothes) and so he pants me. im standin there in boxers. ha! then i had a few guys ask me if i was wearign anything under the boxers. {smirk} tee hee. wouldnt they like to know. this is hottness!

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xxinterrupted

:: 2004 28 October :: 11.49pm
:: Mood: shocked

i can't believe gabrielle is 1 month old today.

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xxinterrupted

:: 2004 28 October :: 12.39am
:: Mood: stressed

RULES: Write a statement intended for 14 different people. NEVER TELL which one is for who.
1. I HATE YOU.
2. I love you.
3. I wish you would just let me do what I want.
4. Stay out of my life!
5. I hope your gram gets better.
6. Just because I don't call you, doesn't mean you can't call me.
7. Thanks for all your support.
8. Things have changed.
9. I hate you for what you did to me.
10. I can't believe I ever liked you.. you're scum!
11. I love you so much more that I ever thought I would.
12. You're such a bitch sometimes.. I hate how you treat your kids.
13. Stay home more often, they need a mother.. not a sister pretending to be their mother.
14. I don't like you. And I really can't believe you thought he liked you.. lol.

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