fearthainn
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2005 20 July :: 2.38pm
3rd time's a charm, fuck you woohu.
- Carl
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fearthainn
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2005 15 July :: 5.15pm
:: Mood: Tense
:: Music: Garth Brooks - The thunder rolls
I went to see Charlie and the Chocolate Factory today with Carl, man that wasn't what I expected.. it was better! The best movie I've seen all year. Johnny Depp was awesome, and the Oompa Loompa's and their songs got me every time.
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I'm in a bit of a problem.. see, Jim (my stepfather) just came in and told me we were going bowling, but I don't really want to go alone this time.. I've already called Carl, she is unable to come along.
Anyone wanna go?
EDIT - - - 12:00 am
Well, just got back from bowling.. it took forever and now I feel like crap, I mean I was fine when we left.. but it didn't help that it was hotter than hell in the bowling alley. I don't think that's why though, my stomach's been turning all day.
Anyway, before we got to the alley we went to Best Buy (one of my favorite stores, by the way) and looked at the digital camera's they had, as I may be getting one for my birthday.. they didn't have much on sale, but they had beautiful camera's that I'd die for.
The guy that worked there was telling me that he found that Sony camera's were the best for zoom and what not, but I've grown so fond of the Nikon I've got, it takes great pictures. I don't know, it's probably just 'cause that's what I'm used to. *shrug*
If any of you that read my journal have a camera I'd like to know the brand, and what your opinion is on it. It'd help in my quest for picking out the best one. :)
Other than that, I think I'm going to bed for the night. Yeah, it's early.. but I want to feel better by tomorrow.
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Fearthainn
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2005 12 July :: 11.54pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: Anthrax, "Safe Home."
I've been down this road once or twice before,
through the open door;
I come falling through it.
There's a sign post up ahead,
like a watershed,
and it opens my eyes.
Ways.. ways, for me to begin;
to be born again.
..and knowing for the first time.
Ways.. ways, all so differently
shine for me to see
..the better man that I am.
I've been places in my head..
behind me worse than what's ahead.
And on my path, just like a dream,
takes me from the in-between.
From out of nowhere, you came strong as stone
and now I'll never have to be alone.
What it is I know:
You have always been my safe home.
I walk, I run.. I burn out into you.
You have always been my safe home.
My whole world has moved on...
I know what I am, and I'll always be.
Your reality
is better than I could dream.
All my fears turn from black to white,
and I'd stand and fight
the whole world for you.
Faith.. faith and destiny;
I never did believe.
..my only god is love and -
Faith.. faith, what I see in you,
and I can hold it true;
..like a weight in my hand.
I've been places in my head..
behind me worse than what's ahead.
And on my path, just like a dream,
takes me from the in-between.
From out of nowhere, you came strong as stone
and now I'll never have to be alone.
What it is I know:
You have always been my safe home.
Pictures..
Read more..
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fearthainn
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2005 12 July :: 10.07pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: The Misfits - Ballroom Blitz
"Oh yeah, it was like lightning, everybody was frightening"
This song reminds me of when I was with my mom and Carl, we were in the car and this song came on and my mom went insane and was about swerving off the road 'cause she was dancing.
Hm. Well, this week so far I've went to the zoo with Carl, which was awesome! I have a ton of pictures from that, I also took several more yesterday. I'm planning on posting a few of those once I get some help from Sye.. I've tried and they won't show up. :/
I'll edit later with those.
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fearthainn
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2005 10 July :: 12.27pm
:: Mood: giddy
:: Music: Aerosmith - Walk this way
Three words..
ZOO WITH CARL!
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Jaganshi
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2005 9 July :: 8.41pm
No, I haven't forgotten woohu. I've just been busy. At some point here I'll paste in a monster entry to get you all up-to-date if you like.
3 punched that stupid owl in the face
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how many licks to get to the tootsie pop center?
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fearthainn
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2005 9 July :: 6.41pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Marilyn Manson - Ka-boom Ka-boom
Today has been rather uneventful.. I was supposed to do something, however plans got ruined, and I'm stuck at home. It's not so bad, though.
I've been listening to Marilyn Manson all day.. I'm not sure why, I'm just in the mood I guess. Oh, my mom just told me that my sister is supposed to be calling back and we might be doing something.. should be cool, but she isn't a reliable person so I won't get my hopes up.
I'm hoping Leesh is able to come over soon, she's finished her first segment of drivers ed. so hanging out should be easier now.
And last but definitely not least, you all should go to Sye's woohu and wish his band good luck at their show!
I'll either edit or update later.
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fearthainn
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2005 6 July :: 1.46am
:: Mood: mischievous
:: Music: Static-X - I'm with stupid
Sye wanted me to update, so here it goes..
I had a blast with Carl these past few days.
I do warn you, this probably will be all jumbled together..
Sunday: I went to Carl's dad's, from there to her mom's, from there to Pop-Tart's.. then Carl and I switched cars and rode to Newaygo with Alex and Toby rode with Pop-Tart. It was a very amusing ride, a lot of speeding involved. Oh, and we all learned that Pop-Tart likes to stop right in front of police cars that are obviously trying to get around her.
Anyway, we got up to her property and it was basically deserted besides her grandparents and uncle as everyone else was at the beach swimming. We got bored and played Skip-bo.. which Alex pissed me off terribly, the kid wouldn't shut up. I was definitely on the verge of slapping him.. should have too. We then went up to the Hilltop store and bought Pizza Pockets, which by the way are really good.. we made about 4 or 5 trips to that place throughout the night.
Later, we saw fireworks and decided that we'd walk down the trails to see if we could see them any better.. well Carl and Alex thought'd be hilarious to send Toby and I down a different trail.. "Oh, we'll wait here guys." Yeah, right. Toby and I get back up there and they've disappeared.. we didn't figure they went far 'cause we were the ones with the flashlight.. I guess I shined the light right on Alex, but didn't see him.. so Toby and I walked back to where we were staying. They finally showed up and laughed.
After sitting around a while we decided that there really was nothing to do up there so, Carl, Alex, Toby and I all ventured back to Carl's place for the night. You should've seen us trying to pile into Carl's bed, it was comical. Well, Toby and I stayed up until around 5 playing video games, and finally we all fell asleep around 6:45ish-7am.
We woke up, didn't really do a lot.. Alex left us, I really wasn't that disappointed..*mumbles* Carl got some awesome pictures of Eliseo, he is the coolest baby ever, seriously, you can't argue.. look at her Woohu..there are more pictures as well. I would have had some too, but I forgot my camera.
We then played some more video games, which I lost..again as always. Went to bed earlier, and slept until 1.. Got up, Carl attempted to make pancakes, which they started to cook once she turned the heat up.. Toby and I tried to make orange juice, I talked to Zach on the phone about sea-food and how he likes octopus, we watched some of the Blue Collar comedy tour movie, then Toby and I got picked up.
Now, that wasn't just a paragraph. ;)
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fearthainn
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2005 2 July :: 12.01pm
:: Mood: groggy
:: Music: Queensryche - Silent Lucidity
"Hush now don't you cry..
Wipe away the tear drops from your eye.
You're lying safe in bed,
It was all a bad dream
Spinning through your head..
Your mind tricked you to feel the pain
Of someone close to you leaving the game..
Of life
So here it is, another chance
Wide awake, you face the day
Your dream is over..
Or has it just begun?
There's a place I like to hide,
A door way that I run through in the night.
Relax child, you were there..
But only didn't realize, and you were scared.
It's a place where you will learn,
To face your fears, retrace the years
And ride the whims of your mind.
Commanding in another world
Suddenly, you hear and see
This magic new dimension..
I -- will be watching over you..
I -- am gonna' help you see it through..
I -- will protect you in the night..
I -- am smiling next to you .. in Silent Lucidity
If you open your mind for me,
You won't rely on open eyes to see.
The walls you built within..
Come tumbling down, and a new world will begin.
Living twice at once you learn,
You're safe from pain in the dream domain,
A soul set free to fly.
A round trip journey in your head..
Master of illusion, can you realize
Your dream's alive, you can be the guide but..
I -- will be watching over you
I -- am gonna' help you see it through
I -- will protect you in the night
I -- am smiling next to you .. "
I haven't listened to this song in so long, it's good to hear it again.
Today I really haven't done much.. I woke at noon, lied around most of the day, actually.. I haven't felt that great, these headaches are doing me in.
Luckily, I have my "rapid headache relief" aspirin, which is the only thing that has actually worked for me.
I'm going up north with Carl tomorrow, for fireworks and such.. it should be a good time, I just hope I don't have a headache the entire time.
I redyed my hair again, as all the blue Carl put in it came out.. it turned out super-dark, yet it still looks good.
After that, I ran a few errands with my mom.. then she wanted to go have a few drinks with friends, so I tagged along. We just arrived home.
Well, I'll update once I get back from up north.
I'll probably have pictures. See, I have a ton of pictures I could post but when ever I attempt to do so, it doesn't work.. it hates me, so I think I'll have someone do it for me this time.
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fearthainn
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2005 30 June :: 4.09pm
:: Mood: lethargic
:: Music: Muse - Sing for absolution
" Lips are turning blue,
A kiss that can't renew..
I only dream of you,
My beautiful..
Tiptoe to your room,
A starlight in the gloom,
I only dream of you,
And you never knew..
Sing for absolution,
I will be singing..
Falling from your grace..
There's nowhere left to hide,
In no one to confide..
The truth runs deep inside,
And will never die..
Lips are turning blue,
A kiss that can't renew..
I only dream of you,
My beautiful..
Sing for absolution,
I will be singing..
Falling from your grace..
Sing for absolution,
I will be singing..
Falling from your grace..
Our wrongs remain unratified,
And our souls won't be exhumed.."
Muse is a great band, you should give them a listen.
I apologise for not updating in such a long time.. I've not been online much, I've been with Leesh most of the week again.
This weekend I'm not positive on what I am doing yet, but I know I'll be with Carl.
I'll edit later, after I hear from her.
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fearthainn
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2005 24 June :: 11.51pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: Tonight and the rest of my life - Nina Gordon
I've figured a few things out this week..
1) My stepfather is an asshole.
2) I want to see Carl.
3) I want to see Sirus.
4) I want to see Leesh.
5) I love german chocolate and teddy bears.
6) I need to stay away from Hot Damn.
Well, Jim and my mom got into a massive fight.. which is not unusual. Although, I hate having to listen to it.
I've not gotten to see Carl yet since she got back.. I hope to tomorrow. I'm booking you Carl!
I just read Carl's Woohu, Sye is coming in 7 days! I can't believe it's that soon. :D
Leesh has drivers education for the next 2 weeks or so, and I won't be able to see her until around July.. 12th, is it? What ever the date, it's too long.
Eh, I'm finished.
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Jaganshi
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2005 22 June :: 6.02pm
Will Rennar: ...So you'd be running a combination cult/brothel?
Lithaladhwen: Possibly.
Lithaladhwen: Depends on the quality of my followers, really.
Will Rennar: ...This new faith intrigues me...
Lithaladhwen: We would worship the almighty Whatever High Up On The Thing.
Will Rennar: :O!
Lithaladhwen: The Whatever gives unto me amazing magical powers that are only visible to my followers after they consume the necessary ritual narcotics.
Will Rennar: Okay, that's it, I'm sold! ^_^
3 punched that stupid owl in the face
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how many licks to get to the tootsie pop center?
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Jaganshi
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2005 20 June :: 12.20am
You know how in The Sixth Sense you don't notice that no one ever talks to Mr. Guy-with-an-irrelevant-name until the very end?
I want to know how he failed to notice. I used to have days in high school where I would be in a room with other people and only one of them would acknowledge anything I said or did, like she was the only one who noticed me. From time to time (like after every two hours or so, or after more than one instance in a single day) I would request that she turn to someone else, point at me and ask, "Can you see her?"
Just to make sure I'm there. Because some one of these days, I won't be. If that happens and I don't notice... well then we'll know that it's easier than it looks to forget to confirm your existence with actual evidence. And I'll laugh at myself. Because at that point I deserve to be forgotten anyway.
I think that at field school I'll be a little glad to be away from instant messenger. Sure, I'll be cut off from a source of entertainment and communication. On the other hand, I'll know that everyone I'm talking to is talking back. The reason I try to reply to IM conversations and chats so quickly is because I'm trying to stave off one major fault of instant messenger: you know damn well no one is really paying attention to you. You know they all have something more important to do. Talking to you is something they do while waiting for a page to load or a CD to finish copying.
So... every now and again ask yourself. "Can they see me?"
Maybe they can't. Maybe they haven't for a while.
1 punched that stupid owl in the face
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how many licks to get to the tootsie pop center?
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fearthainn
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2005 19 June :: 11.26pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: U2 - Where the streets have no name
"I want to run,
I want to hide,
I want to tear down the walls
That hold me inside,
I want to reach out,
And touch the flame
Where the streets have no name..
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I want to feel
Sunlight on my face,
I see the dust cloud disappear
Without a trace,
I want to take shelter from the poison rain
Where the streets have no name..
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Where the streets have no name..
Where the streets have no name..
We're still building,
Then burning down love
Burning down love..
And when I go there,
I go there with you
It's all I can do."
I don't care what your opinion is of U2, they have a very relaxing sound.
Which tonight, I have a reason for listening to them.. I thought my headaches were giving me a break, yeah, I was wrong. They were on and off the last couple weeks or so, but they've returned and they are as constant as before.
These headaches are full on tension. When I stand up, I feel faint and lightheaded.. I do have a very high tolerance for these, but tonight it's terrible.
I apologise for my complaining, I hate doing this. I know you guys (those of you who do read my journal) are probably sitting there wishing to throw objects at me for doing so, and I don't blame you.
-End of complaining
Today was a looong day, as expected. I went to a couple family get-together-things, for Father's Day.
I left home around noon, and got back only a few hours ago.. well, I was home for about 15 minutes in between that time, but I left to see my sister's new place.
Now I'm going to go lie down and watch a movie or something, but before I go I'd like to thank Leesh for keeping me sane while Carl and Sye are gone.. you know, letting me stay at your house for the majority of the week, taking me out for coffee and/or ice cream, going out to dinner, renting movies, EVERYTHING. Thank you.
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Jaganshi
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2005 19 June :: 2.32pm
Because Dave told me to...
Fathers Day post about... my fathers, I suppose.
Read more..
3 punched that stupid owl in the face
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how many licks to get to the tootsie pop center?
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