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2004 15 February :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: calm
:: Music: hoobastank
which groupmember are you?
well, last night i went to sportime in bethpage to this wrestling thing with amy, my mom,my sisters,her friend,and the kid he mentors. it was pretty fun. one wrestler before he went on came into the audience stood on the bleacher right next to me and was spitting beer all over the place. UGH i got it on my jacket and all in my hair. ew i reeked of budweiser and my hair got fucked up. blah oh well. today i dont know exactly what im doing but all i know is that tonight sherri is coming over and hopefully we're going to go to the witches brew and yeah. february 20th i want to go to the glen cove bowling alley and hopefully i will be able to.
i.heart.richie.and.od.<3`
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2004 15 February :: 9.20am
:: Mood: geeky
:: Music: Less then jake- shes gonna break soon
oh hot diggity. my life is a bubble you poke it i smack you. this morning has been the best journal...comment....it was a good morning becaouse of peoples comments. you make me sad i punch the living hell out of you.
HAPPY SUNDAY
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2004 14 February :: 11.09pm
im in an emo mood right now, i doubt anyone truly wants to read this but hey..
i want to feel my heart pounding when i see you
i want to not sit and wonder 'what if'
i dont want to regret every choice i make, or dont make
i want a world where every gets what they deserve
i want to be noticed
i want to be the girl you read about who walks into a room and everyone looks at her, not just because shes beautiful, but because she has a vibe about her that makes everyone feel
i want to live in a world where people don't judge
i dont want to judge
i want my friends to be happy
everything seems so out of control sometimes that i dont see how the world can continue on its course. i dont see how people can go about their daily lifes when i know inside their crying and screaming to say how they really feel? i mean imagine a world where everyone just wore their heart on their sleaves. i just wish so much, and i want so much....and i dont deserve it, i know but that doesnt change the fact that i want it
emily
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2004 14 February :: 10.39pm
:: Mood: soggy, sad, pissed off
findings of tonight:
1. im more together then i thought
2. im more confused about everything
3. PB is a pot smoking asshole
4. lenny is great
yes so the rain reflects my mood as it always does, this valentines day sucked which shouldnt have been a surprise because its me and my whole world consists of nothing but shitty days compiled together to make a great suckfest. lenny was there tonight so it made everything more bearable.
linsey you are the best person i know and you deserve so much. i love you more then anything and i want you to get nothing but good things for the rest of your life. you deserve the best boys, best friends, and the most attention. i love you lenile.
'people say to not regret anything because it all makes you who you are today, but what if you don't like who you are?'
-forever confused-
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2004 13 February :: 9.21am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: nice to meet ya ma-bow wow
well, im in school and bored as fuck. my first period teacher isn't here and only me and one other person was in my 2nd period class so were not doing anything. well, hopefully today goes pretty quick. its the last day of school before vacation!
iheartrichieandod<3`
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2004 13 February :: 6.03am
harharhar
| when was your first... | | kiss...: | last summer | | with tongue?: | last summer | | handjob/fingerbang [received]?: | er sometime this year | | handjob/fingerbang [given]?: | last summer | | fuck?: | neva!!!!! | | oral experience [received]?: | .......... | | oral experience [given]?: | hahaha everyone knows my issue | | anal experience?: | JESUS | | do you like... | | coital sex?: | haha | | oral sex?: | not so much | | anal sex?: | fuck no | | making out?: | yes | | handjobs/fingerbangs [receiving]?: | eh | | handjobs/fingerbangs [giving]?: | eh | | being submissive?: | eh | | being dominate?: | ergh you ppl silly | | this or that | | lube or spit?: | lube | | condoms or rhythm?: | condoms | | missionary or cowgirl?: | missionary | | doggy or standing?: | hmmm standing | | food or ice?: | ice | | thick or long?: | both | | basic | | age:: | 15 | | sex:: | female | | sexuality:: | straight | | number of partners:: | none baybay |
sex SEX sex brought to you by BZOINK!
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2004 13 February :: 5.52am
:: Mood: nervous
eh i have my biology test today and my english vocab quiz today ehhhhhhh. im studying right now for bio, i actually studied last night to...eh. i have an 89 in geometry which makes me happy cuz its almost an A.
nothing else new
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2004 12 February :: 7.57pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: led zepplin
|Last|
movie you bought = save the last dance
song you listened to = maps...ignition- rkelly, haha
song that was stuck in your head = this love- maroon5
cd you listened to = les miserables..lol
person you've called = OD
tv show you've watched = friends
person you were thinking of = richie
|Do|
you have a crush on someone = yup<3
you wish you could live somewhere else= anywhere but erock
you think about suicide = i have
you believe in online dating = no but long distance relationships
others find you attractive = some
you want more piercings = eh kinda
you like cleaning = I HATE IT
you like roller coasters = nah
you write in cursive or print = a combination
|For|Or|Against|
long distance relaships= for
using someone= against
suicide = against
teenage smoking = as ciara would say - whatever bakes your cookies
driving drunk = against
soap operas = against
|Have|You|
ever cried over a someone of the opposite sex = yeah...
ever lied to someone = yes
ever been in a fist fight = yeah
ever been arrested = almost
|What|
shampoo do you use = herbal essances
shoes do you wear = silver and white etnies
|Number|
of times I have had my heart broken = three times
of hearts I have broken = a couple? maybe none..
of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends = about 10
of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = 3 or 4
of scars on my body = like 1
of things in my past that I regret= almost about everything i've done
|Do|You|Think|You're|
funny - sometimes
hot - eh
friendly - ocassionally
amusing - sure why not?
loveable - to some people
caring - very
sweet - yes
dorky - haha YEAH
|Favorite|
5 letter word: bitch
Cartoon: rocket power
Cereal: life-cinnamon
Chewing gum: winterfresh
Color(s):black red
Day of week: saturday
Least fav day: monday
Special skills/talents: idk
Summer/Winter: summer
Trampolines or swimming pools: both!
|Person|Who|Last|
Called you: frankie
IMed you: amy
Slept in your bed: me
Saw you cry: amy
Made you cry: my mom
Yelled at you: mommy
Said they love you: richie
Hugged you: eddie
Kissed you: idk
|Have|You|Ever|
Said "I love you" and meant it: yeahh
Gone out in public in your pajamas: haha yeah
Kept a secret from everyone: no, at least one person ALWAYS knew
Cried during a movie: yeah
Ever at anytime owned new kids on the block stuff: nope
Planned your week based on the TV Guide: not at all
Been on stage: yeahhh
Been to New York: yeah, i live here dumbasses
Been to California: yes
Hawaii: nope
Canada: yeahhhhh
Europe: nopessss
Wished you were the opposite sex: occasionally
|Random|
Apples or bananas: bananas
Blue or red: red
Walmart or target: Target
Spring or Fall: fall
What are you gonna do after you finish this: put it in my woohu
High school or college: im in high school...
Are you bored: yes, very
Last noise you heard: me typing
Last smell you sniffed: lemon sherbet
Last time you went out of state/province: veterans day weekend (salem mass)
|Friendship|Love|
Do you believe in love at first sight: not really
Do you want children one day & if so, how many: i want like 2 or 3
Most important thing to you in a friendship is: trust,honesty
What does love mean to you: uhhh
Do you love somebody?: yes, i do.
|Other|Info|
Criminal record: nahh
Do you speak any other languages: nopes
Last book you read: some book in school
Name some of your favorite things in your bedroom: my computer
Thing you dislike about yourself the most: a ton of things
Worst feeling in the world: having someone close to you pass away <3
Who are you in love with: FUCK YOU
Who do you miss: od and richie
|Me|
Nickname(s): riss,rissa,rissy,mariss,marizzle,rizzle,riss-ma
Initials: MF
How old do you look: umm depending on who your asking
How old do you act: my age
Glasses/Contacts: nope
Do you have any pets: a cat
You get embarrassed: yeahh
What makes you happy: my friends,diet peach snapple
What upsets you: i dont know...
|Finish|The Sentence|
I Love to - go to concerts
I Miss - richie and OD
I Wish - he was here<3
I Hope - one day i will find someone to love me
I'm Annoyed by - my sisters
I Am - ugly
I Want to Be - with him<3
I Would Never - make someone cry on purpose
I'd Rather - be having fun
I Am Tired of - being so cliche
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2004 12 February :: 5.41pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: maroon5
valentines day comes with...
depression, when you dont have a boyfriend or someone to spend the day with :-/
well, whats new? depression?, thats nothing new thats just something that i have to deal with but whatever. today is thursday and i have one more day to go before vacation..
school was ok today we had a party for joan (my principal) for her birthday. at lunch denise asked me to go outside and asked if i wanted a cigarette, i accepted. i went outside and smoked with denise,laura,ciara, kendall,danielle and cj. it was aright i guess?
kendall asked me if i smoked weed and i said no and then he asked me if i did e and i said i used to and then he told me he could get me a pill for 5 and im like 'haha its not worth it i could get it cheaper' and hes like 'you can?' and im like, 'yeah, my ex boyfriend sells and he can give me for free' haha school is fun as hell. i had 2 periods off because my teacher was out so all we did was watch part of a movie and listen to music. i love school, i can see myself getting out of highschool with REALLY good grades and im excited that maybe i can get into a better college than i thought i could.
iheartrichieandod<3
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2004 12 February :: 11.29am
:: Mood: sicky
:: Music: mrs.ball talking to her class
i am in the library right now, yeah shocker anyway.
cheese had our lunch and is now siting conspicuously close to me...as in 15 feet away. makes me wiggle with cheesy pleasure.
im in a very non touchy feely mood and i want to smack anyone that touches me right now so BACK OFF ppls
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2004 12 February :: 5.56am
:: Mood: scratchy
:: Music: MTV
no school yesterday, i cannot talk i sound like a fucking frog...which then makes me think of lenny, which makes me think of CLE which makes me think of other things...haha anywhoo
thats all
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2004 11 February :: 6.13pm
:: Music: Thursday....cross out the eyes
cant wait till this weekend
.....hmmm school today, nothing out of the ordinary, i got mi iflurtz thing back, it sadi that i was most compatable with jon economy ewwww!!!!!,
Yah and me ash and kaitlin still ahbvent made plans for this weekend yet, all we know is thta we are gonna spend the night somewhere together and stuff...yep i came home and i was really really sleepy so i went to sleep and was awoken by phil calling me at like 4:45, but thats good cause i didnt want to sleep all night...i think im gonna be "artistic" later ad draw and stuff, i love drawing and i dont do it enough.
I was talking to my 11 year old cusin on the computer earlier, she imed me, she lives in kansas it was interesting!!!
im talkin to like 6 ppl right now, its crazy i get on and like everyone imes me....its alittle anoying but its ok
i hope this weekend is good, cause for the first time in a long time im auctually happy and not really sad about anything, and im goood with everyone, ther isnt really any person who im enimies with, and thats good well besides stacey, but i dont really care avbout that, shes dumb!!
ahh my hair, im gonna get it colored,, what shouldi get it done like????
im probaly gonna die it all like a brownish red coor and get alot of blond highlights so i still have alot of blond in my hair....
or........................
im gonna get it colored blond agaion with like platinum highlights so ill be really blond, bu ti think ilike the first idea better,, ilook soo weird tho like not all blond, i havent seen it like that since 6th grade...its gonna be weird
i hope nothing happens this weekend that will make me sad..
ashlie needs to come online!!
i was acting all weird today for some reason i was really abnoxiuos! oh well
ok well thats all for my fun exciting life for now
>:~the stage is set to rip the wings from a butterfly~:<
<3 stef
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2004 11 February :: 6.16am
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: story of the year
well, school yesterday was nothing special. i went to school and went through the day like always then i took the bus back to east rockaway high school and then from there walked to the train with my mom. thennn we took the train to island park and went to pick up the lincoln (which was in an accident and had to be repaired) and we found out it was about 4400 in damage...wow. well, after that we went to pick up some papers that my mom had to fill out,drove to the diner,then my mom drove back to my aunts to pick my sisters up and then we took them back to my dads house. my mom and my dad left the house for like an hour and a half and i had to babysit for them. ugh.
well, after that my mom and i went to CVS to pick up my pictures that i had left there.
one question:
does it make sense that one hour photo is cheaper than overnight? and if so- why would people want overnight printing? ...
im really confused about that but yeah whatever it doesn't really matter, blahhhh
iheartrichie<3
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2004 10 February :: 11.32am
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Hillary Duff (in my head ew)
fro is hot
nothing new. decided that a certain relationship i have with someone is a.) not worth having b.) not what i thought it was or c.) screwing me over
besides that lovely piece of information...my computer will be gone for 3 weeks, eh not like anyone talks to me online that i dont talk to at school...and nicholas is gay so fuck him.
cheese was in my FCAT writes today, made my day a little cheesier
on my iflurtz: stalker boy
jeremy fried
collin
a bunch of mexicans
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2004 10 February :: 12.11am
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: hold on- good charlotte
school today was...
fine.
ok, here's the day in a pretty long nutshell, haha.
bus ride to boces saw leanne. the cosmetology students were having a competition so all of them came in for the morning and the afternoon. i <3 leanne, haha.
bus ride to pace sat by myself today
1st period-BBA figured out that i've DEFINITLY taken this class and its the one that east rockaway is trying to deny me credit in...BLAHHH
2nd period-social studies new kid in the class named matt. now our class has 4 people [me,ciara(sp?),cherie(sp?),and matt]
3rd period-studio art started my project on mondrian and mrs. lengel said it is coming out good (im almost done with it)
4th period-english started an essay on bullying and should the state take it into there own hands instead of letting schools take charge of bullying. eddie told me that evan likes me, ok?
5th period math started working on assignment 5 and yeah thats really it
6th period-lunch well, i sat in our 'cafeteria' which is also the studio art, intro to occ,and health room. i sat with ciara, cj,matt,paul,and karen
7th period-earth science watched a little lesson on the board and then watched some of october skys (good ass movie)
8th period-freesat in the only available classroom with everyone else who had a free period and i talked to joan about taking me out of BBA because i already took the class and i have to talk to her tomorrow
9th period-economics talked to denise and read on some guy adam smith who started laissez-faire economics...yeahh
bus ride to boces relaxed..yupp
bus ride to erock slept really, watched an almost fight,and just chilled
when i got home i just hung around really, i went to pick up my pictures and there not going to be ready until tomorrow so we shopped around alittle in CVS and yeah bought a couple of things, school tomorrow and i gotta wake up at 5 to take a shower. should be fun but after that we only have 4 days left of school until vaction. i have a far away valentine, richie<3 but yeah its better than nothing, right? well, friday i think we are having a surprise party for joan in school so friday should be a even faster day then all the regular days, ahh. the temptations to smoke a cigarette are hard to resist but to my pleasure im doing very well. well, there really is nothing else to write but i will update tomorrow probably - bye.
iheartrichie<3
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2004 9 February :: 4.51pm
:: Music: Dashboard confessional
...hmm just another day, it was fun tho, me and ash told everyone of our exciting weekend, lol,
..Tyler likes ashlie, that cant be good!! hahaha..., but me and phil are ok now, well at least for now until somthing happens again, or somthing,,,i dunno, i hope we can be friends.
next weekend i have to go to a wedding on valentines day. very gay. very, weddings are boring and i could be doing much better things like hanging out with my boyfriend ashlie, haha. but ill probaly spend the night there friday so her mom can get rid of that "mother instinct", whatever that is??? i guess ill find out later in life, ...maybe....i think zack is mad at me caus i called him emo boy...ehhh..shit
im being hurt by someone who dosent even know they are hurting me.....it sux
whatever,,,,
well i guess that is all...
<3 stef
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