<b> dream</b>

:: 2004 20 November :: 12.31pm
:: Mood: uncertain
:: Music: Broken-seether

just shit

last few weeks have been shittie =[

can it end ?

heartsbroken

:: 2004 20 November :: 12.31am
:: Music: emenems new CD

went to some party.. shit was tight.. 2 girls were fighting and dammnnnn the skinny one got the shit beat out of her... and then when they stoped fighting they both get up next o each other and are fixin there hair and shit lol .. there wasss madddd people there.....

lil mad i couldnt stop by heathers... erics car was being soooo gay again ! he needs to get a new car!

... school was so fuckin gay! i was sooo pissed alll day ! got kicked out of 4th hour ... fuckin sub... it was so funny he was so dumb and he got all pissed and was like im gunna call down a dean and were like you just want us to leave and hes like no no ill call some one down and starts lookin for the button to call the office and he couldnt find it and were like ummm do you want us to show ya where it is and we call for him he was gettin so pissed... then in 5th hour my teacher was being soo gay tryin to say my shorts were to short and im like miss you want me to strip my pants off right here so you can measure the in-seam and shes like yeah i got a ruler right here im like uhhh you want me to take them off right here in class.. i mean i will if you want and shes like no spread your legs and she measures it and it was "to short" and im like if you were smart you would know you cant measure an in-seam while im weraring the fuckin pants so she got pissed and was sayin shiot to methe whole class but she wouldnt kick me out.... learned some crazy ass shit in color guard... i cant do that shit iof my life depended on it ...schools so gay! .. just 2 1/2 more years! then i get to pay to go to school.. haha

-michelle-
<3erik

:: 2004 19 November :: 4.44pm
:: Mood: really happy
:: Music: yc

top 10 things i love/like :

10. music

9. my phone

8. my bed

7. FSU

6. the beach

5. friends

4. drinking

3. my camera

2. Logan

1. sex

top 10 things i hate/dislike :

10. miami hurricanes.

9. gossip

8. tests

7. headaches

6. work

5. rap

4. ppl who run there mouth

3. stress

2. fake people

1. ha. one single person. but im not going to say.

4 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 18 November :: 4.42am
:: Mood: gloomy

im a failure

with a breaking heart

and, a bad vibe

innocence

:: 2004 18 November :: 9.20pm

well.. lets see, whats been going on, im not even going to try to fill everybody in on whats been going on

*woot woot* good news -- crush just broke up w/ his girll. yaaayyy! omgg im soo giddy right now lol im madd excited, its really nothin tho.. but still hehehe.

annywho, i guess i wont complain this entry.. hm.. ive been feeling really tired lately tho, really overwhelmed with stuff, especially school.. which reminds me, i wanna go out for the volleyball team -- but who knows.

omg im shaking, i cant type right now, ill finish later. xoxoxo i miss uuuu mommy.. i love u soo much

CARLY I LOVE UU..
LAUREN - WERE SO GIDDY RIGHT NOW HAHA

2 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 18 November :: 5.27pm
:: Mood: nerdy

hola fuckers
i juss made a contract with danny. he gunna losse out on it tho..

ha .
hes standing behind me though. soo urm yeahhh...we ordered a pizza and urm were goign to best buy...to buy a movie

i dont feel good still =\

hmm oh well I LOVE YOU MR DANIEL JONES

:: 2004 16 November :: 10.46pm
:: Mood: irritated

-----------------INFORMATION------------
-- Name: Ashley
-- Birthdate:04/111/88
-- Birthplace: fl
-- Eye Color: hazel
-- Hair Color: ugly
-- Zodiac Sign: aries
-- Innie or Outtie: innie

-----------------DESCRIBE------------------
-- Your heritage: italina polish
-- The shoes you wore today: black flip flops
-- Your eyes: hazel
-- Your weakness: there are several
-- Your fears: being alone, letting people down, not being abl to leave a good lasting impression

-----------------WHAT IS------------------
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: urm, blah
-- Your thoughts first waking up:what time is it?!
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes/smile
-- Your best physical feature: dk
-- Your bedtime: whenever usually 12 on schoolnights
-- Your greatest accomplishment: idk
-- Your most missed memory: freshman year

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
-- Pepsi or coke: Pepsi
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Burger King
-- Single or group dates: depends
-- Adidas or Nike: adidas
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
-- Bras or Panties: panties

-----------------DO YOU------------------
-- Cuss: when im mad
-- Take a shower everyday:yeap
-- Have a crush?: my love
-- Do you think you've been in love?: sure do
-- Want to go to college: eh yea =\
-- Want to get married: very much so
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys:yup
-- Get motion sickness: nopee
-- Think you're attractive: eh
-- Get along with your parents: sometimes
-- Like thunderstorms: sure do
-- Play an instrument: nope not anymore

------------IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU--------------
-- Smoke(d): nopee
-- Done a drug:nopee
-- Had Sex: urm
-- Gone to the mallduh
-- Eaten sushi: sick-o-s
-- Been on stage: yeap mannyy times
-- Gone skating: haha yeah
-- Made homemade cookies: yummmy
-- Been in love: asked already
-- dyed your hair: yeap
-- Stolen anything: yeapp nothing major

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
-- Flown on a plane: duhh
-- Missed school because it was raining?:nopee
-- Cried during a Movie?: yeah..;[
-- Ever thought an animated character was hot?: cant say i have
-- Had an imaginary Friend: no
-- Been on stage?:yeapppp asked already tho
-- Cut your hair: yeah? who hasnt?
-- Had crush on a teacher?:no ew
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?:yeap
-- Gotten beaten up:no
-- Been in a fight: no
-- Shoplifted: no

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
-- Age you hope to be married: no ideaa
-- Numbers and Names of Children: ?
-- Describe your Dream Wedding: who knows anymore wont happen ;[
-- How do you want to die?: old in my sleep
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? radiologist
-- What country would you most like to visit?: England

-----------------OPPOSITE (or same) SEX------------------
-- Best eye/hair color:dark
-- Best height: taller then me
-- Best weight: not reall skinny but not fat

-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: none
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: hmm
-- Number of CDs that I own: wow..a bizillion
-- Number of piercings: 3
-- Number of tattoos: 0
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?:like 12
-- Number of scars on my body: 2
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: learn from it dont regret it

----------------FAVORITES------------------
-- Shampoo: suave
-- Color: purple/blue
-- Day/Night: night
-- Summer/Winter: winter
-- Fave Food: idk
-- Fave Movies: lots

----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
-- Wearing: a white shirt and a white pair of shorts
-- Drinking: nothing
-- Thinking about: sleeping
-- Listening to: my dad ramble

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
-- Cried: yup
-- Worn jeans: yeah
-- Met someone new online: nope
-- Done laundry: nope
-- Drove a car: yeap
-- Talked on the phone: mhmm

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------
-- Yourself: hardly ever
-- Your friends: [shrugs]
-- Santa Claus: haha nope
-- Angels: yea
-- Ghosts: eh
-- UFO's: sure ufos dont make em aliens juss somethign we dont know what it is! :-D
-- God: yea

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
-- Do you ever wish you had another name? sometimes
-- Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: yes danny<33
-- Do you like anyone? juss my love
-- Which one of your friends acts the most like you?: none of em
-- Are you close to any family member?:no

have fun!<3

i love you DANNY!

:: 2004 16 November :: 10.41pm
:: Mood: geeky

Thank you for the roses Danny <3

i love you!

5 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 16 November :: 10.33pm
:: Music: <333333

\
I've come to my senses,
That I've become senseless,
I could give you lessons on how to ruin your friendships,
Every last conviction, I smoked them all away,
I drank my frustrations down the drain, out of the way,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
Someone so tired of their routines and disappearing self-esteems,

[Chorus:]
I'll sing along,
Yeah with every emergency,
Just sing along,
I'm the king of catastrophies,
I'm so far gone,
That deep down inside I think it's fine by me,
I'm my own worst enemy

I could be an expert on co-dependency,
I could write the best book on underage tragedy,
I've been spending my time at the local liquor store,
I've been sleeping nightly on my best friends kitchen floor,
So I sit and wait and wonder,
"Does anyone else feel like me?"
I'm so over-dosed on apathy and burnt out on sympathy.

[Chorus]

Let the meaning slip away
Lost my faith in another day,
Self deprication seems okay,
I never thought I'd make it anyway

[Chorus]

I'm my own worst enemy [x5]

1 dreamer | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 16 November :: 4.58pm
:: Music: my manager talking

blahh
-----------------INFORMATION------------
-- Name: Brittany
-- Birthdate:02/15/88
-- Birthplace: fl
-- Eye Color: hazel
-- Hair Color: red
-- Zodiac Sign: aquaries
-- Innie or Outtie: innie

-----------------DESCRIBE------------------
-- Your heritage: Whittie
-- The shoes you wore today: my pink n black reefs
-- Your eyes: hazel
-- Your weakness: there are several
-- Your fears: being alone, letting people down

-----------------WHAT IS------------------
-- Your most overused phrase on aim: lol
-- Your thoughts first waking up:what time is it
-- The first feature you notice in the opposite sex: eyes/smile
-- Your best physical feature: dk
-- Your bedtime: whenever
-- Your greatest accomplishment: idk
-- Your most missed memory: my dad

-----------------YOU PREFER------------------
-- Pepsi or coke: Pepsi
-- McDonald's or Burger King: Micky D's
-- Single or group dates: whos coming along?
-- Adidas or Nike: adidas
-- Chocolate or vanilla: vanilla
-- Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccino
-- Bras or Panties: panties

-----------------DO YOU------------------
-- Cuss: I tend to yes
-- Take a shower everyday: on most occasions
-- Have a crush?:yea
-- Do you think you've been in love?: once a while ago
-- Want to go to college: eh
-- Want to get married: eh
-- Type w/ your fingers on the right keys:yup
-- Get motion sickness: I don't think so
-- Think you're attractive: eh
-- Get along with your parents: sometimes we all have our moments
-- Like thunderstorms: sure do
-- Play an instrument: nope

------------IN THE PAST MONTH HAVE YOU--------------
-- Smoke(d): just cigs
-- Done a drug:yea
-- Had Sex: yea
-- Gone to the mall:there this weekend
-- Eaten sushi: sick
-- Been on stage: yea
-- Gone skating: haha yeah all kinds
-- Made homemade cookies: ummhmmm.. yummm
-- Been in love: so already asked that
-- dyed your hair: yea
-- Stolen anything: yeah

-----------------HAVE YOU EVER------------------
-- Flown on a plane: no
-- Missed school because it was raining?:no
-- Cried during a Movie?: yeah..:\
-- Ever thought an animated character was hot?: psh who hasn't
-- Had an imaginary Friend: yeah
-- Been on stage?:yea
-- Cut your hair: yeah
-- Had crush on a teacher?:no
-- Played a game that required removal of clothing?:yea
-- Gotten beaten up:no
-- Been in a fight: yeah
-- Shoplifted: yea

-----------------THE FUTURE------------------
-- Age you hope to be married:blah
-- Numbers and Names of Children: skylar landon, dylan dakota
-- Describe your Dream Wedding:i dont think ill ever get married
-- How do you want to die?: dk
-- What do you want to be when you grow up? dk
-- What country would you most like to visit?: England

-----------------OPPOSITE (or same) SEX------------------
-- Best eye/hair color:idk
-- Best height: taller then me
-- Best weight: idfk

-----------------NUMBER OF-----------------
-- Number of drugs taken illegally: one
-- Number of people I could trust with my life: hmm
-- Number of CDs that I own: wow..
-- Number of piercings: 4
-- Number of tattoos: 1
-- Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper?:once
-- Number of scars on my body: 2
-- Number of things in my past that I regret: i think only one.

----------------FAVORITES------------------
-- Shampoo: pantene
-- Color: pink
-- Day/Night: night
-- Summer/Winter: winter
-- Fave Food: idk anymore
-- Fave Movies: lots

----------------RIGHT NOW------------------
-- Wearing: adidas shirt and black sweater, jeans
-- Drinking: nothing
-- Thinking about: sleeping
-- Listening to: ben folds five

---------------IN THE LAST 24 HRS------------------
-- Cried: yup
-- Worn jeans: yeah
-- Met someone new online: nope
-- Done laundry: nope
-- Drove a car: nope
-- Talked on the phone: mhmm :)

---------------DO YOU BELIEVE IN------------
-- Yourself: hardly ever
-- Your friends: most of the time
-- Santa Claus: haha
-- Angels: why not
-- Ghosts: yeah
-- UFO's: theres more than just us
-- God: yea

--------FRIENDS AND LIFE------------------
-- Do you ever wish you had another name? sometimes
-- Do you have a girlfriend/boyfriend?: no
-- Do you like anyone? yea
-- Which one of your friends acts the most like you?:hha i think megan
-- Are you close to any family member?:no
-- Who do you like to hang around the most?: megan, ashley, alex and logan and erick

:: 2004 16 November :: 4.08pm
:: Music: my plague

what are you looking for??

bc its not going to happen.

9 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

innocence

:: 2004 15 November :: 9.48pm

RIP Scotty Harris ...

Im so sorry, my prayers are with you and your family, maybe you and my mom can take care of each other..

This is getting way outta hand, i dont think i can handle one more disappointment.. im going insane, i cant do this anymore...

i need a better solution

mom i miss you so much, im running out of tears!

12 dreamers | Lifes all about dreaming

:: 2004 14 November :: 11.13am
:: Mood: scared/upset
:: Music: broken

drinking-drugs. i remember now..
last night i got a call and i was asked to take lindsey to kristens. so of course i did. i stay for a little while and as i was getting ready to leave. there was an extreamly loud smashing. and squeeling sound, so got into a few cars. and rushed out side the neighbhood. there was a white doge ram fliped up side down smashed against a red car pushed against two trees. one kid was flown through the windshield on the driver side. there was a manlayin next the the white doge ram cutting the driver out of his seat belt, cause he was gargaling and drownding in his own blood. we were standing beside the red car he was deffanitly still breathin. we had already called 911, we were telling them that help was on the way. the police showed up and asked us questions, and tehe man that was trying to help they shocke dhima nd told him to leave! and a few minutes later the ambulance came and they starting helping the people.. two tranahacks came(sp??) and they starting sawing the car apart to get the people out. we were there for probably 20 minutes, after alla this and i honestly have to say seeing that was the scariest thing iv ever seen. the cars were so ruined you couldnt even tell what kind of cars they were. that was it unexplainable, still is. and about 20 minutes later.. jordan and 2 girls came out screaming and crying and yelling to the cops that it was scotty and all the screaming and amblunces and police,ahhh i bursted. i couldnt take it. i cant explain it. its something from... a movie? and everyone i know knows him and i was there! i was with him when he died...im so freaked out..thats some crazy stuff..i ended up likr running away and calling danny <33 and at 3 i whent over there, i was so scared i needed him. and that was that i spent the night there.

R.I.P
Scotty Harris

tonight::

God, help me i dont..know what to do i dont i still dont. im hysterical. please know i love you more then anything, you my everything what would i do without you ? your my life, love , positivley everything to me. i'll love you today tomorrow-forever <3333
forever together
You n Me