:: 2004 5 May :: 9.30 pm

It's just a complicated emotion. Being lonely and tired at the same time.

mon dieu.

5 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 5 May :: 4.27 pm

IT'S ONLY A RASH DON'T BE ALARMED



I am feeling useless and also I would like to wear a bag over my face.

Le'ts focus though
-MEAP was not bad, also I got to miss band.
Today I was a good writer.

-And English didn't suck compared to it's usual degree of crap

-Okay, and when you expect Spanish to be dumb because you know it's cinco de mayo and you know you're making posters...but instead someone brings in a lot of candy and you sit there making fun of the french and also completing the most informing cinco de mayo poster EVER, you feel better about your eyebrows for a few seconds.

-And when you've had a good time in espanol and it's bosco stick wednesday you can count on a good time at lunch, which incidently was pleasing to me.

-Entonces, Mr. Gallery was not cool today. In reality he is not cool at all. He's just sarcastic with the odd funny thing here and there, and is NOT Mr. Norkus. But somehow through our misery we found a way to muddle through and make disgusting jokes and make irrelevent comments and meaningless noises and pretend to be cool. It was hard, but we overcame adversity, AND we didn't have to watch that movie...euhg.

-subs in sixth hour are cool because then I don't have to stay in my seat and I learned how to do all of my algebra. Almost. And Miranda and Jon and Devon are way cute.




And after school I spent a few melencholy hours, but now after talking on the phone a little bit and learning that i'm going to see my favorite cousins tomorrow i feel much much better.










Coming soon to a Sarar near you!:

Dual enrollment
cookies of the peanut butter variety
finishing my history assignment
a shower
prom photos
a new cd
popey's chicken! it's the shiznit!






hurray for me.

13 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 4 May :: 3.40 pm

Dear past, present and wannabe,
I don't want any of you at this moment.







Being alone would be nice.

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 1 May :: 1.33 am
:: Mood: tired

i could do it for you, but i couldn't bring myself to do it to you.

and that means something.

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 30 April :: 3.39 pm

me=hot

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:: 2004 29 April :: 10.36 pm
:: Mood: exciteddddddddd

I'm not sure how I feel about LBJ. I mean he's way crappy, but still, he's LBJ.


seriously....how can i possibly make up my mind about the man?


because his name was LBJ...


lotsablowjorbs....snickersnicker, or "getting the johnson treatment"

i guess he's just one big sex joke and that makes him loveable. or more loveable than something that isn't loveable. whatever.

lbj

5 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 28 April :: 10.16 pm

. . . and we sit and we marvel at the other. . . and i believe it's one of the nicest feelings I've ever had.

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 27 April :: 8.52 pm

Just floating along a cloud of vauge niceness.

How am I even supposed to get through a day tomorrow when I'm so excited about other things?



but in other news....I finished the Great Gaysby. bllllecccchhhhhkkkk. Worst Book EVER. No emotion, no erotica, no happiness at all. Just a bunch of crazy characters that are supposed to represent the badness of consumer culture of the 1920's while F. Gay Fitzgerld was the same freaking way. What makes that a classic? It's supremly rotten. The only good part was where Gatsby and Daisy made out. But even that was below the good reading material line.

2 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 24 April :: 11.27 pm

+ LAST PERSON WHO...
`Slept in your bed: emily slept in my trundle and griffin is sleeping there right now
`Made you cry: caleb
`You shared a drink with: roman, kind of...sometimes i have sips of his pop at lunch....or wait maybe it was jab
`You went to the movies with: i can't recall
`You went to the mall with: renee? well i'm going with jab tomorrow
`Yelled at you: robuck, actually i'm not sure if he was yelling at me or not
`Sent you a comment on Xanga: what zee hell?
`Said they were going to kill you: probably jab or becca



+ HAVE YOU EVER
`Said "I love you" and meant it? i tell griffin everyday
`Gotten in a fight: yes
`Been to New York? yes, twice
`Been to Florida? Yes, three times
`Been to California? no
`Been to Hawaii? No, but my parents have
`Been to Mexico? no
`Been to China? No
`Been to Canada ? yes
`Danced naked? no
`Wish you were the opposite sex? sometimes when i'm mad at my sweater puppies or having my period
`Had an imaginary friend? yes, it was a green dog with glasses and there was sam who lived in a hole at hilltop
`Red or Blue? red
`Spring or Fall? Spring
`Santa or Rudolph? santa
`Math or English?eww
`What are you going to do after you finish this survey? wash my face
`What was the last food you ate? strawberries
`High school or college? i hate high school
`Are you bored?no
`How many buddies are on? 10
`Last movie you saw? kill bill two
`Last noise you heard? space heater
`Last time you went out of the state: two weeks ago
`Things you like in a guy: there are lots of things
`Do you have a crush on someone? yes
`Do they know? i tell them everyday
`What's his/her name? everyone
`What do you think of ouija boards? marie
`What book are you reading now? gap creek
`What's on your mouse pad? supreme gayness
`Favorite board game? 13 dead end drive
`Favorite magazine? maxim
`Worst feeling in the world? there are lots
`What is the first thing you think when you wake in the morning? this isn't working
`How many rings before you answer? at least two.
`Future daughter's name: Rebessicarly
`Future son's name? Lyndon B. Johnson
`Chocolate or vanilla? gay
`Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? yes, boom the frog
`If you could have any job you wanted, what would it be? professional sit arounder that gets paid to do whatever she wants
`Are you a lefty, righty or ambidextrous? righto
`Do you type with your fingers on the right keys? Yes.
`What's under your bed? bed
`Favorite sport to watch? hockey
`Hair Color: aburn
`Eye Color: the same colar as a brownie
`Height Currently: 5’2 practically 5'3
`Glasses/contacts: contracts
`Current Age: 17
`Siblings: one brother
`Siblings age: 14
`Location: office
`Any Piercings: Yes
`Best Friends? oh lots and lots
`Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Boyfriend, girlfriends, fiances, wives
`Hobbies: oh yuck.
`Are You Timely Or Always Late: timely
`Do You Have A Job: Yes
`Do You Like Being Around People: sometiems



+ STUFF
`Have you ever loved someone you had no chance with: no
`Have You Ever Cried Over Something Someone of The Opposite Sex Did: der
`Do You Have A "Type" Of Person You Always Go After: crazy person?
`Want Someone You Don't Have Right Now: no
`Are You Lonely Right Now: no
`Ever Afraid You'll Never Get Married: no, i'm afraid that i will and then not be esp. satisfied
`Do You Want To Get Married:yes
`Do You Want Kids: yes



+ FAVORITE
`Room In house: my room
`Type of music: umm....i'm into the grunge latin polka thing right now
`Song: no regrets by molly
`Memory: lots and lots...it probably has something to do with making out or laughing
`Day Of The Week: saturday
`Color: green
`Perfume Or Cologne: um, that sparkle gel musk that jarma gave me
`Flower: eh
`Month: June or July or August.
`Season: Summmmmmmmmmmmmmmer!
`Location for dates: i don't really go on dates



+IN THE LAST 48 HOURS, HAVE YOU
`Cried: no
`Bought Something: food
`Gotten Sick: no
`Sang: yes
`Said I Love You: yes
`Wanted To Tell Someone You Loved them, But Didn't: yes
`Met Someone New: someone new checked me out and i met someone new
`Moved On: ...? didn't need to
`Talked To Someone: der
`Had A Serious Talk: that was more like four days ago
`Missed Someone: yes
`Hugged Someone: yes
`Kissed Someone: yes
`Fought With Your Parents: no
`Dreamed About Someone: yes
`Had a lot of sleep: not
`Wanted This Survey To Be Over: yes

1 Little Tyke | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 23 April :: 10.56 pm
:: Mood: contentedish

I would give today like six thumbs up.
If I had six thumbs.



so...yay.

3 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 21 April :: 6.38 pm
:: Mood: way awesome
:: Music: blink 182

2 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 20 April :: 9.39 pm
:: Mood: tragic

I have to do it tomorrow.

Or I'll burst with displeasure.











God, I'm so sick of myself lately.

3 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 20 April :: 5.00 pm
:: Mood: unreal

Either God is playing a fantastic joke, or he's seriously pissed.

What are the odds? Or is it stress?

I'm going to have to be sent away or shame my family.

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 19 April :: 10.42 pm
:: Mood: stiil kind of scared

I mean, I have a serious problem here. But for now it's kind of a private matter, cause it could be something stupid and I don't want to freak out for no reason.

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 19 April :: 10.12 pm
:: Mood: scared

My mother was horror striken when I asked if it would be okay to wear flip-flops to prom. She looked as if I had told her I was going to renounce subject pronouns forever.

I don't want to spend money on shoe-oos.

It's all so banal.

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:: 2004 18 April :: 10.56 pm
:: Music: dc-a6r

2 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 17 April :: 2.26 pm

and as i submerge myself in a world of adult books, i realize that i don't want to go back there. the reasons are many and probably valid.

3 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 16 April :: 10.28 pm

boy oh boy and girl oh girl.....our new house is cool. i might not get the big bedroom right away but i will someday and it's freaking awesome.


and there are other things to be excited about too. lots of things.

1 Little Tyke | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 14 April :: 10.09 pm
:: Mood: devious
:: Music: jewel-this way

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 12 April :: 10.09 pm

and your disconcern is comforting.

thanks for making me forget my head.

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 10 April :: 10.59 pm
:: Mood: Spppllleeeenddddiiiiidddd
:: Music: didn't leave but the baby

1 Little Tyke | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 10 April :: 10.25 am
:: Music: in the highways-peasall sisters

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 10 April :: 10.13 am

1: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18, find line 4. Write down what it says:
"The man, she recalls, whisked through the small..."

2: Stretch your left arm out as far as you can. What do you touch first?:
the white fold table

3: What is the last thing you watched on TV?:
some of the news, but i wasn't really watching....probably the weather, which sucks

4: WITHOUT LOOKING, guess what time it is:
8:24

5: Now look at the clock, what is the actual time?: 10:13....oh my god, i was serious....how is it 10:13? i woke up before 8:24. i'm so dumb.

6: With the exception of the computer, what can you hear?:
o brother where art thou soundtrack

7: When did you last step outside?:
last night...shit. my sunglasses are in mom's car and she's gone.

8: Before you came to this website, what did you look at?:
i came here first

9: What are you wearing?:
my aspen sweatshirt and my greenfield sweatshirt and my running pants and my sheriff necklace

10: Did you dream last night?:
it wasn't good...

11: When did you last laugh?:
last night? i don't know. wait like 10 minutes ago

12: What is on the walls of the room you are in?:
there's a picture of me and a-ron we're like 6 and 3 and we've got a nautical theme going and also a certificate of american medical record assciation

13: Seen anything weird lately?: my cousin grace and that hairy man at the hot spring

14: What do you think of this quiz?:
it's pretty good

15: What is the last film you saw?:
o brother where art thou

16: If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy first?:
a really big house and a trip around the world for me and mom on a private jet and lots of clothes...the expensive kind

17: Tell me something about you that I don't know:
i sucked my thumb until i was 11

18: If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you do?:
i don't know....i'd make gay marriages legal

19: Do you like to dance?:
sometimes, i look like a spaz though

20: George Bush:
i don't like him, but i'm sure his jobs sucks so i feel sort of sorry, but then he worked really hard to get that sucky job, so it's his fault

21: Imagine your first child is a girl, what do you call her?:
alice or barb or samantha or ruth

22: Imagine your first child is a boy, what do you call him?:
ben or moish or bruce or robin

23: Would you ever consider living abroad?:
i probably will

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 3 April :: 10.24 pm
:: Mood: way sore

at least i can say that i've snowboarded in a cool place, even if i can't say i'm very good at it.

whatever, i'm not persistant, and i'm okay with that.

and my mom has a big big kidney stone. she's in the hospital but she's okay.

3 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 31 March :: 6.41 pm
:: Mood: excerted <---------
:: Music: switch the foot

3 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 30 March :: 9.38 pm
:: Music: switchfooooootttt-the beautiful letdown.

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 29 March :: 9.50 pm
:: Mood: poser

I'm just a WASP with dark skin.

3 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 28 March :: 10.00 pm

yayyyy! the winter of our discontent is way over.

totally dudes.

way narely and tubular bodacious

2 Little Tykes | Watcha got there?

:: 2004 28 March :: 12.08 am

seriously, gross. why even bother looking? there's nothing of interest to see.

vomit vomit

Watcha got there?

:: 2004 26 March :: 11.25 pm

AP exam! woo woow!

I'll break your history lovin' face in!

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