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2003 5 April :: 11.21 pm
:: Mood: irked
:: Music: my fair lady-wouldn't it be loverly
A-ron is such an ass. I really hate him a lot sometimes. Just because he's mr.pubert poser boy now he thinks he can be a jerk to everyone.
I cleaned his stupid room. Not even that. I just dusted and put his junk in a drawer. And I made his closet look nice. Mom didn't even ask me to do it. I was just being super nice because he didn't even do a good fake job. It's not like I went searching for his drugs or anything. I didn't go through anything. I just made it look nice. And he gets MAD at me. That's right. His emotion was anger instead of gratefulness. What an assface. I did him a big favor. Why does he think he can get away with stuff like that? Mom and I worked hard to get the house really nice looking for the open house tomorrow. And he didn't even bother. And it's even worse that he knows he's an ass. But he doesn't care at all. Then he goes around like I'm not unhappy with him and farts and says annoying things. Then says I've been in a bad mood all day. Which, even if it was true, makes no difference because he's was being an ass somewhere else today.
rivem. brother=dumb
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But anyway. The house does look really nice and clean and elegant and cozy. I wish it was like this all the time.
And I never realized how much art, and how many photos and books we have all over the place.
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2003 3 April :: 10.54 pm
:: Mood: down
I have that bittersweet feeling about losing something again.
I'm happy that I don't have to spend two hours a day with moody, kids who won't shut up or sit or stop spilling milk or talking about toilets and eating with their mouths open and hitting and rocking and demanding and being mean and frustrating me.
But I'm sad that I won't get to spend two hours a day with really funny, sweet, cute, smart, innocent, rowdy, laughing and oblivious six and seven year olds. I won't get to read to them or have them read to me. I can't play Chutes and Ladders with them either.
And I'll miss Erin and Katie and Hilary and Mrs. Potter. Even though it was awkward. They're nice people.
I guess I won't miss making copies. Or waiting for the pick-up kids to get picked up. But I think that's it.
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So the computer is in the basement now. This is kind of strange. But it will help me get over my fear of the basement
maybe.
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2003 3 April :: 6.16 pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: mya-case of the ex
He's been discharged.
I have all these get well cards and no address.
Must use my super sleuth skills.
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2003 22 March :: 11.27 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
She makes me so boiling mad.
I've never felt such loathing for anyone.
I've never known anyone so oblivious either.
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2003 21 March :: 10.42 pm
:: Mood: contrary and spoiled
:: Music: edwin mcain
So "they" say that we're lucky and we should enjoy what we have because noteveryoneintheworldhasallthewonderfulthingswehave.
"They" also say that we're selfish and we don't deserve all the things we have.
So what do "they" want from me?
Be thankful or feel guilty?
So going shopping for me is this big moral debate. I hate spending money because you're supposed to be thrifty, but I want new things. But then I don't end up enjoying the new things because I feel guilty about spending money. Or I don't buy anything and feel bad because I:
A). wasted my time
B). don't have anything new
And being Miss Picky Fickle, I can't find anything I like. Clothes are too tacky, too ugly, too tight, too lose, too plain, too showy, ect. And being picky is a bad thing, I guess. Other people don't have this problem finding something. I have this awful ideal of how clothes should look on me. It rarely happens.
And then I feel ugly and act like a complete brat in a public place. And then I pout. Mom gets mad and calls me selfish, but in reality I just don't want to waste her money on something I don't deserve and won't enjoy anyway.
And then! She offers to buy me something anyway, but I'm too stubborn and refuse to pick anything out. So I sit and brood and really want what she offered, but it's too late. Then there's this horrible compusive feeling that I've missed out on something.
!!!!!!!
dumbdumbdumb
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2003 21 March :: 6.25 pm
:: Mood: bad
uglybadselfishvaindumbgirl
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2003 20 March :: 9.29 pm
:: Music: vertical horizon-best I ever had
I feel funny.
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2003 17 March :: 8.54 am
What is it good for?
Absoulutly nothin'
Sing it again.
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2003 15 March :: 10.03 pm
:: Mood: irritated
Trousers=Found
Brother=dumb
Sarah=unsure/shocked
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2003 14 March :: 11.10 pm
:: Mood: wicked
:: Music: semisonic-closing time
The Thing(s) I wish I could find:
My purple notebook with the book list in it.
My cords. I have reason to believe they have been destroyed and mom is hiding their charred remains away from me, to protect me from having a mental breakdown because of the loss of such a beautiful pair of trousers.
garf
flip
quar.
le poulet est dans la fille!
Griffin needs me.
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2003 14 March :: 10.58 pm
:: Mood: sick
ugly
hide
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2003 13 March :: 8.01 pm
:: Mood: crushed
I feel like I've been stumbling around and whimpering all day.
Too much pride to let mom know I'm sorry. But I'm miserable.
stupid
Dope
blockhead
dense
dolt
thick
dimwit
fool
idiot
moron
ass
simpleton
imbecile
dumb
bleh.bleh.
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2003 12 March :: 8.38 pm
:: Mood: mopey
shambles and brambles.
I'm a big failure blah, blah, blah, blah.
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2003 8 March :: 4.56 pm
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: the quick-girls against the world
good stuff
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2003 4 March :: 9.20 pm
:: Mood: dumb
sarah=big idiot
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2003 27 February :: 10.10 pm
:: Mood: crappy
:: Music: I like big butts-sir mix a lot
Why does she always make me feel like this?
sick
of
it
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2003 25 February :: 10.37 pm
By waiting for something to start I mean that...I go to school every day, so I can go to college every day so I can get a job, and do that every day so I can take care of a family and then die.
I'm bored/ have Winter blahs/cabin fever
School=dumb
It just doesn't make sense.
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2003 25 February :: 10.22 pm
:: Mood: bleh
:: Music: edwin mccain-i'll be
Just moving along.
Not much to say.
I guess I'm just sitting around waiting for something to start, but I know things don't happen that way. If I wait, I'll just end up an old lady.
Solo Ensemble= really really really stupid.
It's an experience I won't ever repeat. I'll die first. It is the most horrible thing I've been through.
zzzzzz.......
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2003 17 February :: 5.12 pm
Although I feel slightly better than I did twenty minutes ago I still feel bad.
Let it be known that 9's are too big and 7's are too small.
I feel so gross. Like something that crawled out of a hole.
My mother is annoying and models burn your ego.
Selfish.
beh! I'm not even sure why I'm upset anymore.
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2003 15 February :: 10.48 pm
:: Mood: toot toot
:: Music: the all american rejects-paper heart
my lips are sealed for her
toot toot
Estelle is going through some extensive plastic surgury. Expensive too.
A birthday present for both of us.
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2003 11 February :: 9.33 pm
:: Mood: uneasy
:: Music: adam sandler-lunchlady land
I harbor resentment.
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2003 10 February :: 10.05 pm
:: Music: all american rejects-swing swing
I'll find someone new
I feel so sad now.
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2003 10 February :: 9.50 pm
:: Music: donna lewis-always forever
I am dumbfounded at after all that happened I am still treated like an idiot.
It takes having a big fight to get through and then the meaness just continues.
It was even agreed upon that it would stop. But it really hasn't.
And what am I supposed to say? Why should I have to say anything?
It hurts.
A snow day would be nice.
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2003 9 February :: 9.43 pm
:: Music: jewel this way
I knew this would happen.
!!!!! bad
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2003 8 February :: 3.52 pm
:: Mood: gloomy
:: Music: nfg - dressed to kill
XP= the worst thing that's ever happened to me
It's the biggest flamer I've ever met
But I've been coming up with ideas for our new house. If I get to design my own room..that will be awesome.
Book nook
Goldish brown
Curtains
Dormer windows
Big closet
Maybe a chair
Huzza.
I can't think of anything else to say.
I'm still bored.
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2003 3 February :: 9.29 pm
Tabletop53: golash sounds dirty. it's the outcast of all the italian foods
sugarmouse0587: goslash is sick
sugarmouse0587: consume it before it consumes you!
Tabletop53: I'd rather just feed it to the dog
ABBA:FJasdkl!!!
I'm bored.
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2003 1 February :: 11.15 pm
:: Music: Adam Sandler
They're quiet
I like that.
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2003 1 February :: 7.29 pm
:: Music: american pie
*just breathe
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2003 1 February :: 12.23 pm
:: Music: elton john-your song
Mom kept talking to the realitor about me like I wasn't even here, and that I hadn't done anything all day.
She keeps yelling at me.
I'm mad
and Mr.Stupidsellyhouseman left the door open.
Ten years here.
bah
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2003 1 February :: 11.17 am
:: Mood: aklsdjklasd
:: Music: the streak-ray stevens
woot
Yee haw!
delicious.
"She's such a luss! I'm sooo sorry!"
What an improvement over last Friday.
But on a sad note...
If someone buys our house I may not get to spend the summer here.
We might have to leave in two months.
*sadness.
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