:: 2004 27 April :: 9.07 am
:: Mood: sad

song
Rascal Flatts- Love you outloud
(This is the song Todd dedikated to me Saturday night :-D how sweet...)

I have always been a little shy
I've always been the quiet type till now
And I never let my feelings show
I never let anybody know
Just how much I was so deep in love
But now that you're in my arms

Chorus:
I wanna stand on a rooftop, climb up a mountain top
Baby, scream and shout
I wanna sing it on the radio, show it on a video
Baby, leave no doubt
I want the whole world to know(world to know) just what I'm all about
I love to love you outloud

You keep bringing out the free in me
What you do to my heart makes me melt
And I don't think I can resist
But I've never been one to kiss and tell
A love this true can't be subdue
So I'm gonna let out a yell

I wanna stand on a rooftop, climb up a mountain top
Baby, scream and shout
I wanna sing it on the radio, show it on a video
Baby, leave no doubt
I want the whole world to know(world to know) just what I'm all about
I love to love you outloud

Baby, I want the whole world to see(world to see)
Just how good your love does for me

I wanna stand on a rooftop, climb up a mountain top
Baby, scream and shout
I wanna sing it on the radio, show it on a video
Baby, leave no doubt
I want the whole world to know(world to know) just what I'm all about
I love to love you, baby I just love outloud
Yeah, I love to love you out loud

YoU

:: 2004 25 April :: 8.41 am
:: Mood: happy

yesterday!
ok...wow...yesterday was defanatly fun! I cleaned my house till like 12:45 and then I went to CreamStone Creamery (the place I wanna work) for job auditions.....I saw Leanne (duh, her dad like owns it :-p) then we drove to Chris's so I could c Todd....and tell him how everything went...that was cool...Chris has a cool room!(They r COLECTOBLES, not toys!!! lol) cough...j/m, I got mad luv for ya Chris! ne ways then I went home to do HW and went to my grandmas where Chris told me this awful storie...about how him n Todd were playin with a gun and his finger got caught and he needed stiches and they didnt think he would make it so the sent him on the one last wish thing to ny and he came back and they found out he was gonna make it and so they threw a big party for him (this is where I stopped believeing right when he said this>>) and they invited a whole bunch of rock stars and movie stars...ne ways, then at 7:30 I went back to Chris's and waited w/ Todd for his daddy to come get us...he almoss kiked me out of the car tho! it was mad crazy ok, I was like woah, the car doesnt look that bad from the inside and todd goes, dad sara siad ur car was ugly and he stopped in the middle of the road and told me to get out and i was like um ok and todd pulled me back in and todds dad was petting the car and told it that i didnt mean it and made me say i was sry lol! he took us out to Ming Court (chinese restaurant) and then we went back to his house...and actually...did HW! and then we laid there and listened to music and talked about life and made out....then I had to go home

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:: 2004 23 April :: 8.56 am
:: Music: landings and takeoffs-The Ataris

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:: 2004 22 April :: 4.44 pm
:: Mood: scared

today
kk, well, I dont think yall really wanna hear about my day but who gives a flip!?!?!? and om bored so yeah...ok, well, b4 1st Tamyra came in my moms room and we hung out and took quizes....then I went to first....hung out with matt, leanne, and allie...wrote Nicole a note telling her she better lay off Vince bc he is mine not hers...(she said she wasnt gonna) me n jakie went to the cafeteria for ice and we went to 2nd period and had a pizza party with chips and pizza (duhherz) and cookie cake :-) it was fun....3rd pd me and Magen and Erin "worked" on our reading prj(we tlked about x fest)....and Liz, Jordan, and Michael came over and we tlked about ex fest and how Michael thinks he is datin Jordans mom! (wth) and 4th pd nuthin..>Kyle gave me sum twisted method stikers from the Specks music b4 x fest thing (which i am no longer going to...:'( ) 5th period, we talked about x fest sum more....and Kristen said she had an extra ticket and would give it to me if mom lemme go but she didnt! at lunch Robert and Austin were fghting over my chips and stupid spider vein legged ms broughton took em and ate em!!! (how rude) and so yeah....Jarrett and Eric P. were gonna fight but Jarrett sat down bc he wants ta go to the dance and to the feild trips still.....n Derrik got mad and he got up into the fight....and JR. was like yeah ill be on ur side to both of them...which isnt right...and I couldnt calm him down...(Jarrett) and I felt like crying but I didnt...I am really worried about Jarrett, and being phsycic n all......my feelings usually come tru...so yeah thats why i am worried...and then I had to find a way to break Julie and Robert up....then in 6th period, i was close to tears about the whole fight thing...and umm...i tried gettin Julie to break up w/ him but she likes him too much n he doesnt like her :-( and I wrote Nicole a nasty note saying basically the same thing only meaner and longer...and Julie gave it to her and she was like Im gonna tell the principal and julie was like dont be a pussy and I saw Nicole walking and she was PISSED the fuck off! it was soo funny, I only wish Vince could have been here today to piss her off better...I hope he got my autograph from twisted method! I wanna get it from Kyle and like photo copy it (lol) but yeah like he'll lemme do that...they (ppl from skewl) almoss got sitations bc they were at Specks for x fest and not at skewl and it was realy gay and our SRO was there! (For all of yall who dont know what x fest is....its a big concert with like 5 or more rock bands....{smile empty soul, finger 11, trapt, twistod method, and puddle of muddd.....}and is hosted by New Rock 99x{our rock station}) ok...well...then I went to 7th and nuthin happened cept i got moved for talking by the same old fukin lady that took my chips...stupid bitch....!

YoU

:: 2004 21 April :: 9.25 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: graduation suung by Meana- Vitamin C

YoU

:: 2004 21 April :: 8.55 pm
:: Mood: depressed

brett :-/
this is MY convo with Brett...I was pretending to be Meana bc I didnt wanna tlk to him personally..... I am really freeked out bc I dont want to beleive him and if I do Im scared to get reinvolved with him bc I dont want to get hurt agen.....and I am tlkin to him now, but AHHH idk....we rnt really tlkinh....but I dont c how he can juss act like nothing wrong happnened...unless he hasnt goten that far...?

Gba11111: hey its Meana
05: hey
Gba11111: can u talk?
05: ya for a lil bit
Gba11111: what was wrong yesterday?
05: yesterday was 4 20
Gba11111: oh....I should have thought of that
05: so i had this 'bonehead' idea that i would go skip and smoke out all day
05: well
05: didnt quite happen the way i had hoped
Gba11111: what happened
05: we went to this park where we thought for certain a cop would never sho
05: w
05: im sitting there with a half onze of weed in my lap and the cop pulls up right behind me
Gba11111: of course there are going to be cops on 4/20
Gba11111: ...and
05: luckly i never got caught for the weed... they never searched my car... that was the part i got lucky at
Gba11111: oh....
05: unfortantly they did take me down to jdc and made my parents come and pick me up
Gba11111: so r u grounded again?
05: no
Gba11111: what did ur mom do?
05: my parents said that they really dont care anymomre cuz if i miss 2 more days of school my license gets canceled and if i dont pass the 11th grade my car is going up on cynder blocks for the entire summer
Gba11111: well..atleast u wont get in trouble (from sara)
05: ya
Gba11111: ya
Gba11111: well...thats an interesting story...
Gba11111: well, Im getting off...Sara is still on, but yeah...
: well i gotta go for now ill talk to you later and tell saraa that i love her and im sorry and i watn to talk to her later
Gba11111: ill ttul
05 is away at 8:21 PM
Gba11111: how much later

YoU

:: 2004 21 April :: 4.14 pm

fight...
wow, that was crazy!!!! OK, i get out of 7th period and walk down the hall to Julies locker where like as soon as I get ther ei hear schultz ask her out! AWWW!!!! lol......n then me n Vince and her and RObert and Racheal were walking and u see these ppl fly up onto lockers and look down onto the first floor...and then Robert gets up on the locker and like looks down and he was like I cant see ne thing cept a bunch of ppl going to c the fight...so we juss all walk down stairs...and Julie told Robert my secret....and when we get down u c this one lil girl walking with ms Burrito (security gaurd) like she is gonna get arested and all these teachers yellin their heads off! it was sooo crazy!so, yeah...Julie and Robert are going out as of like 4:05 or sumthin.....and Vince kissed my cheek this mornin and bit my neck this after noon....god, I get all the vampires dont I?!?!?!?!? (dont worry,I didnt do ne thing with him...I am still going out with Todd!) ok, well I am gonna go home now buh bye!

YoU

:: 2004 21 April :: 9.30 am

I LIKE THIS!

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Name
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Spouse	Eminem
Price of Wedding	$907,333
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YoU

:: 2004 21 April :: 9.02 am
:: Music: my printer

YoU

:: 2004 20 April :: 4.16 pm

pregnant...not me tho...
god, I am like freeking out....I juss saw ***** and he told me there was a problem...bc I was like r u all better and hes like no, I have a problem and I was like what and he was like ******* is preganant! and I was like wth! but she is going to the dr tomaro I guess..I am gonna try to tlk to her today if I get online.....Im scared for them both and Idk his gf either so....i dunno how its gonna work out....but he looked like he was about to cry today and I juss wanted to stand there with him and like hug him! I fel so oblivious...I cant do ne thing this time to help.....
Ne ways.....I saw Vince with Nicole and Julie and he went to go sit down and Nicole saw me so she sat with him....how lame is she! i mean as soon as I walk into 1st pd and walk past her she says oh Vince this and Vince that...I juss wanna slap the shit out of her! god, she bothers me soooo bad!

Robert came back today and it was fun....at lunch I got "mad" at him tho lol...and it was quite funny and then today when I was was with Vince and them I was hugging Vince and he was like u 2 should go out and I flipped him off and told him I was mad at him and he was like I should b mad at u like 4 times and if I could count that high, I would and me n Vince were walking and he was holdin my hand and was like 1 blunt 2 blunts 3 blunts 4 blunts o fuck that juss gimme the bowl lol.......great stuff.......ok, well, I need to go shopping so I will bbl!

YoU

:: 2004 20 April :: 9.27 am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: twist and shout-the isly brothers

YoU

:: 2004 19 April :: 6.06 pm

hmmm, I am tlking to Sarah online and I am at the library next to this smelly german dude...Dan thinks I should tell him he smells....but im good lol! Sarah...wheres the rum?!??!?!?! ok, yeah, so im bored juss sittin here trying to convince sumone she isnt a vampire! dont ask.....hm, i should be working on my prj, but Todd is on his way here and I am too lazy! I ll juss check out a couple of books....no biggie.........hmmm...i dont feel good and I look like crap >todd, be prepared< awww....Sarah, ur sooo adorable, lol, i luv ya...dont ask, im sittin here laughin at like everything u say...wow, ok, we def have to have a day where u r here and it is juss me n u and we tell todd we r doin sumthin n make him really jealous!!!!!!! it'll be great...I can c it now...k, but i gotta go now so ttul
!

YoU

:: 2004 19 April :: 9.24 am

wow, ok, long story to tell yall...and ya know, for once, i dont care who knows....ne ways....last night me n sarah and todd were on the phone, and we had a long talk about going out and cheating and jealousy.....idk...and then my phone died, so I textd (im so used to tlkin on my cell phone i forgot how to type right) todd and was like tell sarah i love her and i luv u 2! and then I told her i really like her (and not to tell her bc i dont wanna scare her away or ne thign ) and i was like is it cheating if we r still goin out n me n sarah go out? and hes like r u hinting for me to break up with u and I was like no...only if u wanna bc u seem like u do specially when u told me that u had so many chances to cheat on me but u didnt{that hurt})im juss scared 2 lose/hurt her and he said i am not planning on breaking up with u unless it will make u happy, all i want is for u to b happy, even if it means her and not me and i said no i want to stay with u most defanatly! seriously, i know i dont love u, but i really like u n want it to work with us this time n i want u to be happy- ru? and he said i am only going to be happy when u r, i am shaking bc i am scared of losing u and i said omg i am so so so sry, u wont lose me.unls u cheat on me, but i trust y not to bc ur my bf 4 real this time and he said doesnt remove the fear i am afriad to get close im afraid of getting hurt so if u wanna break up tell me no to avoid ne further distress and i said no, i dnt wanna break up wth u...i am sry i gurt and scared u.i dont wanna hurt u and i am scaared to get close 2-4 real i want to tho, i <3 bein with u its fun and u make me feel specialthank u btw, and he saysfor wat and i say for everything, making me feel special, 4 puttin up with me, 4 bein a great bf, juss everything its like i can b myself around u and am like carefree ya know and he says i am ne thing but a great bf and i saw u ARE a great bf, unless there is sumthin u rnt tellin me and he says I like u alot, i care for u alot, i know i fucked up b4, but its not going to happen again.....there is more but it is what i said back and he says im going to sleep i luv u and then i wake up this morning, i found the sweetest text! "sweet deeams my love. we made it a month and not a day has gone by that i have not thought bout u, kall my cell in the mornin, luv ya" I was like near tears! i cant beleve he actually membered...so, yeah, ne ways...today we have been going out for month :-) I am sooo happy...okie, well, I gotta go....buh bye....I luv Todd!

YoU

:: 2004 19 April :: 9.15 am
:: Music: surfin safari-beach boys

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:: 2004 18 April :: 5.42 pm
:: Music: Lisa singing -the taste of ink by the used

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