^.^ Sara's World^.^

:: 2004 9 February :: 8.33am
:: Mood: bitchy in a good way lol
:: Music: Ain't no sunhine - DMX

i'm really hyper this morning lol i'm bitchy in a good way tha'ts funny don't ask lol neways last night was so funny me n bobbie called brandon n then he hung up on me then she called him n he hung up on her lol it was funny as hell we sat there laughin all night then i watched bad boys 2 then i watched the grammy's till 11:30. dmx rocks!!! lol nvm that but today has been all good so far ! today may not be so happy - preppy day i dunno yet !?! lol i luv everyone muahz i ttyl pz

8 FuCk | YoU

:: 2004 7 February :: 8.435435pm
:: Mood: laughing
:: Music: meana being silly

lovechild4
YOU ARE THE LOVECHILD OF JON BON JOVI AND MARIAH
CAREY!

Which Celebrity Lovechild Are You?
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:: 2004 7 February :: 5.11pm
:: Mood: tired yet dirrty
:: Music: say i yi yi - yin yang twins

hey what's ^ i got home from guard like 2 hours ago omg it was hard my thighs hurt like hell owww lol oh well i hurt my hand when i threw a triple on my rifle n it hurt like a mofo it was swollen n purple but that's ok i'll deal wit it bobbie was supposed to come over but i didn't call her we were gonna go to target n get black cheerleading shorts n write "UGLY" on the butt in white it's gonna be funny i guess since we didn't do it today we'll do it tomorrow or somethin' i dunno yet!?! ummmmm........... o ya i might go to tn tonight if my mom ever comes home n i can ask her if i'm alowed to go she'll prolly say no but it's worth a try it's it chandelle wants me to go n so does april n janielle o ya i gotta call janielle n ask her what time she's goin i mean i kno when it starts but i don't kno what time she's goin or what time she's leavin i think i might call bobbie n ask her if she wants to go to tn for her first time too ( april is goin for the first time) lol hey elyse i'm sryy i didn't say tarynn after every sentence that would be alot!! lol that was funny yesterday when u were on tha fone wit ryan n u kept sayin taryn hehee good times n then with ty n u kept hangin up on him lol better times god i wish i had a bf i mean vday is like next friday not even a week away i want brad to be my bf sooooooooo bad!!!!!!!!!!! it's not even funny i luv him so much!!!!! y does frank gotta ruin everything oh well i'll talk to brad lata i gtg peeps i luv u all i'll ttyl muahz ~ LiL t

:: 2004 6 February :: 5.2344pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: Fefe dobson- everything

today was pretty ok lasdt night was bad.. like me n my dad got into a HUGE fight kelly was on the phone when it was happeneing too. but i didnt get to sleep until really late and i took a shower at like 11 bc i told my mom i havent been sleeping and it woulnt make a difference if i took a shower anyway so she let me than she gave me a sleeping pill and i like fell asleep at like 130 which is the earliest in the last 3 weeks. anyway today in the morning i got up late and it took me only 40 mins to straighten my hair thats a record for me! than i went to school when i got to school i forgot what happened ok well skipping to 4th i asked the sub if i can skip so that i can do a project he said yes so i did and when it was 5th and it was my lunch time brittany skipped to stay with us! than dean malatesta called my name and i was like omg i waited until he called it like 5 times than he is like i know you are in here so i went up there and mrs larea was there and i was like aha she saw me.. im a loser and i almost risked detention bc i was like hi mr molesta a mean malatesta he just lind of glared at me and larea was laughing so i went to the office and mrs buntrock was like.. 'your dad dropped this off (she handed me an envelope) where were you 4th' i told her that i helped cynthia w/ a project and she told me to tell the teacher and not skip it i was so mad i was like I DID geez lol so i went back and the day rolled on me n steph took brittany home.. we were like halfway in estero and brittanys like i didnt go to my locker steph was so mad she like started to hit her lol than we kind of chased boys lol than we went to bonita springs and they were looking for some hotel this guy them thm a paper to. than we dropped britt home and we were home at my house by 615 we made good time. i was almost crying bc i couldnt do anything until i got this stupid chem thing done so i was so pissed off and my dad was no where in sight eventually we found him. and steph helped me with the chem. than we were done yay so i went to the movies but i couldnt stay at the one ashley and courtney was in (personal reasons) so i went in there and told them and lol ashley wow i saw the kid AHH lol now i def dont blame courtney. so we came back to the movies and saw a movie with kelly and someother people it was aweosme bc i missed kelly! i think i was really hyper last night idk whyy but ok lol umm well than we went back home.

:: 2004 5 February :: 5.45pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: Eamon- fuck it...

today was good... school was mas o menos especially bc my damn calf hurt! tutrial me n ashley spent 2 1/2 hours after school trying to figure out a chemestry thing that was right in fromt of our faces! we took ashley home bc i stole her from erica lol and our little purple and white thing i come out and brittany starts screaming look our purple club! whats with that?!?! ne wayi came home and did hw helped cynthia fail her drug and alcohol test AGAIN lol (sorry i didnt take the test) well about the song i am listening to... well it basiclly how nikki put it describes my situation.. well except if you think about it, it is directed towards me! and it is sad and makes me feel hopeless bc well it is but i just dont understand if you listen to the song (JUST THE CHORUS)you'll understand... anyway well i might as well let SOME stuff out not all bc some of it bc i prefer not to tell the world i feel like i am a mother... my parents are both sick i mean my dad is VERY sick like somethin with his heart and idk he is prob going to die in a few months.. and my mom is always dizzy and stuff and im stuck getting up 2 hours earlier and at night i cant sleep! i cook i clean i have my own HW to do and all that stuff that is needed to be done! and do you know how many times i called after school or to guidence bc the teachers think i have a problem ok i do not cut myself anymore i stopped that a while ago and right now i am trying to spend less time crying and feeling sorry for myself (bc thats stupid) and i am spending more time trying to reach goals and support others! i mean yeah i get a weak feeling and sometimes i feel like i am in on this alone... and i am i am in this alone. no one else can help me get over something or make me stronger only i can! i have my friends there for support and stuff but not that many are still true most are changing and turning ito BITCHES AND HOES (no names!) i dont really speak to my parents alot no more nor do i feel like i have parent i feel like i am one! i been like yelling at nikki bc yes nikki believe it or not i am worried about you and you know why i wont say it again but i wish that you would understand that i am trying to save you from alot here you are like one of my sisters and i do not want anything to happen to you!

-Chorus * (to the song i was telling you about)
Fuck what I said, it don't mean shit now
Fuck the presents, might as well throw them out
Fuck all those kisses, they dont mean jack
Fuck you you hoe, I don't want you back

^every word...^

if you have like any advice or whatever leave a comment <3

6 FuCk | YoU

:: 2004 5 February :: 5.00am
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: take a guess... (one call away)

survey (thanks brittany kale lol)
1. Starting Time :: o7:17
2. Name :: Lisa Farina
3. Best Friends:: Kelly Laurie Cristina Nikki Joy Danny Meana
4. Longest Friend :: Christina
5. Funniest Friend :: Ashley Serra
6. Smartest Friend :: Joy Kretzmer
7. Dumbest Friend :: Nikki Neal
8. Shyest Friend :: Nikki again
9. Boring Person :: my friends are NEVER boring
10. Who Do u Get Advice From :: Kelly and joy and nikki
11. Height :: 5' 3"

12. D.O.B :: April 18, 1988
13. Righty / Lefty :: righty
14. Eye color :: brown
15. Shoe Size :: o7
16. Shoe Brand(s) :: scetchers outlooks basically when i see shoes i like and they fit me i buy them
17. Do u Crack any Body Parts:: my fingers and toes
18. Pets :: 2 dogs, 1 bird
19. Siblings :: Jen Leah
20. E-mail :: snowflakea4@yahoo.com
21.Boy Friend/Girl Friend :: i am single
22. Crush :: i am not ready to tell the world yes
23. Liked a Teacher :: NOO
24. Killed someone :: NEVER!
25. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream :: no but i want to!
26. Ran Into a Glass Door :: number of times.. i mean come on it's me.. LISA lol
27. Went into rotten.com :: i diddnt know that existed
28. Gone Skinny Dipping :: no
29. Got drunk :: nooooo
30. Gotten hit by a car :: no
31. Ran into a parked car : yeah... the alarm went off too

**Ladies Fill Out on dudes******
32. Boxers or Briefs:: boxers
33. Tall or Short :: short like me!
34. Does size matter ::no
35. Six-pak or Muscular Arm :: it really does not matter
36. Body or Personality :: Personality
37. Ear Pierced or Not :: doesn't matter
38. Sporty or Outdoorsy :: outdoorsy i love to go outside!
39. Good Guy/ Bad Guy :: a little of both you know not too bad or too good
40.LightHair/DarkHair :: doesn't matter
41. Hat/ No Hat :: up to them
42. Tan or No Tan :: doesn't matter

******Which One is Better*****
55. Coke or Pepsi :: Pepsi
56. Taco Bell or McDonalds :: Mc donalds
57. Cats or Dogs :: dogs
58. Coffee or Tea :: coffee
59. Sour or Sweet :: sweet
60. Vanilla or chocolate :: chocolate
61. Cake or Cookies :: cookies
62. Ice Hockey or Roller Hockey :: ice
63. Lights on or off :: on {im scared of the dark}
64. Ocean or Pool :: ocean
65. Winter or Fall :: winter

*****Your favorite******
66. Food :: i eat everything
67.Fav drink: powerade
68. Animal :: dog
69. Holiday :: christmas
70. Quote :: dont hold back
71. Music :: rap rock pop ummm idk country is ok so is oldies.. basically a lil of everything
72. Song: like all the mariah carey and michelle branch songs
73. Book :: green eggs and ham it used to be the cat in the hat damn that cat is scary!
74. Radio Station :: 103.9 96.9 105.5 (z 100!! i loooooove that station the most but i hardley listen to it lol)
75. Place :: my room.. up north :0(

******In The Future*****
76. GOD :: god is awesome
77. What do you want to be when you grow up? ::a lawyer or teacher or maybe a prostitute... KIDDING
78. What car? :: i want my moms car.. i actually want an airplane

******Random Questions******
79. Define True Love :: idk... it is awesome till it goeas down hill
80. Where Were You Born? :: Staten island Ny
81. Favorite Friend Of Your Gender:: Kelly.. sorry every one
82. Favorite day of the week:: friday
83. Who was the last person you received mail from?:: My School (progress report)
84. Bedtime: in the one or early 2 digits
85. Ending time :: o7:4o am

:: 2004 5 February :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: dirrty
:: Music: georigia dome - ying yang twins

ummmm. today kinda sucked i went 2 school pissed cuz frank called last night n goes u ain't goin out wit brad no more but every other word he says is "skank ho" n i'm like w.e then i found out my mom listened to my phone convo. only the parts i said so she doesn't kno what he said i'm like w.e then this mornin i missed tha bus n i saw mike kody alex elyse n kevin at car riders so i talked to them n i punched my science book lol ( it hurt) n i walked like a duck all day cuz my thighs hurt like a mutha fucka from doin squats yesterday then when i got home i went online n talked to TY about what he says turns out we have somethin in commmon everyone thinks were not trustworthy i guess u could call it n were both tryin to get some1 to go out wit . his skool thinks he's a PLAYBOY! n my skool thinks he's ty tha bi but he's not!! n then my skool thinks i'm a bi slut!! i'm not fuckin bi n i ain't no slut i may not be straight but i ain't no fuckin slut! slut- a : a promiscuous woman; especially : PROSTITUTE -1 : to offer indiscriminately for sexual intercourse especially for money. and i'm not any of those!! so i'm not a fuckin slut n i'm not fuckin bi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! courtney good plan we'll just talk!! holla back shswfl lol that's great shit! muahz luv ya

~LiL t

4 FuCk | YoU

:: 2004 5 February :: 8.18am

I see: the comp.

I need: tha rumors to stop n my life to get on track again. my tru friends to stick by me

I want: 4 people to shut tha fuck up about me!

I have: elyse,heather,janielle,april,allyson,megan, kendra, kelci, lauren, leslie, courtney r., and ne1 else i 4 got i'm srry those r my girls who are by me all tha way!?! i hope.

I love: Brad (even though he don't trust me) n all my friends

I hate: life

I miss: 6th grade nobody fought this much

I fear: all my 8th grade friends leavin next yr i'ma cry! :'-(

I feel: betrayed and confused

I hear: silence

I smell: nothing

I crave: life to be right again i need 2 kno who's there for me n who's not plz tell me!

I wonder: why people lie

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last cigarette: i don't member

last car ride: home from xtreme

last good cry: a week ago

last library book checked out: don't go to tha library

last movie seen: Tears of the sun :'-(

last book read: the giver

last cuss word uttered: fuck u bitch

last beverage drank: root beer

last food consumed: ice cream

last crush: brad

last phone call: frank last night damn u frank!!

last tv show watched: good morning america

last time showered: an hour ago

last shoes worn: my kswiss

last cd played: black cd mix

last item bought: water

last downloaded: Eamon-don't want u back

last annoyance: frank!!

last disappointment:courtney! damn girl we used to be inseprable now e fuckin enmies

last soda drank: root beer

last thing written: fitz notes, hw

last key used: house key

last word spoken: lol

last sleep: last nite

last im: sean SolitaireDrums [8:05 AM]: blah im tired cos i aint had my coffee yet

last ice cream eaten: mint chocolate chip

last time amused: my mom givin me advice about friends omg i laughed so hard

last time wanting to die: last night, nothing was right, n my mom was threatin me with all this shit

last time in love: brad! i kno u don't think so but i was

last time hugged: last night

last chair sat in: the one im in right now

last lipstick used: coconut

last bra worn: white lace i'm wearin it rite now

last shirt worn: my joe momma shirt

last webpage visited: my journal

------------------------

1.who are u? taryn

2.what are you doing while filling this thingy out? thinkin about how my life is fucked up n talkin to sean and aj

3.why are you filling this out?cuz i'm bored n i was gonna make a journal entry but i'm lazy so i'm answering questions

4.what room are you in? front room

5.who is your bf/gf? i was goin out wit brad but he neva cared so i was single tha whole time n to think i stayed tru to him i bet he didn't stay tru to me

6.where were you born? cape coral, fl

7.how old are your parents? 43 and 45

8.current music? the way i am - eminem and next i am shady - eminem

9.one thing u would change about yourself? my choices in friendz and i would be taller

10.how are you today? tired but it's only tha morning so today will prolly be worse so i will pissd at tha end

11.what did you do today? nottin yet i'm goin to school

12.what time is it? 8:32

13.what time did you get up this morning? 7:10

14.did you eat breakfast? nope neva do

15.if so, what did you eat? nuttin

16.what did u eat for lunch? prolly gonna eat nachos since i do everyday!!

17.who is your fav rock band? nickleback or trapt

18.who is your fav rapper? eminem or nelly

19. would you like to sleep with someone that goes to your school? not really

get scared easy? nope

cry a lot? nah

get hurt easy? ya mentally not physically unless heather's beatin me up

have an enemy? yup

pretend to not care bout someone when u really do? all tha fuckin time i hate it elyse n bobbie n heather all kno who i care about alot that i really don't wanna care about n they should slap me course i can't tell courtney that she might tell that person

~ LiL t aka: Shorty!�!

:: 2004 4 February :: 8.43pm
:: Mood: mad
:: Music: one call away

ok grr my day was good until i saw stuff i did not want to see like people stealing my words!! ok!! stop just stop i devote my time to making them up and you steal them i want to hit you with a bagel (btw they were throwing bagels duriing luch again and that new kid threw one at some girl and i caught it b4 it hit her and he told me to give it back and i shoved it in his mouth really hard and said dont waste food there are kids starving in mexico lol wow he was mad but i hate when they throw bagels and it hits someone it is rude).. lets start school was ok and for some reason people asked me if i was going out with nick i said no! j/ bc me n him went in the library so he can help me w/ chem and jordan that loser kid that thinks me n him are going out and donnie the kid that has a BIG mouth (lol donnie ilu) people think i am going out with nick NO I AM NOT i am single lol i do not want a boyfriend right now! well tonight men meana are going to dance it will be fun bc it is a good way of getting your mind off things plus i get to see her!!1 and i am happy! ok ne way school was ok and i realized i dont like depression or sadness bc alot of people were sad and i had to help them! and it depresses me so for just ONE DAY at least put aside your problems and be happy! eat candy it helps lol umm lets see what else steph took me home from school.. it was fun we were like hyper and some guy took a pic of the back of hrr car so we followed him nd called the police and stuff got his # and stuff so its all ok i think it was scary though. i came home and i got yelled at (geez i try being nice to my parents and i get yelled at) came home at like 5 and just chillaxed!! well ima go bye bye!

mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 4 February :: 7.08pm
:: Mood: calm

lovechild2
YOU ARE THE LOVECHILD OF BETTIE PAGE AND COREY
FELDMAN!

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mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 4 February :: 5.55pm
:: Mood: blank
:: Music: empty appartment _yellowcard

FAT ... for your preference ... means FORever And Today! lol
FAT~andy

:: 2004 3 February :: 5.43243pm
:: Mood: sleepy
:: Music: one call away

i was tired today at school! but i pulled up my geometry grade 1 full letter and i got a b on my world history test yay and i am sleepy i just took a sleeping pill! bc since my parents are sick i get up like 2 hours earlier and i have trouble sleeping i just have alot on my mind... i went to tumbling tonight and the floor was wood i was like omg and i think i broke all my toes and clemantines are good hehe anyway i was talking to my geometry teacher bc he noticed a 'change' in me like my grades were going up but my socializaion was going down so he was 'concerned' do not ask so i told him and he told me that it was alot to hadel at my age and that i was doing good and pullng through.. ok?? lol umm the scratch on my cheek is getting annoying and well so is that annoying kid who thinks i am his girlfried so every guy im with he screams THATS MY GIRLFREIND and im just sitting there like omg shut up btw i am booked this weekend dont make plans with me friday i am gonig to the movies w/ ashley S. and courtney saturday i am spending the day with sara s. and sunday is chemestryand homework day ok i am tired night!

mizprettyinpink

:: 2004 3 February :: 7.12pm
:: Mood: crushed
:: Music: taking back sunday

man o man
today sucked big time ... probably the worst day so far of the week n i think only one person knows why lol .. the only good thing was 7th period ... n again i think only one person knows why ... but hen that turned out to be not such a good thing ... days are too short and i just need to try to sit in the silence and sort thing in my mind out ... i think my brain is trying to overwheml me with crappy things! gooooooood~!~ well i gotta go im not in the mood to talk
~FAT~ andy
i love johnny depp

2 FuCk | YoU

:: 2004 2 February :: 12.00am
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: one call away

in a way i was right today did suck.. a little well school was ok until 1st period when miss miles asked me if i was depressed and wanted to talk! i was like... umm im fine? ok and like 2 other teachers asked me! i was ok i just had alot on my mind and i just felt like being quiet thats all... ok tutorial i was quiet too but i got alot done! i went to the doctors... came home got yelled at and than they said they were sorry so im like ok i came hoe finished hw and did laundry basicaly thats it okk well im going to go bye