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2005 27 May :: 11.29pm
:: Music: The Weakerthans- Plea From A Cat Named Virtue
WOOT! International Day!
today was a super duper international day! :) im so glad it wasn't raining...its so much better outside, the past two years were awful. im so excited for senior slave day! get ready alex! lol
STAR WARS WAS AWESOME! it was sad too...all the poor Jedi's :( WORD UP MERI! haha
got the picks from my party>>>click here to see em!
http://www.shutterfly.com/view/choose_album.jsp
Username: Kloppy89
PW: ROSSSI
ok its gettin late...goin into the city tomorrow to get my new guitar! bb
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2005 25 May :: 11.07pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Kashmir- Led Zeppelin
DAMN IT FEELS GOOD TO BE A GANGSTA
today was the most crappiest day EVER...blah GIVE ME SUNSHINE! i hope it's nice for international day! WOOT! so much foooooood...
sometimes i really don't know what to make of things...i get so confused. i wish i could just know some thinhgs, so they would'nt have to be constantly eating away at me. i guess im not too good at reading people. the one thing i want the most is to just know what's real and what's not
i am extremely proud of myself that i have not managed to put off my english paper until the last second...i feel relieved. who knew working could feel SOOOO GOOOOD (tgs all the way)
i need to get better and start exercising again...when i don't do sports i eat alot, then i get in bad moods and then i get really bitchy during disection labs in bio class (hehe love ya nez!) oh geez...thank god that's over
anyway it's gettin late. im gonna hit the shits...laterz
<3 Kloppy
haha I LOVE PUNS
"a marathon runner who wears bad foot-wear is most likely to suffer the agony of DA-FEET"
from cnn.com, 5-25-05
LONDON, May 25 (Reuters) -- Four years after the September 11 attacks on New York and Washington, human rights are in retreat worldwide and the United States bears most responsibility, rights watchdog Amnesty International said on Wednesday.
From Afghanistan to Zimbabwe the picture is bleak. Governments are increasingly rolling back the rule of law, taking their cue from the U.S.-led war on terror, it said.
"The USA as the unrivalled political, military and economic hyper-power sets the tone for governmental behavior worldwide," Secretary General Irene Khan said in the foreword to Amnesty International's 2005 annual report.
"When the most powerful country in the world thumbs its nose at the rule of law and human rights, it grants a licence to others to commit abuse with impunity," she said.
London-based Amnesty cited the pictures last year of abuse of detainees at Iraq's U.S.-run Abu Ghraib prison, which it said were never adequately investigated, and the detention without trial of "enemy combatants" at the U.S. naval base in Cuba.
"The detention facility at Guantanamo Bay has become the gulag of our times, entrenching the practice of arbitrary and indefinite detention in violation of international law," Khan said.
She also noted Washington's attempts to circumvent its own ban on the use of torture.
"The U.S. government has gone to great lengths to restrict the application of the Geneva Convention and to 're-define' torture," she said, citing the secret detention of suspects and the practice of handing some over to countries where torture was not outlawed.
U.S. President George W. Bush often said his country was founded on and dedicated to the cause of human dignity -- but there was a gulf between rhetoric and reality, Amnesty found.
"During his first term in office, the USA proved to be far from the global human rights champion it proclaimed itself to be," the report said, citing Abu Ghraib and Guantanamo Bay.
'Blurred distinction'
But the United States was by no means the sole or even the worst offender as murder, mayhem and abuse of women and children spread to the four corners of the globe, Amnesty said.
"The human rights abuses in Iraq and Afghanistan were far from being the only negative repercussions of the response to the terrible events of Sept. 11, 2001.
"Since that day, the framework of international human rights standards has been attacked and undermined by both governments and armed groups," Amnesty said.
The increasingly blurred distinction between the war on terror and the war on drugs prompted governments across Latin America to use troops to tackle crimes traditionally handled by police, the report said.
In Asia too, the war on terror was blamed for increasing state repression, adding to the woes of societies already worn down by poverty, discrimination against minorities, a string of low-intensity conflicts and politicization of aid, it added.
Africa too remained riven by regional wars and political repression, and the abject failure of the international community to take concerted action to end the slaughter in Sudan's vast Darfur region was a cause of shame.
Khan also condemned the United Nations Commission on Human Rights for failing to stand up for those supposedly in its care.
"The U.N. Commission of Human Rights has become a forum for horse-trading on human rights," she said. "Last year the Commission dropped Iraq from scrutiny, could not agree on action on Chechnya, Nepal or Zimbabwe and was silent on Guantanamo Bay."
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2005 24 May :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: cheerful
:: Music: Modest Mouse- World At Large
LOVE THIS SONG
Ice-age heat wave, can't complain.
If the world's at large, why should I remain?
Walked away to another plan.
Gonna find another place, maybe one I can stand.
I move on to another day,
to a whole new town with a whole new way.
Went to the porch to have a thought.
Got to the door and again, I couldn't stop.
You don't know where and you don't know when.
But you still got your words and you got your friends.
Walk along to another day.
Work a little harder, work another way.
Well uh-uh baby I ain't got no plan.
We'll float on maybe would you understand?
Gonna float on maybe would you understand?
Well float on maybe would you understand?
The days get shorter and the nights get cold.
I like the autumn but this place is getting old.
I pack up my belongings and I head for the coast.
It might not be a lot but I feel like I'm making the most.
The days get longer and the nights smell green.
I guess it's not surprising but it's spring and I should leave.
I like songs about drifters - books about the same.
They both seem to make me feel a little less insane.
Walked on off to another spot.
I still haven't gotten anywhere that I want.
Did I want love? Did I need to know?
Why does it always feel like I'm caught in an undertow?
The moths beat themselves to death against the lights.
Adding their breeze to the summer nights.
Outside, water like air was great.
I didn't know what I had that day.
Walk a little farther to another plan.
You said that you did, but you didn't understand.
I know that starting over is not what life's about.
But my thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud I couldn't hear my mouth.
My thoughts were so loud.
HELLO EVERYONE!
WOOT! first journal entry! I never know what to say in the first one...
Today was ok. I don't understand why it's almost June and it's 40 degrees outside...i had to stand outside and watch my sister's lax game today and i thought my hand was gonna fall off. I might have a word with mother nature
Blah lax=my life is over...I HAVE NOTHING TO DO BUT EAT AND DO WORK (but i actually don't really do the work, i just pretend to)
STILL SICK...bleh, it'll be over soon...ok english paper calls :)
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2005 22 May :: 6.38pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: the used~sound effects and overdramatics...
and you got all turned on by the taste of your sin...
People can be so unbelievably rude. It's just incomprehensible to me how disrespectful some people are. Just absolutely no regard for reality and no courtesy. And nobody can tell me i don't have the right to judge these people, because you know what? I DO. Stupidity and immaturity deserve to be known. Whatever, I'm just glad that the people I associate myself with don't feel the need to be drunk 24/7 to enjoy their lives. Yeah, I don't care who you are reading this...you've absolutely proven that you deserve no respect from me or anyone else. And the funny thing is that some people will just look at me saying this like I have serious problems...when in actuality, who's the one repressing all their emotions? Hmm...certainly not me. Does it look like I'm holding anything back?
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2005 27 April :: 8.58pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: skeptics and true believers
idk
blah..
lost cell fone
lost a HUGE game...when we shouldnt have......like......idk cant really talk about my feelings toward this game...but thats behind..time to look ahead...pearl is going down if its the last thing i do
this weather blows
school is just.....overplayed..its like ok enough already your not worth my time
idk--i feel like i dont feel secure about a lot of things in my life..i just dont know the answer to so many things that i think i used to, or maybe im just maturing and i never really knew but i thought i did...either way, its a sucky feeling..empty a bit
im really tired and i have a lot of work to do--hmm, maybe for once i'll make an effort to do some of it..........altho i wouldnt bet on it
life is a highway...
i havent written in this thing in the longest time, i guess thats not an unfamiliar concept to our woohu world, though. i keep on waiting until i have something to write about, and finally, i do.
as far as lives go, mines been pretty damn good all these years. as far as lives go lately, i find that statement fits well also. i think this is due to a bunch of things, but mainly because there has been such a turn around in terms of how i treat myself. since the beginning of last july, i had no idea how to respect myself in terms of guys. i went the first fifteen years of my life waiting and expecting my prince charming to come and sweep me off my feet to some far off happily-ever-after. finally i realized that that was never going to happen, at least not any time soon, so i started to just hook up with a bunch of different guys that i liked, yet every time, my heart was broken. i guess deep down inside i was still holding out for my soul mate, and just decided that by handing my heart out to every guy i had a slight attraction to. time after time i would be pushed to the ground, and time after time id stand up and let it happen again. it wasnt that i was naiive to what was happening, it was just that i simply didnt care, to me at the time, the chance of emotional pain was minimal compared to the chance of happiness. i had no respect formyself and didnt even realize this was the case. the turning point was jlew. i let him do it to me too. but unlike all the other boys that i let take advantage of me, somewhere along the line i got fed up with being a doormat. after jlew, i was hesitant to do anything until i figured out exactly what it was that i wanted and needed, and eventually, i did. recently ive harvested the fruits of my experience. i took the things ive learned from my mistakes and realized that all i really need is someone i care about and trust, and the ability to take things at a steady pace without rushing and obsessing. still, more important yet, as soon as i realized this i found it in someone. things with jon have been so awesome lately. ive found that happy medium in him, but more than anything ive found that trust that ive never encountered before in any other guy. i can be myself around him without thinking twice about what im doing and making sure that its considered acceptable or normal, just as long as its "danielle". when the time is right to fully and completely hand my heart over to him, ill have no problem with it at all, i know he'll handle my heart with care and i know hes the one i want to have it.
while ive found such an incredible balance and completeness in my life with jon, ive been struggling with other relationships in my life a lot lately....namely, my mother. we've always had a rough relationship in terms of communication and sometimes treatment of eachother, but lately things have been worse than usual. while on the outside to all of my friends, she seems like the sweetest woman, and she is to them, to me and my dad she feels like she doesnt have to try to be nice around us. shes always struggled with the problem of knowing how to deal with anger, and everything, every little thing she says comes out with an attitude or ends (and starts) in a screaming war. according to my dad, shes always been this way. her mother was this way to her, and now shes the same way as her mother was. time after time we've told her "its not what you say, its how you say it" but nothing ever gets through to her. she doesnt listen to what you have to say, because when her mind is made up, sometimes its best to just give up and forget everything that you wanted when dealing with her.
im sick of doing that, though. im sick of not doing things i want to do because its easier to not argue with her. im sick of watching her run certain aspects of me and my dad's lives because theres no other way to deal with her.
she also claims that shes my friend. as far as im concerned, thats the biggest load of crap ive ever heard. if she was my friend, she wouldnt treat me like she does. if she was my friend, she would be nice to me. if she was my friend, she wouldnt just assume that i have to like her because she has to be in my life so she doesnt have to try to treat me nicely. but shes wrong. she has to try. because to tell you the truth, if i werent her daughter i wouldnt like her. i dont like her a lot of times. i think this partially comes from the fact that i dont understand her. the woman is scared of everything. its what holds her back from the world and what holds me in from a lot of things. on the top of her list is people. the reason she loves animals so much, i think at least, is because of their inability to hurt her emotionally and their need to be cared for. theres nothing to be scared of, they dont have the capacity to hurt people, and they cant tell her shes wrong or go against her. because they need her. she's scared of everything, i dont understand how anyone could go through life fearing everything, always asking "what if..." and always considering the worst case scenario and assuming that its a possibility. what kind of a life is that?
my dad kind of wants to go for counseling, considering shes never going to change. thats so hard for me, because she took after her mother...and i dont want to travel down that road.
with every good, comes some bad, i guess life cant be completely perfect at any time.
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"cause everybody knows you've got to breathe..."-dmb
