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2004 6 February :: 8.37am
:: Mood: so dumb!
:: Music: mixed
well yet another school closing...any more and we'll be going later into june. i dont really mind, but my damn history book is at school and my exam is on monday...as is my lit book which i need to read the first act of crucible by monday...grr...
i havent really ventured outsie yet so idk if the roads are that horrible...theres probably a little ice and the BG pansies got scared...i swear, driving on a little ice isnt so bad, if you're a smart driver you'll be fine
doug made junior attendent...yay for doug!! plus all the radas made it which just makes it adorable. so the dance should be interesting, got a new top, just have to try and coordinate with ian sometime soon...i want a pretty flower!! haha decorations should be pretty sweet...plus gregs getting his own little hut which winston is being an amazing help on so im excited
track officially starts march 8th...first meet is march 27th...defiance invitational. i love defiance...that meet is so much fun and it basically sets the tone for the season to come, however, ive heard that theres only one home meet...im wondering if thats bobcats, or one dual or tri meet and bobcats...idk, im excited though, this year should be a really good one...as opposed to next year when it'll all going to go to hell
girls night tonight...and i have all day to prepare my dish, im very excited, a night filled with estrogen is exactly what i need right now...not that the boys are being dumb or anything, but a night with just the girls every once and awhile is much needed
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2004 4 February :: 10.13pm
:: Mood: overwhelmed
oh busy busy week
i feel bad because i havent been able to take sid home at all this week...but i can take him home friday and ive been taking him to school everyday so i guess i shouldnt feel too too badly
hmm...well its been awhile since ive updated, not a whole lot has been going on though. coming home is in full swing, nominations were monday, we voted today and word will be out on who won by friday, so that should be cool....doug ian and phil are up for juniors...ian doesnt want it, so im torn between doug and phil, dougs my bud but phil would be amazing, so we'll see....dougs been back and forth with this junior attendent thing and its getting very frustrating because everytime i tell him something else he doesnt want to hear, guess who gets the backlash? its frustrating, so i just assume to talk as little as possible for the next week or so...its how i deal with things so just leave it at that
megan asked dan the other night (last night maybe? idk its all running together), nick and jackie are going together but going late because of wrestling, and sara asked herringshaw...never really got an answer, so we'll see. ian and i are going together, should be fun, we're doing the friends thing so its just going to be a comfortable night, which will be fun. he wants to go to texas road house, and has threatened that if i dont get a steak he'll leave me there...he makes me laugh. ahhh....
decoration opening was monday....that was a lot of fun, i love the decoration commitee, we have a good time. chicken wire and pvc pipes have become my new best friend, im very excited...kaylene and megan are my buddies for this project so it should be a great time
dani comes this weekend....finally! this seems like its been coming forever...i get to go pick her up by 11 on saturday, then possibly some shopping and then ians hockey game that night...then she goes back sunday afternoon....its a bummer she cant stay longer, but i enjoy the short visits, our parents will be off together that weekend, so she and i get the house to ourselves, so basically everyone will ivnite themselves over and it'll be madness
i havent played my video game in forever, its made me angry, so i actually put it where i cant see it...its hidden, haha, thats how i deal with my anger towards video games...grr...
track starts march 8th...yay, im excited, time to get back into shape! woo! and i get to hang out with the guys pretty much always now...should be interesting...its been awhile since ive just sat around and talked to metcalf bob and nelson...they're pretty much the only consistent guy throwers...its fun, i enjoy the conversations so i can't wait, plus throwing this year will be great, i'll be varsity shot again, and because of angies conflict they'll probably try to bump me up to varsity disc...granted i wont like it, but they'll end up talking me into it anyway, so it'll be interesting...im hoping for a 34 this year *crosses fingers*
tomorrow after school im judging glandorffs science fair projects. i get to put fear into sophmores souls....i cant wait! haha
then after the judging theres a meeting for relay for life...im going with megan so we can get ideas going for this year...the team this year is going to be crazy, we're going to have to do a double team or something becuase we have like 7 or 8 more people joining and it was a big team last year when i was the only new one joining...it'll be a lot of fun though, i really enjoy doing it and its a great cause :)
friday night is old school girls night...i dont think any guys will be crashing this one (however i have said this before and they have crashed so we'll see) but its the whole cooking the meal and having a nice night just hanging out...im excited, i love the guys to death, but even i have to have a night with just the girls...i need someone to talk to about the guys...its not like i can talk to the gys about guys...they just dont understand. so a girls night is a must in every females life...i dont care what they say, if they dont agree...well, they're wrong, lets just put it that way
i went shopping today with jack for coming home...she got an amazing outfit and i got ideas, i already have pants and shoes i just need a top...but it was crazy mad prices up there, so im going to joanns finding cute fabric and spending an afternoon with grams...its a good thing i like her ;)
AS is killing me lately, our exam is friday and its not going to be an easy one...and i got everything sorted out tonight, and tomorrow after the meeting for relay im going to lock myself up and just study....crammng is the only way to jam about 5 wars into my head about about 20 writers and all the presidents and their terms....craziness
now do you see why im overwhelmed?
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2004 29 January :: 9.51am
:: Mood: i hate the world
i get into these moods ever so often. and im in one now. theres no other way to describe it then i hate the world mood...everything to me seems so dumb
turns out we're never going to school ever again. im starting to go stir crazy, my parents finally let me out of the house yesterday so i went out to lunch...with what was supposed to be megan...but turned out to be megan ian dan james tara and winston and sara...i didnt care..i was just happy to see people who arent my parents, i also had subway, ive been wanting subway for awhile..now i want chinese...however i want hunan palace and i only ever go there with doug, but i think im going to have to break that tradition now and go with someone else, because i dont think doug will go today, oh well
im about 15 hours into my game now...mike wants the system back soon...he'll get it back when i beat the game...no sooner! you cannot take this game away from me after ive invested this much time into it and expect to take it before its even over! you will just have to wait! haha
im really starting to loathe something...and i shouldnt be, becuase this "thing" that i loathe makes other people happy...so i know i shouldnt...so lets take back the loathe, i just wish there would be less of it...that doesnt make sense, oh well, i know what i mean
ugh, why is everything so dumb!
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2004 25 January :: 10.29pm
:: Mood: weak
its coming...im getting sick, and of course its during the week of the fazolis dinner that the dance team puts on every year
mike and heather came out today and i missed most of their viist because i was passed out in my room. the sore throat has started...its only time now, oh well
busy week this week...pizza tomorrow afternoon with the wensinks, helping to hand out to the band members, then tuesday is Christmas with the coming home decorations, wednesday i actually get to come home, thursday is sign painting for sab, and friday is dinner up in toledo with like 20 people, so probably missing the game and the dancers..then saturday i spend the entire day at eastwood for S&E, which will be dumb, but what can ya do? then hopefully that night will be old school girls night, depending on whether or not megan works...but even if she does amanda and i have a plan *evil smile +giggles because the plan is ridiculous and would never work*
hopefully we dont have school tomorrow...yucky roads are due and sleep is much needed by me
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2004 24 January :: 11.47pm
:: Mood: im happy
:: Music: my immortal
well i was supposed to go to Michigan today to watch hess play some hockey, but dever ended up not wanting to go, which that didnt bother me in the slightest, so we opted no to...yucky weather, and long car ride, we werent up for it...which is good because his game ended up being canceled, so yay
because of me not going to michigan doug decided to come over and spend long hours playing video games...and we did just that...he got here at 3 and stayed until about 1045...it was a lot of fun...good times with douggie...its fun to find someone that i can bond with over video games...i havent been able to do that since michael moved out, it was almost nostalgic...i even called him mike one, but yea, the other guys had been talking to me off and on the entire day wondering what to do that night, metcalf and i even spent 45 minutes on the phone getting nowhere about plans...but in the end, they decided to crash my house, which was fine, i love having people out here...small amounts of people...we had 7 people...thats plenty, i dont like much more than that, but it was cool, i had a lot of fun, and i think the others did as well, which makes me happy..i would hate for them to get all the way out here and not have a good time. ian and doug left at 1045 because ian has a hockey game tomorrow at 830 and needs sleep, and doug i think just needed a change of scenary....metcalf and herringshaw left next because i think they had curfew? i dont really know...then stevie and dan stayed for pretty much another hour...we just sat and chatted, it was fun
hopefully they all get home safely, i think the roads are getting a lot better
im now about 8 hours into my game :) i even got to play it a little bit today while doug took a nap...he looks funny when he sleeps ;) but i have problems with the game where i get angry at it so i quite playing, but i plan on getting a little more time with it later tonight..should be exciting
the basketball game last night was amazing, we won against perrysburg, and they have the rudest fans ever, sure ours wasnt exactly great in return, but two wrongs dont make a right and it was madness...such a good game though
mikes coming out tomorrow...we shall play some ps2 and bond like old times...
i wish i was 6 again....
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2004 22 January :: 10.42pm
its official...my soul has been consumed, however, i couldnt be happier, so i find nothing wrong with it. doug called me last night at 1045 to make sure i wasnt playing...he also needed help with his math homework so i stayed on the phone with him until about 1120 figuring that stuff out
school been boring lately...same thing every day..got my exams back though, 2 Bs and a C...not great, however, im not caring, my grades in my classes are still As therefore i dont care
SAB meeting this morning (no thats not SABullshit!) its time to get into gear for cominghome...decorations need to be inventoried and whatnot, then i get to bring it home and put it together...megs and i will have fun with that...we did for homecoming anyway
dever talked to tucker and heard that optional conditioning starts at the earliest feb 2 and at the latest feb 9...thats really early and thats probably only for runners...i mean what are throwers going to do? we could lift...could...
fazoli dinner is next week...so i should be getting sick around...wednesday, that sounds about right..its happened the past 2 years...megan calls it my yearly sickness, i always get the same thing the same time of year and my parents always have to go get the dinner for me and its dumb...oh well
thats it i guess
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2004 19 January :: 2.59pm
:: Mood: fuck you
oh fuck you
yea thats my mood right now
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2004 19 January :: 1.29pm
so i think i may have been sucked into the cominghome band wagon...megan went shopping yesterday, and when megan shops, megan thinks, and megans form of thinking is normally planning, so megan has a plan, and her plan involves my tagging along...we'll see if it actually works, she has good intentions behind the plan, however i can point out some faults, as can others, but we'll see
so now that shes got me thinking about the dance, that means im thinking about clothes to wear, that automatically puts my mood down, because i hate having to think about myself and clothes to wear that a) are appropriate and b)actually fit well and look nice, damn this thrower exterior...i must take a poll this season with my competitors and ask them what they think....im sure they would agree
anyway back to the clothes...i found a really cute dress...however i just want to take the top of the dress and wear it as a top and wear pants with it...i could do this very easily with scissors and a sewing machine, however the dress is far to expensive for me to just destroy its craftmanship, therefore, i will keep looking, but so far...things look grim
anyway, last night i went into BG and watched chicago with megan and stevie...neither of them had seen the movie, and i had seen part of it, so all in all it was an adventure, megan sits there and critiques the dancing while stevie and i sit there and make fun of the costumes...we had fun. afterwards we played old school mario kart on N64...ahh the little things in life that bring me pleasure...i came home, on time for once, chatted with stevie and hess...filled hess in on the plan, he doesnt seem to care how he takes part in it, so hes ok, stevie and i got into depressing girl topics, i tried to talk to doug about it...i ended up failing and feeling worse than before, but then i went to sleep while watching television, woke up to a scary cartoon at 4am and rolled over and feel asleep to the cartoon singing a song about fishing...then i had a dream about zombies and moneys (i blame 28 days later) however it was sweet, because i was kicking some zombie ass...so much fun
and i woke up today feeling much better, and i have a thought in mind for cominghome, so its all good right now
thats it
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2004 18 January :: 5.05pm
:: Mood: extremely happy
oh happy girl right here...mike and heather are out for a visit and mike said i could take his ps2 for a few weeks because he has all his other systems to keep him entertained...he also found ff4...now i was supposed to get the game a few weeks ago and never did, but im going to follow him back into BG tonight and get them from him...oh im happy
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2004 18 January :: 12.40pm
Oftentimes we sit down and ask ourselves, "Why me?" You may feel like you ask yourself this question more than anyone else, Brittany. Your life probably seems like an intense roller-coaster ride that never comes to a stop. Deep down you realize that you would have it no other way. Take a break from it all today if you can. Communicate your thoughts and feelings to others. By talking it out, you will feel much better about the situation at hand.
ok this was my horoscope for today...and it elicited an interetsing conversation between jackie and myself...like i can totally relate to that however, its the last part that gets me...the whole communicating feelings and such..i dont know how to do that, like i know what im feeling, but the actually words to get them out there...it just doesnt work
but i think jackie and i came up with the problem...its the isolation after the sharing of the feelings that keeps us from putting them out there...im afraid that after i tell the person what i think, they wont understand it to the point that their misunderstandings cause them to shun the source aka me..therefore, to prevent this from happening i in turn keep it all to myself and tell people im ok when in all actualilty something could be bothering me and i only rely on myself to work it out...i dont know if thats actually somewhat solving the problem or creating more...who knows
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2004 17 January :: 10.58pm
:: Mood: sleepy
yay for lunch with tara...that was fun, we sat and talked for a long time...good times really
i dropped tara off at her friends house so she could be productive and learn kick, then i called doug, made plans, then went home...i hated home these past few days...so lonely...then i got home, doug called and canceled plans, saying he didnt want me to die, then plans were put back on because the weather decided to stop, so i met doug at 5, then went to the bank, finders, hunan, and meijer....we were busy people...all of which places were very entertaining..i wasnt exactly up to par during dinner so i apologize for what seemed to be my lack of enthusiasm...bad time of day i guess? but anyway, doug called sara and yelled at her because she wanted to go sledding and it was raining and sledding would be dumb, so we called the others and were like ok movie night at dougs (we watched 28 days later....very good movie!) but before the movie doug and i played 27 rounds of soul calibur...he won 14 to 13...i however believe i held me own very well and am proud of my video gaming, then we watched the movie and i left early so i wouldnt die...doug walked me to my car and told me to call when i got home so he knew i didnt die...so i called him and the other girls were still there playing mario kart...its been decided, i am the most skilled female video game player...im proud, what can i say? and i have to say that playing the video game was my favorite part of the day...little things in life make me happy...and i was so extremely happy then, i can't even describe it
i think tonight is the night to get some major sleep...my parents are home tonight so i should have no problems sleeping...so im happy :)
terminator is sweet
i think tomorrow is going to be dedicated to reading and spending some time with my mom...shes cool
thats it
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2004 17 January :: 11.37am
:: Mood: happy
getting ready to leave for taras house in about 20 minutes...we're going to go to el zarape, shes only been there once and frankly that is a crime, so i told her i was taking her there...she really didnt care where we went so it was easy deciding...plus its like 2 seconds from her house...and she doesnt know it yet but im taking her with me to get gas! haha...anyway then im supposed to call doug after that and hang out, that should be fun, i havent hung out with just doug in awhile, so yay for dinner with him (plus its chinese food and whats not to love about that)
ive already talked to my mom twice today...really no surprise in that, they have no idea when they're getting home, probably early evening is my assumption, but we'll see...Lord knows i'll talk to them at least two more times before they get home though :) it shows they care
hmm...nothing else really going on, i dont know whats up with the girls for tonigt, i havent talked to them yet today, so we'll see if i see them tonight or not...i'll probbaly come home right after dinner with doug so i dont die on the roads since its like crappy weather galore outside...i hope the weathers nice up in michigan with the guys...just as long as they come home safely its all good. but i'll have to wait for a call before i know anything
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2004 17 January :: 11.04am
:: Mood: indescribable
i've only heard this song maybe three times...and i cant get it out of my head, and i really like it
my immortal
my immortal
i'm so tired of being here
suppressed by all of my childish fears
and if you have to leave
i wish that you would just leave
because your presence still lingers here
and it won't leave me alone
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
you used to captivate me
by your resonating light
but now i'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
these wounds won't seem to heal
this pain is just too real
there's just too much that time cannot erase
when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears
when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears
and i've held your hand through all of these years
but you still have all of me
i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
and though you're still with me
i've been alone all along
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2004 16 January :: 3.46pm
:: Mood: content
:: Music: jason mraz!
well spanish totally sucked it up today...that as not an easy exam, it wasnt hard, yet about half way through everything i though i knew started to blur together...basically im hoping low B, and thats pushing it. then i had study hall, sara and i looked at a prom magazine...man i find it humorous that people are already putting out magazine, however they are a great source of amusement..we spent a whole hour and a half going through that and criticizing the dressed and the articles and subtitles...much fun. and AS today was just great, 90 minutes of talking, we have these days in there where we put a subject out there and digress from it...i love it, it was a lot of fun, and i sat in doug's seat today since he wa late, and he sat behind me and HE SCRATCHED MY BACK!! who would have thought that dya would ever come, however, my entire back was a welt when he finished, but eh
my parents are leaving me tonight and going to see dan, they decided to leave a day early because of yucky weather we're supposed to be getting...so yay for being home alone tonight!
the guys should be leaving...well now...i'll give them a call sometime this weekend, its a bummer they're leaving, but i'll see them tuesday or wednesday so its fine
the terminator is sweet
im going out to lunch tomorrow with tara...being a sweet older cousin and all, and then going out with doug tomorrow night...when i told my mom that she wasnt too thrilled...we're supposed to get bad weather, so depending on the weather....hopefully it'll be ok though
i have a new guy that i can go to now if i feel the need to have blunt and somewhat harsh answers when i have something to talk about...i doubt i'll go to him though, because as i told him...his responses scare me...which i think they would scare anyone, but who knows, maybe i'll test out his listening abilities sometime
im going out with mges and amanda tonight...and a bball game! i love basketball, why i ever quit the sport i'll never know, but its still great to watch, so im excited, a night out with the girls! woo! as amanda put it....a night out with my favorite people, i felt loved :)
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2004 15 January :: 6.44pm
:: Mood: nothingness
ehh...must study spanish, i heard the exam was completely out there so basically i dont feel ready at all to take it, however, am i studying? nope, not yet anyway...
doug called me last night around 8, i talked to him until 9...somewhat serious conversation, i didnt feel to great afterwards though, which resulted in me having a great and very long conversation with ian, his blunt and at times harsh answers are what i need, so he's my favorite :) he can make me feel better when im feeling like shit, but its still awkward telling people what i think and what im feeling...im not used to this yet its what everyone thinks everyone should do, so when they think somethings wrong they're going to bug you until you let it out...unfortunately, ian can normally get it out of me...i told some of it to sara too so she helped, but theres a difference between males and females when they help...females are caring and try to be nice when helping...males just tell you what you need to hear and apologize later if it was harsh
i slept like a freakin rock last night....doug said he would call me if he needed to talk...must not have because i went to bed at 11 and i put my phone on my night stand just in case and i got nothing...pretty good too because im pretty sure i wouldnt have woken up for it...
i had math and chem today...they were both easy...math was extremely easy, if you couldnt get the problem you could pretty much work backwards from the answers in order to figure it out...so im assuming A in that exam....chem was a little tougher...some of the questions were pretty out there...im not sure what anthony was thinking, but if i didnt get an A its at least a high B....so im not worried...its this spanish i have coming up that worries me, all the tenses kinda run together and thats going to screw me over, plus culture? i didnt know the culture then, how in the world does she expect me to know it now...shes so cute though, you cant be angry at that lady haha
i think doug and i are going dinner and a movie this weekend...i want to see the new ben stiller, but when i brought it up he kind of groaned...so maybe i'll look for something else, other than that we've agreed on chinese food...we're easy to get along with when it comes to food, im up to try pretty much anything, and dougs male and eats anything, so its good
stevie hasnt said anything else about going up to the lake...so maybe i'll still join my parents for a trip down south to visit dan...ahh dan, so incredibly good looking and so amazingly nice...megan and i im sure are both in love with this man...he made his gf a dress so she would have comething formal to wear to the dance we all went to....his incredibly nice...if i could i would turn him into a 17 year old...and hed be mine...haha, but yea hes very cool, and his gf if also the nicest girl ever...perfect match really, but yea my parents are going to visit him and i was thinking it would be nice to see him since i havent since megan and i went up to niagra, but we'll see whats up with everyone else for the day and by everyone i mean megan and doug...since the guys have to be all sweet and have an amazing ski trip this weekend...they better call me and at least fill be in on details!!
ok i think ive rambled enough
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