:: 2004 23 July :: 11.40 pm
:: Mood: content

Im always content
i've just realized that everytime i go online and actually post in my journal i make my mood content...i like the word and i think its very descriptive of me.

i'm gonna have a jessica kong moment and tell you a story which you really dont need to hear but must....So i got into my first every car accident (collison) i was not to blame :) a guy backed up into me (he was tlaking on his cell phone) he didnt damage anything at all but you know what he hit me and thank god for the seat belt. we werent hit hard enough but i mean without it i dunno...if it had happened at a faster speed it woulda been more useful. Anyway Lisa's an awesome person to get into an accident with she called her mom instead of me calling my parents (who dont give a shit, when i talked to my mom on teh phone she ddint even ask if was ok). But i was shaking right afterwards like when i was talking to the guy and getting his info i was shaking it was weird, i mean come on it wasnt bad at all but u know whatever.

After taht we had the movie party at me house adn we watched the company we were unable to find the deeper meaning it was way to hard for us (me lisa and jessica) to understand and we assuemd we were idiots and the movie did actually have a very deep plot.

i've been gettting these horrible headaches but i have no idea why...i htought it was because of my contacts but i changed them last night and i still have them i mean ARG.

Im babysitting sunday which should be fun. i hope the guy wont stay there the whole time cuz he sorta scares me.

Im almost done with my shift at the really slow store (thank god) i was dying i mean it was so slow and me and that guy dont work well together and so it was like AHHHHH. but i only have one more day (unless i agree to it again) But there is a cute guy who works there but he works in the front store i work in the pharmacy...so sad.

im reading a book called the geography club adn i hate it. AHHH. i dont understand the concept of being gay (im not homophobic or anything like that:do whatever you chose to do) it doesnt make sense to me how ti works adn why. So i thought ti was disgusting when the guy was like i had my first kiss with a guy adn it was awesome i was like OKAY and shut the book and then i read more later on.

that is all i hope i work more cuz i want to have 1000 in my bank account which means no spending any money till the end of october. (yea right)

~yasamin

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:: 2004 12 July :: 11.59 pm
:: Mood: content

Fun
i havent had any real fun in a long time because i dunno. SO the other day me lisa and jessica went to the mall and ate lunch then i dropped tehm off to their works. then they came over after work (melanie came with) and we hung out in my house it was alot of fun. we watched peter pan and talked.

sunday was mel's b-day adn we dropped cookies off at her house.

i got used to work it isnt as bad anymore, i just sorta accepted my role in teh pharmacy (delivery ringerer up).

~yasamin

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:: 2004 27 June :: 12.14 pm
:: Mood: ARG
:: Music: nada

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:: 2004 26 June :: 11.47 pm

Patrick
Thats the name of the guy from work. So, i talked to mel after i posted the last entry and she talked me into dating him. She had a very good argument. So i gave him a call the next day and was like ....hi....this is yasamin. It wasnt much of a convo, but we made plans to see a movie, and none the less i managed to lie to him. (I didnt want him to show up to work) so then he called me later that night and wanted to know if i wanted to go to dinner (i found that out the next day). i called him and we talked. Then i talked to mel and convinced her to be my stalker on the movie date just in case he was a crazy or a raper. So she said i cant do it on saturday how about sunday (not exactly but anyway) so i called him up and told him taht and we had a somewhat actual convo adn decided we were gonna see a movie (i think he wanted to see a comedy but we were gonna go see the 9/11 movie) and he wanted to go to the beach afterwards. i thought that was cute and romantic. Afterwork on friday i decided i couldnt go through with this, im just not ready to date and if i start dating id want it to be someone i actually wanna go out with meaning i know him. Plus, i cant like i get so nervous and AHHish. So then today that was the first think i did at like 1 o'clock i called him and was liek um i dont want to date anyone right now. he then was like why? and iwas like o shit im not going to explain it to you (and tell you im 17 and muslim) and just said family problems. He was just so nice about it all sweet and arg, and he was liek whats going on, and i was like its personel and ur a really cute guy and seem so nice. bye. then he said u're attractive and when things settle down maybe we can go out and is it ok to keep in touch/ ARG stupid guy. So i was like yea.

Half an hour later he calls (i dont have my phone with me) and says i wanna ask you one last question so give me a call.

SO the question is should i give him a call or just end things and never talk to him again?

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:: 2004 24 June :: 12.40 am
:: Mood: content

Work
You guys know me and myself esteem issues and how i think im a horrible butt. Well, today made me feel like im not a horrible butt. Story time. I was at the pharmacy today working(it was so SLOW) so i went to the front of the store to get something and pharmacist guy was like hey if you see a tribune cna you get it for me, and i was like yea sure (hes cool pharmacist guy). so i get it and were still slow and hes done with it so i go to put it away (yes you get all the details cuz this made me feel special) so there is a guy reading like the headlines so im like excuse me and i put in its place and walk away and then he comes behind me and like talks to me right and then i go back cuz im like ok. then i dunno he stalks the pharmacy for a bit, then i ring up some people and hes like um heres my number blah blah. so im like ha, im not htat ugly. and he wasnt like some ugly mexican 40 year old guy he was cute. So now the problem is that i have to call and him and tell him im not interested and that he shouldnt talk to me ever ever again in the pharmacy b/c me mother works there (yea i cant date or hang out with guys). Problems, so i need to be able ot say that elquoently. yea. its funny how ppls actions just make you feel better. i looked like shit today, im breaking out and i worked twice i didnt have time to liek to put on make up or even try to make me hair look nice so it was like omg i might be able to get a guy ( even if it is by going to iraq and getting any guy who wants to go to america and not blow himself up or any of that whoo haw). SO yea, thats all, ifyou guys ahve ways of saying that kindly (to the guy) tell me cuz yea.

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:: 2004 31 May :: 12.27 pm

News
So this morning i was eating breakfast and arab news was on i was watching it right 2 things that i saw that i cant believe are going on in the world right now:

1. A little boy six or seven years old is sitting there crying. So he starts to talk (this is an interview) and says i woke up this morning hearing odd noises and then i walked out of the house to see my grandma dead on the ground right infront of me. THen i felt alot of pain and looked down at my leg and saw a hole there. (this is the part of the interview i heard and the sad part is that this is normal,if you work in hospitla in iraq ur used to seeing little kids with "holes" in their legs, i will let you guess who put hte hole in his leg, it wasnt an iraqi)

2. As you guys already know there is a little dispute in palastine. So today the kids were protesting. Like people our ages and younger. Actually probably no one over 14. THey wanted to have normal lives, to be able to go to school without being searched. When over a 100 kids plan and carry out a protest then i think its a big deal, especially if the majority is smart enough to think for themselves. But omg, kids you guys have had enough think about their parents. How can a parent watch their kids go through enough shit to actually plan a protest?

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:: 2004 25 May :: 10.50 pm

People
im not sure if this will even post but i wanna yell anyway. So people really suck, they are fucking jackasses. I dunno im just getting fed up with people. I mean noor shes all like avoiding me because I didnt take her to work on friday so she can pick up HER check, im sry get a ride from your mom. Its just really bugging me, shes my "best friend" um, yea i dont think this is a healthy friendship. And melanie, come on mel cant u tell when im pissed off and about to throw a freaking tantrum. Walk up to me on my horrible freaking day, and say "im getting a ride home with jessica" well guess what mel mabye i really wanted to talk to you, cuz i never go to a bathroom in school and cry. I never do that, and i needed to talk to someone and guess what you ditched me. im sry i couldnt drive you to school this morning, did you really wanna get in a fight with my brother as he was yelling at me. I know my brother he woulda been like so you wait for melanie not me, and than call u bitch or somehting in front of your face, i just really didnt feel like putting you through that, im his sister im used to it, ur my friend you dont have to deal with that shit.

you guys its really hard to stand on a line. You dont want to go to either side, but you cant stand there forever, and people keep pushing at me and im gonna fall off. i hate people.

on a better note, theatre thing tomorrow, i get out of the house. ANd i get to help jackie with her physics project, its gonna be fun. i hope we get it done in time so jackie doesnt have to finish it off by herself. it'll be ok. Im excited this weekend im going to 2 grad parties, and my lil brothers b-day party. And school is almost over. :)

~YaSaMiN~

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:: 2004 24 May :: 12.04 am
:: Mood: content

Fire, AHHHHHHHH!
That was my eventful weekend. IT was entertaining because, ok heres the story. I was work and all the sudden the fire alarm goes off, so im standing there. my brain goes, hmmm arent we supposed to evacuate the building or something. But everyone around me is just working, and im like ok. The funniest part was a customer walked into the store and waS like hmm, is there a fire or somehting, i was liek im not sure. It turned out someone put a pizza in there for like 100 minutes, not hte brightest crayon in the box. There was a lot of smoke but i guess no real fire. The store didnt get fined this time. You know school brainwashed us all, FIRE GET OUT OF THE BUILDING, i guess in the real world ur supposed to die at the place u work????

DoNt YoU lOvE tHe ReAl WoRlD

I was really bored and i actually read all the comments andy got about closing down teh journals, it was interesting. i feel bad for people whose journals are being closed down cuz the money didnt get there in time. Hey jorie, if your reading this what was the answer to your question, cuz i wanna know but he (Andy) never posted an answer to that question so i wasnt sure what the answer is so yea.

STUDY UR ASSEs OFF (ok nm, i wont study so im not exactly a good person to listen to)

Yasamin

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:: 2004 19 May :: 12.33 am

So i started to read invisible man, and omg the writer is like amazing. So im getting bored with the book but the writing style of the author is just amazing. the story is good too, i like it but there is a part about him going to church, which probably has a lot of symbolizim(i cant spell) adn i cant read into it so, tis my fault.

I finished Death of a Salesman, omg its really sad. I'd hate to be Happy, he tries so hard to please his parents, but they just ignore him. Stupid fucking parents pay attention to all your kids and if you cant then dont have more than one.

Schools ok, im gonna end up doing really bad in French, M. Guiard cant just boost my grade up, and so i hope i get an A but that means i have to study a ton fro the final and its on Friday. ARG.

Oh, ACT if any of you guys are taking it in June can you please tell me what high shcool your taking it in, cuz im going all the way to north chicago (soemthing like that half an hour away) and id like to go with someone, not by myself it would be sad. So tell me :)

Aight peace out amigas. And dont life stress you out too much, in the end everything will find a place, whether its what you want or what you dont want, things will get solved.

~~**~~YASAMIN~~**~~

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:: 2004 13 May :: 9.16 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Summer Books
So you know how there are books called American Classics, and we dont cover a lot of them in school right, so i thought i should make a reading list and so i went online and researched and did all that fun stuff, i mean it took me a couple of days to make a list of 15 books to read over the sum.....HAHAHA, you guys actually believed that, come on its me YASAMIN so i went to barnes and bought death of a salesman, so i was looking at the bag and i was like wow, i read one..two..three of those books, i was amazed. So i decided to make a list of all the books on that bag adn read them by the end of the summer.

And the list is (some have authors and some dont):

-Invisible Man by Ellison
-The Maltese Falcon by Dashell Hammett
-This side of Paradise by Fitzgerald
-Mrs Bridge
-The Grapes of Wrath by Steinbeck ( you guys should also read Of Mice and Men and then read the part of the poem he got the name from, i really like that book)
-The Old Man and the Sea by Hemmingway
-The Sound fo the Fury by Faulkner
-A Tree Grows in Brooklyn
-Gone with the Wind
-To Kill a Mocking bird by harper Lee
-Catch 22 by Joseph Heller
-The Bell Jar by Plath
-Go Tell it on a Mountain

You guys should read these books with me, i have an invisible man, im excited. Ill do a whole this book is good or horrible thing. Im gonna have fun with this :)

~Yasamin~

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:: 2004 10 May :: 6.30 pm
:: Music: B96

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:: 2004 29 April :: 11.38 pm

Hi i havent wrote in here in such a long time. Im supposed to be writing an essay fro mertz but im not, i know im a failure. here is a story but not really, i dunno.

People tend to assume things about others without really listening to the person. As a listner i observe and notice things. I try mybest to see peoples depth, but by trying this i miss the outer image of the person, that image tends to always be false. The person that pretends to be deep isnt, their depth is on the outside, but those who try to make thier lives simple are deep. People who judge, and refuse to forgive adn forget, those people have depth. Im not saying that juding others is acceptable, im saying that people who judge see things clearly. They are able to distinguish between the people they want as afriends, adn the ones they need. They can see who can be trusted and who cant.

Ok nevermind, i wanted to go in a completely different direction and then i wrote this. Stupid yasamin. Aight im going wish me luck at six flags, i hope i dont get on a rollercoaster.

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:: 2004 3 March :: 12.53 am
:: Mood: Dadaaaaaaaaaad
:: Music: that beat mentioned above

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:: 2004 14 February :: 12.55 pm
:: Mood: ARRRRRRRRRRRG
:: Music: Meet Virginia (101.9)

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:: 2004 7 February :: 3.42 pm
:: Mood: drained

Yesterday
Im drained cuz im helping my lil bro with his arabic h/w.

So yesterday me and mel and noor were walking to the car right, so noor's on the phone, and mel was like the snow is up to my thighs or something like that, and we keep on talking about it right, and then i was like mel jump in, i was sorta kidding right, adn she was like no. Then i dunno why, i jumped in, and omg it was so much fun. yea, we walked around the snow infront of the skool ( i think some ppl thought we were crazy) and then when i dropped mel off, me and her went into the snow cuz noor was on the phone. The snow by teh school is cleaner then the snow by mels house, but the snow by mels' house is alot deeper. It was sooooooooo much fun, omg, i havent had that much fun since... ( idunno but it was fun) adios amigas

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