Life In Yasmania

Life In Yasmania

:: 2004 22 July :: 12.58am

So I worked today. Party. Concession. I was dying at first. Tiredness and blahness.

I'm now on a sarcasm diet. Mwahaha. Niceness/normalness..here I come.

Have fun peoples. Don't party too hard.

I should really try that sleep thing tonight. Maybe it'll work. O man. I can't wait to see. :-P My eyes burn. My skin feels oily. Because of...well..oil. Hm. Ks. Bye.

-Patrice

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toki

:: 2004 21 July :: 6.26pm
:: Mood: Showered

I went to the dentist today. He was a funny funny man. He asked about theatre. He knew about everything theatreish. He knew about All-state and thespians and he ASKED if I did props. He said "do you act or crew or props" and I was all "props!!" Except he had his hands in my mouth so it was muffled.

Um. Yes. I have no cavities. Woopie! And that means no s-h-o-t-s. ::shudder:: I told him I'd sneak him into the movies and told him crazy tricks to getting free popcorn and crap. I'm a bad employee. He said he wouldn't be mean about my flossing if I was nice if he came to the movie. So yeah. Lol.

So I feel sick. I have all day. Now my stomach is all...eck. And I feel like I'm gonna puke. Which isn't good for concessions. Oh well. I'll get through it. I will live. I slept for 2 hours. Didn't help the old stomach out much. We'll see what happens.

Um. Ok. I need work pants. So to the luandrey room. Adios mis amigos buenos. Si papra espanol! Pero...no. :-P

-Patrice

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 21 July :: 11.48am

Everlast

What It's Like Lyrics
We've all seen the man at the liquor store beggin' for your change
The hair on his face is dirty, dreadlocked and full of mange
He ask the man for what he could spare with shame in his eyes
Get a job you fuckin' slob's all he replied

[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in his shoes
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to sing the blues
Then you really might know what it's like [X4]

Mary got pregnant from a kid named Tom who said he was in love
He said don't worry about a thing baby doll I'm the man you've been dreamin' of
But three months later he said he won't date her or return her call
And she sweared god damn if I find that man I'm cuttin' off his balls
And then she heads for the clinic and she gets some static walkin' through the doors
They call her a killer, and they call her a sinner, and they call her a whore

[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to walk a mile in her shoes
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to have to choose
Then you really might know what it's like [X4]
I've seen a rich man beg
I've seen a good man sin
I've seen a tough man cry
I've seen a loser win
And a sad man grin
I heard an honest man lie
I've seen the good side of bad
And the down side of up
And everything between
I licked the silver spoon
Drank from the golden cup
Smoked the finest green
I stroked daddies dimes at least a couple of times
Before I broke their heart
You know where it ends
Yo, it usually depends on where you start

I knew this kid named Max
He used to get fat stacks out on the corner with drugs
He liked to hang out late at night
Liked to get shit faced
And keep pace with thugs
Until late one night there was a big gun fight
Max lost his head
He pulled out his chrome .45
Talked some shit
And wound up dead
Now his wife and his kids are caught in the midst of all of his pain
You know it crumbles that way
At least that's what they say when you play the game

[CHORUS]
God forbid you ever had to wake up to hear the news
'Cause then you really might know what it's like to have to lose
Then you really might know what it's like [X4]
To have to lose...

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 21 July :: 2.15am
:: Mood: contemplative

so im going on vacation from the journal for a while.

all my entries are going to be restricted for a while...mostly becasue they'll probably be about you...yes thats right...no bullshit here

bye

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Toki	:: 2004 21 July :: 1.51am I can't be online right now. I don't think. I wish my sister and her friend would just go away and let me sleep. Argh. Fuck it. Night. any ideas?

mudpiegrl

:: 2004 20 July :: 3.52am
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: U2~where the streets have no name

all your life, you're told

"dont live to make other people happy"

unless of course, your family is like that...

thats all you know and so therefore expect others to do so too

and those who did not grow up in that atmosphere learn that if they do not make people happy, those people who grew up that way, than they go away

no one likes to piss people off.

but who actually wants to live to make everyone else happy

and so thats why im telling you

im sick of it

if i piss you off

you're going to have to deal with it; chances are you've pissed me off too..

if you arent going to tell me about it...then dont...

deal with it...and i trust you wouldnt care enough about me then...because your anger would lead to your avoidence.....and im sick of trying and i

i hate those times where you want nothing more than to just lay down and be there...

let everything go

because you know that someone doesnt want you there.

any ideas?

mudpiegrl

:: 2004 20 July :: 2.37am

LIVE
Lightning Crashes
Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
Her placenta falls to the floor
The angel opens her eyes
The confusion sets in
Before the doctor can even close the door
Lightning crashes, an old mother dies
Her intentions fall to the floor
The angel closes her eyes
The confusion that was hers
Belongs now
To the baby down the hall

Oh now feel it, coming back again
Like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
Forces pulling from the centre of the earth again
I can feel it

Lightning crashes, a new mother cries
This moment she's been waiting for
The angel opens her eyes
Pale blue coloured iris presents the circle
And puts the glory out to hide, hide

Oh now feel it, coming back again
Like a rollin' thunder chasing the wind
Forces pulling from the centre of the earth again
I can feel it

Barbara Lewis (1973-1993)

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mudpiegrl

:: 2004 20 July :: 2.04am
:: Mood: so many feelings
:: Music: "chill out and take a load off" mix

oh the words i wish i could tell you...
there are so many things im feeling...

but i couldnt type them in here

i couldnt tell them to someone

nor could i write them down

i'd want to tell you how sorry i am.....if only i knew what for...

its one of those times where i need to vent

but i couldnt possibly

im trapped in a world where i've allowed everyone else to talk so much

that they've gotten used to it

and my feelings seem to be unimportant.

and if they are important

i couldnt say them

because i only hurt people by saying them

i try so hard to make them feel okie

but then i mention things

and feel horrible

i know no one will read this

but for whatever i did...

although i didnt try to hurt you

im sorry.

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Toki

:: 2004 20 July :: 1.44am
:: Mood: pessimistic

I wish that people from work would read this. I want people to know that I'm not boring-sad-crazy me. Lately I've been slowly becoming less able to pretend to be happy. And less able to just relax. And I'm sorry for that.

I'm not a bitchy person. Really. I promise. I'm just tired.

any ideas?

mudpiegrl

:: 2004 19 July :: 2.31pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: 106.7 ::drip, drip:: the fish

so senior picutres today...i think i spend less time getting ready for dances...lol

so ill finish about the concert later...but check it out tnt...

went to the Renaissance Faire yesterday with Q, Stunkel and Q's family.

twas a party...better had i had money but still good

oh look...now am listneing to chevelle

:)

adios

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Toki	:: 2004 19 July :: 12.56am :: Mood: Undecided Somebody. Please. I dont know anymore. I can't do this. I want to quit, can I quit? Please? 2 smart personsmart people \| any ideas?

goose

:: 2004 19 July :: 1.25am

coke a midnight is not good when you have school tomorrow

Last night was so fun! Aol radio, Vernon Hills Rave, and crazy chatrooms at 5 am...oh boy i had fun. and i need to sleep because i have school tomorrow which is very poopy.

Spencer came over today, and then he fell asleep so i scrapbooked, he slept for 2 hours and i woke him at dinner time and he said he felt better so thats good. Then o man all i have to say is Disney Wedding Cakes are Amazing! oh wow! yeah ok im tired now i think
goodnight

<3

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Anytngbtordinary

:: 2004 18 July :: 10.14pm
:: Music: I Hate Everything About You... not sure of the group..oh well

That had to be the best time ive had in a while. Last night was fun, stalking people with Meghan...until creepy guys hit on us... also making cookies for Hul...until he ditched us but it wasnt his fault and he kept apologizing. The Cookie time was awesome, i havent had that good of a conversation with someone in months...but it ended when we smelled burning cookies...
Today...was really great... hanging out with Hul a whole bunch walked to stone fence farm park?? Why the hell is it called farm park? We couldnt figure that out. Then i went to Melanie's party which was really fun. I'm so glad i went..i wish i was still there. We watched I love the 90's for a long time... I miss the 90s...esspecially 97. ::Sigh:: Can I go back?

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Toki	:: 2004 18 July :: 6.41pm I REALLY need to learn how to drive. Badly. Not drive badly. but the need is bad. Never mind. I'm of to work. Bye. any ideas?

Toki

:: 2004 18 July :: 6.08pm
:: Mood: crappy

I'm a very crappy person. Just so you all know. This is probably another entry where I shouldn't say exactly what I think. Because no one really cares anyways. But as soon as you write something controversial...Boom. Drama. Crap. Fun.

So yesterday was fun. I was out almost all day. And honestly I needed that. We went to see I, Robot. Insanity. I never have seen a movie there since I started working. Then I was flipping out. Too much energy. That's what happens when you have A) No school at 7am and B) No work until 10:45. It was uber-cool.

After we journeyed to Culver's where The Kim and I shared a burger and fries. Then we shared ice cream with the Jillian. Haha. "what flavor do you want?" "There's flavors?!"

So we proceeded to remain outside of Culver's for about another 2 hours. We talked. Boys talked. We talked together. Before moving ourselves to Jill's place. Where we saw two "puppies"...even though they were BEASTS. So then the Kim went home and we were joined by Hul-ay.

Then off to VH celebration, which I actually went to. Uber sweet. I have to go. Eventhough it can be boring. Or else I die. It's the way it goes.

The walk over there was kinda ehh..I don't know. I wasn't too happy at alot of times when we were there. Which was bad. BUt I don't know. We're all allowed to have bad moods. I don't know. I can't really explain why here. Refer to first paragraph for more information. And no, it's just not one person. ok?

So yeah. We stood around at the thing for a while. It got better. Circles suck though. You're in one. Then two seconds later, they close you out of conversation and circle. so you have to fine someone else who was un-circleized. Party. Not really.

Well. Good times after that atleast. Jill and I went to the Ash-A-Lee's. Where we slept. The pants was there for a bit. But he's not a girl, thus he had to leave.

We watched lotsa I Love The 90's and Degrassi. And then parts of the movie that I can't spell even though I've tried for five minutes. It was..wow. We decided it wasn't a 4am movie and flicked it off. Then we discovered...bum bum bum...aol radio. Hehe. Had VH style rave there. It was good though. At Ashley's house. Because it was just realxing good time fun. No drama. Woo hoo.

Then after chatting about aliens abducting us and writing poetry about it. I passed out. Then woke up. and passed out again. The woke up again and went home.

Where I proceeded to explode on my family for everything that made me angry at VH celebration thing. Which is uber bad, I know. But someone told me that if I hold my anger in, I'll be an explosive angry little person. Which is oh so true.

So to avoid more human contact, I slept. For 4 hours. Then I took a shower. And I'm here now. Going to work soon. Working concessions. Woo popcorn.
-Patrice

PS- I hate the world somedays. I hate hating things. But I do sometimes. I have to think about my own sanity. Right? That's a good thing. But what's good for me? I really don't know right now. I wish someone could tell me.

DOOM DOOM DOOM DI DOOM DI DOOOM!
::bows::

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