Hey. I'm at Lisa's with Emily waiting so we can go to practice :S
We are watching Holiday In The Sun to prepare ourselves for the Bahamas since in the movie they are at Atlantis! We are going to watch it everyday for like a week straight before we go. It will be awesome.
And I also can't say that it wasn't weird since I never expected to see you there in the first place.
Friday-I went to the game. It was pretty fun since I got to see a lot of people that I haven’t in a while. I told Emily my story and she made me tell 100 other people at the game. Everyone was getting so mad that it wasn't true at the end. I thought it was hilarious. Thanks to Brianna now I know a good story to tell people. I don’t remember what else I did but later on that night Lisa spent the night.
Saturday- I went out to breakfast then I cleaned my room. Kelli came over and we studied for our Anatomy test. Saturday night I went to the movies and seen The Exorcism of Emily Rose. I couldn't stop laughing throughout the movie because this guy next to us was snoring, a guy that was on the other side was coughing for 10 minutes straight, and we were all talking and the girls next to us were getting pissed and that just made me laugh even more at them. Then later on Kelli and Lisa came over.
Sunday- I went to Olive Garden and then I went and seen Cry Wolf. It was way better than The Exorcism of Emily Rose. We were supposed to go see Cry Wolf at 1:45 but I looked at the time for the wrong movie place so we just went to Olive Garden, which works out anyways since I said I wanted to go there this morning. I swear I am getting dumber by the day.
Sometimes I think the person I want the most is the person I'm better off without. We both know it.
001. I miss somebody right now.
002. I watch more TV than I used to.
003. I love olives.
004. I love sleeping.
005. I own a home.
006. I wear glasses or contact lenses.
007. I love to play video games.
008. I've done something illegal.
011. I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
012. I like my handwriting.
013. I have acne-free skin.
014. I like and respect Al Sharpton.
015. I curse frequently.
016. I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
017. I have a hobby.
018. I've been to another country.
019. I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
020. I'm really, really smart.
021. I've never broken anyone else's bones.
022. I have a secret that I am ashamed to reveal.
023. I love rain.
024. I'm paranoid at times.
025. I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
026. I need money right now. And probably will for a long time...
027. I love sushi.
028. I talk really, really fast sometimes.
029. I like school
030. I have long hair.
031. I have lost money in Las Vegas.
032. I have at least one brother and/or sister.
033. I was born in a country outside of the U.S.
034. I shave my legs.
035. I have a twin.
037. I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
038. I like the way the I look.
039. I have lied to a good friend in the past 6 months.
040. I know how to do cornrows.
041. I am usually pessimistic.
042. I have mood swings. (sometimes)
043. I think prostitution should be legalized.
044. I think Britney Spears is pretty.
045. I have cheated on a significant other.
046. I have a hidden talent.
047. I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
048. I've been intimate with someone
049. I am currently single.
050. I have kissed someone of the same sex.
051. I enjoy talking on the phone.
052. I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants. (haha never!!)
053. I love to shop.
054. I would rather shop than eat.
055. I would classify myself as ghetto.
056. I'm bourgeoisie and have worn a sweater tied around my shoulders.
057. I'm obsessed with my diary!
058. I don't hate anyone.
059. I like to dance
061. I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
062. I have a cell phone Instead of a landline... (whats a landline?)
063. I watch MTV on a daily basis.
065. I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
067. I have never been in a real relationship before.
068. I've rejected someone before.
069. I currently have a crush on someone.
070. I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
071. I want to have children in the future.
072. I have changed a diaper before.
073. I've had the cops called on me before.
074. I bite my nails.
075. I am a member of the Tom Green fan club.
076. I'm not deadly allergic to anything.
077. I have a lot to learn.
078. I have dated someone at least 10 years older or younger.(eww)
079. I plan on seeing Ice Cube's newest "Friday" movie.
080. I am shy around the opposite sex if I have a crush on one.
081. I'm online 24/7, even as an away message.
082. I have at least 5 away messages saved.
083. I say the word "like" alot
084. I have made a move on a friend's significant other in the past.
085. I own the "South Park" movie.
086. I have avoided work to play on OD.
087. When I was a kid I played "doctor" with a neighbor.
088. I enjoy country music.
089. I love music
090. I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
091. I watch soap operas whenever I can.
092. I'm obsessive, anal retentive, and often a perfectionist.
093. I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
094. I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
095. I know all the words to Slick Rick's "Children's Story".
096. Halloween is awesome!
097. I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
098. I have dated a close friend's ex.
099. I'm happy as of this moment.
100. I have gone scuba diving.
101. Had a crush on somebody you have never met.
102. I've kissed someone I knew I shouldn't.
103. I play a musical instrument.
104. I strongly dislike math.
105. I'm procrastinating on something right now.
106. I own and use a library card.
107. I fall in "lust" more than in "love."
108. Cheese enchiladas rock my socks.
109. I think The Lord of the Rings is one of the greatest movies/books ever. (lets try, dumbest)
110. I'm obsessed with the TV show "The O.C.".
111. I am resentful that I have to grow up.
112. I am an entirely different person around different people.
113. I think the world would be a better place if people just smiled more often.
114. I think ramen is one of the best foods in the whole world.
115. I am suffering of a broken heart.
116. I am a nerd.
117. No matter where I am or who I'm with, I always seem to be lonely.
118. I am left handed and proud of it.
119. I try not to change who I am for someone.
120. My heart resides below my feet.
122. I enjoy smoothies.
123. I have had major surgery.
124. I have adopted a pet from the SPCA.
125. I am listening to Radiohead right now.
126. Some people call me by a nickname. (little one and ashmeg)
127. I once stole a music stand.
128. I like pumpkin pie.
129. I love NASCAR! (hate it)
130. I own over 200 CDs.
131. I work 7 days a week.
132. I have mono.
132. I don't have the ability to make decisions without changing my mind.
133. People tell me I have a horrible sense of humor.
134. I'm still in my PJs.
135. I'm looking for love in all the wrong places.
136. I have a tendency to fall for the wrong guys/girls, or have them fall for me, so I can't help but reciprocate.
137. I'll try anything three times.
138. Done drugs other than alcohol or cannabis.
139. I'm having trouble sleeping.
140. I am a cuddler.
141. I love John Waters films.
143. Sloth is my favorite deadly sin.
145. I know all the words to the "Firefly" theme song.
146. I'm in love.
147. I'm a programmer.
148. I can't explain why I'm unhappy at times.
149. I have read all of the Harry Potter books. (ugh. I hate those books)
150. I like to smell my own hair. lol
151. I carry a book with me almost everywhere I go.
152. I have an eating disorder.
153. I have flown to a different country to see a band.
154. Been hospitalized for "mental issues".
155. I have survived totaling a car I was driving.
156. I have been to at least five different countries, not including my own.
157. I make the same mistakes repeatedly.
158. Writing is my passion
159. I sing in the shower.
160. I have at least 4 really good friends.
Thats all for now. Britt, Lisa, and Emily should be here soon. We've got places to attend.
I am pretty sure for Spring Break I am going to Atlantis. It's a resort on Paradise Island in the Bahamas!! Go to www.atlantis.com and that is the resort were probably staying at. My dad is going to get a travel agent in the next few days and I'm pretty sure Lisa is going to come too.
I'm taking dance now. I haven't started yet but I am going to start on Monday. I think it will be fun. I'm only doing hip-hop right now but eventually I will probably do more than one.
My mom called all these modeling agencies that my agency that I work with now recomended us. We have to send out all my comp. cards and resumes soon but I have been so busy. I guess I'm excited that things are finally going somewhere.
So school has been alright. Today wasn't all that great. It was raining this morning so I got soaking wet and that just pissed me off and ruined the day for me and yesterday Lisa & I were late and we were supposed to get there before second hour but that never happend.
Last night I went to the soccer game with Lisa and Britt. It was alright I guess but there was a moment of silence for the people fighting in Iraq and right in the middle of it my phone started ringing, and no it couldn't be on volume one or two, it was at seven and my ringer was Mike Jones- Back Then, so everyone heard it and they all looked at me so then it said "take call from so and so" and I clicked no, that way it would stop ringing and then they left me a voicemail so then it started ringing again for my voicemail and by now it was the National Anthem. It was horriable and Lisa wouldn't stop laughing at me. I was so embarrassed.
After that we start walking out to Lisa's car and it was getting dark may I add. Lisa tried unlocking it and it wouldn't work so I went around and tried the other side and it still wouldn't work. We tried for about five minutes and then the windows were down a little so I stuck my arm inside to try to unlock it and then I looked in the back and I seen things that Lisa never had in her back seat and shes like "dude, this isn't my car." We started cracking up. I couldn't stop laughing.
Andrea. I bought you one thing already from one of your wish lists but I'm going to buy you something else too but my computer is being retarded and wont let be go on like two or three or your wish lists because of this pop up blocker thing we have so when I get to my dads I am going to buy you something else. You just have to be patient lol.
Yesterday was definately the most civil conversation we've had in months.
I have more news but I'm out of time. I'll write in here when I find some time.
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2005 13 September :: 7.44 am
:: Mood: Tired
:: Music: Beverly Hills-Weezer
School
So right now I should be where most people my age are at.
School.
Lisa is a retard and woke up late so now were going to miss first hour and I have math first hour and I don't really want to get behind but theres really nothing I can do about it. I can see were going to be missing alot of school this year lol.
I'm so tired. I stayed up really late putting songs on my i-Pod since I haven't done that in forever...
I guess I'm sort of grounded if thats what you call it. My mom and I got into this stupid fight yesterday and thats all we do lately because she doesn't like the things that have been going on. W/e. She was like "and we'll see if I let you go out next time". Oh well, I'll still go out whether or not she said so. She is just saying that to make it sound like I can't go out but when it comes down to this weekend, she'll let me. So basically the whole grounding thing is a waste of time.
When my family left to go back to Oklahoma on Sunday it was really sad. I never even get to see my Grandpa and that is really sucky. When my mom and him and started hugging and saying goodbye they both started crying and then I felt bad so I started crying. I think we will probably end up flying there pretty soon.
Anyways I think I'm going to go back to sleep until 8:30 when Lisa is supposed to get here...
I guess I'm lucky. When your mad you don't miss people and if you stay mad it's like you never knew them at all, that way you don't have to feel sucky about it. Thats all very true and it makes me hate you more and miss you less.
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2005 11 September :: 1.54 pm
:: Mood: Sick
:: Music: D.H.T.-Listen To Your Heart
My Past
I want to not care about what happpens but I still do. It feels like your taking that spot away from me or taking my place. I hate chasing after people but sometimes I guess thats what I have to do. I just want to for once be able to talk to you and tell you how I feel but in all honestly you probably wouldn't understand. I'm always holding back because I'm afraid of what you'll say and our converstaions never open that much anyways. I guess I just miss the past.
Now all I have to do is keep telling myself your part of it.
Im still holding on and I shouldn't do that anymore!!!
*sigh*
Anyways Friday I hung out with Lisa for a while. Akaysha came over for a while too so I watched her. Later on I went to Brie's house and a whole bunch of people went to Matt & Stuarts. They live in GR and on the way there we almost hit someone. She ran right out in front of us and it was sort of scary. Good thing we didn't hit her, or more of Andrea didn't hit her lol. We stayed at Matt & Stuarts for a while and then we went and stayed at Steves. Saturday I went to Grand Haven. It was so pretty and we ate at this really awesome resturant on the water but I forgot what it was called. Then we went to this Italian store and bought all this italian food that you can't buy in a normal store, then I came home and Trista was here so I finally got to see her. After that maryhoe and I went to Nicks for a while and then we ended up at a guys house named Ryan I think. I can't remember, I was not drinking at all but I just can't remember whos house it was. We hung out there for a while and then we went to another guys house. I forgot his name lol. He was weird and I kept getting hit on and it was scary. We stayed there until 5am and then we had to bring Jordan back to Bries house and then we had to come back to my house to stay since wherever we were at was right down the road. I fell asleep at 6:30 probably and I just woke up before I started this whole journal entry. Nobody is here and I have noo clue where everyone went but I definately do not feel good so I think I'm going to go back to sleep soon.
Andy Milonakis lol:turn to your far left
Andrea: wait is this my left....?
Andy and I: noo that would be your right lol!
wow you crack me up.
Brie: well who did you tell
Me: *holds three fingers up* I only told two people.
lol "he looks like reptar" "seen/saw him" ...oh the great times we have brie.
We talked. Everything is better I guess. I only wanted to be friends and nothing more so thats what we are and thats that.
Hey. I haven’t wrote in here in a while. I haven’t been online in like a week and a half but I don’t really have a reason to anymore. Things are pretty good. School started yesterday (obviously).
First hour I have math with Modisher. It’s pretty dumb if you ask me. Cohen is in my class and he sits right next to me ;) We have five Ashley’s in this class. Three of us sit at one table too so whenever he calls on us we all get confused and so now April said she is going to change her name to Ashley so we all can be Ashley’s. She was joking. If you didn’t get that.
Second hour I have US History. It’s really boring but I have Elyse in my class. Of course, the one person we can’t stand, "Samantha" is in there. Ugh. This year should be interesting.
Third hour I have Spanish Two which also will be boring. Mrs. Ryan is crazy and I established that last year. I sit by this boy and he talks to himself. He scares me but Luke and Aaron sit behind me so I guess that makes everything alright. Mrs. Ryan wont let me change my spanish name. It was Preciosa last year and now she insists that I keep it since she can't let go of it. Why I don't know, thats just what she said and plus Matt and Bruce would always call be Precious so I guess I'm keeping that name. Not that it really matters.
Fourth hour I have Advanced Drama. It is going to be really awesome this year since I know most of the people in it. I’m excited for that.
Fifth hour I have English with Eilola. She is weird and I don’t think I like her. Who knows.
Sixth hour I have Anatomy. This will be a really fun year because Bruce, Sam Ballew, Amanda, Megan, Tyler, Jewski, Logan C, Ashley, Austin, etc are all in there and it’s fun. I sit by Megan, Jewski, and Logan.
Seminar is actually cool. Kourtney is in there which is cool since we don’t have any classes together.
I seriously have like 4 classes with my cousins. Everywhere I look Travis is sitting next to me or behind me and then theres Tyler there too. It’s crazy.
School is fun. I have had a lot of homework in these past two nights but it’s alright.
Things are that much better without you at school. I don’t have to deal with your drama and neither does she. I’m so glad your out of school and off to college.
All I wanted was my life back and that’s what I got.
Lisa is at my house every morning and after school. Were always hanging out now and somebody has a problem with that. Oh well they can get over it. We’ve been friends for a long time and we always will be!
My grandpa is flying in from Oklahoma this weekend. I haven’t seen him in like, I don’t know, five years maybe. I miss him and he’s coming up to see us since we haven’t seen him, duh!!
I’ve been busy lately with shopping, hanging out with friends, school, modeling, homework, everything you can imagine.
My mom seen my old fourth grade teacher yesterday (Mrs. Underwood) and she asked her if she remembered me and she was like “Ashley, Ashley Sonego” and then she went on telling my mom how she would love for me to come in and see her and how she hasn’t forgot about me and how she’s definitely coming to our graduation since we were her first class and that she misses me. It’s good to know that I can’t be forgotten.
Oh, and OF COURSE she would like him. Why wouldn’t she, because I LIKE HIM and here she tells me that nothing is going to happen anyways. I can’t help but like him even if I try not to. He’s just him.
It’s pretty clear that your obsessed so I’m going to stop wasting my time liking him and like the other person that I’ve liked for a while now.
Yeah well I have to get going. I need to do my US History homework and my drama homework.
This weekend-Matts with my pie!! I loooovee you. And thank you for helping me with (boy) haha.
Alright this is long but I just feel like I should update since I haven’t in a while.
Oh and The O.C. Season Three is on tomorrow!! I'm so excited I've been waiting my whole life for it. J/k but I've waited all summer so I think I should celebrate it and have a party with Brianna!!
I want to go on msn messenger but I just can't. I don't want to even see your online because I'm so disapointed in you and we'll probably start fighting over something so I'm just not going to go on it for a while. A loong while.
I just love how I keep typing even though I said I was going to go five minutes ago.