:: 2004 5 December :: 11.49 am

I hate IHOP as well as Re does....bad times.

I'm so sad the play is over. Now I will actually have time for something. Usually its like "Oh no sorry I can't come over because I have play practice and we wont get home until 10" or "I have the play" it was so much fun i'll miss everyone...nobody knows how much fun it was unless you were in it.

It was so sad because I was bawling last night and so was everyone else and then I dropped my cookie on the floor and I started crying even more..it was so sad and funny at the same time but erika you made me laugh when you said "cronkus" haha we never will forget that!!


I'll just talk about my weekend really quick

Umm Friday we didn't go to school "well we did but we didn't go to our classes" we had the kids show and it was alot of fun because when I was walking down the isle *sp* the little kids put there hand out to me so I could touch them and at the end this little girl comes up to me and goes "ur pretty" I was like "omg they are so cute" it was fun and then we ordered pizza and ate lots of food and watched elf and part of the grinch in the auditoruim but I fell asleep on the stairs. Then friday night we had another play and after that the cast went out to eat at IHOP and then umm Saturday we had another play and afterwards we had a "party" but it was a sad party since we were all crying and then today I'm going christmas shopping for my family...but I should go get ready so ttyl.

bye

LOVE ASHLEY

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:: 2004 1 December :: 9.55 pm

I'm so sad that the play is almost over but yet it hasn't started yet. I've had alot of fun with everyone. I hope everyone comes and sees it please! Wish us luck...!?!

My throat hurts from screaming..I can't lose my voice for the play so I probally shouldn't talk anymore

but my food is burning..

bye

lie awake

:: 2004 28 November :: 6.02 pm
:: Mood: bored

I hate you but at the same time I don't hate you.

I just wish you cared but you don't. I'm sick of always fighting with you....

I wish you would just understand what I'm trying to say to you rather then choose to not listen to me at all.

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:: 2004 27 November :: 8.57 pm
:: Mood: exhausted

Okay I changed my journal a little bit!

On Wednesday we had play practice and it was pretty fun because Brittani brought the kids she babysat for and Veronica brought her little sisters so I kinda watched them with everyone. Wednesday night I pretty much stayed home and packed for modeling and going to detroit and I had to wait for my mom and sister to get home from the hospital.

Thursday we had thanksgiving at my uncle Mikes house and my cousins Rachel and Sarah were there too and then my grandpa and grandma came down too and so did my uncle Chris and Aunt Kathy and cousin Haileigh and then plus we had my whole family. It was so fun but I ate so much food! lol and then we were all so happy it was snowing so me and all my cousins went outside and made a snowman named fabio. we are such dorks but it was fun okay? lol
We went outside that day like 5 differen't times. I also got to go to Troy and see my aunt gretchens new house that she bought. I haven't seen her in so long since my uncle mike and her got a divorce so we all went to see her. It was so good to see her. I miss her.

Friday we went shopping even though I just went like a few days ago but I didn't buy much this time because there were so many people at the mall so I just bought another pair of pants from abercrombie and this pink shirt.. and some makeup for modeling. Not much.

umm...we made a family for fabio on friday too and we took all of the dogs for a walk and it was fun but we almost got hit by a truck and then my cousin Sarah was walking casper and she tripped and fell and he ran away so we had to chase him and then my dog joe kept trying to fight with rachels dog jackson so they were flipping out and running into all the rich peoples yards..oh yeah and we watched mean girls too with jessica even though I've seen that movie more times than I can count. Since my WHOLE family is all italian of course we had to make homemade spaghetti and yeah I ate so much of that too..lol oh and they have this room in there house and they have a kareoke*sp* machine and so we all sang songs...I sang "You Lift Me Up" for my family....and I got pics of me singing and I got them back already lol..obviously you can tell.

Friday night me and all my cousins stayed up all night and then on Saturday (today) I had modeling school but since I was already in Detroit my dad just dropped me off there and we did runway first and then we did makeup second. We had to wear fake eyelashes and all this makeup..it was awesome but since I just got home from modeling like an hour ago I still have all my makeup on..so I'm going to go get in the shower...

ttya'll l8ta

luv ashley

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:: 2004 24 November :: 7.31 pm

My mom bought me the first season of The O.C for my birthday and it was like 50 or 60 dollars and it just came out not to long ago so everyone has been buying it and she couldn't find it in any stores and she went to best buy and they were backordered and they couldn't even keep it on the shelf so she had to order if from there and she ordered it a few weeks ago and I finally got it last night so I've been watching it today while I've been packing all my crap for Detroit and Modeling.

I can't believe its snowing out already. At play practice today we noticed it was snowing and we all ran outside screaming like retards.

I'm excited about my weekend. It should be fun.

Kevin you better 2way me this weekend sometime like you told me you would. You can 2way me any day except saturday k?


okay well I hope you all have a good break.

Love Ashley!

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:: 2004 23 November :: 9.20 pm

I just got home from shopping. I still have $160 left over from my b-day money so I probally spent like 220 or something. I dont know.

Since Jess you wanted to know what I bought I'll tell you since your not online. From abercrombie kids I bought a sweatshirt, a pair of jeans, a pink shirt, and a pair of maroon couderoys*sp* and then from AE I bought a purse and a wallet and then a pair of pink pajama pants from old navy.

Yeah I'm sorta in a good mood today for once. Well I wasn't at school but I am now.

Have a good break. I'll tell you what I'm doing or whats going on when its over. lol ttyl

bye

ashley

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:: 2004 22 November :: 6.07 pm

I Gotta get away, theres no point in thinking about yesterday
Its too late now it wont ever be the same.

I wish you would apologize but you wont. I know it. I'll end up saying sorry for something that really isn't worth saying sorry for since I wasn't the one who just flipped out and left.

yeah o well.

lie awake

:: 2004 21 November :: 10.34 pm

ugh dont you get it?

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:: 2004 21 November :: 3.56 pm

erika you were right. hes an idiot.

you drive me crazy sometimes. I dont know if I would be better off not being friends with you. I just want to slap you sometimes.

yeah dont mention her or anything because you know it wouldn't be a good idea since shes a slut and ugly anyways right??

right.


ha i crack myself up sometimes.

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:: 2004 18 November :: 9.35 pm

They told me I looked hot today....

:D

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:: 2004 18 November :: 6.03 pm

You know what is one of the most exciting things that has happened. My cousin Jason and his wife had their baby on Sunday (November 14th) and Sunday November 14th is also my birthday. It was a baby girl and they named her Zoe Paige. I can't wait to see her. She was also 10 weeks premature. She weighs 2lbs, 9 ounces and 14 and a quarter inches long. She might get to come home before x-mas but maybe not. Shes still in the hospital but she will be okay. That just makes me sooo happy. I feel so special because her birthday is the same as mine along with my grandpas and my dogs and my grandma's dog. haha that just made my day...

<3 you Zoe!


ttyl ashley

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:: 2004 16 November :: 8.38 pm

I just got done reading the best book ever. It has to be one of my favorites because I don't read books that often and when I do read them, they usually aren't good so I stop but this one was good. It was called Someone Like You. It sorta reminded me of a friendship I have with one of my friends.

I wish you would think about things. Be smart for once. Think about it everday.

It probably wont happen. Just a wish.



im sick... ahh...

lie awake

:: 2004 15 November :: 9.04 pm

Life is an ugly, awful place not to have a best friend.

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:: 2004 14 November :: 4.26 pm

hey everyone!

I just got home from Detroit about an hour or so ago. I had alot of fun this weekend.

On Saturday morning I had to wake up at 6:00 and go to modeling school 3 hours away but it was fun because I'm friends with almost all of the girls too so we talk and watch movies all the way there its so much fun. On Saturday when I first got there we did a little runway walking for like 20 minutes and then we went upstairs and did our makeup. They put so much makeup on us it was crazy. I looked like I was like 17 or something. We had to wear coverup and concealer and blush and umm tonz of black eyeliner haha miss anya said I had really pretty face and shes like " your eyes are the type of eyes that look so good with alot of eyeliner on " i was like "okay" lol and so the models did some of our makeup and we did some also..anya put this blue stuff on the corner of my eyes and it looked soo pretty. After we did makeup we went and did runway for the rest of the day which it went by pretty fast. It's alot of fun. We practiced for our fashion show and when we did doubles down the runway Missy and I started talking and we got yelled at because your not allowed to talk but we did anyways.

After that was over I stayed in Detroit and we went to my uncle mikes huge house. His house is so big. It's the biggest house I've ever been in. If you've seen Mean Girls, the house is bigger than that. Its so big I thought I was going to get lost. So we stayed the night there with my cousins and sat. night we went out to eat for my birthday and it was so embariassing but I went into the bathroom and when I came out the desert everyone ordered came and I didn't order any cos I didn't really want any and all of the suden the waitress buts a big peice of chocolate chip cookie dough cheesecake right in front of me and I was thinking "i didn't order this" and then she stuck a candle in it and I looked around our table and there was like 20 people and they all started singing happy birthday to me. My face got all red. I was like "omg" but other than that it was soo much fun.

Me and my cousins Rachel and Sarah stayed up all night last night and watched Finding Nemo. lol then today we all went out to breakfast and then we came home. I slept the whole way home too.

So thats where I am now.

For my b-day so far I got

$50from my grandma that lives in florida.
$50 from my grandma and grandpa that lives in michigan.
$30 from my grandpa that lives in oklahoma*Sp*.
$25 from my uncle Mike and cousins Rachel and Sarah.
I got $250 from my dad
and then I haven't been home yet at my moms so I don't know what I got there.
and I got this Marilyn Monroe thing from chloe its sooo cool and I got these fluffy pillow things for my room also. I basically wanted money thats what I told everyone so thats what I got and my dad is giving me some more money for cleaning our whole house on friday.

so thats my weekend and my birthday I guess lol.

ttya'll l8ta..much luv

ASHLEY*

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:: 2004 11 November :: 9.16 pm

I just got done watching the O.C lol while I talked to Chloe on the phone at the same time but she was watching it too so on commericals we talked and then when the show was on we just sat there with the phones up to our ears but watched tv lol were such dorks but we wanted to watch it together and thats the best it gets.


friendships are tough. but most people make them work...


Isn't it funny how you need me when you don't have a g/f but the second you have one your life revolves around them and when somethings wrong with them the world comes to a hault but oh no don't worry about me. When somethings wrong with me who cares right? Im just the 2nd best. You only run to me when shes gone. It's not going to keep working that way buddy. I'm not always going to be there for you and the day you realize im gone because you ruined things, will be great. just great. Things aren't so great like you thought are they? ha didn't think so. Im not wasting my time on stupid friendships that don't even matter to you when they matter the world to me. You assume that I'll always be there so who needs me now but when things get tough you come running to me as always. Ever since I first met you like 2 years ago. your still the same.

you have no idea how much you've hurt me in every single way possiable. It just goes right past you when inside im dying and hurting more than ever.

anyways i need to stop thinking about it. I deserve better. thats why Im glad I have chloe as my best friend at least she fucking cares about me and atleast calls me all the time and if we could hang out all the time we would but its a little hard when shes in florida and im here.

im so angry at you..i need to stop talking about it right now.

This weekend I have modeling school and I think my dad is picking me up in Eastpointe and we are going to Detroit which is really close..a few mins. away and my uncle just bought a 800,000 dollar house on a lake there so we are going to help him move in and my cousins Rachel and Sarah will be there so I will get to hang out with them as well and Im not sure on Sunday what we are doing for my b-day. I'd imagine we'd go out to eat somewhere and what not but I don't know what time we'll get back on Sunday.

yah you all better say happy birthday to me or call me or something..k? j/k you dont have to but that would be nice...:D

anyways I g2g..peace out..luvs

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