This is a story of a charmed life.

This is a story of a charmed life.

:: 2003 24 December :: 10.16 pm

omg!.......Im so sad.......Brie?? "Buddy" died... :( I started crying when my dad told me...so did brandon..i was like OMGOSH! NOOOOOOO..........Last night I just sat there crying and crying and my lil bro ( Brandon) was like "it's okay ash, don't cry, He's in heaven" I was like aww....thats so cute my lil bro is telling me its gonna be okay......but it was sad...Im so pathetic.......but hey thats okay..I dont care...

!~ash~!

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:: 2003 23 December :: 2.11 pm

(�` �.��)Ashley
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In life there is going to be something that is going to make it hard to smile.But whatever you do through all the rain & pain you gotta keep your sense of humor. You gotta smile for me now. REMEMBER THAT.
-Tupac Shakur-

U can LuV me or HaTe me
..I dont care how u feel..
cuz anyway u see, see me I'll still remain
[[ R e A l]]

Life takes ur DrEaMs and turns them upside DoWn. Friends talk about u when ur not around. Ppl make promises they jus cant keep. <-------------- thats so true
..Ive come to realize talk is cheap..

*I wAnT 2 b ReMeMbErEd aS tHe GuRl WhO aLwAyS sMiLeD, tHe 1 WhO cOuLd BrIgHtEn Up Ur DaY eVeN iF sHe CoUlDnT bRiGhTeN uP hEr OwN...*

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:: 2003 23 December :: 9.23 am
:: Mood: tired

Hey
Im so happy! I got to actually spend time with Chloe. Yesterday we went to rivertown mall and went shopping. It was fun and we ate at Kauhunaville. Yeah, I didn't really buy myself anything since Christmas is soon and I always get money and gift certificates so I just bought some rings and a necklace at Charlotte Russe.....And yeah I had to buy stuff for my family too.... :( Then after that we just went back to the condo and did nothing.......then after that lol umm....we went to the movies on alpine with some guys that were from cedar and in 12th grade I think* .......<--------Chloes idea by the way.......We seen Stuck On You. It was okay?...Well I mean the movie was....Yeah I didn't get home untill like 1 in the morning....we didn't go see it untill like 9:20 and yeah it got over at like 11 and the rest of the time we just hung out. It was pretty fun.....And tonight I have to go to my dads house because we are having our Christmas on Christmas Eve Morning. Exciting?? Yeah thats really all........bye Oh yeah Brie we need to talk about that whole thing with amy going on ur s/n or w/e cuz yah because if it was her and not you on it then she knows alot of stuff...and she said steve was at ur house when I was talking to him at the same time..Chloe thinks it was u the whole time 2.I dont know??

~ash~

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:: 2003 21 December :: 9.07 pm

Yeah im back again........I dont feel real good anymore....Yeah chloe is umm....doing something im not sure of. We signed on to msn messenger hoping that somebody would be on that we wanted to talk to but nobody is! Thats okay though, We'll just call some friends....Yeah I think Tomorrow we are getting are computer upgraded so we wont have it for a while! That sucks. Yeah I better go since im not at home.
~ash~

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:: 2003 21 December :: 7.05 pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: Evanescence

Hey! Im happy. Im still sick. Yeah, Right now im with Chloe. We were just at her parents friends house. With Madellyn and Jordyn. Yeah it's great that Chloes here. Yeah her dad is hilarious. We were driving around by Rivertown Mall and we had to go to best buy to get an aol cd thingy and there was the store "Dress Barn" right next to it but one of the s's was missing so it was dres barn. Her dad kept saying it and it was the same thing with home depot the P was missing so it was just home deot and he kept saying that too....Great Times. Great times we have...Now were at someplace i don't know...We might go to the mall tomorrow! I hope so. Lol since where we are at is right next to it basically. Yeah but i G2G PEACE!~

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:: 2003 20 December :: 9.03 pm
:: Mood: Sick and Happy

Yeah This is fer Andrea...But yeah I found that website you want for the color thing but im not gonna tell you on here because then everyone will download it and that will ruin the purpose because not alot of ppl are supposed to have it. Yeah so just email me or whatever and I'll give it to ya! Much luv ~ash~

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:: 2003 20 December :: 11.30 am
:: Mood: sick

Im sick....so sick...This is horriable...It sucks..I have to sit home and sleep all day while everyone else it out having fun..! What can I do? Nothing.....Its so boring...yeah I think im gonna go back to bed AGAIN.

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:: 2003 18 December :: 8.41 pm

I hate this....Just when I start to get happy and get my hopes up fer everything....Things change....Now im pissed off............. *rolls eyes*
~ash~

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:: 2003 18 December :: 5.03 pm

- I hate how he hates me......I hate when he's mad at me-

~AshleY

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:: 2003 17 December :: 9.09 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Swing Swing

Yeah Im bored so im just going to write random things.

* I don't understand life
* I don't understand my sisters (mostly Danielle because if she asks to wear something of mine I always say yes and I don't know why because the way she treats me I should say no....I don't have enough courage to say no...But then if I ask her she says either "No" or "ughh...I don't care" in a bitchy voice...????
* I hate Michigan
* The only thing I like about it is the summers but it still sucks ass
* IM GOING TO FER SURE MOVE TO CALIFORNIA AND GO TO COLLEGE THERE ...and thats a promise
* My dreams are to become an actress! and I want to be a model
* I want to be rich and I will! muhhaha
* My favorite color is pink
*I LOVE SHOPPING...its the best
*I love pizza
* I dont hate anyone, sometimes i just dont like them..(theres a diffrence in hate and disliking someone)
* I like American Eagle, Charlotte Russe, Bebe, Hollister, Abercrombie, Gap, Weathervane, The Buckle, Pacific sun, etc..etc...
* I don't try to be anyone else...Im just me
* I hate ppl who lie...even though I cant say i've never lied...who hasn't?
* I want a pink scarf from burberry but its 210$ and I don't think i'll be getting it anytime soon...
* I love makeup
* I WILL leave the house without it...lol I always do...even to school..I dont give a fuck what ppl think
* My fav makeup brands are stila,hard candy,urban decay, sephora...etc
* Ive been on a million planes...not real exciting
* Ive been to California (2 times soon to be 3 ), Florida (3 soon to be 4), Arizona (2), Las Vegas (2), Ohio (3 or 4 times), Indiana (2), Kentucky (3), tennesse (3), Georgia(1), Canada (2), North and South Carolina (2) Cancun (1)...um yeah those are the really important places...the rest arn't
* I have a lip gloss (makeup) and shoe fetish
* I love eating cookie dough
*I like watching ppl play b-ball
* I wanna go to New York
* When I go to California this summer my uncle is talking me and my cuz to Tia Juna, Mexico*not spelt right* Im so excited...my mom told me that in Tia Juna you cant get like any kind of drink you want even if ur under age? hmm....OKay?
* My fav shows are...The O.C (best show ever), american juniors, Simple life with Paris hilton and Nicole Richie., Newlyweds, MTV cribs, Jackass, Tru Calling,
* Jessica Simpson is the dumbest person ever
* My friends are my life
*they mean so much too me...you dont even know ......I luv em'
* My fav. commerical on t.v is the gap commerical! ITS AWESOME
* I have horses....not that I care?
* I love singing .......I sing 24/7
* Drama is my fav. class EVER! Mostly because of everyone in it
* Somebody in that class really scares me..Brittany knows too...Im not trying to be funny but they do
* Science is dumb
* My fav names are (Paris, Daveigh, Taylor, Tyler, Nicholas, Tori, Makenzie, Abby, Jaden (jade), Brandon,,um cant think of anymore
* Most of my teachers annoy the hell out of me.
* I look up to Sam Ballew
* Im sick of my sisters because I always give them money and they never pay me back so my bank for them is closed...Im DONE...no more money for them
* I have a huge christmas tree and its real
* Keegan and Josh Earl are two of the funniest people I know
* I have crushes on like 6 guys and only 2 of them are in my grade
* I don't really like myself
* I talk too much
* I hate it when ppl follow me every where like im there mom and they are lost....(brie you know what im talking bout @ the game, lol )
* Tori and Taylor Thompson are my cutiest friends
* I hate my "soon" to be stepmom...
* I luv hanging out with all my cousins
* My fav is Lindsey because shes my age and were real close
* I love surfing and going boogie boarding in California
*Lil Surfer gurl!
* I love the beach
* I love the holidays (christmas)
* My grandma and chloe are both coming up from Florida in 2 days (Friday) same day? what a coincidence
* It pisses me off when ppl always ask "who is that" when you mention someones name..its like How am i going to explain to you who this person is! It drives me crazY!
*My fav movies are Blue Crush, Daddy Day Care, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Just Married, American Wedding, Scary movie 1 and 3.
* Yeah The o.c is on so im out
*Umm yeah I cant think of anything right now so ttyl bye!

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:: 2003 16 December :: 9.41 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

Hey! Yeah the b-ball game was okay? Nothing real exciting...well yeah cuz I like some person and hes hott! Danielle thinks hes a freshmen but hes not cuz I know FER SURE hes not in my grade..Im pretty sure hes in 10th grade. He plays b-ball too but ...yeah thats really all thats new.....

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:: 2003 13 December :: 9.07 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Wow...I cant take this anymore! Babys....Yeah Trista...I've watched her for 2 days now and it's so hard. She just learned how to walk so shes walking around my house everywhere and shes not good at it so she falls sometimes and she usually gets hurt so I have to walk right behind her and she always wants to walk... She never sits still....and if you make her sit still she cries. The only time she sits still is if you put in one of her dvds like Sesame Street... We watched that one 2 times,Finding Nemo 1 time, Neptune Baby, and some other one.....Shes tired of watching them...Nobody else is home and Im so bored...Right now shes playing with a ball...im so tired......................................ahsdlfjlasjflajdsljfljljjlk omg she just fell and knocked over this little table thing with a plant on it.....see i told you shes trouble......................im going crazy but I need to go.

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:: 2003 12 December :: 3.34 pm
:: Mood: happy

Hey! I haven't wrote in here in a while. I just didn't feel like it and I haven't had much to say. Nothing exciting has happened. Yeah Im getting to be happy again! :) And yeah for my New Years Resolution thingy im going to try to be nice like my friend Sam Ballew...She is always nice to everyone and never has anything bad to say at all.. I wish I could be like that... But im trying too....Yeah its friday! Yeah I have to clean my room and this weekend...I have a family thing to go to on Saturday and I know im babysitting all weekend..Im watching Trista...shes so cute but shes not even 1 years old yet...but i'll be okay Im a good babysitter....Yeah thats really all Im doing..Well yeah im out
~aShLeY~ 7 more days!

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:: 2003 8 December :: 9.19 pm
:: Mood: confused

yeah......Im so confused............I don't know what to do anymore.....Life suxs....It honestly does......Things never happen how i want them to go...Things dont come easy and they never will......I HATE This! I HaTE TIHS.....I HATE THIS.......... I wish things would be how they used to be...I wish I used to be the old ashley things are changing so much and im diffrent now...it was better before when i was the regular same old happy ashley but im not anymore

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:: 2003 8 December :: 9.19 pm
:: Mood: confused

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