This is a story of a charmed life.

This is a story of a charmed life.

:: 2006 30 January :: 4.08pm
:: Music: Aiden- See You In Hell...

Got up at 6. Went to class. Went to Meijer to get some food. Slept. Grandma called from the Greenville Hospital. Grandpa's in there. Someone hit them. BAD. Grandpa's hurt. All because of some stupid person who probably shouldn't have been driving in the first place. He's got 4 broken ribs and they're keeping him overnight. Grandma's shaken up and bruised. The Tahoe is TOTALED. I'm glad it wasn't worse though. But I'm really upset. Grandma was so happy to pay off the truck, too. Now they have nothing and they're hurt. I love my grandparents so much that makes me so upset. :-(

I'm making Char birthday dinner tonight. Stuffed shells and black forest cake. Happy Birthday.

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holiday

:: 2006 29 January :: 10.25pm

Yesterday was a blast!
Char and I went to Townsend Park and it was really pretty out. WE went to eat at The Melting Pot. FONDUE! hahaha. Then we went to look at houses in East GR. Then we went back home and hung out. I got tickets to Arenacross for Char's b-day :-) It was soooooo fun and our seats were really really good. About 3 rows up from the tarp. haha. So we could see everything. The best part was when the 7/8 year-olds raced. It was so adorable. Char and I are convinced we need dirt bikes now! oh yeah!

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holiday

:: 2006 29 January :: 10.20pm

You can only say yes or no.

You are not allowed to explain anything.

1. Taken a picture naked? yes

2. Painted your room? yes

3. Kissed a member of the same sex? yes

4. Drove a car? Yes

5. Danced in front of your mirror? yes

6. Have a crush? Yes

7. Been dumped? Yes

8. Stole money from a friend? no

9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? no

10. Been in a fist fight? no

11. Snuck out of the house? No

12. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back? Yes

13. Been arrested? No

14. Made out with a stranger? No

15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? Yes

16. Left your house with out telling your parents? Yes

17. Had a crush on your neighbor? no

18. Ditched school to do something more fun? yes

19. Slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? Yes

20. Seen someone die? yes

21. Been on a plane? Yes

22. Kissed a picture? yes

23. Slept in until 3? yes

24. Love someone or miss someone right now? Yes

25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? Yes

26. Made a snow angel? yes

27. Played dress up? Yes

28. Cheated while playing a game? yes

29. Been lonely? Yes

30. Fallen asleep at work/school? yes

31. Been to a club? no

32. Felt an earthquake? no

33. Touched a snake? Yes

34. Ran a red light? Yes

35. Been suspended from school? no

36. Had detention? yes

37. Been in a car accident? Yes

38. Hated the way you look? Yes

39. Witnessed a crime? yes

40. Pole danced? No

41. Been lost? Yes

42. Been to the opposite side of the country? yes

43. Felt like dying? yes

44. Cried yourself to sleep? Yes

46. Sang karaoke? no

47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't? Yes

48. Laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yes

49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? yes

50. Kissed in the rain? yes

51. Sang in the shower? Yes

52. Made love in a park? no

53. Had a dream that you married someone? Yes

54. Glued your hand to something? no

55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? No

56. Ever gone to school partially naked? No

57. Been a cheerleader? yes

58. Sat on a roof top? no

59. Didn't take a shower for a week? no

60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? yes

61. Played chicken? No

62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? yes

63. Been told you're hot by a complete stranger? yes

64. Broken a bone? No

65. Been easily amused? Yes

66. Laugh so hard you cry? Yes

67. Mooned/flashed someone? yes

68. Cheated on a test? yes

69. Forgotten someone's name? Yes

70. Been to a bar? Yes

71. Anyone offer you a drink? no

73. Blacked out from drinking? no

74. Played a prank on someone? Yes

75. Been to a late night movie? yes

76. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? yes

77. Failed a class? yes

78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? no

79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? no

80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? no

81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? YES ;-)

82. Thrown strange objects? no

83. Felt like killing someone? no

84. Felt like running away? Yes

85. Ran away? no

86. Did drugs? yes

87. Had detention and not attend it? yes

89. Made a parent cry? no

90. Cried over someone? Yes

91. Owned more than 5 sharpies? no

92. Dated someone more than once? yes

93. Had/Have a dog? Yes

95. Own(ed) an instrument? yes

96. Been in a band? No

97. Drank 25 sodas in a day? No

98. Broken a CD? yes

99. Shot a gun? yes

100. Had feelings for one of your best/good friends? no

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swimfan14

:: 2006 29 January :: 9.50pm

I don't know why I always do these when I get bored.

Today did you...

1. Talk to someone you liked: It doesn't matter if I like them anymore.

2. Buy something: Nope.

3. Get sick: I�ve been sick.

4. Sing: Yeah.

5. Make out: Yeah, because I have mono!?!?

8. Talk to an ex: Yeah basically.

9. Miss someone: Yep.
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Last person who....

10. Slept in your bed: Danielle Hansing always sleeps in my bed but this weekend I made Kelli and Elyse both sleep on the floor.

11. Saw you cry: My mom seen me crying today. Well she didn�t really see me cry but when I got home I could tell she noticed I was crying.

12. Made you cry: I'm pretty sure he knows who he is.

13. Went to the movies with?: I don�t remember.

14. You went to the mall with: Elyse
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16. Ever been in a fight with your pet: No.

17. Been to California: Yes!

18. Been to Mexico: Cancun!

19. Been to Canada: Yeah.

20. Been to Europe: Nope.
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Random.....

21. Do you have a crush on someone: No.

22. What book are you reading now: A Gossip Girl Book.

23. Best feeling in the world: Being happy.

25. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: No.

26. What's under your bed: Purses.

27. Favorite sports to watch: Basketball.

28. Location: Mi casa.

29. Piercing/Tattoos: My ears.

30. What are you most scared of right now: We wont go there.

31. Where do you want to get married?: Not sure.

32. Who do you really hate?: I only hate one person and she isn't even worth mentioning.

33. Do you have a job: Haha yeah right.

34. Do you like being around people?: Yeah most of the time.

35. Have you ever liked someone u didn't have a chance with?: Looks that way doesn't it?

36. Have you ever cried: What kind of question is this? Obviously everyone's cried.

37. Are you lonely right now: Not really.

38. Song that's stuck in your head right now: So sick of love songs, so tired of tears, so sick of wishing you were still here.

40. Gotten beaten up: No.

42. Been on radio/TV: TV a few times but not the radio.

43. Been in a mosh-pit: No.

44. Ever liked someone, but u think they never noticed you? No I�m pretty sure if I like someone then I will make them notice me.

45. Ever liked someone who treated you like shit? Yep.

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Everyone has their firsts....

1. First real best friend: Probably Chloe.

2. First school: I don�t remember what it was called.

3. First screenname: I don�t remember. It was something about being a spoiled brat.

4. First funeral: I�ve been to so many I don�t even remember.

5. First big trip: I don�t know maybe Florida or Cancun or Cali. I can�t remember.

6. First flight: I don�t remember.

7. First celebrity love: I don�t know.

8. First job: I�ve never had a job.

*Everyone also has their lasts...

1. Last person you hugged: My dad!!

2. Last song you heard: Fall To Pieces. It makes me sad.

3. Last car ride: A few hours ago.

4. Last time you cried: Today. Jeez.

5. Last movie you watched: Wedding Crashers

6. Last food you ate: I haven�t ate all day.

7. Last person of the opposite sex that you talked to: Ian.

8. Last item bought: Clothes at the mall yesterday.

9. Last shirt worn: a pink abercrombie tank top

10. Last phone call: Emily Sorensen called like an hour ago.

11. Last text message: like five minutes ago

12. Last thing you touched: Keyboard

13. Last Funeral: My uncles.

14. Last time at the mall?: Saturday.

15. Last time you were excited about something? I�m not excited for anything anymore.

16. Last person you saw: Sister.

17. Last thing you said to someone: I said "So Em wants to hang out on Tuesday okay?"
18. Last person that broke ur heart: Like I would really put his name here.

19. Last time you've been happy: A while ago.

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eddy	:: 2006 29 January :: 8.39pm :: Music: BEP - Where is the Love? www.OrderMoreRon.com We are some crazy little peoples i tell you what. This is Ron And this is The www.OrderMoreRon.com advertisers And Repeat with the "Ron" symbol 7 shooting stars \| lie awake

fallenfaces

:: 2006 29 January :: 7.03pm
:: Music: Damien Rice - The Blowers Daughter

I can't take my mind off of you, until I find somebody new.
[I don't care if any of you are sick of hearing about this. Delete me off of your friends page if I bother you that much. It won't hurt my feelings, trust me.]

I feel like I just can't do this anymore.

I miss you, you can't even begin to imagine how much. I feel like no matter what happens you're gonna be there. You're always going to be in the back of my head, I can't just get over you. I can't replace you. I compare every guy I meet to you. I can't pretend you don't exist, when I know you do and I know I regret the break up.

I regret being so weak and giving up something, that I now realize, I really needed. Something amazing. I don't even know if I regret it all or not. Because I'd kill to have that again, but knowing I had it and it's gone makes it even worse. Knowing a feeling that you just can't reach no matter how hard you try kills.

It's just... I hate knowing you're somewhere else where I can't be. I hate knowing that you're growing up without me. I hate seeing that I'm going through my senior year without my best friend by my side. Without my rock. You were never just a boyfriend to me. Ever. You were my best friend. And I remember saying no matter what you were always going to be in my life. No matter what we were going to stay best friends. So, here I sit with no best friend and no rock.

What makes it the hardest is knowing I'll probably never see you again in my life. You're gone. And I'll be gone as well soon. I don't know where I'm going, I just know it's not going to be here, in this house. I mean, you fucking lived with me. As if everything else in the world doesn't remind you of me, let's add the fact that you've been in every inch of this house. I look at the fucking couch and think of you.

It's all too hard and I wish things could have just been solved, because I've never felt so helpless. Without you, a part of me is gone. Part of who I am today is you.

Why don't you care?
why.don't.you.care.
I was so willing to do whatever you wanted. I told you I'd move to Florida if you really wanted me to. I told you I would go where ever you wanted to go. I was willing to move somewhere I never wanted to be just so I could be with you. And all you said is, "I don't see any way it would work."

Were you were only in it for the easy times? Only when it was conveinent for you? There's a hundred ways this all could have worked. And now it can't, because you have a new, wonderful life and I'm just here. Existing because I have to.

I love you.
I never stopped loving you.
And I don't know if I ever will.

I wish you could say the same.

I am so fucking willing to do anything on this earth to be with you. To fight with you, to grow with you, to be in love with you. The good and the bad. I want all of you and I have none.

Not one damn piece.

I don't miss you.
I miss us.

Read more..

fallenfaces

:: 2006 29 January :: 1.47pm
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack

Rent - Without You
Read more..

swimfan14

:: 2006 29 January :: 12.58pm

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you.

paperheart

:: 2006 29 January :: 12.47pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Believe- Brooks & Dunn

I've been sick all week and haven't felt like updating. I missed a day of school because I woke up with a really sore throat; not to mention I didn't have a voice that morning either. I still don't feel good, but I'm getting better. My ears hurt the worst though.

Today I went with my parents over to my grandma's house and made her breakfast again. Just as we do every weekend. Which is good considering she lives by herself. She needs the company.

School tomorrow; and class tomorrow night.

I love you.
Becky.

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jennapie

:: 2006 29 January :: 10.58am

ahhhhh, sparky! you are my everything, and I can't wait to see you again, since we don't see each other everyday or anything! I miss you!!! You did so good last night, and my family had so much fun!!! They thought you did awesome too! muah! We're perfect!

oh yea, Jake and I had our first dance last night! whoo! It was so fun!

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holiday

:: 2006 28 January :: 12.01pm
:: Music: Panic! At The Disco- Nails For Breakfast, Tacks For Snacks

Prescribed pills to offset the shakes...to offset the pills you know you should take...um...take it a day at a time...
AhhHHHH
Yesterday I was stranded at Best Buy so I walked to Char's. AHHH!
I bought The Office! YAYYYYY
and I bought The Notebook.
Tonight's going to be fun!!!!
Birthday surprise for Charlie-yo. <3<3
~

Fix a vice with a vice

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anachronism

:: 2006 27 January :: 7.01pm

Stacy: Oh my God, my forehead itches like a bitch.
Josh: Oh Christ, my balls itch.

We seriously both said that at the same exact time.
It was fucking scary.

[Hahahahahaahaha]

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swimfan14

:: 2006 27 January :: 4.09pm

So we pretty much got caught. It was bound to happen anyways. I just feel bad now but somehow I always do.

Last night I was driving and Elyse wanted to steer my car so I was letting her and when she turned she hit a snowbank. It was hilarious.

The cemetary thing didn't go so well today. Never ever go in one of those. It was just a bad idea.

And no I'm not going bowling. Everyone knows I hate bowling so if I wont go for anyone else i'm sure as hell not going for you.

You probably should stop making this into something it's not and just believe me when I tell you that I don't.

Anyways i'll update more later I gotta go to Brittanys.

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anachronism

:: 2006 27 January :: 1.41pm
:: Music: Elliott Smith

No school for me today, biotches.

I had an eye appointment at 10am, so I figured why even go.
I got new glasses, because my other ones broke in half! I was sad, but the new ones are basically the same exact style. The only difference is they're brown on the outside instead of black, and some sort of greenish/yellow color on the inside instead of red. I like them better than my older ones.
I am still not a glasses person. Ick.

My grandma bought me a $6 chocolate covered strawberry from Godiva. I thought it was quite ridiculous, but she insisted. And I'll tell you what...it was the best damn chocolate covered strawberry I've ever had. And the only. Mmmm.

Anyway, I am bored off my feet. I hope someone wants to hang out tonight. And by hang out I don't mean go back to school and waste money on a lame basketball game.

Edit>> Oh, and new layouts for all three journals!! Exciting, eh?

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holiday

:: 2006 26 January :: 11.37pm

haha
you make me sick!

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