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:: 2006 1 January :: 2.34pm

oh... happy new years.
oh baby
last night was awesome.

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anachronism

:: 2006 1 January :: 10.54am

This is the new year and I don't feel any different.
New Years was awesome for me. Nothing exciting happened. I didn't watch the ball drop, I didn't get a new years kiss, I didn't even know it was the new year until two minutes later. But, that simplicity and it being treated like any normal day made it so special to me.

Lisa picked me up, we went to Skelletones (Aw, man.. I love that place), we met Devin there, watched a few bands, left, went to some lame party, left, drove around aimlessly then went to James's house to hang out and just watch movies for the night. We played 'Go Fish' too! I didn't know/remember how to play, so Devin taught me. Haha.

Devin is just...amazing. I've never instantly been so comfortable around someone. Nothing is awkward. It's like I have been this kids best friend for years. We talk all the time about everything. Serious things, past relationships, or about stupid shit that doesn't even matter. He makes me laugh so hard and I do the same for him. I love how he is so real and raw. He just says exactly what he's thinking, he's kind've... sassy in a way. And that's a bad word to describe a guy, but you get the point. He just won't sit back and not say what he thinks. I like how open he is. He'll just spill his heart out about the low times in his life and you can tell he doesn't feel embarrased about them. And it's not in this whiny way. It's in this real, 'This happened, I felt like this. So what? Take it or leave it' kinda way. And I love that. I need someone to just say something and not care if it sounds wrong. I have yet to sleep. We stayed up all night into the day just talking. It was never weird, we always had something to say or something to laugh about. It honeslty, like..hurt both of us to have to go home today.

The only thing that scares me is he is seriously such a nice guy. I feel like I can end up hurting someone like him. He won't talk bad about people unless he's joking. He actually sticks up for people and will tell the people talking shit that it's not cool. He honestly gets pissed off when people talk bad about others. I think that's awesome and it's nice to be around someone like that, maybe he can help me quit that habit.

He's also very well rounded. He's never stolen and doesn't ever want to. He doesn't smoke, because he thinks it's a disgusting habit, he has only gotten drunk four times in his life and doesn't plan on drinking ever again (He had to go to the hospital the last time he got drunk from alcohol poisoning. He almost died and that scared him, so he doesn't want to drink like that again.), he's smoked pot and is also done with that, because he wants to get a good job and just doesn't care about it. He was just talking about how he went through the stages he needed to and he doesn't have the urge to do those things anymore. And I could see that he was telling the truth, not just telling me things I wanted to hear. He's also very intelligent, you can tell by his vocabulary and the classes he is taking.

The best part of everything about him is...he's a virgin. Can you believe that?! Honestly, I can't believe it. I like that he is basically on the same level as I am in that area. You don't just find guys who haven't had sex around anymore. And it makes no sense. For the way he looks and acts girls should honeslty be throwing themselves at him. Seriously. He's extremely easy on the eyes.

I am a lot more mature than he is, but he's a year younger and a Junior so it makes sense. A year really changes a person. One year can make a person grow up in athousand ways. He's not perfect, which makes everything even better. He can drive me up the wall within seconds, but then just make me laugh it off a minute later.

I couldn't have asked for a better way to start off the year.

I don't know about all of this. Right now we're just friends. Close friends who are really comfortable with eachother and will spend any day they have to hang out to do nothing, yet enjoy every second of it. He even told me how he missed his ex girl friend and he wanted to be with her again. But, then he hinted a lot to me by asking questions about how picky I am with guys, if age matters, what annoys me about him, if I think he's cool, etc. etc. He asked a lot of questions that tip toed around us eventually dating or finding out if I liked him. We could end up dating (eventually), but I don't want to be serious with anyone until I get out of Highschool and expeirence a little more of my life. I don't even want to date him right now, I just want to be really good friends with him and enjoy his wonderful company.

It was so darn cute...he got up on stage and skanked at Skelletones. He looked sooo cute, seriously. He can actually skank right, so that was cool to see. I love how he always just lets go and has a good time.

Then he ate the last red and blue sour gummy worm! I told him not to eat any of those ones, because those were the only ones I liked and he ate them anyway! Then he laughed at me.

So, I killed him.

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anachronism

:: 2005 31 December :: 3.28pm
:: Music: Rilo Kiley

I can't wait for tonight.

I'm starting to get bored and when I get bored I get sad. When I get sad I kill people. When I kill people I go to jail. When I go to jail I sneak out. When I sneak out out I hide. When I hide I go crazy. After I go crazy I watch TV. When I watch TV I get tired. When I get tired I get bored. When I get bored I get sad. When I get sad I kill people.. and well, you see? The process just starts itself all over again.

So, let's go out tonight and hope I don't get bored.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 31 December :: 1.52pm
:: Mood: tired

I count the days that we have spent apart. I've got a bad liver and a broken heart. There's no salvation in the comfort of you. I finally realized your tearing me apart.

I think what hurts me the most is the fact that you don't hurt at all.

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paperheart

:: 2006 1 January :: 2.06pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: Shake That- Eminem

I'm glad that 2005 is over. This year has probably been the worst year of my life. I'm serious.

February 14, 2005- My grandmother passed away after being sick for eight months. She was 67.

September 24, 2005- My grandfather passed away after being sick for almost four months. He was 82.

September 26, 2005- We had to have our dog Midnight put to sleep, after she had been sick for about two weeks.

Not to mention all of the shit that my aunt put my family through. She's been in and out of jail for drugs, stealing, and not paying fines. As a matter of fact, two days ago, she went to jail again. She has four kids. They are 14, 5, 3, and 2 years old.

I think I have a lot to look forward to in this year; so I hope it's much better than 2005.

Becky.

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anachronism

:: 2005 30 December :: 9.36pm

Everybody looks like ants!
Ron and I watching Family Guy:

Icicle shards says:
haha
Relentless says:
hahaha
Icicle shards says:
hahahahah
Relentless says:
lol!


[Repeat that about ten times]

Man, I love that show. And boy, do I love sour worms. I ate all of them, Ron. Now I feel sick, but it was worth it.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 30 December :: 5.46pm

Puddin Flop (as Stacy/Dani says)
Last night once again was fun as always. Like Stacy said this is mostly just going to be more for my benefit than anyone else's. I went and hung out at Danielles house with Big Nasty, Ryan Case, Dan, Tyler, Shane, Dustin, and of course Stacy. Stacy and I decided we wanted to make bacon randomly and we had the worst time making it and then like an hour later we were finally finished. "The dacon is bangerous" lol one of Stacy's wonderful lines. Then at like midnight we went to IHOP and I said I wouldn't ever go there again after what happened to Erika and I but I went anyways since I wasn't just going to not go with my friends and it wasn't all that bad. Our waitress was extremely weird and we were all trying to be nice and all of the sudden she asked someone at our table "how they wanted their meats?" and I looked at everyone and they were all trying not to laugh and all of the sudden I just busted out laughing and I made Ryan and Dan bust out laughing too. She was definitely odd. And then when Ryan, Tyler, Shane, and Dan went by the Rockford Church some kids threw snowballs at Shanes car and they stopped and got out and beat them up. It was pretty funny to hear about but I didn't see it since I wasn't riding with them and at first when they called us we didn't believe them but it really happend because when we got back Dan's face had a huge hole in it and was bleeding and Ryan's face was swelling up. I couldn't believe it and then on the way to IHOP a cop pulled them over because Shanes lights went off because Ryan said "they were jammin' too hard"...I don't know but I just couldn't stop laughing last night. We always have some great times.


I should get going though because I'm hanging out with Logan, Emily, and Justin later.

So everyone have a good weekend.

<3 Ashley

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holiday

:: 2005 30 December :: 2.09pm

We were talking wedding ideas. YAY. It's just a grand feeling. My mom is excited. We were talking about her wedding and stuff and what we're going to do in Char's and mine. We have to reserve the place of the reception in a few months, and we don't even know where it's going to be! haha.
In other news, dad and mum went to look at the new corvette z-06 today! Ours is coming in a couple months. Canary yellow! Woohhhh!
It's got a display that shows up on the windshield that shows your speed and how many g's you pulled. And a navigation screen, bose system, and dvd player. We don't need a dvd player though...that's stupid. I'm excited!

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jennapie

:: 2005 30 December :: 2.35am

I'm about to go running in the other direction.

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anachronism

:: 2005 30 December :: 1.56am

Dacon is bangerous.
Tonight was fun. Hung out with Ashley, Dani, Ryan, Tyler, Big Nasty, my bro, Shane, and Dan. (I am naming people in my entries lately so I can remember whenever I read through this. It's for my own benefit, so ignore it.). We hung out at Dani's house for a while, then went to IHOP. I hate that place with a passion, but the group made it fun. Those kids were hilarious. I love being around fun people. And I love to laugh. It's so nice.

I can't wait for new years. :) It shall be a good time.

Edit>> I know I am updating a lot lately about pretty much the same things. This journal is becoming more of a thing for me to read and look back on memories. I know who I hung out with and what I did doesn't matter to you, but it matters to me. And it is my journal after all. So, if it's annoying... "like be a big person and get over." Haha, only a select few will get that one.

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kellilynn21

:: 2005 29 December :: 10.55pm
:: Mood: Unbelievably Happy
:: Music: Touch The Sky- Kanye West

What A Wonderful Day!
Today was like the best day . I saw the 3 most important people in my life today and I loved it. Last night Ashley Elizabeth Gage (teehee) randomly came over and spent the night… and I totally loved it. I haven’t hung out with her like in like a 10 months (kinda not exaggerating either)! Even though we pretty much did NOTHING it was still like the best ever. So I got to see her this morning so that’s 1 out of 3. Then I went over to Jordan’s for about 10 minutes (person #2) THEN at about 3:00ish Kerrilynn called me and told me to come over (so that’s person #3). But I was really tired, so I took a nap there lol… eh oh well Kerri slept too. Then we ate tacos, (mmmhhh yum) then at about…7:15ish I left and since I only saw Jordan for about a total of 2.5 seconds… after Kerrilynn’s, I went back to Jordan’s. THEN more people show up at Jordan’s randomly like… Brianna and Ashley Anderson, then of course since Brianna came over Dan had to RUIN the girls night we had going on… lol jk. Anywho: I know that it probably sounds like a kind of boring day but I loved it. So here’s some pictures.

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I Have The Bestest Friends In The World.

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anachronism

:: 2005 29 December :: 6.54pm
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack - Rent

105.4!
Going out once again. I'm tired and grouchy and I wouldn't have it any other way, because of the reasons I am. That makes no sense to you, but it does to me. So, fuck off.

For break starting off so completely terrible, it seems to be ending well.

Who would of thought I could actually be happy and stay happy?
What the hell is this?

It's well deserved.

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swimfan14

:: 2005 29 December :: 3.28pm

Stop, stare, and watch me burn. Someday it'll be your turn. You can't fool me. I can see all the things that you didn't want me to see. You threw my heart away and thats the price I paid. I know it's never fair, you promised me you'd always be there but you never really cared.

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eddy

:: 2005 29 December :: 2.02pm
:: Music: Kaiser Chiefs - You Can Have it All

Gawd these dreams
This one really freaked me out. For some reason I was married to like....a middle eastern man and I hated his guts. And all he wanted to do was have sex with me and make me have babies and I wouldn't let him. =S for some reason my sister was there and so was Justin. Messed up!

Working on my Xanga look. Check It Out!! --->Click it Bitches!

haha.....I don't know...spending time looking at hott sexy man pictures on DeviantART. I LOVE it! lol. ----->Check out his gallery!

Pour Example:

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Yes Ladies.....You are much welcome.

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eddy

:: 2005 29 December :: 2.30am
:: Music: The Killers - Glamorous Indie Rock n' Roll

It's Indie Rock n' Roll for Me!!
Woo, just spent some time cleaning up my past entries. Cutting lyrics and quizes and such, making it tidyer and roomier. Im gonna do that from now on. Ill leave them up the way they are for a little while, then cut them. I suppose that doesn't do you guys much good but yeah.... If it alters the width of the column ill do it. Cuz I know how annoying that is. So yeah. I had fun =D now I need to find other things to tidy up.......

I love html. XD I also made links in certain previous entries as well.

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