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angel_bob

:: 2009 21 April :: 7.32pm

Update
Bad news comes in threes, right?

Nick's grandmother (the one on his father's side, the one his parents are staying with)'s best friend passed away Sunday. Four years ago on the 15th, Nick's grandfather (her husband) passed away.

So at 9 Sunday morning, we all got up and drove up to the house to basically house-sit while Grandma got out.



I got to see the house in daylight on Sunday. I don't know what was the worst thing to see: how small the hole is...the hole that used to be the house, the steps that led to the front door that are now cement steps to nothing, how little is left or the charred leaves and grass surrounding the house, the charred path carved out behind the house to the man who started it all, the ash that threatened to jump the road to take out another house. I don't know.

I think I was in shock before then because Sunday night it really hit me that it was all gone. And Nick's parents are spending their days making lists of everything they had, trying to remember everything they lived with, how old it was, where they bought it and quoting things that have no price. Things like Nick's grandfather's woodworking tools, the baby clothes, his great-grandmother's handmade quilts, his grandfather's guns, the bunk bed his father made, his mother's wedding dress, Jess' cake and all the pictures of everyone and everything.



I feel like I need to be helping out more but there's nothing we can do. I can make food, I guess. I can give hugs. But these lists, the insurance stuff, everything. I can't help.

When they start to look for places to live, then I can help.



Thanks for everything, kids. Love ya.

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mbenznut

:: 2009 20 April :: 9.46pm

Callie had a seizure today :-(

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mbenznut

:: 2009 19 April :: 9.45pm


Makes me think of Remy.

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mbenznut

:: 2009 19 April :: 6.33pm

I never realized it was called The Bullwinkle Show. I always thought it was Rocky and Bullwinkle.

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angel_bob

:: 2009 17 April :: 4.08pm

Nick's parents' house burned down yesterday.

Fox17 (We were there when they filmed the news at 10. We watched this story at his grandmother's house while they were up at the house. It was surreal.)

WZZM13

Everyone is okay. Nick's parents were at work. His mother's sister lives with them and works third shift. She was asleep when the house caught on fire.

We went up there last night to see if we could help with anything. The whole house is gone. They went to buy some clothes and necessities but they have nothing. Aunt Jean saved the laptops and the dog. The stray cat that they feed occasionally is okay too.

Thank goodness everyone is safe.

It's so weird to see the house not there. We visited them for Easter and talked about what they would change if they had to build the house all over again.

Nick, Katti and Jess grew up in that house. His family built it themselves.

I am glad everyone is okay but I really wish it hadn't happened. They are staying with Nick's grandmother who lives down the street for now.

I feel like I should do something for them but I don't know what to do. We are just thankful that everyone is okay.

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brutisimo

:: 2009 16 April :: 3.17pm

ok, so i am trying to figure out a time to come then, cuz i was gonna try that week it would be bad for you guys...um, i might be able to swing getting the weekend of May 9th off...is that too soon?

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mbenznut

:: 2009 15 April :: 12.56am

I was supposed to be holding wildflowers, not my own ankles.
-- Grace Adler

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 14 April :: 10.47pm
:: Music: OAR- This Town

In the morning wake me up/ And tell me everything/ So I can understand your world/ And you can understand my dream...
who needs twitter? i've got woohu.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 14 April :: 9.56pm
:: Music: The Killers- Sam's Town

I’ve got this energy beneath my feet/ Like something underground’s gonna come up and carry me/ I've got this sentimental heart that beats/ But I don’t really mind that it’s starting to get to me...
I don't like playing the waiting game...


Vegas was crazy. I spent too much money (but that's what vacation is for, eh?).

Not a big fan of real life. Still really ridiculously tired.

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mbenznut

:: 2009 8 April :: 9.36pm

Here. I bought you some briefs. The boxers you were wearing didn't highlight your assets. Penis-ly speaking.

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mbenznut

:: 2009 7 April :: 6.01pm


Callaway


Shelby

Today is Callie's 16th birthday.

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taoman1121

:: 2009 6 April :: 9.11pm

Live Spartan Blogging
[9:01pm] New music from Green Day is a good way to start things off! I'm finding myself hopping around the apartment for no particular reason. I think I'm excited.

[9:05pm] There's a lot of friends on Facebook tonight. Lot of them rooting for the Spartans.

[9:10pm] Roy Williams says "Everybody" when asked who needs to step up for him tonight. At least he knows what he's up against. :-)

[9:13pm] Can I say, once again, that Tyler Hansborough is a gump.

[9:20pm] Holy crap, that's a lot of people (in green).

[9:25pm] Michelle: "Look at that guy. You should blog that Tyler Hansborough is a twat." Me: "Already did."

[9:49pm] Grr... Hit a shot, will ya!!

[10:01pm] That's a cheap shot, Green. Dude's nose is already broken...


[Editor's note] Shortly after this, his team already down double digits, Jason ditched the live-blogging and drowned his sorrows in a couple hours worth of Peggle (that game is hella addictive, yo). He is nonetheless very proud of his Spartans and glad that they got to play (and win) a Final Four game in Detroit. Go State!

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mbenznut

:: 2009 5 April :: 8.41pm

Just so you know, it snowed today.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 4 April :: 9.46pm
:: Music: Lily Allen- The Fear

And I am a weapon of massive consumption/ And its not my fault it’s how I’m programmed to function/ I’ll look at the sun and I’ll look in the mirror/ I’m on the right track yeah we're on to a winner..
maybe i have a higher purpose in life.

going to vegas on tuesday, and planning on getting crazy.

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 3 April :: 10.19pm
:: Music: Everclear- Amphetamine

She looks so bored sometimes/ She has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes/ She looks like she could have been happy in a better life...
She came out west to find the sun
She lost her name but found a new one
Amy goes to school all day
But at night in the neighborhood
They call her amphetamine

She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days
She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like she used to be happy
With the girl inside

She looks so bored sometimes
She has that super pale skin and those soft green eyes
She looks like she could have been happy in a better life

She came out west just to break away clean
From her family and her friends
Just a little girls dream
All she wants to do every night
Is sit beside my window and listen to the sirens

She is perfect in that fucked up way
That all the magazines seem to want to glorify these days

She looks like a teenage anthem
And she looks like she should have been happy
In another life

In another life, ooh, in another life
Yeah, in another life

She came out west just to break the spell
After three long years in a marriage from hell
Six months clean, living sober and right
The doctors tell her everything will be alright

Yeah you just take your pill
And everything will be alright
Yeah you just take your pill
And everything will be alright

She looks like a teenage anthem
She looks like a magazine girl
She looks like a teenage anthem
Like she used to be happy in another world

She looks like a teenage anthem
She is happy with the girl inside
She looks like a teenage anthem
And looks like she could have been happy
In another life

In another life, happy in another life
Ooh, in another life, happy in another life
In another life, happy in another life

Met her at a party and I took her home
She is the saddest girl that I have ever known
She wakes me up in the middle of the night
Just to tell me everything will be alright
Amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright
Yeah, amy smiles at me and tells me everything will be alright

Yeah, I tell myself the same damn thing
Everyday
Everything will be alright
Ooh, everything will be alright
Everything will be alright.

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brutisimo

:: 2009 2 April :: 10.45am

I pretty much suck. I am never online AND I forgot your birthday. I love you though and I want to come visit you the first week of june ish...is that a ood time, cuz when you give me the word i will get my ticket...I mean when you give me the word and I get online again...

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 1 April :: 10.02pm
:: Music: Everclear- I Will Buy You A New Life

They might think you're happy/ Yeah maybe for a minute or two/ They can't make you laugh/ No, they can't make you feel the way that I do...
maybe tomorrow brings good news for once?

not hopeful.

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angel_bob

:: 2009 1 April :: 5.37pm

I have an interview next Wednesday for a bilingual customer service job.

That's right, I am actually interviewing for a job using my major.

And I do not like it one bit.

I cannot speak French. What am I getting myself into?

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angel_bob

:: 2009 29 March :: 12.26am

concert yay!
Nick and I are going to our first concert together in April.

I am super excited because the band we are seeing?

It is Cloud Cult.

Awesome songs? Check. Live paintings? Check. Biodiesel-powered and solar-paneled tour bus? Check. I am super pumped.

I really wanted to see them in concert because they are going on a possibly permanent hiatus after this tour. And this tour celebrates the release of their documentary.

They are coming to GRap on April 14. Nick and I are counting down the days.

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angel_bob

:: 2009 26 March :: 1.39am

Recent Tweets
I am only this awesome when I can't sleep and I'm watching HGTV. The past couple of days have given me some good material too.




@Laure I concur. Got cancer? Have a coke. Need a smoke? Have a coke. Your dog's sick? Have a coke. Want a coke? Have a coke!

I am thinking of running for president but I am not rich enough to pay my own food bill AND save the world. http://tinyurl.com/da6dmo

My sister got a full ride (tuition only) to Smith College. She will hear from the rest next week. Then there will be choices.

I really feel sorry for the poor guy who had to look at reference photos and drawings to do Doctor Manhattan. That poor, poor man.

I have 4 dollars to my name right now. Payday could not come any sooner.

Unless I am retroactively getting money through some sort of time travel direct deposit but then I wouldn't only have 4 dollars.

Someone tell me why you need a chandelier in your bathroom. A chandelier ABOVE THE BATHTUB that just happens to be BY YOUR FIREPLACE.

This is all in your bathroom. The FIFTEEN HUNDRED DOLLAR FIREPLACE BY THE BATHTUB. ON THE WALL. It's not even warming the floor.

I did not catch the price on the chandelier.

Having a chandelier in your bathroom does not make it Parisian. It just makes it ugly. I am going to rate it STUPIDLY OPULENT, HGTV.

Just in case you want to see it. http://tinyurl.com/cva4dg I did not notice how claustrophobically cluttered it was on TV.

THINGS THAT AREN'T PARISIAN: Claustrophobia

Why would you wear a t-shirt about blaming your farts on someone else ON NATIONAL TV?

Yes, I cannot sleep.

Think of a new metaphor, onion layer people. Your house is not an onion and you are not an onion. A banana maybe. Shut up about the onions.

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angel_bob

:: 2009 25 March :: 1.19am

I am making a list of emergency places to live in case I don't get a job right away (which will totally NOT happen because I am totally awesome).

Our lease is up here at the end of June. If I don't get something before then, we'll be trapped in Michigan, homeless and living off only Nick's pay (because my work won't be able to keep me on after graduation and I don't want to stay there any longer than necessary).

Obviously a list is needed. Both to calm my nerves and to prepare for craziness.

I applied to a buttload of jobs earlier this week and I'm sending my transcript to one tomorrow.

Now it is just waiting and more searching.

I do not like this waiting part.

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mbenznut

:: 2009 24 March :: 9.31pm

"...treat me like Guinea Pig Barbie..."

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mbenznut

:: 2009 23 March :: 10.30pm

Cover Art

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taoman1121

:: 2009 23 March :: 7.12pm

Random Thoughts of the Day
1) Ring pops are way too much fun.

2) Quizno's new Ciabatta sandwiches, called 'Torpedos,' are insanely delicious. And the associated marketing campaign is '2001'-inspired awesomeness: http://www.toastytorpedo.com/

3) The Dharma Initiative is in no way similar to Jonestown. Suggesting otherwise is ridiculous and inane.

4) If you ever find yourself having to get off an SSRI (or similar drug), either out of a deliberate decision or pure laziness, please, please, please ween yourself off as you're supposed to do. Serotonin withdrawal is not a laughing matter.

5) I have a strong desire to get (back?) into vinyl after reading this article: http://www.livedaily.com/news/18508.html Not very portable though, I suppose.

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angel_bob

:: 2009 22 March :: 11.35pm

I NEED A JORB
I graduate in 48 days, people. I want out of Michigan. I want a job/career/whatever. I need one.

One of the girls who graduated LAST YEAR just got a job. I do not want to be her. I work with a girl who graduated last year and is just hanging around at this job trying to find something. I do not want to be in that position.

Hyperventilating,
me

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jedibumblebee

:: 2009 19 March :: 10.19pm

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taoman1121

:: 2009 19 March :: 9.00pm
:: Music: The Shins - Split Needles (again?!)

The Big Dance - Day 1
Jason:
michelle picked U-M to LOSE... you need to let her have it!!

Steve:
imma slap dat ho

Jason:
LMAO!!



Steve:
my bracket makes me want to vomit



Jason:
i didn't know you had such a high opinion of [Michigan State], considering EVERYTHING you've said to me this year :-)

Steve:
everything?
what did i say?

Jason:
about how much you hate state

Steve:
oh yes i hate them
but i hate germs too but if i got a bad one i would still pick it to kill me

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taoman1121

:: 2009 17 March :: 1.48pm

VALIS quotes
From Philip K. Dick's novel:

"In his study of the form that masochism takes in modern man, Theodor Reik puts forth an interesting view. Masochism is more widespread than we realize because it takes an attenuated form. The basic dynamism is as follows: a human being sees something bad which is coming as inevitable. There is no way he can halt the process; he is helpless. This sense of helplessness generates a need to gain some control over the impending pain--any kind of control will do. This makes sense; the subjective feeling of helplessness is more painful than the impending misery. So the person seizes control over the situation in the only way open to him: he connives to bring on the impending misery; he hastens it. This activity on his part promotes the false impression that he enjoys pain. Not so. It is simply that he cannot any longer endure the helplessness or the supposed helplessness. But in the process of gaining control over the inevitable misery he becomes, automatically, anhedonic (which means being unable or unwilling to enjoy pleasure). Anhedonia sets in stealthily. Over the years it takes control of him. For example, he learns to defer gratification; this is a step in the dismal process of adhedonia. In learning to defer gratification he experiences a sense of self-mastery; he has become stoic, disciplined; he does not give way to impulse. He has control. Control over himself in terms of his impulses and control over the external situation. He is a controlled and controlling person. Pretty soon he has branched out and is controlling other people, as part of the situation. He becomes a manipulator. Of course, he is not consciously aware of this; all he intends to do is lessen his own sense of impotence. But in his task of lessening this sense, he insidiously overpowers the freedom of others. Yet, he derives no pleasure from this, no positive psychological gain; all his gains are essentially negative."

"If you'll remember, helping people was one of the two basic things Fat has been told long ago to give up; helping people and taking dope. He had stopped taking dope, but all his energy and enthusiasm were now totally channeled into saving people. Better he had kept on with the dope."

"We are in a maze, here, which we built and then fell into and can't get out. In essence, VALIS selectively fires information to us which aids in escaping from the maze, in finding the way out... We were great builders, but one day we decided to play a game. We did it voluntarily; were we such good builders that we could build a maze with a way out but which constantly changed so that, despite the way out, in effect there was no way out for us because the maze--this world--was alive? To make the game into something real, into something more than an intellectual exercise, we elected to lose our exceptional faculties, to reduce us an entire level. This, unfortunately, included loss of memory--loss of knowledge of our true origins. But worse than that--and here is where we in a sense managed to defeat ourselves, to turn victory over to our servant, over to the maze we had built..."

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mbenznut

:: 2009 16 March :: 12.55am

Everytime you talk, I want to piss in your mouth.

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polishpimping

:: 2009 14 March :: 9.18am
:: Music: HLN

So I'm 4 chapters into "Atlas Shrugged" and I am already frustrated. I realized that it is a book singing the praises of free markets and capitalism, but I didn't expect it to be quite so "on the nose".

C'est la vie.

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