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2004 2 June :: 11.48am
:: Music: Finger Eleven- One Thing
I passed..
I passed all my exams so far... I feel relieved but I know I'll still be grounded this summer.
After school was out I happened to run into Stephanie in the hall and she took me out to Spencer's car to meet him. He's hot that's for sure..mm. Steph you're lucky! I love you..and your boyfriend lol.
I'm burning the ultimate Finger Eleven cd. It's a combo of songs from all 3 albums..
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 1 June :: 9.21pm
:: Music: lilly-smashing pumpkins
feeling just as bad. worse even. that was a bad idea, now i only feel rejected and resented and disapointed. always disapointed. and now there is nothing to do about it except wait for thursday.
oh, you might show up. how reassuring is that? none.
your mind skips over the ugly parts.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 1 June :: 7.33pm
I'm going to copy this song and sketch something to go with it for the next cover on my notebook...
Finger Eleven- Quicksand
Slow sinking feeling
Kills the mood you're conveying
And it pulls me far down below
It might be best if you go
Can it not wait and hope for the best
Will it not stop a while to rest
I need to get up never mind cause i've done Enough
The world waits around
But i keep slipping and losing ground
Do i not try so hard so good
I can't keep changing just because you think I should
Said all i need to and you don't understand Still
Wish you saw picture my mind's eyes are Deep
And they're cynical
One taken four more kills the pain healing That sore
I've taken what's left i took it all
And now you won't let me forget
The world waits around
But i keep slipping and losing ground
Do i not try so hard so good
I can't keep changing just because you think I should
Stop you're talking down
I lack the strength to sit or stand
I lost my self confidence in the quicksand
Not now or ever
Sink slowly my treasure
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 1 June :: 7.25pm
I think I'll write tonight..maybe I'll study alittle vocab... I'm good with vocab though.. I'll try.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 1 June :: 6.51pm
The dishsoap smelled good for some reason today...
Glad I'm not in the discusion on gays with my mom upstairs.... There's nothing wrong with gay people.. They shouldn't even be called gay they should be called a human being just like every single one of us. Gay guys are hot...sometimes. My mom can be so ignorant and plus I think she's a racist. What a bitch...
Exam day 2...I think I'll do better than I did today...:-/
I only have a couple more pages, as I said before, in my notebook. I used up 2 lastnight just regualar writing and getting started on a new poem. I can't wait until summer has officially started so I can get started sitting outside and writing...I hope there aren't a lot of bees out though..if so I'll have to write inside then.. lol
later
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 1 June :: 6.33pm
My God. I'm ready to burst.
because boys are so stupid.
and i don't want to do my history.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 1 June :: 4.16pm
Hardest Class: Like most challanging acedemically? Cause all my classes were near unbearable. But most difficult was algebra until second semester and then I would say AP because it's the only class I had to do any work in.
Easiest Class: Spanish probably. But it is the most annoying
Funnest Class: AP
Best Teacher: Mr. Norkus, the epitome of hot
Worst Teacher: Until last week, Ms. Eilola.
Best Grade: I think at one point I had 113% in Spanish
Worse Grade: Algebra, but now I have 100% thanks to Miranda
Boring/Fun lunch: It's kind of boring even though Gangles is funny, but most things are boring.
Detentions: zilch
Best Game: um no? Wait, probably that hockey game my dad took me to or that basketball game where we left pep band early...and the pose game was fun
Worst Game: That one in Remus
Funnest Dance: Homecoming
Newest Friend: I've made a lot of friends who I was friends with, but got closer to, but I'll say Little Matt
Oldest Friend: Amy
Favorite Memory: Mr. Greene trying to give me the heimlich or anything to do with jess, becca, or hilary
Embarassing Memory: Maybe Little Matt seriously thinking I'm bi. But that's funny. Or anytime Ms E. yelled at me.
Worse Memory: Concert band or last week when I left my purse in English and didn't get bosco sticks, or any time that they ran out of food and I almost cried.
Best School Meal: Bosco sticks and stuffed crust pizza!!!!!
Worst School Meal: wet burritos, chips and cheese
Best Decision: Leaving
Biggest Regret: getting seared salomon at 1913 Room
Biggest Concern: Mr. D-bag
Smallest Concern: nothing
Friend you wish you still had: hmm
Friend that you are glad you dont have: also, hmmm
Spring Break/Winter Break: I don't remember Winter break very vividly except that Christmas was beyond crap. Spring Break was cool away from cedar dumbs.
Best boyfriend/girlfriend: caleb
Worst boyfriend/girlfriend: caleb
Biggest Fight: No fights, just things.
What was it about: General meaness
Coolest Trend: wearing your underwear outside your pants? cause that would be neat.
Dumbest Trend: probably...all the really ugly people, not to mention dumb.
Good/Bad Year: very fine
Rate it 1-10 (10 best): nine with a side of meat
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 1 June :: 4.11pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: the smashing pumpkins-farewell and goodnight
Sometimes there is a pang. It's true. But at least I'm free. But it certainly wasn't dumb. And it wasn't sudden. Some of us just failed to read the signs.
But on the other foot, where are YOU? I miss your d-bag face. Hopefully Upperville didn't take you back. Eh?
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 1 June :: 12.43pm
:: Mood: aggravated
I think I fucked up.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 31 May :: 8.18pm
Wow how many times am I going to update today? Who knows.
3 days...only 3 more fucking days. Not even really... I get out at 11 I think..by the time I get home on the bus more like 11:30 grr..
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 31 May :: 4.23pm
:: Music: Sevendust-Seasons
Erg.
She is the epitome of everything I hate....
Pray for me. I have to ride the bus tomorrow, oh and for my math exam. I'm deathly afraid..of both lol
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 31 May :: 2.42pm
Reading other people's xangas makes me realize that I have no life. People are all haging out and having fun already.... I wish I could cure my antisocial ways... hmm.
It's almost 3pm and it is Monday. This scares me. I studied for 2 hours lastnight and I know that I need to study more but I keep putting it off. Maybe I'll go do that as soon as I get off of here. I think I only have 2 exams tomorrow... Spanish & Math. I'm just pretty nervous I guess. Ergh...
I have like 6 full pages left in my notebook. I need to finish that notebook up so I can buy a new one next weekend. Then I won't have school anymore and it will be a relief... Then I can finally write. I know I'm going to need it.. I don't know I just don't see this summer as being fun anymore... I know I want it to be great but I don't think I'm capable of doing that.
Eh, I better go. My sister is circling the computer to talk to her online friends -rolls eyes-
later
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..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 30 May :: 10.06am
:: Music: VH1-Best week ever
Ergh..
I'm not evene going to try to get out of going to this wedding shower...I'll just take a shower and go.. It's only like 3 hours so whatever.
Tonight I probably won't come online. I'm going to be studying for math..starting at chapter 7. I have atleast 5 or more chapters to go through so I'll probaby be up late or continue it on monday. I'm nervous but I just want school to be over wtih. I think I have to ride the damn bus Tuesday and possibly the rest of the school days because my sister FIANLLY got a job. Wow..
I'm out. I should take a shower or think about taking a shower for a half hour or so lol..
later
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 29 May :: 7.50pm
Yes Jay Z, I do agree with you. You are indeed the best mother fucking rapper alive...
Sevendust-
Do you Feel Like the walls come down
everwhere you stand?
Fill the void
And escape the world with something
Everytime.....Everytime
Everytime.....Everytime
Everytime the truth gets broken
I'm the one to fix it
All the hate don't mean shit
If you're not here to spit it
The fear that haunts us all
The beginning of the end of the end
The season is way too cold
Will we last another year another year
You kill yourself
Everyday you turn away
Suffocate.....Seperate
To face it all
Would you save us from ourselves
Save us from ourselves
Everytime the truth gets broken
I'm the one to fix it
All the hate don't mean shit
If you're not here to spit it
The fear that haunts us all
The beginning of the end of the end
The season is way too cold
Will we last another year another year
Everytime the truth gets broken
broken....broken
broken....broken
Everytime.....Everytime
Everytime.....Everytime
The fear that haunts us all
The beginning (of the end)
The season is way too cold
Will we last another year
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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