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2004 10 May :: 6.35pm
And I had to be Juliet today..I almost shot myself...atleast 3 full pages of dialogue...Ay...After awhile I thought the sound of my own voice was getting annoying.. lol
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2004 10 May :: 3.10pm
Sometimes I like think things in my head, like work problems out. But they come to me at weird times like right before I start to fall asleep, or when I'm outside for gym running. The things I think of are like little pieces of information that I haven't figured out about myself. It's like putting pieces together of a puzzle if you will... Long story short, I had one of those lastnight and I was going to type it up at 11:40 pm but I couldn't because my sister was on in her room, which pissed me off... so I have forgotten all that was cluttering my mind lastnight..and I didn't think I would forget, I know it was important...I know that sounded weird, nevermind I don't know what I'm talkin about lol
School was gay as usual. I raised my grade in math but I have to have proof so tomorrow I'll have Finch Bitch print out a progress report. As always, Kyle was destractive and disrupted my learning. lol how silly.
When school is over, I guarentee you I will be overly excited...Nothing beats sleeping in until noon to make lunch at watch Good Day Live, I love you Gillian Barbery lol
hmm... Math Homework, Design...and Science.. not too bad. Most can be done in the morning lol
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 9 May :: 10.31pm
i really messed up.
stupid.
i need my jab and her lbj.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 9 May :: 4.00pm
...Break the Silence...
You make me feel (so alive that I'm) trying hard not to (make moves, choosing the wrong place
and time) everyone will know, the minute we let it go. I can't hold it anymore, let's be
original.
No holds barred, can you feel it? Coming along, break the silence, non directional - No holds
barred can you feel it coming along, it's on. Hit the switch and turn me on.
You make me feel complicated, sometimes I try to explain the way you took me, turn it all
around, everyone will know the minute we let it go. I can't hold it anymore, let's be orignal.
No holds barred, can you feel it? Coming along, break the silence, non directional - No holds
barred can you feel it coming along, it's on. Hit the switch and turn me on. No holds barred,
can you feel it? Coming along, break the silence, non directional - No holds barred can you
feel it coming along, it's on. Hit the switch and turn me on.
I'm crawling my way through, I'm falling into you, I'm turning on things I thought I knew. I'm
slippin away, everytime I try to be more like you.
No holds barred, can you feel it? Coming along, break the silence, non directional - No holds
barred can you feel it coming along, it's on. Hit the switch and turn me on. No holds barred,
can you feel it? Coming along, break the silence, non directional - No holds barred can you
feel it coming along, it's on. Hit the switch and turn me on.
Let's get it on. If you feel it coming on, If your real then come along if you feel the song.
Come on, bring it on, bring it on. Let's get it on, if you feel it coming on. If your real then
come along, if you feel the song, Come on bring it on, bring it on. Let's get it on. If you
feel it coming on, If your real then come along if you feel the song. Come on, bring it on,
bring it on. Let's get it on, if you feel it coming on. If your real then come along, if you
feel the song, Come on bring it on, bring it on.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 9 May :: 3.44pm
:: Music: Thousand Foot Krutch- Rockfist
"Throw up your RoCkFisT if your feelin it when I drop THIS"
I actually completed all of my homework before 3:30...which scares me slightly...I've never done my homework on a Sunday before like 9 pm. Hmm...
4 weeks left, not even really.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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thedarkerside
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2004 9 May :: 10.28am
went to muskegon again yesterday. Got some flip flops and a shirt at charlotte russe. Then went to sam's club on the way home. Wow, so not fun. I missed a party lastnight because I'm "grounded".
So, today's Mother's Day, my Dad got my mom some flowers and a card. I'm glad that's all he got her. She didn't even say "Thank You". Why do I have a suspicious feeling that we're only celebrating mother's day because we have to?.....
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 8 May :: 11.24pm
| Act your age: | to be or not to be...17 | | Born on what day of the week: | monday 12:22 | | Chore you hate: | mopping | | Dad's name: | bruce | | Essentail make-up item: | mascara, as of last week. | | Favorite actors/actresses: | adam sandler, jack black, ewan mcgregor | | Gold or sliver: | silver | | Hometown: | cedar springgggs | | Instruments you play: | clarinet and tuba | | Job title: | pizzaist | | Kids: | CHILDREN! | | Living arrangements: | momma romma | | Mom's name: | suzie | | Number of socks you own: | 1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000 | | Overnight hospital stays: | the days after my joyus birth probably, while the citizens were our proclaiming the event | | Phobia: | naked people or public speaking | | Quote you like: | "Having kids made me wish I had stayed a virgin" Actually, it's the only funny one I can think of right now | | Religious affiliation: | trying to talk myself out of it daily | | Siblings: | a-ron d is the only one for me | | Time you woke up today: | 10 ish and then i saw the lovely face of jab. but then i smelled her and...it was rank | | Unusual habits: | i like to read magazines starting from the last page and then getting to the begining | | Vicious thing you've done: | i broke one of my toys because my mom wouldn't let me spend the night at amy's | | Worst habit: | sulking and being a brat and telling the same story over and over and probably spending too much money | | X-rays you've had: | they didn't want to take one cause i was having my period | | Your favorite season: | summer | | Zodiac sign: | a to the q to the u to the a to the r to the i to the a to the n |
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 8 May :: 10.42pm
:: Music: joss stone-dirty man
that's it. i really have to not do that thing.
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 8 May :: 4.27pm
:: Mood: fine
:: Music: Jumper-Third Eye Blind
Today is kind of boring, My siblings and father are no where to be seen. My mom has been in and out of the house all day, So it's basically been just me here, sure is quiet almost depressing. I am not exactly sure what I wanna do.
Peace out
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2004 7 May :: 7.05pm
All the good times are fading into bad ones again....I don't think I've been this filled with anger and hurt since then.....
They can all go to hell.
I don't know when I'll be on the internet next because I'm grounded..so until then..
later
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2004 6 May :: 11.36am
Wowww maybe I should start watching what I write in this thing, today at school like 5 people came up to me sayin stuff about somethin I wrote about Barnes...
Righttttttttt....Okay, to clear it up, it was all sarcasm and joking around? His girlfriend got pissed at him for who knows what so whatever, I guess I'm sorry?
Anyyyyyywayyyyy
I think I'm going to make ramen noodles and watch some tv...later
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 5 May :: 9.30pm
It's just a complicated emotion. Being lonely and tired at the same time.
mon dieu.
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2004 5 May :: 8.35pm
I need to write, I need to wrinte, I need to write, not cry, write. Why do I have this new lingering suspicion that everything I worked for this past year is worthless? It's like I've tried so hard to not be myself and for so long that I don't even know who or waht I am anymore. Okay, So maybe I'm crying now. Its the only way I know of to deal with this. Talking never helps, there is no one to talk to. I feel so overwhelmed with this sense of reality that's hitting me so hard.
Last night I went through all of my notebooks and re-read everything from these past 2 years. I don't know how I felt when I was done. I stayed up all night laying in the dark trying to make something, anything out of my life. I think I've been deeply effected by a lot that has gone on...I feel confused more so then the last time I questioned myself. I should be happy or atleast remotely pleasesd. I don't know what happy is to me anymore. I'm just returning to the old me and it's resurfacing faster each day. I don't want this summer to be like last. Where I sat and did nothing forcing myself to be trapped indoors. I didn't want to see anyone. I don't want to have to be put through all the endless questioning again on why "I don't hang out with people" or "Where are all your friends, do you have any?" which is an asshole thing to say coming from my own mother. I won't take that I've grown too wise for that. I just wish I could love my life and not have to be disrupted by constant doubts and feeling so alone. I just wish I had someone to be here for me in a physical affectionate aspect. I just want to be held, then maybe all this shit will go away...
..you can tell everybody this is your song.
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2004 5 May :: 6.38pm
The end is near.
My mom is going to quit taking her Paxil soon... All hell will break....I know it will
lol
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sugarmouse0587
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2004 5 May :: 4.27pm
IT'S ONLY A RASH DON'T BE ALARMED
I am feeling useless and also I would like to wear a bag over my face.
Le'ts focus though
-MEAP was not bad, also I got to miss band.
Today I was a good writer.
-And English didn't suck compared to it's usual degree of crap
-Okay, and when you expect Spanish to be dumb because you know it's cinco de mayo and you know you're making posters...but instead someone brings in a lot of candy and you sit there making fun of the french and also completing the most informing cinco de mayo poster EVER, you feel better about your eyebrows for a few seconds.
-And when you've had a good time in espanol and it's bosco stick wednesday you can count on a good time at lunch, which incidently was pleasing to me.
-Entonces, Mr. Gallery was not cool today. In reality he is not cool at all. He's just sarcastic with the odd funny thing here and there, and is NOT Mr. Norkus. But somehow through our misery we found a way to muddle through and make disgusting jokes and make irrelevent comments and meaningless noises and pretend to be cool. It was hard, but we overcame adversity, AND we didn't have to watch that movie...euhg.
-subs in sixth hour are cool because then I don't have to stay in my seat and I learned how to do all of my algebra. Almost. And Miranda and Jon and Devon are way cute.
And after school I spent a few melencholy hours, but now after talking on the phone a little bit and learning that i'm going to see my favorite cousins tomorrow i feel much much better.
Coming soon to a Sarar near you!:
Dual enrollment
cookies of the peanut butter variety
finishing my history assignment
a shower
prom photos
a new cd
popey's chicken! it's the shiznit!
hurray for me.
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