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2003 5 October :: 8.57pm
:: Mood: peaceful
:: Music: big rock candy mountain
where the cops have wooden legs
god...i always knew my past would come back to haunt me no matter what happens. sometimes i wish i was still a virgin..im sick of people thinking all i want is sex and that im a user. ive never used anyone...my feelings towards kelly are strong....they get stronger everytime i see her. i want to let her know that im in this for the long run if its possible. everything in the past has always had something to get in the way and ruin everything. i just want a long, healthy relationship for once...love doesnt feel like such a stranger anymore. i do know what it feels like to be "in love" at least i think i do. i dont know, i guess ill see how things turn out. im willing to do anything to keep me and kelly together. i feel so emotional right now...i need to change the subject for now. so anyway..my weekend has been pretty good. friday i went to the game and whatnot and hung out with everyone. then i stayed the night at joeys..i was actually the first one asleep, its strange. anyway we went to justins in the moring on saturday and we went into town. from then on we all went our ways with whoever we were with and everyhing. (wow i just used 6 words in a row that start with a "W") im stupid..anyway, me and kelly and neilee were pretty much together the whole time, as well as whoever else didnt leave us. i had alot of fun apart from freezing my ass off the whole day. then me, kelly, brent, courtney, and neilee all went to neilee's house..then me and brent were left stuck at neilee's (definatly not a bad thing) but yeah our ride kind of left us. oh well we all pretty much layed around watching tv with marissa sleeping on the floor like a little freak that she is. but yeah today kelly left real early from neilee's and brent left not too shortly after. then me and neilee were left alone. i ended up falling asleep cuz i was super tired. then i woke up and we left with joey and justin and people. then blah blah blah and now im here. ive been listening to the o brother where art thou sound track. i love this music, it makes me feel so good inside..like i feel no hatred or hurt. i dunno it just takes me back to the old days and makes me think of my childhood. i know all this was way before my time but im just saying it makes me think of when everything was just a game and nothing mattered...i didnt have to deal with being older and problems...being a kid is the only way to not be burdened with problems. i wish i could always feel like this..then i would never have enemies...i feel like i could forgive anyone right now and make them my friends. anyway i think its time for this long entry to end. goodnight all.
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2003 2 October :: 4.21pm
:: Mood: booored
:: Music: thursday - m. shepard
so we kiss like little kids
wow i was hyper today..since like 2nd hour i was all jumpy and shit...even after weight training i had enough energy to be all jumpy. but yeah after school i kind of lost it cuz i had to leave everyone and it wasnt cool. stacy tends to put me in a hyper mood alot. maybe its cuz of all the energy she has i dunno. anywho i got the new black chucks from david today w00t davids definately the man, sometimes he might be too nice but its never a bad thing. im glad me and him are friends again. me and james arent enemies anymore which is cool. we both said our apologies which i never thought would happen but did and i give him credit for it. anyway im off, chao
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2003 1 October :: 9.15pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: thursday - war all the time
collect all your blood, to put in the radio
gahh kelly's not on..ill wait. anyway i was watching a biography on jeffry dohmer with my mom a few minutes ago...i never knew how fucked up that guy was until now..its crazy, he was a gay necro bastard. he got like a 52 gallon drum and filled it with acid that he would put bodies in and it would burn flesh of the bones and shit and he would keep dead body parts in freezers and shit. he fucked dead bodies..mainly black guys which is disgusting..anyway i thought i'd share that. but yeah im kinda bored right about now. grr i want my hair to grow faster! bum bum bum....well im off to get stacy to 100 comments...bye bye all
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2003 1 October :: 6.25pm
:: Mood: happy/anxious
:: Music: blink - mutt
so heres your holiday
today has been good, school was a pretty normal day with some good exceptions (kelly) but yeah weight training was a pain in the ass today...my legs hurt so bad. i could barely finish..gahh it was hell. anyway im doing this cool one point perspective graffiti drawing. dufty gave me bigger paper and a special pencil to do mine cuz he liked what im doing. so thats cool i guess. i was pretty entertained with stacy's little comment session. shes trying to get to 100 but yeah that would be cool. *waits for friday to come* grr thats not helping..ohhhwell i guess ill just have to be patient which i hate. its my sis's birthday today, i was the first to wish her a happy birthday cuz im such a nice brother and i didnt forget. i think that just about conludes my update, farewell all.
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2003 30 September :: 9.02pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: thursday - division st.
should have said something but ive said it enough
im bored so im updating again. im attempting to teach myself freebird. i already know a majority of it..its mainly the solo i have to learn.. i already know some of that too but im still working on it. ill get it sooner or later. i sure hope friday and saturday are fun..they should be since everyone will be together. its gonna cold as a mother fucker though..thats gonna be the downfall. i hear shit about it snowing this week and im like nooo...i really really hate the cold..and snow..earth blows...i told stacy im gonna move to another planet..which that were possible..id bring most of you with me. but thats way farfetched. so yeah ive been listening to thursday and the used over and over..ive probley listened to each cd about 7 times each today..and ive been doing this for about 2 or 3 days now. im addicted to the new thursday cd. grr, i need to get these cameras developed. i want all the recent pics of you all. for my beautiful wall. aanyway tomorrow should be good..should be..im sure it will. cant wait to see kelly tomorrow..she seems to put me in my good moods when i am in one. oon another note, i think its time i best be off, see everyone tomorrow.
Bradley
p.s. kelly's mine, and no rachel you cant have her =P sucker!!
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2003 30 September :: 3.35pm
:: Mood: hungry
:: Music: the used - box of sharp objects
kiss my ass nate, kiss it good
hurray, i got my progress report today.
BMMT III - A-
Comp/Literature - C+
Algebra - D-
Weight Training - C+
Draw/Design - A
Sculpture/Ceramics - A-
im pretty happy with that. i know its nothing special but im not failing anything so im good. anywho, today kind of sucked..i was all angered most of the day. nothing horrible but yeah. lunch sucked too, my id sucks i look stupid i hate i want to die. no one will see it so dont ask. i came home to a list of chores, and yeah thats my day so far. right now im just sitting here starving and listening to the used. but yeah i feel i mist go and eat some food now. bye bye people.
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2003 29 September :: 9.32pm
:: Mood: decently happy
:: Music: the used - the taste of ink
fear me! feeeaaarr meee!!!!
hurray, i got to go to kellys today w00t. i had a good time hanging out with her. i sense that her parents didnt really get to know me anymore than they did but yeah its better than nothing i suppose. i always feel so happy when im with her. things have been going pretty good so far, hopefully it gets nothing but better from here on out. lately ive been doing a lot of graffiti drawing. i do like band names and peoples names and whatnot. ive been coming up with some new styles which look pretty rad. well i guess im going to the park friday along with everyone else. hopefully we all get to hang out saturday as well. hanging out with everyone 2 days in a row? hell yeah that sounds great. i always feel happy when im with everyone.mainly outside of school though but yeah. i hope it'll be fun. anyway i shall be going. goodnight kids.
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2003 28 September :: 9.53pm
:: Music: the used- poetic tragedy
marry me, stay the same. lie to me and try to say you'll never...
well today has been alright i suppose. i slept till like 2:30 or so, then i got up and got on the computer..then joey, justin and rachel came over. then we went to greatday and i got some pixie stix, then i got some burger king cuz i was starving. after that we went to justins and sat around there and watched bobby play dr. mario. after a couple hours we came back here and just sat around talking to people on the internet..well me joey and justin anyway..rachel went home as soon as we went to justins. but yeah those 2 hung out here till like 8:30 and then i took a shower and now im here...blah im all clean now. i dont get why everyone always has to fight....grr to fighting...i mean come on..me and james arent even enemies anymore. we're cool now, if you knew our past you would realize how good of a thing that is. but yeah on another note. i get to go to kelly's tomorrow and formally meet her parents which will be good. ill be sure to make a good impression and show them that im not some drugged up child molester...you all know im not anything like that. im sick of everyones parents hating me..things need to turn around...anyway im gonna jet. see ya'll later.
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2003 28 September :: 10.05am
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: thursday - war all the time
eat me sluts
well yesterday i ended up hanging out with justin and joey, we went to justins house and played with all the instruments and then we had a fire cracker war. im so tired right now. justin and joey stayed the night. everyone else was acting all bitchy and didnt come over, i dont give a shit though. anyway...i dont know what im doing today..still miss kelly. ill talk to you all later im gonna lay down again. bye.
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2003 27 September :: 2.36pm
:: Mood: lonely
well, everyones about gone and its all over now. i feel all lonely now that everyones gone..i miss kelly alot. im really glad she got to come and it wouldnt have been as good if she wasnt there for me. she left last night to go to laser skate or whatever and i kind of got jealous i guess...i dont know why. i guess im just worried..not of other guys but of who can make her think things. but i trust her and yeah i dont wanna say too much on here. so anyway, last night was fun. about 14 people or so showed up. it kind of turned out to be an inside party. my living room is pretty trashed but i still have to clean it up. god, i dont wanna be left here alone...i need something to do..somewhere to go. im gonna go insane here. im just gonna go though, farewell.
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2003 27 September :: 2.36pm
:: Mood: lonely
well, everyones about gone and its all over now. i feel all lonely now that everyones gone..i miss kelly alot. im really glad she got to come and it wouldnt have been as good if she wasnt there for me. she left last night to go to laser skate or whatever and i kind of got jealous i guess...i dont know why. i guess im just worried..not of other guys but of who can make her think things. but i trust her and yeah i dont wanna say too much on here. so anyway, last night was fun. about 14 people or so showed up. it kind of turned out to be an inside party. my living room is pretty trashed but i still have to clean it up. god, i dont wanna be left here alone...i need something to do..somewhere to go. im gonna go insane here. im just gonna go though, farewell.
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2003 25 September :: 9.12pm
:: Music: thursday - signals over the air
grr, kelly's not on. i guess i was too late....again...dammit, but im an hour early for her to get off...damn. anyway i just got back from the store. i spent 80 bucks on shit for my party....it better be worth it or ill be pissed. my mommys making sloppy joes for a "dinner" for everyone..i got chips shit load of pop..etc.. i also got myself the new thursday cd which rocks. but yeah i had a little confrentation today with mrs putt. i officially hate her..im sure most of you know why already..but yeah im not gonna get into it. im soo thankful kelly can still go, she cant stay the night but her being there will make it good for me. thats all i need. anywho..i feel lonely right now..it sucks. i got a camera so i can take pics of everyone and finally have some updated pictures of everyone. i think i might have to get pissed if i find out one more person cant go. stacy, dustin, and i dunno about neilee but yeah i think those are the ones who cant come...so far. but yeah im running out of things to talk about. ill see you all hopefully tomorrow.
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2003 24 September :: 10.57pm
:: Music: elvis - love me tender
missing you
gahh im so tired!! *yawn* i just woke back up about 20 minutes ago or so. nate called..im kinda pissed that i didnt get on at 8 like i was going to. i told kelly i would and now i feel bad. i so knew i was gonna end up doing that. oh well...too late to do anything about it now. i put a bunch more shit up on my wall today. i went through a couple boxes from my closet and took all the trash out so i aint got so much shit in there and plus so i could find some more shit to put on my beautiful wall. i need more pics of everyone..everything i have is from like the allnighter from way back when. i need recent pics of you all. aanyway...just about one more day till the big party. im so excited, im actually gonna have the whole gang at my house for the first time...its crazy. it was close on my sis's birthday party last year...wow now that i think about it that was almost exactly a year ago. ashley's birthday is next wednesday..hopefully i dont forget. but yeah that seems like so long ago. *sigh* i miss kelly, its sad..its been like almost 6 hours of no talking to her and im dying..i miss her alot. but ill see her tomorrow and everything will be gravy once again. and w00t i get my invader zim fomr joe too, joes such a cool guy. just like jay..he never fails to my me laugh, i love people like that. jays been my best friend for so long and everythings been awesome. joes gettin there. well anyway i think im gonna get something to drink now and get my ass to sleep. ill see you all tomorrow, goodbye all.
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2003 24 September :: 5.05pm
:: Mood: happier
:: Music: thursday - understanding in a car crash
aalright. i guess im in a better mood now. kelly got me out of my depressed mood then joe finished it off by burning me invader zim episodes, now im pretty happy. my moms making me spaghetti..mmmm, sounds so good right now. im starving..my stomach is like hollow right now and it wont stop growling. *waits for friday to come*..damn thats not helping. i guess i must be patient. and thank fucking god its not a weekend jason comes home. if that were the case then i dont think the party would happen but gratefully he wont be here. im sure that makes most of you happy...those of you who know who jason is anyway..for those of you who dont know...hes a 5 and a half foot big walking pile of shit..aka my stepfather. anyway just felt like updating. goodbye.
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2003 24 September :: 3.56pm
:: Mood: dont ask
:: Music: the used - on my own
knowing nothing is better than knowing at all
today kind of sucked...i expected it to be alot better and more happy...but it wasnt. the only good thing about today isnt even something great. my team in weight training is first place for our little stupid competition. we have a bunch of obsticles to do and everything. the record time was 4.10 minutes...we got 2.38..i suppose we did pretty good. i was pretty tired at lunch...i wasnt really all happy either but oh well. im still tired and not in a very cheerful mood. im not going to talk about shit on woohu though cuz woohu is nothing but problems when it comes to personal shit. i need something to get me out of this mood. i was happy to see kelly today but yeah she doesnt really talk to me much at all so that kind of brings me down sometimes...but i dont blame her..i just want my party to come so i can be happy and spend time with everyone. i really hope things go as well as they should. anyway..im just wasting my time.
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2003 23 September :: 4.58pm
:: Mood: haaaappy
:: Music: msi - faggot
dont be haten'
w00t, good news erbody. umm yeah, well me and kelly have been talking and now me and her are officially together. i know it may seem kind of rushed but i dont care, i know im ready and it doesnt feel too fast for me so i guess thats all that matters to me. but yeah im real happy now. im just letting you all know, this way no one can say i didnt tell them or some shit like that. but anyway i was just gettin the good news out there. farewell friends.
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2003 23 September :: 4.22pm
:: Mood: pretty happy
sportn' wood feelin good
wow...2 hours with dufty. if i didnt have dusty or joe i wouldnt have survived. but yeah my day was alright...ive had one thing on my mind all day...well more like person instead of thing. i might as well just come out and say it since im sure you all know anyway. its kelly..its definatley not a bad thing, not at all. i just really like her and everything but yeah i wont bother you with all that right now...ill do it later heh. anyway ill see you all later. chow
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2003 22 September :: 9.43pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: blink - josie
alright people, the party is this friday after school and it will be starting at around 5:30ish to 6ish. you can come earlier if you please. if you are planning to stay the night be sure to bring a pillow and possibly a blanket if your little hearts desire. but yeah you can bring food if you want, its not a necessidy but it would be helpful. anyway, if your parents need to talk to my mom or whatever then they can either call or just come here or something. my mother should be home at around 7ish so we might have a couple of un watched hours but we'll be fine. if you dont have my number its 696-4976. if you have any other questions just ask me. by tomorrow i should have a rough list of everyone thats coming. ill talk to you all about it tomorrow. goodbye all.
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2003 22 September :: 6.19pm
:: Mood: happy
:: Music: soggy bottom boys - a man of constant sorrow
EVERYONE'S INVITED
well this weekend im planning for a party. i want everyone there!! even if i dont like you or if you dont like me, i want as many people as possible. im thinking it will be after school friday, i will know all the info within a couple of days. but if you do want to come make sure you let me know and i just wanna know whos all coming. everyone who can will also be staying the night. my mother will be here later at night. so if your parents need to know then make sure you let them know that an adult will be here. girls and guys can all stay if they please. but anyway thats all i have for now for my party. but yeah ill let you all know whats goin on, farewell friends.
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2003 21 September :: 11.03pm
:: Mood: fuck people
:: Music: boxcar racer- watch the world
gahh, im in such a pissy mood. im tired and argueing with nate. its such bullshit. i guess im messed up because i was a "pussy" the last night we went out. he doesnt give a fucking rats ass that he put our lives in danger driving like a fucking moron. he could have killed us all, and thankfully he didnt. he thinks he has all the answers to fucking everything. im so fucking frustrated right now. he says if i cant deal with the risks we take then i shouldnt go. i fucking pulled more shit than his ass ever did..he has no right to say i cant handle this shit. im sure most of you have no idea what im talking about. but if you want to know just ask. woohu is not the place to talk about this shit. i guess nate knows more about my friends feelings towards me then i do. whatever, im going now..*shoots himself* tonight sucks.
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