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2004 8 June :: 4.55pm
bored
First best friend: anna foley
First Job: havnt had 1 yett
First screen name: sunshine sumthin
First self purchased album: dont kn0w
First pets: Tasha muh pup
First piercing/tattoo: ear 4 yrz 0ld
First true love: =] Every1 kn0wz this 0ne
First enemy: codie
First big trip: dk
First play/musical/performance: 5th grade
Last cigarette: hate cigarettes
Last big car ride: lyk 2 weekz ag0 t0 Michigann
Last kiss: nick -- last time i saw him 2 thursdays ag0
Last good cry: that time after sunsplash =/
Last library book checked out: um it was called Last summer -- lol jay
Last movie seen: Monster
Last beverage drank: pepzi =]
Last food consumed: c0okie
Last crush: umm nick obviousily-- b4 that evan
Last phone call: mike
Last tv show watched: Vh1 last nite
Last time showered: yesterday
Last shoes worn: blak flip fl0pz
Last item bought: umm .. my white pantz
Last disappointment:
Last soda drank: lyk half hour ag0
Last ice cream eaten: yesterday -- sully fed me his ch0clate l0l..can i bring the br0om?
Last shirt worn: this one .. its kaelas black tank top
Last hug : Sully yesterday
Last time you told someone you loved them: brett yesterday
Last time someone told you they loved you: sully 0n myy messages =]
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2004 7 June :: 12.57pm
:: Mood: optimistic
Goodbyes are never easy..and that sucks..
Well lets see here..these last two days were really boring. Everyone had to work all day. So i decided to just stay home n do nuffin both days. =)
I started a new workout routine and so far ive stuck to it. But its only been 2 DaYz lol but still. Im hopin i can loss sum of mah fat ass. but who knows. I need to diet too. I hate how big ive gotten over the past 2 or so years i jus wish i could be skinny again.. ='( oh wells. Life goes on right..?
Workout Routine
20 min endurance run on treadmill
[thats 1.15 miles, 4.*sumpthin* laps]
20 crunches
water break [ lol =) ]
20 more cruches
20 mountian climbers
12 squat thrusts
its just a start, but should
help me fat ass a bit rite? lol
But neways. Urgh i aint got nothing planned for this whole week.. If anyone wants to do something then let me know, cuhz im already bored lol. So brittany Malissa Gloria Chad Becky Mike James or tiffany GET AT MEH!! lol. =)
Whew, not to be selfish but im glad Malissa didnt go to tennesse Cuz then i couldnt see mah lil babii forever!! Ick that would be HORRIBLE!! lol. But babes, i luhv you tons!! Thanks for being there for meh.
Well tahts it for today. I'll write more another time. Latah every1. =)
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2004 6 June :: 2.08pm
:: Mood: lonely
i wanna go home
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2004 5 June :: 11.59pm
:: Mood: drained
Now that u r in mah life, i am stronger within..
Wow, this weekend/the last week of skool..was.. amazing, wonderful, and soo much fun Im thinkin i did really good on woodruffs exam so that makes me really happy. That was friday. 1st hour. Then second hour, hung out in arkisons room. wif christine, and peggy and arkison and then kyle n derek n all of them. It was soo much fun But im soo going to miss them tons but peggy is gonna take meh christine n de out to arkisons house this summer So that outta be fun.
Then friday afternoon, was cedar point That was a fuckin blast. Ariel n I hung out most da time. im soo glad dat black bitch moved here hah. [Hooowww y0o doing? lmfa0] BIG BOOTY HOE lmfa0 shes da best. I luhv dat chick.
Then today, hung out wif kimmy court tommy david tasha n sum others all day. Ended up not going wif becky to the movies. oh wells i guess. We'll get together soon enough, were gettin really close lately, im glad!!
Im hoping to see mah bff Britt sometime soon. That would be awesome. And mah b day is on wednesday so im happy bout dat. [Ali jean, i got ur present in da mail earlier today, i fuckin luhv y0o babii gurl, thanks tons!! P.s. ur card was beautiful i fuckin loved it]
But thats enough for now, me n mah sissy *megs* got shit to talk bout, since shes finally home but she aint stayin..=( But we gotta talk, before i go to bed. Latah every1 i luhv y0o all.
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2004 3 June :: 4.48pm
:: Mood: flirty
Sleepin all day stayin up all night <3*
`* Heyy guyz .. s0 far summer `o4 haz been pretty dam g0od .. but i miSs fl0rida ='[
amber has guitar leSsonz & me & miSsay went 2 a lil c0ffe sh0p & g0t sm0othiez n Italin s0da .. =].. yum in m0re than 1 wayy .. lma0 .. walked bak - p0urin rain piked up amber went 2 starbux cuz i was hungry .. as always .. lol .. g0t br0wniez n frapz =].. then we went to the m0viez till b0ut 1 in tha m0rnin .. were lyk the onlie ppl in there =] hehehe saw raisin helen <--- cutest m0vie ever !
g0t up real late - me MiSs n amber jus sat r0und all day n watched m0viez.. n then theyy went 2 an art sh0w..n i came h0m n talked 2 nick m0st the night .. watched part of thiz m0vie b0ut thiz reallie cute lil gurl who g0t aten by her t.v... lol...poltregizt or somthing?? .. it was sad ! s0o i turned it 0ff n watched a diff m0vie - then g0t 0ff the f0ne r0und 3am n went t0 sleep
t0night d0nt kn0w what im d0in .. pr0bly hangin 0ut with mas0n n karly.. 0r g0 t0 miSsyz 4 dinner idk.. t0marr0w iz the m0viez with Brett n Trev0r n s0me ppl =]
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2004 2 June :: 5.16pm
:: Mood: frustrated
I look at * y0o * 'n sMiLe for [no] reason at all..
Wow, today was okay at first, but turned bad. I got a B on my exam in renteria's class. Then slept all 4th hour. Another day of relaxation. But 2marro starts the hard stuff im nervous but our math second section i failed the 1st section i know. But i should do good on the next part lol Neways.
But yeah, this weekend=busy. Thurs, 2marro skool, bank, lansing mall, *cloths for cedar point* subway for me n cass's lunch. Then stop by Kimmy's, then home. Friday Cedar point babii Saturday Harry Potter 3 wif Becky n than helpin mom. Fun fun fun lol.
Awwe, me and Sidnee Duffey have gotten even closer these last couple of days. I missed being good friends wif her. I cant wait till June 23rd lol. Shes the best ever!! I luhv y0o duffey hehe. Plus Brandy is leavin urgh, 2 mre dayz. Im gonna miss her tons. now that its only 2 dayz, i know im gonna miss her more than i thought.. but hopefully we chill sometime..
Well thats it for today, ima get going. Gotta wake up early 2marro. Luhv y0o all lotz. <3.
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2004 1 June :: 11.33am
:: Mood: bitchy
Its not enough to want..
Omg im in the most bitchy mood today. Im like yellin at every1 and arguein wif all my teachers n friends I dont know, im jus really being a meanie lol.
Brittany is in michigan doesnt that jus make all of you feel better knowin the best person in the world is in your state lol. I luv you tons babii gurl. Bestest Buddies forever and always
This weekend was a blast!! I hope all of you had a good weekend cuz i sure did. =) The zoo yesterday was awesome I wanna go again. Im going to ask, bout mayb? this weekend? or sometime this week? And i wanna ask Britt if she wants go? i dont know. But it was mucho fun. =)
Nothing really else to write about. exams are today but i dont have to be here. Thats why im here in uprights class again lol. Cuz i dont have to take my science or lit comp exam bcuz im failing both of those classes. So im gonna see bout stayin here online all day lol. I knew i souldnt have come today. But it was fun for the first 2 hours wif duffey lol.
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2004 1 June :: 9.40am
:: Mood: busy
havin the time of my life, but i wish it was with y0u
w0w.. al0t has happened in the past c0uple dayyz ..
lazt day 0f miDdle sch0ol =[ .. it was really sad.. everyone was crying.. we had the last like 15 minutes 2 walk ar0und n say byye 2 everyb0dy .. im g0nna miSs that sch0ol.. even th0ugh i hated every day that i spent there.. im g0nna miSs markus n mRs hampt0n fighting.. im g0nna MiSs me n kaela going to sch0ol 2gether every single day n c0min h0me every single nite =].. im g0nna MiSs stealin jayz every1z f0od huggin kayla every dayy @ the buS ramp .. me n dani c0untin the dayyz .. Jenna me n Ash playin with clay .. me n cassandra sayin WEASEL UP ASS lol.. whore game ... .. me n sarah g0in t0 the office every single dayy .. fakin sick ..Jeremy the chinese cricket, Frisc0 the white boii , n Lindsey the stupid pueartarican .. and every1 else..i l0ve y0u guyz im g0nna miSs y0u s0o much =[
ANYWAY.. after sch0ol markus,sarah,,n daniel, came h0me 0n the buS with me n kaela n came 2 my h0use.. then nick came n we all went t0 sunsplash.. which was fun 4 lyk 15 minutes.. n then it g0t kinda b0rin n we were stuck there till 9.. al0t funny things happened th0ugh markus swallowed a fly ! l0l.. n then kaela n nick came back to my h0use n we made pina c0ladaz n then nick went h0me n me n kaela watched a m0vie n she went h0me r0und 3 am.. l0l =]
dr0ve 2 atlanta
dr0ve 2 michigan.. g0t there r0und 1o .. miSsy n amber came n picked me up went to there h0use n watched m0vies n ATE n fell asleep
walked 2 CVS 2 get hair die 4 Amber met j0sh n sully .. there s0o funny n aws0me =].. went 2 a garage sale .. b0ught bellz n b0otz..lma0.. came back h0me n drew all 0ver j0shz face .. i have never laughed s0 hard that kiDd is hillari0uz .. then an0ther j0sh came 0ver .. n then we died ambers hair .. this redish purpleish burgendyish c0l0r.. n then we watched face 0ff .. then watched PARENTS of the caribean .. MICHIGAN imp0Ssible n listened 2 sum LINKIN LAW .. l0l ..
w0ke up early went t0 a parade started -p0uring* .. chelsie came 0ver.. went t0 CVS 'gain t0 get men miSsy hair die .. g0t ice cream .. went t0 the Park came h0me died my hair =] n miSsys but she put wayy 2 much in and its BRIGHT ORANGE..lma0 .. then me missy amber chelsie n craig n his gurlfriend all cramed into his lil 2 seater convertablen went t0 A&W -- started p0urin again .. came h0me fell asleep 4 lyk 4 h0urz l0l.. w0ke up ate.. then went bak 2 sleep .. l0l...
t0day im all al0ne at miSsy n ambers h0use cuz there at school <--hahahahah .. s0o any0ne call my cell if y0ur b0red cuz i will be .. mwaaazzzz
I LOVE KAELA N NICK <-- i miss u 2 !!
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2004 26 May :: 6.28am
:: Mood: exhausted
There must be more than this..
We've gone our own ways
and I know its for the best,
but sometimes I wonder
will I ever have a friend like you again?
Well nothing really been going on still. Exams are startin This week!! im soo nervous. Cuz sum of my classes, i cant pass w/o passin the exam. which totally blows but oh well. And its offical, I will be a freshman next year. Well for the 1st half then a Freshmore lol. But i dont really care. Im still thinkin bout summer skool but im pretty sure tahts still a big NO NO!! lol, no way im going to waste my summer when i can jus make up at skool lol. Neways.
Me and Courtney and Sherry and the other Sherry and my mom and wilson and david and jessica and Ashley and Kimmy and whoever else there was, are planning our cedar point trip for this June 19th. I wanted Britty to go, but im not sure she wants to now but oh wells i guess. Maybe Cassie can still go, not that i really want her to But i dont know right now. Plus the skool cedar point trip is coming up real soon. Its June 4th I cant wait. =) Im going wif Cassie b Lisa Scottie, Megan, Laura, Ashley, Amber n whoever else is going lol.
Well thats all the news for today. I guess mayb ill write more t nite. But ive got counseling t nite so i dont know. =(
P.s. Malissa, sorry bout last nite when we were on the phone, my mom is sucha bitch, I luv you soo fuckin much lilmofuggy!!!! =)
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2004 25 May :: 9.42pm
were an "item" again..as kaela would say .. <3333333
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2004 24 May :: 9.22pm
:: Mood: disappointed
thanks f0r n0thing..
omg..im not gonna go over what has happened in the past week like usual. no one cares. i sure as hell dont. doesnt even matter. ill just start with friday..when me markus kaela n nick went to amandas party. if you could even call it a party..more like hell..i feel really bad for draggin nick there.. i didnt even wanna go ..from the second we got there we all just stood there watching everyone cry and scream and run around from being so trashed. high drunk..everyone. havin to sit with one of my best friends as she throws up all over me and the floor as she was screamin at me but telling me she needs me at the same time.. be...markus's mom picked us up thank god..
saturday was the8th grade dance.. that was pretty good i guess.. danced with alotta ppl.. .. then the lim0 took is to mugz n jugz .. that sucked..sept 4 karoke.. rest of the night sat alone..nick got there round 11:3o after me beggin him.. ignored me for a while then hung out with me for about 6 seconds then we left..
sunday.. me n kaela went to sunsplash n met everybody there.. hung out with nick in the lazy river then left 4 a minute to go talk with kaela..then mark comes back and tells me nick doesnt wanna go out with me anymore so im jus like WHY and markus xplains its because i "cheated on him" with kevin at the dance and they all heard from brittney detrick who "saw the whole thing" who by the way wasnt even at the fuckin dance..s0o i wanted to go home right then because i couldnt stand seeing him all day but bailey n kayla boyd made me stay..had an awsome day with them.. we made a NERD HERD picked dildoz from the dildo tree and used up all our last freakin pennyz 2 get abuncha ice cream n a slurpee..go0d timez..they cheered me up s0o much and i l0ve them 4 it.. =D thankz tatter t0t n wh0pper !! MWA! .. nick kept trying to talk to me but i didnt wanna talk to him.. i guess he didnt want mark to break up with me he was jus mad .. i dont know if were broken up for good or not.. i hope not cuz i miSs him already..='[ ..
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2004 24 May :: 5.53pm
:: Mood: rejected
Will time heal this hurt?
Well lets see here. yesterday was Kirstens b day!! So that was fun. Had an okay weekend but dont really wanna talk bout it right now. So neways.
I think i made a huge mistake a very huge mistake. The only pesron i have left now, is my babii ali jean not that thats a bad thing. cuz shes my life but i dont have stacey or britty *i think not britt* Anymore. I mean i have My lilmofuggy Malissa too. But nobody like britty. I dont know anymore
Oh gosh. Theres this new guy everyone. If you really wanna know about him then ask. But omg, hes the kind of guy your parents want to bring home Hes the preppy church volenture kind of guy. Hes the kind of guy who truely cares about gurls, and treats them right. I'll get some pics on here hopefully soon. But yeah. i hope thigns work out
Neways thats enough for now. I'll write more when i have more gossip lol. =)
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2004 21 May :: 7.14pm
:: Mood: lonely
You've fucked me over, once again
Ohh wow. Today & yesterday was hell I dont even know where to start. Okay 1st hour, Kristen n Mr. Woodruff, both saw blood that was soakin through my shirt. Yeah i had cut myself that morning. Then he took me to Arkison she called Kim Kim and Arkison called my mom and then my mom called my counsler So they could talk about it. Ended up only going to 3rd hour yesterday. Yeah, called Kim 4th hour, to see if she would pick me up from skool. my mom ended up being there and stole the phone from kim. my mom said i couldnt go to kims t nite So im like wtf ever ya know. I jus jus didnt wanna deal wif my mom But ended up kim showed up at my house right when i got home. went to her house and we talked. even more than me and my mom did. Yeah thats about it. Xcept now i cant go to riot
My mom is fuckin retarded!! i hope she does go to jail on the 1st like she is surposed to. While shes there i hope she dies i fuckin hate her. shes immature and fuckin stupid. im jus going to run away t nite ='( I fuckin cant live here, wif these dumbasses.
Well thats enough for now. Latah everyone. ='(
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2004 20 May :: 11.04pm
we are beautiful together.
<3.
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2004 19 May :: 6.45pm
:: Mood: nauseated
I still need you here wit me babii..
Well lets see here, everyone wants me to update and everything, i really dont know what to say, nothing much has really happened lately i guess. Well..today i went to counseling..yeah that was really kind of..uhm..sad n stuff i started bawling of korse..and even she knows how much i hate crying..but yeah we talked about some interesting stuff..and i think i mite have a plan to get outta here. But i have to think about it ya know..neways.
Ya know, everything is going real wrong lately. And i really dont know what to do. I miss when things were finally okay I jus wish that i knew how to get back to that point i need kyndra..i need group, i need arkinson, and i need laurie. But who do i have, ONLY LAURIE And none of my friends are being good friends except of korse ali jean Stacey roo and Malissa *lilmofuggy* But thats it. i jus dont know wat to do anymore. i feel so hopeless and worthless
Well thats it for complaing today. i luv all of my friends Latah everyone.
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