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2004 6 April :: 9.05 pm
wow cool. no one was online when i came on. and I just farted in a room full of people
I'm tryin not to laugh lol
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2004 6 April :: 8.09 pm
I have to pee lol I should have before I left the condo.
Today I went to the beach and got my tan on. Then I took a shower... that was my day.. lol
Tomorrow I think were going to the mall.
Carinna I got your present lastnight tell me if u wanna know what it is or if u want it to be a surprise lol
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2004 4 April :: 8.21 pm
internet cafe again.
I haven't bought anything new..yet. Tomorrow..I think we're just going to go to the beach and tan for the whole day most likely then drive down the road to clearwater beach area and go out to eat and to surf shops and what not. Then wednesday its supose to rain so we're driving over to Tyrone Square Mall so I'll probably spend the rest of my money there.
I love it here. I layed out today and got my tan on... I look alittle tanner. Its just so hot out its hard to sit out so long. I'll bake in the sun tomorrow.
Many hot guys around here Carinna lol, next year if u come with me we will have alot of fun cuz i dont think my sister is going to go it would just be like me u and my mom n dad maybe? Then they wont be assholes because ur there lol
TOO MUCH FUN! I DONT EVER WANT TO LEAVE!!!
oh and I took some pics on the digital, I'll try to put em on here in the next couple of days, depends on when I can get back here
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2004 3 April :: 7.54 pm
:: Music: Usher- Yeahhh
O M G
OMG I got to Florida yesterday and it has been so nice to not be in Michigan. I only have an hr to be in here I think Ash is going to pay for us again to go in longer. I hate my dad hes such a prick.
We did some mad shopping today and I left one store to go to another to buy a skirt that was cheap so I did and since I was alone this mexican guy was like "My friend wants your number" and Im like.. "Uhhh...N0OOOO" lol then it was like the whole mexican and black steriotype hes like "Why u gotta be like that" he said it just the way it sounds Im like jesus I'm a minor.. DAMNIT I didnt say that but I wish I would have eiether that or told him I was a man lol!!!! Then we went grocery shopping and there were hot bagger guys there and this one guy was so checkin me out lol.. maybe I think? I didn't know I was so hot.
Now my dads being a prick because asshole ashley told my mom that the guy hit on me cuz i told her then my mom told my dad now my das like u quit dressing like that go put on some pants I'm like holy shit go smoke or something ugh. I hate parents I'm fuckin 15 going to be 16 in like 7 months lol come on!
Here are some things I bought....
New purse- white leather with pink interior and stitching
New high heels- pink stellettos with sequins butterfly on them too cute for words
New Skirt- its got a cute cut to it and its striped with green pink and white
Pink trucker hat- by david and goliath, its light n hot pink and says "my boyfriend said to be more affectionate so I got 2 of them"
Green n White trucker hat- self explainitory
Black Sandals- huge chunk heels by ELLE Girl
Purse- Kindof like olive green with pink n palmtree interior
Sandals- tanish thongs with beads on the thong part
Pink earings
Pink necklace
New black tank top
new bikini- its like brown with light blue hibiscus flowers on it!
thats it so far..its only day two holy shit
I'm out for the night!
LATER!
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2004 31 March :: 9.17 pm
I've been living off of Nirvana lately...
Something In The Way
Underneath the bridge
The tarp has sprung a leak
And the animals i've trapped
Have all become my pets
And i living off of grass
And the drippings from the ceiling
It's okay to eat fish
'Cause they don't have any feelings
Something in the way
Something in the way, yeah
Something in the way
Something in the way, yeah
Underneath the bridge
The tarp has sprung a leak
And the animals i've trapped
Have all become my pets
And i'm living off of grass
And the drippings from the ceiling
It's okay to eat fish
'Cause they don't have any feelings
Something in the way
Something in the way, yeah
Something in the way
Something in the way, yeah
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Heart Shaped Box
She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn back (when you turn black)
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
Meat-eating orchids forgive no one just yet
Cut myself on angel's hair and baby's breath
Broken hymen of your highness I'm left black
Throw down your umbilical noose so I can climb right back
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
She eyes me like a pisces when I am weak
I've been locked inside your Heart-Shaped box for weeks
I've been drawn into your magnet tar pit trap
I wish I could eat your cancer when you turn back (when you turn black)
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Hey! Wait!
I've got a new complaint
Forever in debt to your priceless advice
Your advice
Your advice
Your advice
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2004 31 March :: 8.02 pm
Papa Roach,
Please make a new cd. You have kick ass music and "Between Angels and Insects" is a good song...make a new cd now... right now. Oh and you're hot.
Regards,
Amy
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2004 29 March :: 7.42 pm
Atlast. Digital Cable. Thank god for music channels.
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2004 28 March :: 8.06 pm
"Face To Face"
Don't tell me now with a smile on your face
That you're lost...down and out
When there was nothing left in me
You can't stop fuckin' with my head
Stop fuckin' with my head
My silence you break
The smile that you fake (you fake)
There's not one thing that you can say to make it right
Unless you say "I'm leavin"
And if you're not...then please tell me why
Please tell me why you can't
Save face
Say it to my face
Can I take all the filth in your head
All the words that you said (that you said)
And throw it away (throw it out)
You can't stop fuckin' with my head
Stop fuckin' with my head
My silence you break
The smile that you take away
There's not one thing that you can say to make it right
Unless you say "I'm leavin"
And if you're not...then please tell me why
Please tell me why you can't
That shit you're talkin' don't mean nothing to me anymore
Limp dick...you fuck stick...let's settle the score
Run and hide you know I'll find you anywhere
Motherfucker...two faced prick with hell to pay
What's real is real...it's time to step up to the plate again
Swing batter-batter, swing batter-batter, swing...
What's real is real...it's time to step up to the plate again
Swing batter-batter...fucked me for the last time!
Just take a swing...
C'mon...you should've taken that swing...
Just take your swing...
There's not one thing that you can say to make it right
Unless you say "I'm leavin"
And if you're not...then please tell me why
Please tell me why you can't
Swing...just take your swing...fuck you!
Just take your swing...
You can't stop fuckin' with my head
Stop fuckin' with my head
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2004 25 March :: 5.48 pm
I'm tired. And Scared. And Undecided.
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2004 24 March :: 8.40 pm
I wrote some kick ass poems for English, I will type them in when I get them back.
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2004 21 March :: 4.23 pm
"She grasped her throat holding in the air realizing that this would be the last day she breathed.."
I find it more than strange how big of an influence people can have on another single person. They can do anything from making your life hell to making you feel like you have the greatest uphold of self confidence that you ever thought could have existed. People need people to survive. It's as simple as that. Even though solitary confienment doesn't sound too bad at the moment to some people including myself. Although I will never understand the never ending "food chain" type effect on people. You go to school essentially to learn, but then as you get older its more than that learning becomes a bore and ofcourse people will make things for their own fun and pleasure like groups and then all your steriotypes. It's obviously bound to happen. Then you graduate and think your done with the shit you have to go through such as pretending to be who you arent, going anorexic just to fit in, not liking people because your friends don't, etc. But then you go to college and it only more of ass kissing and working your ass off. You graduate from college then if you get a normal job you do more asskissing for the rest of your life just so you can support your family. I don't want to live like that. Millions of people don't want to live like that, but they do. But this is where it stops for me. I am going to make it my lifes goal to be employed by myself. Whether it's anything from writing, painting,drawing,interior designing, fashion design or just anything that I can do that will make money for myself and only for myself. I don't want to repeat the mistakes most parents make. Having a family before they even know if they can support them or not and that I think is selfish. Don't have kids unless you know you can provide them with a good life. Suicide is one of the leading causes for death. And I'm guessing some of the reason is family life and how much it sucks these days. Don't be an asshole parent who tries to be more civilized about how to punish and only punish than trying to actually understand. People drive me crazy.
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2004 18 March :: 6.42 pm
There are many things in life that scare me, I'm afraid to be afraid. What if I'm not as smart as I thought I was? How to things such as objects, people, or places have such a strong effect on my mind and emotions? I know I will die never understanding life in it self or even in a nuttshell and I think no one ever will. But why do I put myself in that position to be the one to figure out life? It will always be an on going mission to me. I think I know what I want out of life and what I want to do. I want to become a writer. I want people to get excited everytime they hear a new book by "Amy" is coming out soon. I want people to read my words...every single word that was once a thought in my head and to make my words and my thoughts become apart of them, become a part of the reader. I want to feel like I can live my life loving what I do.
I'm tired of writing entries complaining about things. I think I've made it pretty clear my living situations are hell and that all these things in my head are hell. I want this woohu to be different, different from all the rest. I dont want it to be about my day. I dont want it to be about how i feel. I want it to be about the things I think about that have no relation to anything else in my life. And that I shall do. Starting really soon, like possibly tomorrow.
Until then.
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2004 10 March :: 7.29 pm
:: Mood: aggravated
:: Music: Blindside- Endings
Another OK day..I think
Welll, Its not good to start your day off with Spanish for many reasons. Who can understand that shit early in the morning anyway? How do you free write a 100 word essay in all spanish at like...7:45 in the morning? I don't know but I got over 200 words crazy enough. Wrote a story ending up having to do with Ricardo y Susan va a manejar al mercado. What an interesting story. They both ended up comprar un hamburgesa lol, hey I was hungry at the time I couldn't help it. Mucho hambre.
Math was better, even though I have like a 58% in that class. Hey pretty soon it will be a D- and thats all I care about its one step closer to just a C. Then Kyle and I gave 3 dollars to muscle distrophy just so we could get shamrocks to put funny stuff on, one said WHAT and the one next to it said WHAT and the last one said OKAYYY(lol lil jon from the dave chappelle show) We taped them up above Nick Funk's locker lol. After we went over a new lesson and got homework assigned Kyle came back and sat on the floor by my desk so we could chill (since I got moved from behind him lastweek for talking too much).
English we revied for the HUGE ass mythology test we have tomorrow that I WILL study for trust me. I have an A in that class I dont want to ruin it. Plus, English is my favvvvvorite subject right now. We got done watchin The Oddysee the "made for tv movie" Hell yeah Tellemicus looked hot in a loin cloth. Lunch was ...lunch.. Then science was..science... Gym..was gym
Design was fun, I like that class because I get more time to hang out with Carinna and Samara. It's just a good class to end your day off with.
Went to champion after school. I saw Steph, Frank, Kyle, Brittney Dixon, and David. I was waiting for a machine and I turned my head and looked around and it was weird my eyes locked on Ryan and it scared the shit out of me. I think Wallace is taking this whole "sneak attack" thing to a new level. LOL stalker
x DrAGoNregina x: he doesnt like girls lol
Crazy BaBy101388: nothin wrong with tappin a gay guy
Crazy BaBy101388: LOL
I'm out, long ass entry today.
Later
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2004 9 March :: 8.08 pm
Well, ofcourse I didn't end up doing my homework lastnight so I did it in the morning. I always look up because you can hear people coming/ going by when your sitting in the halls and I looked up and the first time it was Ryan trying to sneak attack me but the second time it was *heavenly noises* ******. lol he>always looks at me I swear! I always pass him in the hall and he'll stare at me and on my way to design today I thought hey, I always get here early maybe I'll act slow to see if I'll see ****** and I turn around and he was walking behind me staring at me, yeah I tried hard not to laugh lol God damn he is fiinnnne. I've said like one word to him..but hey, we might have classes together next year or something.
Gym was ok actually all we did was Tae Bo. Fun stuff with Billy Blanks and his man boobs and spandex outfits. Ew. It made gym go by faster. Oh and I'm starting to looovvee english because it is so damn hillarious because of David, Taylor, Tom, and Pat. We have a student teacher in there and the whole time Dave was like pulling a dave chappelle on her like going WHATTT WHATT WHATTT WHATT WHATTT? after everything she said and hes like OOKKAYYYYY lol God I love the chappelle show. I'm hoping the kid who sides infromt of me will be gone so ****** can sit in front of me, hes pretty hot. He always plays with my hair..scary enough as that is..lol Then we got on a sex topic in Design because the paper mache looks like "jiz". An ofcourse this conversation had to take place without my girl Samarah, god she would have made it so funny! Anyways, Jake for some odd reason got on the topic of orgasms? How I dont know but hes all like "you know you like to fake them" I'm like what the hell do you even know what that means lol This year so far has been quite interesting. Everything we talk about leads to sex which is a good thing -winik-
I'm out, but like carinna would say, "Usher makes me cream my panties" lol god that girl cracks me up
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2004 7 March :: 5.44 pm
:: Mood: amused
Yesterday was fun...I woke up and went tanninggg which is always nice, then later went grocery shopping..
When I got home Carinna had called so I called her back and I ended up going to her place to spend the night there with Arie too.
We talked to Zach online and persuaded him to come over with guilt lol. Yadda Yadda Yaddaa he came over we watched the Matrix Reloaded which was an ok movie even though I fell asleep in the beginning and like drooled alittle on myself, needless to say, I'm not a big matrix fan.
Her parents came home, zach left, we went to bed, good times. Woke up ate doughnut then my dad picked me up. So I got home went tanning and then...took a shower..
Now i'm workin on my laundry. Fun
I hate school. I hope we get that freak inferno tomorrow and the school gets burnt to the ground
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