I cant pretend this is the way it will stay i'm just lying to bend the truth

No,No turning back now.

The very worst part of you is me.
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Tomorrow...Sunday. Family get together. Yet I still havent managed to get food posioning or aids yet. I have 5hrs and 20 minutes till Sunday. Thats 5hrs and 20 minutes that I have to find a way to get out of this whole social event. Ugh. I know I have to go and that I wont find a way out of going. I dont want to mingle with people I hardly see in dispite or whatever it is thats keeping them from contact. Its too much of a hassle. I dont want to go in a lake. I dont want to go around in pontoon boats. I dont want to have fun. I dont care if i have fun or not. I want to go there and leave. Then not see those people for a while..thats the way realitives are right? My Aunt Renee is coming back Monday though. I dont mind that too much. I want to get her recipie for these mexican tortilla roll up things they are so yummy.

Tuesday I have to babysit again. My sister is helpin my aunt go to the airport ugh. I dont want to babysit I haaaaaate those kids. I hattte kids to begin with ughhhhh. Dont give me a kid until i need one. I'm sooo adopting.
and when I do they are going to be like 14 when I adopt them because so far I think 14-16 are the most interesting years of a persons life. Damn kids.

My moms bipolar I swear. Theres nothing more to it than that. Shes just odd. The way she deals with some things is like...not cool. I mean...she could atleast think it out before she sit there and makes every situation of the day negative.

::mental note:: make it through high school....get good job so I wont have to see parents much other than college money. Find a good appartment. Become a famous decorator/ fashion designer. Move to Los Angeles. Get nice a nice place. Cruise the clubs for guys. Get good career so I dont have to worry about money.

I hate how my sister questions everything I do that she doesnt understand. Instead of being and asshole about it she could atleast try to figure it out before she shoots her mouth of saying incredibly dumb questions/remarks. Come'on guys shes older than me. I shouldnt have to wish that she could try harder to understand things. She should have the common sense to be that way automatically.

I'm so out.

Watchin gordy lol
last minute babysitting...oh well at least i get money lol mm monnneey so far i have like 35$ and after tonigth i might have like 45-50$ sweet its money and i need it lol

i'm bored though but the kids arent being difficult so thats also good! their computer monitor is like 30inch seriously i feel like i'm sittin at a big screen tv lol g2g

LMAO
OMG lol Holy fuckin shit poo fuck ass monkey shit poo holy shhhhhhhhhitttt lol omg

I pulled a muscle in my jaw...how random is that?!?! lol omg it hurst like a mother!!!!!

LOL dont even ask how i pulled a muscle in my jaw i have no idea how?!?!

lol owwww...it hurts to swallow lol omg i'm going to die lol

Happy Deathday!
Your name:	Amy Baird
You will die on:	Friday, March 26, 2027
You will die of:	Appendicitis
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Her background is soo pretty

Answers that I need to know.
I was talking to zach...and we are very confused about life..we're confused about Buda...

Did he die a virgin? Did he ever have any type of sex like bjs? Did he like it up the butt? What was his sexual orientation? Did he like it in the morning or at night? Did he go clubbing? Was he a pimp? Did he or did he not use protection if so what kind...Where were some places he did it at...a car? a tree? or did he use the underground railroad system....did he have people help him to have shacks of his own where people could have sex? Did they have a flash light that they could turn on and off to signal him so that he knew that, that place was empty so he could take his girl/guy there? I'm just so confused...

I was just wondering.

I love you Buda.

BAWA
I'm going to the gym tonight around 7ish. I miss champion. The main reason why I kindof just stopped going is because it was always over crowded and it was annoying. But I'm going tonight so that should be fun. My aunt left like an hour ago. She's coming back though sometime this week or something. Then Sunday I have another family thing to go to. Ugh I don't want to go. No one wants to go. The only reason we're getting together is because my aunt feels obligated to invite us because she's inviting everyone else. It would piss me off if she didn't invite us but I wish she didn't. I shouldn't worry too much about it. Maybe I will get sick before then.. Food poisoning….the flu….malaria…West Nile….aids…lol
Katie's bday was yesterday. Happy Bday Katie. Lol

TYSFCYARFU!!! <----thats code.

Ahh...
Wonder why I dont have comments lately? Its because the "KKK" has formed a Anti Amy group LOL!! I wouldnt doubt it. I tell ya I will never understand certain people. But lets just say I have gotten over what has happened in the past and now I'm just ready to go for something new and something that I feel thats right. I have no regrets. Maybe the situation could have been avoided or happened easier but other "events" could have been avoided or happened differently but its over now.

I HAVE BEEN WAKEN UP AGAINST MY WILL!! Amys do not wake up at 10:40. Its unhumanly.

Well its a new day and I'm still trying to decide if i'm going to go back to sleep or not lol.

Mission 1: Find kitty
Mission 2: Pet Kitty
Mission 3: Kiss Kitty
Mission4: Make salad for lunch
Mission5: Watch Y&R
Mission6: Possible nap
Mission7: Help Aunt Renee get luggage into car if ashley doesnt do it.
Mission8: Say by to Aunt Renee.
Mission9: Pass out on couch
Mission10: Greet daddy home from work
Mission11: Discuss whats for DINNA
Mission12: wait impationatly for dinna
Mission13: Eat like pig
Mission14: Clean up kitchen
Mission15: Go online
Mission16: find something to watch on tv
Mission16: Watch Jay Lenno-David Letterman-Tom Green Show
Mission17: Watch Conan O'Brian/ Late late night show with Craig Kilborn.
Mission18: Possibly go to bed if not wait until 2 am for jenny jones
Mission 19: Either wait up for dad to wake up for work & watch tv with him or finally go to bed.
Mission 20: A days complete

quiz

Revolutionary Soul

The anarchists of the Earth Angel ranks, your
spiritual family like a stirring volcano is
constantly moving, forever changing, and you
unleash your power and force when least
expected, and all around you feel it coming. If
there was such a thing as an "awkward
teenager soul" it would be yours. The
revolutionary souls are the future of the
spiritual society as they refuse to be tied to
any category of soul. Your hunger for
knowledge is deep and you are constantly bored.
You live for your independence and float from
one dimension to the other, exploring all
philosophies and teaching, and applying them to
where you think they're relevant. Some percieve
you as arrogant and brash, but that is just the
upstart in you talking. Never one to yield to
tyranny and conformity, you laugh in the face
of authority figures and live a life of right
or wrong based on your gut feeling. You have a
natural contempt for all that's popular and
trendy, and think humans on the majority are
fools for their need to have how they should
think and feel dictated to them. You were most
likely the class rebel and got into trouble
quite a bit when young with your sarcastic
sense of humour and brutal comebacks. It was
your kind that gave birth to the Punk era, and
was behind the overthrowing of many a corrupted
and unjust leader throughout time. Use that
conviction and determination to inspire others,
and victory will surely be yours.


Which Earth Angel Are You?
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some of its me some isnt

Today


I woke up like at 10 to go babysit for my sister since she had to go with my mom to pick up my aunt at the hospital. Then finally i got done babysitting which was reallllly boring and like..not even worth 15$ for 3 hrs ugh. I hatte kiddss. Ok so then I got home and we just hung out with my aunt and stuff then my other aunt andd uncle came over then my cousin. So it was weird lol. I think my other and and uncle were just using us as a meeting spot for their son, which would be typical because our family is fucked up.

So my family and my Aunt Renee went to the beltline bar. They have good mexican food. I just got a taco salad and a jumbo fruit smoothie but ofcourse my aunt loaded up on margaritas lol. Yeah.. My Aunt Renee is pretty funny. Shes a practical joker.

You know how you look up into the clouds and as they move they change shape? I could have sworn one of the clouds was shaped like lickatounge from pokemon lol
no joke.

ugh.


I just feel like everything sucks. I dont feel like myself. I dont feel like anything appeals to me anymore. I feel..just like blah. I dont want to do anything. I dont want to feel anything. But I do. I want everything to be happy just to be normal (eh. define normal) I constantly feel like I cant be happy...that I cant feel like everythings ok...but it isnt. I just dont know anymore.

none


I so could use some Zoloft.

Today was ok. I went to Kennen Less's house for a little party for Shaunna (sp?) because she was coming home from Iraq or whatever. It was fun. I havent seen her in ages. I came home early so i could get home intime for Real World lol.

That was basically my day
Tomorrow i have to get up like at 10 to get ready to babysit. Ugh I hate kids.

Thats it...

bye

no fuckin way

He will not move. I will not let him move. Hes not moving. Thats final. Nope...Not moving. So not moving ....soooo not. I'd miss him like hell if he moved. Its not going to happen. Hes not moving. no hes not...nope. I wont let it happen. Theres not an iceburg chance in hell that hes moving.

God..This isnt good...this cant be good...

hes not moving.

Finally something good happens in my life. I meet new people new peolple who take an interest in me. People who think im funny and want to hang out with me all the time...Someone who I could trust..someone who I could talk to someone who told me something hes never told anyone before. He cant move.. He just cant.
I've waited months just so i can go to the same school with him and others... He cant move....

I love linkin park. Their cd meteora is a must buy
ITS EASIERR TOO RUNNNNNNNNNNN

Time wont change
This damage anymore
Dont turn your back on me
I wont be ignored

lol 2 complete differnt songs lol

Easier to run and faint.



loveeee LINKIN PARK!! lovvvee themmm

I'm feeling better about things..the recent decision and all. I think I made the right one. Carinna sent me a funny email. She left for virgina. I hope she comes home soon I miss her already.

I see a good future ahead. Maybe things will be at their best. I hope so!

ITS EASIERR TOO RUNNNNNNNNNNN

I need to call arie in colorado soon. Need someone to talk to :-D

best quiz thing ever!

My goddamn rock solid ghetto shiznit name is Ass Machine Kawfi.
What's yours?
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