if we go down we go down together
Last night0 i found out something that felt like betrayal, like i was cheated on, and not just me....ricky and jose as well, and i forgot to tell ricky....ugh i'll just get to the point....pat joined a diffeerent band w/o my cognizance. i was devastated. but just now... tonight i feel ok. Just because Pat isnt in the band anymore doesnt mean we can't be a kick ass band, like it wont be the same but we'll pull through, we mihgt have to change our name and whatnot but we'll figure sumthing out. ugh hurts now but i'll get over it. i've already been talking to people about filling the position for bass. i'm gunna put up flyers and stuff to advertise the availibilty. but anyway....be prepared for a brand new powerline cuz i have been working on these new songs that are sumthing you'll like i promise you. Hands down

Today i went to school and spent my 7th hour in the tardy room, then me alex and oto went to tthis sushi restaurunt and i ate a whole bunch of wusaki by accident and almost threw the fuck up. then me and alex hung out at his house

Tomorrow- is a half day and the WHOLE crew is going to the beach, after that is U-turn maybe and then the RADIO movie!!! whooooo then w/e happens

Downers: the band, my french speaking skills, lol and uhhh u know

Highlights: 1/2 day tomorrow, me jose and ricky are gunna hit it! and lol uhhh you know

i'm out PEAC-E

fukin thing
heres a damn survey

1. My name:
2. Where did we meet?
3. Take a stab at my middle name:
4. How long have you known me?
5. How well do you know me?
6. Do I smoke?
7. Do I believe in God?
8. When you first saw me, what was your 1st impression?
9. My age?
10. Birthday??
12. Color eyes?
13. Do I have any siblings?
14. Have you ever had a crush on me?
15. What's one of my favorite things to do?
16. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you?
17. What's my favorite type of music?
18. What is the best feature about me?
19. Am I shy or outgoing?
20. Would you say I am funny?
21. Have you ever seen me cry?
22. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be?
23. Are my parents still together?
24. What do I love?
25. What songs make you think of me?
26. If you could set me up with one person for the rest of my life, WHO would it be?

until the day i die
highlights of the night: got my paycheck, hung out with alotta of cool kids

downers: my hair is black, the band is reaching new lows, and ummm yea

Peac-E

your ass or a hole in the ground
my eye hurts

today i woke up, went to work at 12
left at 5, then went shopping with my mom, now i'm here with alex, laura, geori, emi, alicia, joey, danielle, danielle m, and oto. ricky and pat and some other gurls just left a lil while ago. ano now were watching the others. i have toi leave soon to go cold stones for my paycheck and for other various reasons. i'm gunna go i'll c-ya later

Peac-E

should i bite my tounge, till blood soaks my shirt?
ok its 12:00 o'clock right now and i just got home, my mom wasn't too pissed so its all good, tomorrow i have to work ugh. anyway, today i went to toak with ricky. and we hung out there until 5 then we left to go to McDonalds then each went home, i begged my mom if i could take the car out for tonite so i was happy until later, cuz jose wasnt there and we had a shitty practice....then we went to shadowood and didnt even see a movie, i drove pat and his friend home at 10:00 and then me geori, alicia,emi,laura,and the b-day gurl went to dennys and ate, i drove them home.

Highlights: i got to hang out with some cool gurls, i had a practice in the past like 2 months, i have new songs

Downers: alex and ricky are pissed at me, i have to work tomorrow, and there are just sumthing we dont talk about

anyways i g2g cuz i have some sleep to attend to, i'll c-ya later

Peac-E

i'm feeling this

today...woke up, oto came, went to school, presented my project in first hour, it sucked, i worked out in 3rd hour, test in chem tomororw, thanks to alex i understand now, Geometry i am king. oto drove me and alex to ale'x and we fuked around till 5 where he taight me the orbital expononens 'n' shyt, then we planned on going to the ebach but i didnt end up happenening. so then my mom picked me up and now i'm here sitting here really curious...hehe wouldnt you like to know : )

whooo i a m f e e l i ng t h i s

i'm out later

-Peac-E

p.s. powerline 4 lyfe

in my hand is my discontent

the sounds of acoustic guitar helps me remeber of everything i used to know about everything i used value which used to bring me great joy...now brings me sorrow and hatred to myself...

i hope...i'll i can do is hope. thats it.

Today was my first day...the A-files are done, i burned them, in my head that is. like i feel finally free from her. see all i needed was a push in the oppisite direction, and when i did get that push, it saved my life from manic depression. whew. its like a burden has been lifted upon. i dont care anymore, about wat she does at night or who she hangs out with, all i can do is smile. it feels great. it feels great to start likeing someelse. it the start of a new era in which i wont make the same mistakes i did, i'm a better person now. and i'm aware of what my feeling represent. see with Miss. A i would have to pretend to be sumthing i'm not, i shud be who wanna be and not pretend its so useless and charleton. anyway, i just had to get that out cuz i rememeber all those damn journal entries i wrote about here, they only made me more depressed about who i was. ahhh :)

i'm out!
Peac-E