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2004 7 January :: 11.34pm
:: Mood: exhausted
:: Music: Plain White Tee's "A lonely september"
not much left
today i had the most tireing day, i felt dead i fell asleep thru first second and fourth hour, i need medication.
anyway i worked today and we have been getting slow so i only made 4.50
rickys car is soo str8
i feel ashamed about some of the shyt i have been doing for the passed month, what i wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight to turn everything around
i can't seem to find a way to be happy single or with someone...i can't find the right one even if it temporary cuz girls get tired of me easily.
i've only been in love once and the gurl is never gunna love me back b/c of the cloths i wear and music i listen to, and because i dont hang out with the right people.....and matter what it is...i just can't seem to get it right.
i dont think i'll ever have a gurl that can just come along and sweep ME off my damn feet a gurl to chill with i dont care....i feel better now but ya know....
life goes on
-Peac-E
-Hamon
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2004 7 January :: 5.59pm
:: Mood: poop
Mr. play it safe, was afriad to fly, packed his suitcase, kissed his kids goodbye.
Everything can be summed up with one word, interesting. I'm opening my eyes up to everything around me, and taking it all in, piece by piece, bit by bit. I went grocery shopping today, I kinda liked it, except the paying for everything part, that kinda sucked. Oh, so everyone knows, I've been writing in my livejournal more often, and it's friends only, so if you wanna be my buddddy on LJ, holla. www.livejournal.com/users/fandapop . I'm talking to Co right now, he's my chinese friend, but he's sooo nice. God, I miss everyone at work. o0o0o Co told me that the deerfield boys, are all playing football on Saturday, now I have to find a way to weasel my way into going, I wanna see Pat, Mike and Mauricio. hmm..ok I'm off to dinner with my dad, maybe things won't be that bad. xox
<3mandyy
p.s. Patrick Moran, if you see this...call me.
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2004 6 January :: 9.50pm
Wow, just when I was beginning to think not too many people cared, and I was in this for myself..I got a voice mail from the unexpected. Thank you Pat Moran for that message, you made my day. xo
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2004 6 January :: 9.43pm
I'm starting fresh, clean slate, heh...it's all over from here
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2004 5 January :: 12.03pm
:: Music: some fuking all american rejects song in my sisters room
the day after
yea i just woke up
i dont remember what i did friday...weird
saturday i worked in the morning and i chiled with joey and pat, i snuck out of my house @ 2 and we drove to cumberland farms and went around causing anarchy all between boca and coconut creek. we then went stealing emblems....and then fucked up some people chritsmas decorations good night, i then snuck back in my house at 10 in the morning which leads us to sunday morning
Sunday- when i cam in at ten i slept for 30 minutes and headed off to work, jesus i was tired. i worked till five. from 6- to 7 is a complete blur :) then i chilled with josh and carlos till like 9:30, then i went to joses and met up with tommy and the crew at loggers run park we just chilled and i was speeding when i came in so a cop was giving me shyt but he didnt give me a ticket, damn str8
later on we went to some girls house and watched porno with all these gurls and did narrations
i'm out i'm still tired and i'm damn hungry
to be continued...
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2004 4 January :: 2.23pm
:: Music: linkin park // numb
I want what I had, and what I had wasn't what I wanted.
This weekend was an eye opener for me. I had too much thinking time on my hands is what I'll call it. I left Friday with Lauren, Dan, Heather, Brian, Matt, and other Brian for camping. It was fun, I loved it. I'm not so sure, how i felt about being there with the ones I was with, not cause I don't like them, or anything of that matter, I just felt so alone. All weekend, I had this pit in my stomach, of loneliness. We were on the beach on Saturday, it hit me hard. I had to walk away, and I cried and cried. A good cry can truly help sometimes. The other day, when someone asked me what was wrong, I said I don't know, I'm just kind of sad and alone, they told me it's called depression..I am not a depressed person, and that really bothered me to think I'm depressed? I don't know how I'm feeling right now, but I know for sure, I'm feeling regret, too much of it. Another thing that I thought about this weekend was Sunrise Cinema's and how much I want it back. How much I loved my work friends, and how good I had it there. But I fucked things up there with my boss, and I ruined my chances. Now, I'm screwed, and there isn't one thing I can do, to get it back. So I'm left here now, sad alone and regretful, and all want to do is talk, but the words won't come out.
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2004 2 January :: 2.04am
:: Music: nirvana // smells like teen spirit
My friends got a girlfriend and he hates that bitch, he tells me everyday.
Tomorrow, or rather today is camping. I dont know why but Im scared, and nervous...like I dont wanna go anymore? But i think once i get there, i'll have fun. Yeah, so it's 2am and I still havent packed, i ahte packing, and i dont know what to bring, so now im scurred. lol. Atleast i found my sleeping bag, thats a plus. I'm suppose to go to Deerfield for a bit to chill w/ Mauricio but he's making all these comments and now I'm scared, so I'm trying to get out of it and he's guilting me into it cause he says that I always have an excuse. And I've been doing too much thinking tonight, I think I'm in love with a former friend of mine, like i'm really sad about him now. Im missing Maria like crazy, last night at 12 I called her, and started crying, i miss her in my life, a lot. I need to go shopping, I own no clothing that's wearable anymore. It's cold out, I think I need a new sweater. And I'm tired, but i have to pack and go to deerfield, sorry mauricio but i think my trip to deerfield is going to be postponed. I'll write again when I get bck from my trip to let you know how it was. holla youngin, woop woop.
<3mandyy
x to the o.
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