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emptyness

:: 2004 5 July :: 9.12pm
:: Mood: anxious
:: Music: You Got iT Bad // Usher

you're drunk & now you wish you're sober.
g0od day.

woke up early. was gonna lay out, but it rained. crazy motherf$%*er. um... s0o i helped mommy clean the house & watched my soaps (PASSiONS). then i g0t up & g0t ready for mommy to take me to Sports Authority to pick shit up for cheerleading. only, she handed me the keys. haha. baller. maybe she is sticking to her promise about getting my license super soon. s0o we ran to Old Navy ---> gotta few tank tops & some flip flops. Went to Sports Authority ---> got some bloomers, & soffees. went to publix ---> g0t everything i needed. when i got home... i took a shower, now jonah just IMed me & i'm talking to Groton. <3

i gotta figure out the deal with what's goin' on for thursday... cause if we go... i gotta see if ellen can sleep over.. but i got cheerleading @ 8a.m. the next morning s0o... lalala.

for now though... i'm waiting for jackie to pick me up cause i'm staying over there for the night & 2morrow... then we are gonna spend tuesday on the waverunner & in the sun. then when Brittany gets home 2morrow.. we're gonna head to the tanning salon... if she is up 2 it? idk we'll see what g0es on.

my sister was looking at my dad's keychain today, and on it there was a keychain that was for my car. and my sister goes, "daddy, who's car keys are these?" and he goes, "not for briana's car, they're a customer's keys." but why would he have the keys for a customer when he didn't bring their car home? haha.... my car is at his work. hehehehe. the excitement. i want the f%*$ing car lol <333

anyways, i'm out... gotta get my stuff together before jackie gets here. xoxo

o btw, i was listening to my Usher CD - 8701. the old one... & there was this song on there, "Twork it out" & it reminded me of jonah. *shrug* hehe

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boricuababy

:: 2004 5 July :: 4.32pm
:: Mood: bouncy
:: Music: I'll make love to you-Boyz II Men

I'm backkkkk..::evil laugh::
hey guys..havent written in a while..friday my dad picked us up..we went to boomers cuz datz where jon wanted to go..hung out there..a fight broke out in boomers..omg..it wuz tha funniest thing..deez ghetto white gurls..u kno how derz alot of em in boca..lol..they started bitchin at each other n den started a cat fight..it was funny.. den me n my aunt left my brother and my dad at boomers while we went to muvico so she cudd get him some movie passes..thats wen mel called us..she got into another car accident..she was all worked up..i can imagine..damn..she prolly wont ever wanna drive agen..den we got the movie passes..i saw marcus fraiser..woo..sexiness..lol..then i saw meli..wid ricarda n omar..im so happy for u gurl..lol..keep it going wid eric!!..hopefully things will happen wid me n emir..saturday we went to the marlins game..I GOT TO MEET MIGUEL CABRERA..wow..we got autographs n everything..he signed a ball..lol..n i was der all excited..wid his number written on my face..i think he was scared of me..lolol..the game was alotta fun..marlins lost to the devil rays 6-1..lol..my brother was happy he was going for the other team..every1 around us was gettin pissed at him..i thot we were gonna get jumped..lol..after the game they had a really pretty fireworks show..then after that wen we were gonna go home and we cuddnt find tha car..funny stuff..lol..yesterday we left n went camping..it wuz fun..kinda scary after emir told me all about jason..lol..there were soo many bugs tho..n u all kno how i do wid bugs..i got bit up so bad..ugh..we went canoeing..and jon was saying he was gonna tip tha boat over..kidsss..but yea we went camping boca style..lmao..we had tha RV..jon made us bring his tv and ps2..we had tha grill..lol..it was funny..me n my mom kept crackin on jon and pat for it..lol..and we had no marshmallows..:(..and no s'mores..so still havent tasted one guys!!..lol..we got back a lil while ago..today's jon's bday..happy 12th to him..we got ice cream cake!!..looking foward to it..yumm..lol..guess thats it for now..back to work 2moro..gotta make that paper!!

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playmate101

:: 2004 5 July :: 1.14am
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: its over // mest

but if you play them, they will stay with you.
its around 1a.m.

s0o i woke up for work early today. joy. got in at 9 & listened to Winona lol. she's insane & like 42. damn. all the medicine she takes, i swear. & Carol kept making fun of her. but anyways.. Cory was there... the dude kettly kept telling me about... he is kinda annoying, but he means well. s0o thats that. i don't mind him, its someone to converse with. but Michael came in. yay! unfortunately he came in @ 3pm though, and i clocked out @ 4pm. but the first time i saw him we argued lol, which was because he didn't directly say hi to me or give me a hug yesterday, just gave me a dirrty look & walked off. but... he was c0ol the rest of the day. after i clocked out he sat and talked to me while i waited for my mommy.

mommy & i left.. around 4:30... got wendys, & did some errands. then she dropped me off & i called jackie. we ended up hanging out 'til 1am. went to super walmart. cinderella shoes. rain shoes. kenny chesney. etc. we were being stupid lol. 14'' fake spinning mexican rims lol. but yeah... came back to my house... played with silly beads & looked up words in the dictionary... for a reason, not cause we were bored... well we were... but there was a purpose to it. but... she left. i'm supposed to sleep over her house 2morrow night. hopefully, then we are gonna g0o on the waverunner on tuesday & hang out. lalala. we'll see what g0es down.

neil called. i wanted to g0o hang with them tonight... but it was late & jackie has to work & it just wasn't a smart idea. besides... the drive was long... speaking of driving...

mom's plan ---> use dad's car all this week. on friday she makes an appointment for my license... who knows if i will get it. who knows if it will even happen & i didn't even wanna say anything about it because most of the shit that my mom says.... is meaningless. however... we'll see. i'd like it a lot. <33 i want to believe it.

this week is gonna g0o by fast... i have so much to do.

monday ---> errands with mommy. sports authority & contacts, tanning... hopefully. sleeping over jackie's house.
tuesday ---> waverunner with jackie... maybe i'll be able to see jonah? idk its been awhile.
wednesday ---> sleep in... cheer practice from 4-6:30pm. might be able to see groton & brittany. =)
thursday ---> reel big fish concert... that doesn't seem like it will be happening though? who knows. ashley c would come down...! score!
friday ---> cheer practice 8-11am. UCT concert @ Spankys with Jackie & Groton... that's gonna g0o down for sure. <33
saturday & sunday ---> i am probably working my lil' ass off again... but i can use the money.

ahhh organized my weekend. awesomeness. <33 goodnight. i hope everyone enjoyed their 4th of July. xoxo

leaving you with some lyrics from IT's OVER BY MEST.... <3333

But this keeps happening
Time and time again
You're thinkin' to yourself
She was your only friend

But you're so fucking wrong
That you're so fucking lame
You realize you're all the same

She looked at you and she said to your face
It's over, it's over
She's got a new man and it's time for you
To move over, move over
You're drunk and mad you wish that you
Were sober, were sober
Cause now you can't get it out of your head
That it's over, that it's over, that it's over
Cause it's over, it's over, it's over
And it's over, it's over, it's over

Tell them lies and they will believe you
When you're honest they will deceive you
If you love them they will just leave you
But if you play them they will stay with you

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playmate101

:: 2004 3 July :: 11.08pm
:: Mood: cold
:: Music: LoNeLY // Britney Spears

n now u're lonely, yet u still want me // Britney Spears
today ---> take a breath.
CrOss PoSTin' @ LJ CHEcK iT HuRR
... woke up @ 6:30a.m & dragged my happy self to work. its nice being up early f0r a change, juSs' goTz no1 ta talk ta.

w0rked 'til 3. mR. mIke didn't work 2day s0o he stopped in 2 say "hEy fucKerz". TheN i totally wenT t0 get carts. i took in a d0nut Load of carts. there was 8 of them... & showin' off my skillz ta the hot m0f0's that passed by... i pushed them all in. but the 0ld people that i passed were like, "little girl, that's too many." n i juSs smiled & continued pushing... fuckerz. lol. come on. stop underestimating my abilities as a midget. 4'11 & 3/4" grr. lol

i came home & napped big time. not used to being up early. but i woke up & called mr. j0nah cause he is a demanding guy & insisted that i find the phone a little faster. lol, uM... we taLked & then enDed up watcHin' "DRiVE ME CRAZY" w/ Melissa Joan Hart. c0ol beans. then.. the phone died, lmao AGAiN... like right before the movie ended. then i gotta call from jackie, talked to her for a bit, & then Alex called. was g0nna g0 out with her, but jb's lazy bum didn't wanna drive. grr. anyways...

i g0t ashley p's LetTer in THe mAiL 2day! hehe 2 stamps & a pointless letter lol. <333 i love u mucho. plus i'm forced t0 put this in here by her lol j/k ur the best. s0rta.. i top u. then uR 2nd haha. <333

here's 2 self expression. <------
i wanna like... idk, just change. i need change s0o badly... whether its a new desk cause i desperately need it... whether its new green contacts that i am supposed to get monday, whether its new clothes, a darker tan, another ear piercing, another collage, a new cd, a fudgin' car... ((which daddy PURCHASED, friday july 2nd *i'm scared its nothing special, but fuck, its a car)), a new diet idea, new comforter, new cheerleading clothes ((goin' 2 sports authority on Monday, but i waNNa look online)), etc... i just need change.

i'm in dying need of new color eyes & perfect skin. i'm working out more. 15o crunches, 5o leg lifts & 5o glute thingy ma bobbers, um.. 25 push ups (KiLLA! lol), & 2 routines 0f cheer legs (Kaila knows, but no1 else). plus i drink nothing but water... & sadly have two meals a day, followed by my one choice of a junky snack. but that's my routine. sickening if u ask me... but i am happy with my body, just not the peeling from tanning & the fuckin' face i have. lol sry. that's the reason f0r all the water. who knows what's gonna happen hoez!

anyways... i've gotta d0o laundry & head ta bed cuz i've gotta work @ 9a.m. <33

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boricuababy

:: 2004 2 July :: 11.25am
:: Mood: smiley
:: Music: 99 problems-Jay Z

wha do u think??
i re-did my woohu!!! i got bored..lol..as always..well my dadz gonna pick me up in awhile..so imma chill wid him and jon for tha weekend..i guess he wants to do a lil party for my brother's bday or sumthin..i havent really been gettin along wid him agen..wha elz is new??..den on sunday we leave..going camping..yesterday tha funniest thing happened to me..lol..at around 10-sh last nite..i went to tha back yard to take roxy out before i put her to bed and all..so yea..i was really dark..n she started barkin..so since it was kinda late i didnt want her making noise..ya kno??..so then stupid me..i went into tha grass to go get her..and by the way..im barefoot and in pjz..cuz i was juss bummin out and chillan..den a frog jumped on me..not those lil frogs that im scared of..but the freakin big ass frogs..toads..or wutever..lol..ok..yea so i freaked out..n screamed..lol..yea im deathly afraid of frogs..not kermit tho..lol meli..

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